When it come back

I need to take this again last nite

I noticed my shortness of breath came back on wednesday night.
But I just ignored it.
However it became worse on Thursday morning.
Shortness of breath, something seems like stuck at my throat or like choking that I need to cough to release it.
I just thought this is due to allergic reaction to anchovies and sardines.
But my friend reminded me about my past symptom for gastric and stress.
When I was at work it seems better.
But last nite and this morning it came again.
And definitely during my meeting with customer this morning and tonite.

Yup....due to stress and improper eating time.
Why???
Monday when my colleague ignore my instruction
Tuesday when I am packed with courses in the morning and managing the evaluation set for customer while my colleagues came in and out from my office asking everything  and later prepare documents for our workshop.
Wednesday when I joined the workshop and key in data and have to rush for very important meeting. And came back to join the workshop. Seriously I am really worried about that meeting when it concern an issue of my colleague with outsider 😭😭😭.
Thursday chasing my colleagues to submit docs and the diva just ignored my messages. And afternoon went to bank etc n attended a meeting to set proper work schedule for senior customer courses...the cross between request from one colleague and another colleague who just want what she wants...no compromise,discussed with the third boss regarding wednesday issue.

Sekali sekala

Ok dah luah.
Dah lega....
Sedapnya dapat makan maggi curry for brekky kan

Mimpi ler...
Stok dah habis
Tu gmbr last weekend.

Thank you very much

Thank you very much
for not following my instruction.
You know we got program and you chose not to come.
All this while we always consider your application.
So when we really IN NEED you chose to ignore us.
It shows how irresponsible and direspectful you are.

Thank you very much
For put in difficult situation
The frustation of dealing with colleague like you
And the sympathy to others who have to settle your part.
Where is the fairness in managing a unit?
Letting someone escape
And burdening others

Thank you very much
for burdening other people.
All of us struggling here
And you enjoying your one week getaway
It shows how selfish and stubborn you are.
ATTITUDE problem.
And guess what
Someone else is following you.
Worse
She chose to ignore me in front of others

ARE YOU HAPPY DURING YOUR GETAWAY?
ARE YOU HAPPY TREATING ME LIKE THIS?
ARE YOU HAPPY LETTING OTHERS DO YOUR WORK?

IF ONE DAY YOU NEED ME
IF ONE DAY YOU NEED US
WHAT WILL YOU DO?????

STOP BUYING OK!!!!

Semalam clearkan peti sejuk
Rasa nak nangis

Semua dah expired
Mint cadbury tu di airport mahalkan
Around RM29
Terkilan sangat
Itulah bila masukkan dalam bekas bertutup selalu terlupa.

Hari ni nak brekky
Cari kopi dah habis
Belek2 kitchen drawer
Jumpa

Pun expired 😭😭😭
Memang lupa nak ambil Ephyra
Haritu stop sekejsp coz I minum kopi directly after ambil Ephyra...
Suppose ada selang masa 1-2 hours to make it effective supplement.
Ephyra tu RM197/30 sachet.
So RM6.57/one sachet...rugi RM45.97 😭😭😭

Memang rasa menyesal sangat
I banyak membazir lately
Kalau makan/guna takpe
Ni tidak
Especially food and clothes

Beli coklat terlupa makan
Beli supplement pun lupa ambil
Luckily makanan yg dimasak yg dibeli kalau ada leftover I tak lupa

Beli baju tak selesa
Letak tepi
Tapi at least boleh beri pd org lain
Penyudahnya ulang pakai baju lama

So for 3 months
Sila puasa beli coklat/suplement/clothes.
Faham!!!

Psst...hari ni mandom jugak mcm semlm n kelmarin
Hanya gerak utk sapu downstair and machine/hand washing.
Takde mood nk kuar
Tapi dlm fridge hanya ada 2 keping cheese chicken nugget.
Maka terjadilah aglio olia with chicken slices 😅

The trip

What do you feel if you were on your way to airport, you suddenly realised that you forgot to bring your passport?

What do you feel if like a miracle you found your passport in your handbag but you did not get a nerve to check the expiry date?

And what do you feel in that chaotic moment you suddenly thought of visa that have yet to be applied?
Eh nak pi UK perlu visa ke? Rasa macam perlu...bukan macam NZ. How? So many things to think in that crucial moment...

And what do you feel when you managed to go through everything regardless so many doubt and obstacles?

And what do you feel when you are on the airport transport to the plane.....and your memory is up to that moment ????

Ok....ok....tak suka mimpi separuh ni tau. Awatlah mimpinya tak sampai Heathrow airport...then tgk Big Ben, dan esok berboxing day 😂😂😂😂. Tu la lenkali jgn tgk org lain tayang gambar shopping di Bicester village 😭😭😭.

Eh! Good morning everyone....
Jom brekky waffle...

Tapi sebelum tu dah menghadap

Banana fritters to leftover ya.
Hidup jangan membazir....
Tak membazir or kedekut 😅😅😅

Dah la tu...
Jgn sibuk berblog dan tonton christmas movie
Pilah kemas rumah
Basuh baju
Siapkan office work
Dan buat budget tahun depan !!!

Mengidam nasi vanggey

Bila tau ada 3 hari cuti, mood cuti tu lain macam. Liat betul nk bangun, nak kemas rumah etc. Seriously, my house is really in mess from downstair to upstair. Tapi bila bangun setakat cuci toilet je...then terbang ke korea dan berenang di lautan biru pula ... fahamkah 😂😂😂.

Tiba-tiba teringin nasi Vanggey Ipoh. Google sana sini...tapi idoklah pi Ipohnya. Pi beli nearby my house je...ada ayam goreng merah, kari telur ikan+bendi dan kuah campur....

Licin you...walaupun having lunch at 4.30pm 😂😂. Lunch or tea break???

Aku dan Cel###

Mula2 ambil plan first gold- 10GB for RM80
Tapi tak cukup.
So, Ogos16 ambil plan first platinum-20GB for RM150

Tapi, hujung okt16
😠😠😠😠
Plan first gold tukar ke 20GB
Plan first plantinum tukar ke 60GB
😠😠😠😠
I nak buat apa sampai 60GB?
Boleh carry forward 3GB je....
Rugilah RM70x12=RM840/YEAR.

Hari ini bila bayar bil terfikir nak tukar plan
Rugilah bayar mahal for unused data
Hmmm nk yg mana????
First gold-20GB, RM80
First gold plus-40GB, RM98
First platinum-60GB, RM150

Ambil 20GB takut tak cukup 😅😅
Better ambil 40GB
HMM....manusia tak pernah puas.

So bayar RM103 for RM98 plan.
Ambil resit dan blah
Masuk kereta dapat panggilan
Katanya silap
Check resit
I bayar untuk plan RM98
Tapi pada resit RM80
Pi celcom agent outlet
Staff nk pulangkan duit
Dan suruh I tukar plan after a month
Itu syaratnya kalau nak tukar plan
NO!!! Why I have to do that?
It was not my fault.
I want RM98 plan, not RM80
Buat muka bengang
Suara tegas
Tak berganjak
Dont ever mess with me
Fight for my right
Tiba-tiba...
Oklah saya buat
Eh!!! Boleh pulak tukar plan yg sepatutnyakan
Walaupun tak sampai sebulan 😂😂😂.

Sabar sabar

Well...it easier for you to say that
You are not the one who have to face it
In fact you are the one who mess my work
The first time is considerable
But not the second time

Last june we have to rearrange our work distribution
Due to their carelessness
So to settle it in one go
We asked them to make thorough check
We have reminded them not to repeat it again

Guess what...
Today they did it again 😠😠😠
It easier to give suggestions
Check the similarity
Or just use the similar one
Yes!!!
We can do that
But definitely
Once again we have make another work plan

The most irritating
Their customer is only a few compared to us
Is it so hard to monitor
If they want to make a new plan
Why not just in their unit?
Why involve our unit?
When we argue this
They said it their customer decision
Come on...
When we told them that they should be firm
They answered it is due to something else
Hello....
That something is also due to their carelessness for not checking properly
The most annoying
They did not admit their mistake
Did not feel guilty
Not even apologise
Hmm...they even gave synical comment for another discussion
Tak mau la gaduh2....

Ok dont worry
Be calm....
Biarlah orang nak buat apa
Biarlah orang menyusahkan kita
Biarlah orang aniaya kita
Believe that ....
What they did to us
They will get it back

Ok...jom dinner....
Dinner mengamuk 😅😅

Dapat free calendar you 😀

Busylah sangat

Konon semalam, sebaik sahaja tetamu meninggalkan rumah atound 10.15am I nak kemas rumah sikit dan siapkan kerja ofis.

Hmmm....kemas tu sikit sangat je....
Idok le kemas betul
Basuh baju tapi tak jemur
Dapur serabut
Sesudahnya dok berehat dan tenet je
Menjelang senja diarea lah pulak ...
Entahlah ....
Either due to this smoked salmon +poached egg for dinner

Or memang coz dh tersimpan lama sgt 😅
Or due to slimming pil.
Tapi I mkn pil tu pagi.
Setelah 3 bulan beli, ni baru kali ketiga I telan.
Tak tahan kat opis....
Gigil2 lutut keluar masuk toilet
Baru nk berdiri sakit perut lagi
Baru nak pegang tombol pintu, tak jadi keluar
Baru cuci tangan di sinki, sakit lagi
Baru nak keluar pintu utama, datang lagi 😂😂😂
Habis...bila nak buat kerja?
Kalau mesyuarat macam mana?

Ok back to my kerja opis
Around 9.30pm baru I jenguk till 1.30am
😭😭😭😭😭
Banyakkkkk nak buat
Perlu buka banyak fail dan update semua coz saling berkait
Sempat jugaklah terlepas perkataan yg tak sepatutnya 😅😅😅
I mean....bila ada yg sepatutnya memudahkan kerja I tapi dia tak update pun certain info
Kalau update pulak, tak buat properly, tak susun 😠😠😠

Marah diri sendiri juga
Awatlah buat last minute
Habih tu dah busy sangatkan
Bila lega sikit....
malam tak larat nak buat kerja
Then tak sihat pulak
Then ada guest pulak....
😂😂😂😂
Alasan kan......

Oklah ni sat gi kita sambung buat kerja ya
Sebelum tu having brekky while watching running man
Tapi mood sudah ganggu
Second boss nak buat meeting pagi
Tapi tiada memo atau emel makluman
Third boss pula tiba2 whatsapp beri hint dalam group
Cakap terus terang je lah kan
Kalau penting sangat
Awat minta last minute
Awat tak remind
I peduli apa...
I masih tak sihat
Perut i pun masih tak ok
So I nk dok rumah
Faham!!!!

Sleepy and Tiring weekend

Salam Malidur Rasul

After 5 days full of screaming, crying and laughter now I back to my normal quiet life. Definitely I feel empty but at the same time I feel relief ...I got my house back...😂😂😂. Welcome back my hidden fragile decoration 😁😀😀.

On saturday morning I just tried my luck asking for ETS ticket to Penang.

"Hari ni habis"

"Esok 9 malam je"

Nak pi theme park tak larat nak drive coz I am still not feeling well.
Nak pi piknik di kawasan air terjun or tepi sungai, macam bahaya pula di musim hujan ni. Risau juga dgn penyakit kencing tikus etc.

So....
We didnt go anywhere...we just stayed at home and sleep and eat in this gloomy weather. Eh!! We did go out to buy food or to had dinner...

For lunch today I had the leftover rice and chicken rendang...

Tu terung kampung kasi rebus empuk, kurangkan air dan campur dengan rendang....sodap!!!

Oklah nak jemur blanket etc dan nak buat keroje ofis.

GEGAR dan PECAH

Sambil bergegar dengan rakaman....

Dan kagum dan adakalanya segan melihat tahap keselambaan mek tu...

Apa kata kita pecahkan ....

Bukan pecahkan ruyung ek....
Tapi pecahkan

How???
1. Read all 5 lines.
2. Check line 4: Meaning 7, 3, 8 are not in the code
3. Check line 5: since 7 and 8 are not in the code, so only 0 is correct. But at wrong place.
4. Check line 3: 0 is there but wrong place. So the correct place is as the first column.
5. Check line 3 again: there is another number either 2 or 6. But 6 cant be the correct number since line 1 and line 2 is contradict.
6. Check line 1: it is confirmed 2 is the correct number at the third column
7. So now need to find the number in second column.
8. Check line 2: either 1 or 4? Definitely not 1 since stated that the correct number is at wrong place.
9. So...042 😀

Tu cara malas fikir.

Kalau rajin fikir boleh je start dari line 1
Definitely not 6 kan since contradict line 2
Definitely not 8 based on line 4.
So betullah 2 at third column.

Go to line 2
Either 1 or 4. But stated the correct number is at wrong place. Thus, definitely the correct number at second column is 4.

Go to line 3.
Two numbers are correct.
Based on previous observation, Cant be 6.
So only 2 and 0 are left.
But 2 suppose to be in the third column.
The only available column for 0 is the first column
Finally you got 042 without even use info from line 5 😁.

I am sure ada lagi cara yg mudah dan pantas.

Exercise pagi sabtu

Lapar sangat
Sebelum pi briskwalk
Kita brekky dulu

Bila brekky dan duduk di sofa
Macam tak lengkap
Switch on tv
kita tonton legend of the blue sea sekejap ek.

Eh!!!
Food dah habis
Tapi drama ni best sangat tak boleh stop
Sekian kisah exercise pagi sabtu 😂😂😂

Rezeki pagi jumaat

Wah...rezeki jangan ditolak.

Memula my staf hulurkan ini

Ada paru dan sotong.
Then my colleague beri ini.

Alhamdulillah.....

Hari ni memang macam2.
I janji nk jumpa my junior customer pukul 8.30am.
Sedar-sedar dah 8.24am
Kalut....
Whatsapp customer beritahu lewat
Lari ke atas ambil baju yg x perlu gosok
Mandi n bersiap
Ada pulak yg call suruh ganti third boss utk perasmian
Sorry I am busy
Tak sempat brekky
Just grab susu kotak
And rush to the office
Alhamdulillah..sampai office before 9am.

Listen to whatever my customer got to say
Bring him to see the third boss
She will forward the issue to the related party

Around 9.20am
Rushing for discussion with my super senior customer
Tu la...
Kerja last minute
Membebankan I
Memang suara tinggi l
Ko pening kenapa?
Dah buat apa yg orang suruh ...memanglah tu makannya

I got another meeting at 10.
Definitely I was late 20mins for that
It is ok
Yg penting inform them earlier
Pun mendatangkan marah
Bodoh sombong
Dan ketegakk
Buatlah ko exercise turun naik 😂😂
Lepas tu....
Hah...saja uji 20 min
Baru akai ada...

12++ kalut lunch di ofis
Buka laptop nk key in something
Dokumen pula tinggal di rumah
So kena balik la...

3pm appoitment with suprr senior customer
Hmm...dalam pada dok berdiskus
Nak pulak my colleague terlibatkan
Sempat ko nk look down on me
Tak boleh salahkan juga
I guess my senior colleague dah hasut.
Whatever ....

Dalam pada tu my lawyer called me
Perlu sign certain doc
Second call..ada figure salah pulak
Ok fine...monday then

After 3.30pm
Sibuklah kira sana sini
Alhamdulillah by 5pm settled and submitted

Tapi dalam pada tu dok deal with my PA
And Cari food for next week event
Melayan customer yg beri jemputan
Hmm...mulut kena ramah
Otherwise we wouldnt know their problem

Then melayan my colleague psl surat pulak
Baiki here and there
Waiting for her to make correction till 5.30

Then rushing to the cafe
Arranging something for my customer
By 6.15pm I am already home
Alhamdulillah...
Malam ni rehat

Fight for my right ...

I have been stressed for these 3 weeks. It was so exhausting and upsetting when dealing with certain people who do not understand what I have been facing....the cross between providing the best for my customer and the burden when other party could not manage and solve their problem properly and bring us into their mess. Anyway...everything is settled today...Alhamdulillah. I feel grateful for having very supportive and understanding officer, colleague, and staff.

What I learnt ....
I must fight for my right to the end....
I must have the data and supporting info
Whatever it is bring it into discussion.
Keep on praying and believing....
Thing happens for a reason
After all the drama, we got something even better

Well...that was a part of what happened today
This morning I was totally blank on how to make 10 years projection. The example given by other department seems ridiculous and there is huge different with the real data in the system. I did not even understand the calculation method used by my friend....stress ...check here and there for 2 hours gor nothing....maka pi beli food for lunch.

After lunch, kalut print bahan for the controversial meeting 😅😅😅. Then teringat nk call my customer. Bila call...terkejut his mum answered the phone 😅😅. Even more surprised when his mom complained why his son didnt get the financial aid. They comes from poor family and the father is sick. A bit serba salah when the mother seems wanna cry. So, I tried to contact the customer....hmm..no response. Finally I asked his friend to ask him to contact me. Alhamdullillah he is not in trouble as the mother told me. That remind me of my junior customer...so need to contact them. Tapi lupa. Tiba2 malam ni one of them contacted me about the fund. Wah....ada telepathi....same wave tonite  😁.

Eh..jom ratah daging goreng kunyit

Lauk yg dibeli last saturday 😂😂😂

Macam Mati laki

Yes....
That word....is so mean and rude.
I didn't know how to react?
Shock, Angry or sad?

Even her intention is good
She stopped by to see me
She cared about it...
Wondering why did I look so upset in yesterday meeting ...
But that was not an excuse to say hurtful word

Yes she is honest
and just being frank
But why so bold?

The umbrella

So funny people nowadays....
Who do you think am I?

Just because that umbrella
I am easily go out and have a drink with you?
Why bother sending appreciating message for supporting the company when I am not even dealing with you?
I went to their office yesterday
He has already said everything
So why bother to send message just 40minutes after the meeting?
Definitely I smell something fishy...

Mengemis demi....

Well...yes...I feel like a beggar
Just for the sake of my customer
When the so called facility became a burden
I have been facing this problem since tuesday last week

I am tired of giving justification
I am sick of ....
- listening to their excuses, from one to another
- when people do not understand
- When certain people who suppose to clear this issue just keep quiet
- when my colleague do not support me
- when one of them even said instead of I menyalak, sebaiknya I cari alternative
- hello...why need an alternative when the thing is available
- When the second boss just follow their ridiculous suggestion
- being like a kicking ball...
- when another party just gave suggestion and not a short term urgent solution

Hello !!!!!!!!
I need urgent solution
Not an increasing burden

I was so stressed yesterday
I was so dissapointed with  all these
I am too upset that I cried

Hmm...you wanna deny my right?
My customer right?
I am sure ada balasannya !!!
One for deny our right
Second making excuses due to their own problem.
Apapun I will fight for it.

Semalam teringat satu bukti to support my justification
Dah mlm ni baru teringat cari
From inbox, to trash to all mail
After several keyword....
Finally I found it...alhamdulillah
Allah answered my prayers....

So you just wait and see...
Or I may make a report to the top mgt
That representative just waiting the greenlight from me....

Lauk kampung

Semalam tiba2 teringin nk mkn lauk kg.
Sanggup ku drive ke pekan walaupun dah lewat tengahari

Dah petang barulah nk kemas tongkang pecah.
Oklah nak jemur kain
Nk bersiap pi kerja

Semua begitu

Bila ada event
Rasa diketepikan
Pelik protokol gitu
Nanti orang atasan kata I tak beri sokongan
Padahal I x dijemput untuk bersama mereka
Mahupun mengiringi atasan
Pandai-pandailah bawa diri sendiri pi event

Kawan yg konon sesama senasib
Alih2 buat hal sendiri
Tak ajak pun join aktiviti customer
Kalau pagi dok berwhatsapp bagai
Kenapa tidak maklumkan
So again....I ni kan tak support customer
Yelah nanti I steal her spotlight 😅😅

Cruncy and juicy

Someone gave this to me yesterday

Alhamdulillah...thank you
Sweet, crunchy and juicy 😋
Sometimes mmg tak sangka
People are so sweet
Rezeki jangan ditolak
Jika tidak memerlukan
Maka, dipanjangkan
Tu kata2 yg viral dalam FB dalam seminggu ni

Tu yg happy ...
Alkisahnya semlm sesuatu terjadi
Maybe my boss was very busy that he didnt reply my message nor approve my application.
Tak boleh nak marah
Just myself to be blamed due to last minute work.

Petang memang penat buat kerja teknikal
Malam tidur awal
Kuatkan hati bangun 1-4 am
I have tried..
But so many things to do.
Worse...
The more I prepared,
the more I feel I know nothing...
Finally I gave up

I feel regret
I feel useless
I should be strong and finish it
I still have time....
But mentally and physically I am so tired
So after a long day today
So time to relax tonite

Sijil yg hilang

Finally my paperwork is completed around 6pm yesterday. Thus, I can proceed to apply for something. I can't....I didnt know how....I tried so many times. Then, I noticed the statement that I have yet to submit the report for previous programme 😠😠😠.

Oklah...just do it....

Just filled in everything needed

Create here and there

Google something...

Called my friend...

Done!!!

But the final step they need the certificate 😭😭😭

Dont panic

Search it my office...no where to be found

Search it at my old office...negative.
Where is it???
Think
Think
Ok maybe in it's bag at the upstairs utility room at my home

The moment I reach home, I rushed to the room
Only the lanyard in the bag 😭
Ok...search it at the book rack...negative
Looking for it in the box in front of the book rack..nothing
Try to find it in the box at the living room..none

Ok.. rehat je la
Esok pi ofis awal...cari lagi

Pagi ni cari lagi di book rack..memang taklah
Why not selongkar kotak depan book rack sekali lagi
Selongkar poket fail juga.....
Rasa keras....
Nak nangis...
Alhamdulillah...I found it.

Pengajaran...
Lenkali dapat terus buat
Bukan dah setahun baru nk buat
Padanlah muka kan
Hopefully there is no drama again today
O..Allah please ease my day...in whatever I do...

Duit raya Duit Domino

What a hectic day today.
Short appointment with customers.
It should be started at 8.30am
But they only came 9.04am
Not even apologized for that
Tak pasal2 kena basuh

Kalut pulak pi meeting 9am
Selamba je org tak dtg meeting
Dan keluar meeting

After 12.30pm kalut baiki plan for next year
Penat buat
Tapi tangan ghaib mana pi kacau daun
Kena buat semula 😠😠
Dituduhnya kita yg memandai
Hello i ada bukti hokay

Akibatnya lambat masuk meeting petang
Sampai kena panggil
Pelik makhluk tertentu ni macam dengki dengan our department
Pandai2 buat calculation sendiri
Dengki ek

Tak cukup dengan tu
Ada department beri very small percent income to us
Yg lain dia sapu
Tapi mana pi income bhg dia
Jika byk kos kami yg tanggung

Tak pasal2 ada projek yg perlu dihentikan
Sedih la
My senior penat plan dan buat
Akhirnya terpaksa dihentikan

Habis meeting, buat report pasal kes tengahari pula
Dok sibuk dengan tugas begini
Bilalah nak buat kerja lain
Paperwork tak siap
Nak pi seminar belum apply 😭😭😭

Balik dah lewat petang
Mehlah order pizza
Cukupkah duit???
Yeay !!! Ada penyelamat
Teringat pasal lebihan duit raya yg baru ditemui weekend baru ni

Byk gak rupanya
Ada RM180+RM25
👀💰💰💰💰😁

Yg penting boleh ngap

Bolat !!!

Semalam terserempak dengan my friends.
Lelakilah
Memula I tak dengar apa dia cakap
Lepas tu katanya lama tak jumpa....

.......gemukkan...
Awat? Pasal pegang jawatan tu ka?
Selalu meeting?
Stress la...
Owh...ingatkan masa meeting dok makan banyak
Takla jadi dot dot...stress la...makan banyak.
Tu la dulu DAH BOLAT, ni MAKIN BOLAT

You see apa yg mampu buat
Senyum je la
Walaupun bengang
Dok cakap makin bolat satu hal
Dok sampaikan macam ia satu masalah dunia dua hal
Dok cakap depan customer tiga hal....

Balik, konon tak mau dinner
Tapi I reheat my pasta
Followed by 😅😅😅

Acik pi pasar

Amboi tajuk kemain lagi ko 😅😅😅
Disebabkan acik ada sedikit insaf
Maka acik pi morning walk dulu
Then nyinggah pi beli brekky

Nasi kerabu and gulai ikan tongkol

Then off I went to the market

Untuk orang malas masak ni je I beli

Kejap je lebih RM40 melayang
Nasi kerabu RM7...memang mahal
Tempeh and veges RM11
Petai RM3
Tempoyak RM3
Cili api RM1
Terung kg RM2
Buah mangga RM8.00
Epal RM4.40
Dokong RM3

Balik ...makan dulu
Clean the fridge
Kemas dapur
Sapu porch
handwash my clothes 2 longgok
Sempat terlelap gak tu 😅😅😅

Food and Massage

Yup...the title is correct
Alkisahnya semalam I pi beli food

Haha tamak lauk kan
On my way back to my car terpandang kedai yg menawarkan khidmat reflexology and massage.

Since I am suffering from neck and back pain I just opted for shoulder massage and foot reflexology but ended up with body massage as well...easily got influence 😅😅😅. Oklah 1.5 hours...hari jumaat kan rehat pjg.

Balik ofis makan laju2, solat, minta my staff remind the boss and submit our customer's paperwork. Kalut pulak pi legal firm. Adoi byk term I x faham. Semoga dipermudahkan. But  I was surprised to hear that the other party expect to get the money on that day. Maka dalam hujan kalut I ke sana ke mari. Mengagau I transferred the money via maybank atm machine. Memang tak cukup lah...lari ke Bank Islam to withdraw my tbh saving...Lari semula ke maybank. Adoi cash deposit machine bukan boleh masuk sekaligus...Maksimum 100 keping kan. Jenuh dok masuk keluar duit....tukar 3 machine, traksaksi sampai 4...Apapun Alhamdulillah it was settled.

Makan besau lagi

Dah siangnya
sibuk ya amat,
memenatkan,
menyakitkan hati,
Maka for dinner kita hadap

Sambil tonton apatuh....7 hari mencintaimu....
Terkejut gak dah naik harga kot
Biasa that menu costs me around RM30, lepas tu RM35...ni yg terbaru RM40. Padahal ikan tu tak sebesar biasa.

Lepas tu konon nak tidur sekejap jam 9pm
Sedar2 dah 5.40 am...
Maka, hari ini banyak la kejar pelbagai due date

Bila mesyuarat

Ya...
Bila mesyuarat
Selalunya orang yang sama datang lewat
Selamba je
Tanpa rasa bersalah
Biasanya bila pergi mesyuarat atasan
Kami yang perlu tunggu the boss
Ni the opposite

Biasanya bila pergi mesyuarat atasan
Selagi mesyuarat tak habis jangan harap ko nak makan
Ni tak, makan tanpa dijemput
Tu oklah...
They really hungry
Tapi tak fikir at least tanyalah dulu
Bukan sekali, tapi banyak kali berlaku
Kalau ada 2 kali meal pun gitu
Siap duduk berehat di sofa selepas makan
Musykil I
Ni meeting ke jamuan

Yg paling I hairan
No one bothers about me
Sama ada bau food kuatkah
I pun laparkah
Not even people who sit beside me
Not even people who seems kind enough
Or those who got super power common sense

Guess what last time I chaired another meeting
I am really touched when one of the meeting commitee served the food for me
Why I was like that?
She is my senior
She held a deputy director post.
And yet she didnt think about herself and her position
That was why she got the food for me
Memang ada consideration
Yelah takkan ko sedap melantak
Tak toleh kiri kanan
Tapi orang hanya dapat bau dan tengok je

Look....
I love all my colleagues
except those who super fussy, selfish and rude
But...sometimes it so sad on how they treat me

The parcel

After the stressful afternoon
After tidying up n cleaning the downstairs...
Suddenly I heard motorbike honk and my door bell
The moment I saw that funny and chatter box guy
Seriously???
So quick....
I received this .....

Yeay....
What a therapy 😅😅😅.

Dah beri betis nak peha

I am not feeling well and having neck pain since sunday evening. So I decided to take a leave and rest today. Since I really need fresh air, so off I went for a brisk walking this morning. Later, I had brekky...nasi lomak+paru+sambal sotong.

Macam-macam I rancang nak buat. Tapi sedar2 terbaring di sofa 😅😅😅 until 11am.

Tiba-tiba I got messages from other unit. Kami dah setuju buat perubahan utk customer mereka, nak demand lebih pulak. Dah beri betis nak peha atau belanda minta tanah??? Tak sesuai apanyer. Itu standardkan. Unit lain, department lain ok je. Ikut je la apa yg kami tawarkan. Dah tak sesuai ikut selera ko, tak payah guna. Kami lagi suka, kurang beban. Kami pun terima je apa yg unit lain tawarkan. Terus mood hilang....konon nak rehat jadi stress.

This particular unit mmg selalu tak sedar diri. Dulu, mengata dan mengutuk apa yg kami tawarkan. Konon not up to their standard, so nak keluarkan dari pakej. Alih2 tak jadi kerana apa yg kami tawarkan antara asas dalam pakej mereka. Hah! Jilat ludah tu semula 😅😅😅😅.

Update 4.30pm:
As expected they stand with their decision in fact modify the document that I have prepared for their own sake. And that a bit different from what actually had happened previously. So, I discussed with the relevant committee in my unit, we decided to just stick with what we have suggested. We came out with two main justification. Take it or leave ot. And pls dont mess with us. And my noon just wasted because of them.

Kongsi bahan

Baru selesai mesyuarat
Pegawai kata Data excel kami lengkap
Maka unit lain patut ikut
😅😅😅
Tak sia2 penat perah otak nak letak komponen apa
Yang penting lengkap dan memudahkan semua
Malah format boleh dikongsi bersama

Kalau tidak silap meeting sebelum ini pun begitu
The officer interested with our appointment letter
Therefore she suggested that the whole department to use it
Tak sia-sia I bincang dgn my PA dan semak byk kali

Feel proud that our effort is appreciated
The most important we can share with others
Sharing is caring 😁😀😀😀

Boss Vs Leader

Semalam ada meeting pagi petang
Maka semua kerja yg dirancang tak siap
Petang I serabut sangat
I duduk bersila
I sort all documents 😅

Pulak tu ada pelbagai customer yg datang
Macam2 kes

Ada banyak courses, awatlah tak ambil yg utama
Tak tahu, ada mulut tanyalah
Kami dah assign person in charge, tp tak mau jumpa
Akibatnya kami yg pening

Ada customer unit lain
Pun nak ambil apa yg kami tawarkan
Peninglah...
Nanti my colleague mengamuk
Yelah customers ramai dan susah nak handle

 from 12.40-2.10 ada customer lain
Nak tanya pasal their project dll
Yg bagusnya macam2 dia terlibat
His still young
Tapi misi dia dah nmpk
Pandai seimbang semua benda
Bijak cari peluang
Malah terlibat dgn ngos
Siapa mengata his friends tak tahu beza boss vs leader
Gulp....
Aku pun tak pasti
So aku google malam tadi 😂😂😂

Oklah nk bersiap pi kerja
Today ada meeting lain
Ada appointment dgn new customer
Bunyi nya mcm problematic
Dan nk kemas ofis lagi

Mahal

Biasanya my lunch costs less that RM5
Semalam RM8
Mahal kan

Tapi tengoklah lauk
Ada ikan bakar
Ada sambal terung
Ada kerabu manga
Nak makan sedap
Nak makan pelbagai lauk
Memanglah kena bayar mahal
Tu pun nk kecoh

Rimas

Memula nk buat kursus
Tak cakap apa
Bila tau waktu cuti
Gedik minta tukar tarikh

Memula minta twin sharing
Then gedik minta single room konon nk bawa famili
Orang lain jadi mangsa kena bayar utk single room juga
Alih2 tak jadi bawa famili
Memanng nyusahkan orang
Then konon tak nak pi pula
Alahai awat selfish sangat
Ko ingat senang ke nk cancel last minute
Ko ingat ko sape?
Asyik kami je nak ikut kata ko
Bila ikutkan, tak jadi pula
Ada ko minta maaf?
Ko tak rasa bersalah?

Orang benci

Apa ke halnya terjaga awal pagi
Logikla...penat sangat dan tidur awal
Bukannya nk solat tahajud ke
Tapi pi jenguk instagram

Tiba2 teringat pengalaman 12 tahun dulu
Rasa dah pernah cerita
Whateverlah...
I pi kursus
Tengah beratur nk makan
Then ada peserta lelaki terus ambil pinggan
Macam nk potong line
I cakap "hah beratur"
Niat I nak gurau je
Alih2 dia membebel marah2
"Sabarlah, semua orang lapar"
Malu giler I
Peserta lain dok pandang2
I nk gurau je
Kalau iya pun ayat I kasar
Perlukah marah2
Malukan I
Siapa yg tak sabar sebenarnya
Dah lah lelaki...
Cepatnya sentap

Ada sekali tuh masa tea break
Adalah peserta perempuan duduk berdua
I joined them
Bila them ambil food
Them duduk tempat lain
Sedih dan malu lahai
Tapi I tetap makan cucur badak kot sampai habis 😂😂😂

Then masa sesi kenali peserta
Setiap peserta perlu duduk tgh bulatan
Dan menghadap soalan peserta lain
Bila turn orang lain
Soalan tak putus2
Sampai ada yg berebut2
Bila I dah di tengah
Takde sape yg nk tanya soalan
Ya Allah malu giler
Asalnya malu ke tengah
Terus rasa malu
dan terhina bila tiada yg tanya soalan
Senyap sunyi
Hening
Memang I nak nangis
Bila I nk pergi, mereka tak kasi
Agaknya my friend kesian dia tanya soalan
Pasal Nilai3
Hahaha I pun tak tahu kewujudan pasar borong tuh masatuh
Then peserta lelaki tanya pasal adat pepatih
Idok le teman tahu
Pengetahuan I setakat belajar sejarah je la

Apa yg I nampak
Tiada siapa yg berminat nk tau pasal I
And orang pun tak suka I
Otherwise people do not make any nasty remark just because I made a joke
Apalah sangat I dah buat sampai orang benci
Padahal I ni senyap je kot melainkan jumpa org sekepala
Muka sombong kot 😅😅😅
Kena pakai aura seri ni 😀😀😀
Yg penting muhasabah diri
Nowadays tak tahulah ...
I mean kok ada activity gitu
Mungkinkah I akan tercongok malu juga 😅
Baik tarik diri dari kursus 😂😂

Rezeki kita panjangkan

Semalam I beli nasi dan gulai ikan tongkol

Tiba-tiba Tauke kedai sedekah beberapa ketul kuih kaswi
rezeki jangan ditolak
ambil je la walaupun lebihan sarapan pagi

Tiba2 dia tanya
Nak lagi tak
Ada banyak lagi
Lebihan  catering majlis minum pagi
Sayang nak buang
Terkejut I tengok
Kaswi suku tray
Dan popia setengah tray
Ambil je la
Boleh panjangkan kepada orang lain
Rezeki saya
Rezeki mereka juga
Happy melihat senyuman dan tanda penghargaan org yg menerima
Semoga tauke kedai murah rezeki

Ketua vs Kuli

Sometimes I am confuse
Who am I?
Ketua atau kuli?
Kalau ketua kenapa kerjanya dok remind orang

Seriously I am sick with certain people
Why I have to remind them so many times?

Certain thing can be done right away
And it just take around 5 mins to update it
So why just keep quiet
Discuss semalam
Hari ni masih tak dapat

Certain things are already in the folder
Is it hard to find them and send email to all?
I asked for it last month
And again maybe last week
And again this afternoon
Guess what until now
Nothing in my inbox

Certain people are very calculative in doing work
When it benefit them in term of career or work performance, they will do it right away even though they are on leave
Otherwise they tend to ignore any email or instruction
Hah...buat-buatlah tak nampak
Pasti ada balasannya
Life is a cycle dont forget that

You see today was really exhausting and hectic
My assistant confuse with the term updating and translating 😠😠😠
Pulak tu tak save the original file
Maka, menyusahkan diri sendiri  dan orang lain
Akibatnya took time to submit it

Then, Updating upcoming activities
I have sent to the officer,
tiba2 ada yg baru nak update info 😠😠

Next, Attending meeting

People asking for data...
Kalau nak cepat cakap je la
Ni pi tanya camna ya
Hah!! Kena sound lah kau

Then, planning for colleague-customer
Berpinau mata playing with the data in the system
Tu pun terlepas satu
Minta my staff semak dan tambah info
Tapi dia x semak 😠😠😠
Jenuhlah nk cakap satu-satu

After lunch sambung meeting
😱😱😱 so many things to do
Pity them
But why certain people didnt do their work properly?
Asal ada huh???
Ada ramai members
Takkan tak perasan
Pulak tu ada pulak yg dh dlm waktu terdesak ni
Demand macam2
Haritu korang buat apa

Ada lagi data lain perlu dicari
Biasalah remind byk kali
People couldnt be bothered
Dah la my assistant prepared bhn entah apa2
Si pemberi maklumat ada yg senyap sunyi
Ada yg tak beri data
At last I yg kena buat 😠😠😠

Bila balik mengadaplah yesterday leftover 😅😅

Bengkak mata

Huish membazir ayaq mata je
Teriak sampai bengkak mata
Sampai hidup tersumbat
Susah nak bernafas
Penyiksaan selama 10 minggu
Alih2 gitu je ending Scarlet Heart
Mereka tak bertemu di dunia baru???
Oklah nak tidur awal
Cheq keciwa tau !!!

Brekky and Horror Movie

Good morning...
Done my 6 km morning walk.
And now I am having my breaky and watching recorded The Ring 2.

Siapakah?

Tadi I dah tidur before 10pm
Terkejut bila dengar panggilan telefon
Dalam keadaaan terpisat-pisat saya jawab
Macam suara lelaki tua

Me: Hello
Dia: Ya ada apa?
Me: Ha...(confuse)
Dia: Siapa ni?
Me: Eh! Ni siapa....
Dia: Tadi no ni ada call.
Me: Hah! ...tertekan kot, saya dah tidor tadi
Dia: Ni kat mana?
Me : ya...(luckily I tak cakap)
Dia: Sarawak ke?
Me: eh tak...oklah...(terus I letak phone hahaha)

I ingatkan wrong number.
I rasa dah beberapa kali orang call cari lelaki
Terbaru on 26 okt macam remaja cari lelaki nama R
Tapi bila I checked my hp log, I terkejut

Siapakah???
Jika panggilan 13 minit dan 3 minit tak mungkin wrong number...
Memory lost 😅.
Baru 3 hari tuh 😰😰.
Memanglah 26-27 okt hari yg sangat kritikal dan kalut
Tapi takkan tak ingat lansung.
Semoga Allah kuatkan ingatanku.

Update:
I masih rasa I didnt receive any call on 26 okt.
Cuba tengok masa tu 20.09pm.
Bila I checked my whatsapp...
20.08-20.10  I sedang berwhatsapp dengan my friend
So bila masa pula I pick up that 20.09 call....
Misterilah
Harap bukan scam atau orang guna my hp num.
Semoga Allah jauhkan saya dari perkara yg memudaratkan.

Update 30 okt 5.40pm:
Penatlah perah ramas otak
Haha...baru teringat
On 26 okt tu my PA yg call
Dia tak boleh bantu on 27 okt
Due to family matters
Not sure whose number is that
Her second number or
Maybe belong to her father
Adoi la....lega
Idok le makcik stress
Dan terseksa

You will never walk alone

That is just a song
In reality I do walk alone
I have to walk alone
When I asked my friend to join me for a brisk walk
She couldnt do so, she had to entertain her guests
When I asked my friend to play badminton with me
She preferred not to join
When I asked my family to go out for lunch
They gave so many excuses

And today ....
Once again I have to walk alone

But it is ok
Do not let that become a problem
Just enjoy the view
And be grateful with what I have

I was craving for nasi lemak
But yup...nasi lemak during weekend is a hot selling brekky...definitely sold out
Thus meat pie is good enough for me

And do not forget to buy lots of ice cream for this weekend

Stay Up

Alamak dah 4.39am.
Jomlah tidur.
Ngantukkkkk
Dok membuat perancangan
dan menyediakan kertas cadangan dari 10pm
Tapi manalah nak tidur cukupnya
9am ada mesyuarat 😭😭😭
Tapi kertas cadangan belum siap lagi
Fighting 💪💪💪💪

Selasa yg kalut

Minggu lepas
Memang sibuk memanjang
Sebelum balik
Singgah Pizza Hut pi tapau

Prawn Tempura and spageti bolognese
Sambil menikmati that food
Sambil membalut

Esoknya mintalah orang tolong angkat
Tapi tunggu punya tunggu tak sampai
I angkut sorang my bag dan barang2 tu
Dah nampak I terkial2 barulah terhegeh2 nak bantu
Too late
I am strong when I am hurt
Tulah kan...
Alih2 ko dapat gak kan
walaupun ko buat tak tahu
Lepas tu dah tegur pun
Boleh blah gitu je
Beri alasan
Ucapan maaf jauh sekali

The day ...

The day has come last friday...
Yes 21 october to be exact...
Not properly
But I tried slowly

I thot by doing that
I will change to be better person
Be more patient
Be kind to others
Unfortunately ....
I felt anxious the whole day
I even raised my voice to my customer
My condition got worse by headache
And felt nauseous
Several times I was breathless
Maybe I got choked by my attire 😅
That I have to loosen it....

Got angry easily
Just the normal me
But why this time so fast
Why I cant talk and explain nicely
Once I arrived home...
Huh...not a surprise
My twin just came 😅😅😅

And today when I was about to go out
I almost forgot something ....
Once I remembered it
Deep inside my heart
My inner voice said don't do it
I should do it when I am really ready
But my mind said I have to be strong
As expected it is not easy ...

Anyway ...
I really in love with this juara panjang 😁

Pic from google

I have been eyeing it for quite some time
Hmm...reward for myself?
But what color?
Can't decide yet....
Guess what?
If you know where to find it
You can get about Myr700 less

Best pulak dengar lagu2 lama di Gegar Vaganza
I memang suka Rem
I memang suka lagu Kenny Remy Martin
Tapi I sokong Siti Sarah ...

Tersebar

Bila data tersebar
Maka golongan yg selalu dapat peluang senyap
Kerana nama mereka ada dlm rekod
Bukan hanya dpt satu peluang
Tapi byk kali

Yang tak dapat peluang
Macam aku
Terkejut
Tak sangka
Sampai begitu ketidakadilannya
Bila disuarakan
Buatlah perbincangan
Untuk atasi isu berat sebelah
Tiada yg beri respon
Bila mengadu pd rakan
Dia senyap
Patutlah
Dia pun dalam senarai tuh

Yang dapat peluang sedikit
Menyarankan
Buatlah sesuatu
Tak salah kongsi

Nak buat guano
Sistem yg buat org jadi selfish
Tak fikir orang lain
Tapi bukankah sistem tu dibuat manusia???

Update sabtu:
Petang semalam
Berborak dgn yg dapat sikit
Katanya yg terbaru dia tak dapat customer
Memanglah, sebab kebetulan customer tu cancel
Memang dah suruh my staff arrange utk dapatkan pengganti
Mungkin dia tak buat lagi
Apapun kena semak semak semua dan semak semula
Tapi bila dah tengok data tuh
Ada yg tak pernah dapat
So kena beri pada mereka juga
Nampak tak
Selain selfish
Manusia jadi tamak

Hari macam-macam

Pagi tadi kalut pi ofis
Update fail untuk audit coz ada dokumen yg I tak masukkan
Then baru perasan ada borang yg I tak isi
Perlu tandatangan boss pulak tu 😭😭
Ok relax....isi je la, then harap boss ada untuk sign

Then kalut pi meeting
Biasalah....
Orang-orang degil
Dah suruh lengkapkan semua info
Tapi buat2 tak faham
Padahal ini bukan pertama kali
Dah ingatkan melalui email dan whatsapp
Buat2 tak perasan pulak 😠😠
Menyusahkan I buat permohonan ke pihak lain
Dah la mereka tu no kompromi 😠

Habis meeting dah ada customer tunggu depan bilik meeting
Then dok mengekor I to my office
Come on lah
Use your common sense
Nampak I penat kan
Kot iya pun berilah I duduk dulu
Dan simpan dokumen

Then I checked next year plan
Update here and there
Alhamdulillah managed to submit it to the main office before noon
But it is only temporary happiness....
Around 3.30 pm I received an email ...there are changes in certain amount
Lantaklah...tak kuasa nk update dan baiki
Tahun depan je la 😂😂😂

Sambil tu penatlah remind another group untuk hantar dokumen yg due today...
Biasalah jadi kuli call sana sini as reminder
Orang kata hantar before 10.30am dia nak hntr 12.30pm...
Pasal orang lain...plan I jadi caca marba
Then I dapat tau this mamat bukannya nak utamakan dokumen yg I minta tapi sibuk buat benda lain 😠

Dah dapat kumpul semua dokumen
Barulah hantar pada officer
Lesson learnt
Any important doc should have pengesahan hantar dan terima 😁

Dah alang-alang tu pi jumpa S/u boss regarding paper work on a related to career development workshop.
Pulak kena reject
Kena baiki

One of the officer wanna see me
I told him that I am in a hurry to the bank
But he wanna discuss regarding available vacancy
I want two posts they only approved one post
Kejam!!!
Tak adil!!!
My unit is more  in need compared to others.

Sampai bank
The officer was entertaining two customers
The moment they walked away I rushed to her table
Tiba2 ada lady pi potong line

Once I got the opportunity to talk with her
She said that her husband is waiting for her to have lunch together
I minta bank payment table pun dia tak mau beri
Cuma katanya lower rate for those who got saving at the bank

Then off I went to the commisioner for oaths office
Alamak 5 mins before the lunch hour end
So dok diam2 dlm kereta
Sambil mkn french fries kfc

Tiba2 my colleague call psl the workshop
Yg nk tarik diri di saat akhir tu
Tak boleh nk kata apalah
Walaupun hati sakit
Ni yg tergedik2 nak tukar ke single room
Habis tu how about yg sorang lagi
Takkan dia nk tanggung kos single room
Just becoz ada yg nk tukar dari twin sharing room

Speechless the moment the clerk told me that the officer has passed away
Then she suggested for me to go to magistrate court.
Once I arrived there my jaw dropped when reading the notice that commisioner is on maternity leave.
So I have to go to somewhere else ....
Ok jangan stress...senyum je la
Kat mana pulak?
Mulut ada kan
Rajin2 lah tanya guard tu 😅

But it is already 2.30pm.
The cross between directly go there
Or back to office, solat and then only go there
Mau ambil nearly 60-90 mins utk pergi balik dan berurusan.
Balik je la solat dulu dan lunch kfc

Then baiki kertas kerja dan hantar semula
Borak dgn my colleague
Hah...baru you tau how hard and stress it is dealing with certain people
Macam2 perangai
Pelbagai karenah
Kecoh TANYA tarikh tak tukar kah?
Common sense kot
Tak perlu tanya
Kalau kami tak maklumkan
Memang tiadalah any changes
Ada yg sibuk REQUEST tukar tarikh
Hello...kami dah lama beri date kan
Takkan pasal sorang kami nak tukar
Suka2 hati tiba2 tak mau pi
Tiba2 nak tukar bilik etc
Tu my colleague baru handle satu tugas pun dah pening kepala
Yang I ni hari2 dok mengadap, dengar dan lihat guano?
Nasib baik ada blog nak luah 😂😂😂

Pi menjenguk an adhoc meeting for an event
Luckily I menyibuk
Otherwise they couldnt be bordered to invite our colleagues for that event
You see...
Every single thing I have to monitor
I have to ask, I have to check
Kalau macam tu, apa fungsi coordinator???
Seronoklah hidup kan
Aktif sana sini
Tapi tugas yg diamanahkan buat tak kisah
I am sure cepatlah naik pangkat tuh ...
Cv mesti cantik tuh
Orang bukan tau how dia buat kerja

Balik office
Buat analysis report for customer performance
Alhamdulillah done around 6 pm

Tapi in between ada drama jugak
Luckily my colleague contacted the hotel
They have to increase the rate due to less number of participants
So...perlu ambil semula kertas kerja dan baiki

Balik rumah
Cuba tenangkan diri dgn melihat my new purple flowers
😍😍😍😍

For dinner I had this wrap 😅

Nak tengok scarlet heart...alih2 episod ulangan 😅😅😅....