Dendam

Pagi tadi I tiba2 teringat kisah bulan Ogos tahun lepas...tentang pegawai yg tak buat tindakan seperti dibincangkan dan akhirnya seolah2 aku dibuang tanpa mengambilkira segala sumbangan dan pengorbananku selama ini.

Hujung tahun lepas di kala kami terserempak katanya masih tak lupa janjinya. Benarkah?

Pagi tadi aku terfikir...jika kami terserempak lagi akan ku katakan " nanti jangan menyesal tak sempat minta maaf jika I mati dulu...takpun jika you mati"...
You see...bahaya sungguh kan kalau teringat yg kita pernah dikhianati....
Lagi2 kalau orang itu nampak mesra dan positif....
Walaupun cuba dilupakan, sakitnya itu datang kembali jika tiba2 kembali dalam ingatan.

Ditakdirkan pagi tadi aku terserempak dengan dia. Serba salah rasanya ingin menegur lantaran teringatkan apa yg ku fikirkan pada awal pagi. Kenapalah aku terfikir begitu? Kenapalah ada rasa sedemikian?

Dia seperti biasa bertanya khabar....Aku pun balas pertanyaan dengan agak kekok....Ku tahu dia cuba berbual mesra dengan mengatakan aku nampak lain, makin berseri....Lantas ku jawab kurang tekanan kini. Hanya fokus kerja sendiri dan tiada lagi kerja pentadbiran. Ditanyanya lagi...nak tak sambung lagi?...Owh tidak! Cukuplah yang dulu itu. You are the best katanya.....Hmm...begitulah lumrah hidup. Hanya setelah seseorang itu pergi...barulah kita tahu betapa dulu kita mensia-siakannya...Lagi2 apabila yg dikejar2 itu telah menunjukkan belangnya 😅....

Hmm...life goes on....

Nasi mug

Hari Isnin
Rasa beratnya nak balik kerja
8am pi bank dulu
Balik rumah semula
Barulah bertolak around 8.30am
Tapi mengantuk sangat
Rasa nak stop tepi jalan nk tidur 😅

Sampai tempat kerja
Biasalah Monday Blues
Petang customer datang
Janji 3pm...tp 4.30pm baru muncul
I ran amok again...
Haritu I dah edit n suruh guna yg latest version
Tp dia tak guna yg itu
I remind lagi
Siap screen shot email tu
Pun tak buat juga
Hari jumaat dia email
Pun tak ikut juga
I remind lagi
Guess what happened on monday?
Dia tetap tak ikut juga
😠😠😠
So that's it
I am trying to help
But due to her stuborness
We will see the consequence

This was food for dinner...masak lemak cili api ayam, sambal terung dan tumis taugeh

Hari Selasa
Cuti kan....
Hmm... rehat je lah.....

Teringin nak try masak nasi dalam cawan yg viral tu. Tapi I guna mug ler...
Yeay menjadi...

Tapi ambil masa juga
Mungkin coz mug tebal so lambat mendidih
Satu lagi nasi bahagian bawah agak berair...

Makan dengan lauk bazar Ramadhan Rabu lepas....sambal keli dan pajeri nenas

Takut gak kot food poisoning lagi. Alhamdulillah ok.

Hari Rabu
Ada program
As usual I lewat ...
Pulak tu macam mental block nak mula n cari idea...
Dahlah internet problem
Tapi kena juga paksa diri...
Otherwise tak geraklah kerja...

Balik agak lewat juga coz datang lewat
So sempat tengok sikit

Ni food for rabu ...leftover kari telur ikan

dan nasi hujan panas

Baju kurung Riau

Hari Ahad lepas misi mencari baju raya. Plan asal ke Bangi Sentral bertukar ke Plaza Shah Alam. Kenapa? Kerana jatuh hati melihat baju kurong dan kebaya butik Bahari Asyik di IG....Maka, haruslah ke sana....

Memang banyak design dan warna baju yang cantik. I memang suka sangat dengan baju kurong Riau ni...

Material songket yg selesa, bajunya elok terletak di badan dengan kembang yg cantik. Tu in my opinionlah ya....Cuma baju tu agak labuh untuk daku yg rendang. Nak alter sayang pulak. Adik salesgirl kata boleh pakai high heel...yolah dik...Akak tak ghoti pakai high heel ni 😅...Tapi tak kisahlah daku nekad nak beli walaupun harga lagi RM20 nak cecah RM1k 😉....Perlu puasa shopping 6 bulan kot 😅😅...Kalau beli kain pasang RM680 4 meter kalau tak silap....

Tapi...
You all rasa apa????
I beli atau tidak???

Confirmlah tak beli 😭😭😭
Memanglah harganya rasa nak nangis
Tapi bukan itu sebabnya
Sebabnya adalah .....
KAIN TAK BOLEH ZIP 😭😭😭😭

Pelik sungguh...
Saiz M ....
Tapi kain baju kurong tak boleh zip
Kain kebaya elok pula disarung dan dizip
Kain baju lace ni apatah lagi...

Cuma burok bena jika I pakai lace ni 😂😂😂
But serriously...materialnya best and flowy

Maka daku keciwa
Membawa hati ke kedai lain

Actually sebelum tu dah cuba2 baju di tingkat bawah...
Berkenan yg ini ...RM150 je...

Tapi bila lihat di cermin, bahagian depan nampak pelik...
bahagian belakamg macam benjol2...
Haipp!!!
Bukanlah lemak I tersembul 😛😛😛
Tapi baju tu yg macam tak elok terletak
Bukan salah baju
Tapi I sedar...my body ni memang pelik sikit
That is why I tak suka beli baju siap
I prefer tempah baju...
Cumanya haritu tak sempat cari kain ikut tema dark blue or navy blue
I dah tempah baju kurong pahang giofabric warna hitam dan baby blue di kedai jahit favourite. ...9 hb mei siaplah. Even ada juga baju kurong moden warna maroon yg dah dibeli bulan lepas yg belum dipakai.
But again...tak ikut warna tema family 😅...

Anyway...
Akhirnya I terbeli ...
3 blouses + 1 skirt at Noi fashion
2 pasang baju kurong moden at Deea

Oklah tu kan...
Yg penting blouses tu boleh bawa jalan or pakai waktu weekend workshop/seminsr...
Baju kurong tu boleh buat raya dan kerja juga 😁....

Percayalah...
I memang pelik...
Adakala I sangat boros dan beli tanpa fikir
Adakala I sangat teliti dan kedekut...
Perlu pandai berjimat dan memanfaatkan
😍😍😍

Berbuka di kampung

I planned to balik kampung on friday. Unfortunately due to my food poisoning case I have to cancel my plan coz I still feel cramp at my stomach.

I had meeting in the morning
At last the boss gave the approval for the meeting....
Yup everything should be discussed
To avoid any disatisfaction or any problem in the future...
The weird thing was when he came late till someone else had to start the meeting since they had other commitments at 10am. Takut ka 😂😂😂....

Anyway we came to the conclusion that to avoid omitting an item from the document we have to combine three items into two items. The boss came when we have made the decision...What a good timing and straight away made comments like he knows everything 😂😂😂....Let him be....People only knew that he distributed the tasks among us. But they did not know that I was the one who did so due to his request 😀.....He is very smart huh....got support and representative here and there. At the end of the day people thought he is good and he is the one who get the credit. Whatever...don't ever bother what people think and what he will get.

The most important thing I should know what are my responsibilities and I am happy if I can help people 😙...I just ranting about his behaviour and attitude, but still willing to help him. Tak penat pun otak fikir nama yg sesuai dan tak patah pun jari taip nama mereka 😊

At night suddenly I felt like to balik kampung early in the morning. But when the time came I was still on my sofa. Then I changed my plan to 10am. But still I did not move 😂😂😂...Only after 12pm I started to pack my clothes and clean my house. Unfortunately it was raining in the afternoon. I thought of cancelling my plan to balik kg. But when else to balik kampung??? I have to be strong 😅....Finally around 4pm I left my house. Just about 30 minutes drive it was raining heavily at certain places...Alhamdulillah I safely arrived at kampung.

I stopped by at the mini market and PARAM to buy fruits and kuih....Here are our break fasting menu...cherries, grapes, dragon fruits, asorted kuih talam, akok, apam, assorted currypuff, durian crepe, goreng pisang, puff and the highlight of the dish...steamboat .....

Guess what cherries to RM21 for 374 gm 😅. Kiranya RM56 per kilo. Mahal gilos. Kerana teringin belilah...Dulu di OZ AUD7-8 or RM21-24 sekilo je...

Food poisoning pulak

Pagi khamis tu brekky with coffee n roti+butter
Frozen bread then defrost n reheat in microwave...
Pada hujung brekky tetiba rasa tak selesa
Perut rasa perut memulas dan cramp
Hah sudah....
Awat gini???
Takkan period pain gini

Hmm lepas tu dok keluar masuk toilet
Memang diarea la ...
Tapi kadang masuk toilet je
Bila baring lagilah perut sakit
Nak jalan pun terbongkok2
Sendawa pun byk kali
Memang perut byk anginlah tu

Bila naik atas ambil baju
Tekak rasa semacam
Cecepat lari ke bilik air
Habih keluar roti brekky
Adoi...siksa bila muntah
Sampai 3 kali tuh...

So bila dah muntah bagai
Confirmlah food poisoning
Tapi tak pastilah apa puncanya
Ayam nasi kerabukah?
Roti frozen itukah?
Atau mungkin microwave need proper cleaning and disinfectant

Bila dah keluar semua
Tak larat dah nk pi kerja
So ambil EL dan rehat je lah
Bila rasa dah lega sikit..
Makan sikit tepung pelita...
Hmm keluar balik...

Tengahari memang lapar
So makan kurma je
Setakat makan itupun....
Perut rasa pedih n cramp

Tapi tiba2 demam pula
Hah sudah...
Minum air banyak2...

Malam makan nestum je la
Bila masih demam lagi
Makan je la panadol

So, pengajarannya
Masak jelah...
Kalau teringin menu tertentu
Beli di kedai biasa
Bukan di Bazar Ramadhan ya...

Ke Bazar Ramadhan kita

Jurnal Rabu...

Tengahari ada mesyuarat
I bukanlah ahli committee tu
Tapi dijemput
So kita pi lah ...
Walaupun byk keroje
Kerana unit aku turutkan 😊

Isu item dibuang timbul lagi
Maka buat sekian kalinya ....
Silalah discuss n present to all
Supaya semua pihak tahu dan puas hati

Hmm...as expected katanya boss tak mau juga
Alasan lain tak ramai boleh datang
Dah tanya ke???
Ada program santai ramai je boleh hadir
Even boss pun ada
Alasan tambahan tak sempat
Hmm...sempat je...either nak tak nak

Hmm...kenapalah beri byk alasan
Semua orag sibuk
Semua orang byk kerja
Tapi bila dipertanggungjawabkan
Buatlah properly
Bukan sekadar siap sahaja...

Yg frust...
Ada yg kata dia buat kerja dia je
Ni bukan soal melawan
Ni soal tanggungjawab
Takkan kalau boss masuk longkang
Ko pun masuk longkang sekali
Tahu salah
Tapi tetap nak teruskan 😠

Kali ni belang boss terbongkar
Bermuka2...
Dengan yg pertikai tu dia kata tak setuju item dibuang
Seriously???
Meeting chairman kot
Masa meeting haritu ko senyap je
Tak cakap apa2
Nampak blur pun ada..
Yelah selama ni tak terlibat n tak ambil tahu
Alih2 ni macam nk put the blame on us pula
Hmm masuk ni dah DUA KALI I kena ...

Satu lagi kalau kami ni punya kuasa sangat
Hah! Dengar cakap kami
Discuss n present !!!!

Petang bi bazar Ramadhan
Nak cari nasi kerabu dan kambing bakar
Tapi terbeli lauk bagai 😱😱😱

Tamak huh?
Takpe2 ...boleh makan 3-4 hari ni 😅...

Berbuka dengan nasi kerabu dan ABC

Rasa sikit kambing bakar juga 😍😍😍

Perut apakah? 😅😅😅😅

Hah! Nak berbuka di office?

Hari Isnin
Biasalah Monday Blues
Dah petang baru aktif sikit
Tu pun mood terganggu dek panggilan astro
Promo tukar basic package ke starter package kot
Tambah RM5 for Warna n Bella
Bolehlah pakej tu utk di Kampung
Tapi kok dok mengadap TV kala senja...siap!!!
Kok mengadap cerita alih suara tp rumah mcm rumah tinggal ...taulah nanti...
I tamatkan je ASTRO ni 😅....

Lepas tu baru tergedik2 nak update dokumen guna format baru
Dahlah tak boleh Save As the sample file
End Up I copy paste je
Jenuh gak nak buat
Kena cari rujukan juga
Luckily my office ala2 stor 😅
Adalah juga sumber nak dirujuk
Dah lewat petang hntr dokumen to ketua n boss

Balik rumah...
Tumis sayur and perhangat lauk yg dibeli jumaat lepas...
Nilah dia menu berbuka

Malam tu konon nak rehat dan tidor awal
Alih2 boss WA kata fail tu tak updated
Ah sudah...
Jenuhlah I buat tadi
Alhamdulillah I tak close fail tu
Tapi cuba pelbagai cara still tak boleh update
So rujuklah dari Mr. Google...
Alhamdulillah it worked....

Hari Selasaku
Pepagi kemas dapur
Rimas sangat I kemas downstairs juga
Akibatnya lewat pi office

Actually sebelum pi kerja
My customer sent WA
I was really dissappointed when they didn't want to meet me on that day
I am trying to help them
But they chose not be helped...

Dah check n hntr email
Turun jumpa boss
He wanna learnt how I generated senior customer packages
Not software lah boss but manually 😅
The idea is offer them alternately

Seemed funny when the boss a bit panic
When he discovered that he involves with the new system...
Hmm...I reminded him several times last year n this year to update all documents according to the new system..
But he just ignored it...
See ...now faced the consequence of I have my own way attitude...
Dalam pada nak cakap padan muka
Hati tisu I ada juga rasa kesian to him 😊

In the afternoon
I had meeting about new project
There are three groups involve
But not all members came
However suddenly the first group leader put my name in her group
Yes I am happy to be in senior group
But I was concern of what my group members will say about this
So I raised this issue to the leader ...

Alkisahnya semasa meeting tu
Terkeluarlah cerita tentang ada item yg telah dibuang dari dokumen semasa mesyuarat committee lain ...
Ada yg tak puas hati coz dia rasa perlu
Sebagai ahli committee I rasa bersalah juga
Walaupun bukan I yg cadangkan
I pun tak ingat sangat kenapa
Tapi macam kurang berkaitan

Around 5pm I got discussion with my senior customer...
Memang amukan...
Dah ler ambil masa lama nk buat
Tapi hasil macam tu jugak
Even tak buat what has been discussed previously
Dah le her appeal is not fully granted
So really have to rush to the finish line
Lantas ku cakap
Do it now!!!
I dont care walaupun sampai waktu buka
Tapi sambil tu I jeling2 gak jam 😅😅

Hah sekali 7pm baru kami turun office
Padan muka kami
Balik rumah perangat lauk
Nak masak nasi tak sempat
So pi masak oat je lah 😅....
Eh buat juice apple asam boi juga
Inilah dia oat+ayam kicap+tumis nenas

Massage while fasting

On saturday morning
Suddenly I felt like to get a body massage
So I made a booking for 11am slot

I arrived at the venue around 10.55am
Guess what?
Hmm...two ladies were waiting
While makcik urut in the massage room
Massaging another customer

Takpelah...
I am sure I can get the 11am slot
But ....
11am passed
Later, 11.15am passed
Dengar juga belakang bdn customer ditepuk.
Tapi...Makcik urut tak mai kat kami pun
11.30am akhirnya dia keluar
Tapi disuruhnya makcik yg menunggu awal masuk...
Yelah I pun kesian juga dengan makcik tunggu lama.
Kenalah tolak ansur
Lagipun anak n cucu2nya keluar sekejap

Around 11.40am
First customer keluar
Berboraklah sekejap
Sanggup datang tu walaupun jauh

Anaknya nampak tak selesa
Dipujuknya dengan kata2 ayah tak selesai lagi
Hmm...pi toiletlah kot
Tapi lepas tu I wonder
Urut jugakah
Ini memang boleh mendatangkan marah ni

Hello makcik urut
Kalau tak available cakaplah
Janganlah tamak
Buat orang tunggu lama
Melanguk buang masa
😠😠😠😠
Dahlah hp tak boleh on
Mati kutu2 I

Pulak tu serabut dengan suasana kedai ni
Kedai urut pun dah jadi macam nursery
Dengan budak lari sana sini
Tunggang basikal pun ada
Melantun dengan binatang ada
Meraung pun ada

Around 12.15 terdengar bunyi tepukan belakang...
Dah selesailah kot
Around 12.30 first customer and her hubby n children muncul
So confirmlah husbandnya turut berurut
😠😠😠

I pi toilet sat
Tiba2 lepas tu makcik urut suruh I masuk bilik
Happylah I
Tapi terkejut bila masuk bilik
Makcik dan anak cucunya masih ada

Bila mereka keluar, I confuse nak ambil kain batik yg mana...
Haritu nk ambil di rak satu lagi makcik urut tak beri
Tapi di rak yg terdekat ni kainnya berbau
Takpe next time bawa kain batik sendiri ya.

Akhirnya around 1pm mulalah I diurut.
Tapi 30 minit je 😠😠😠
Kononnya dia pakaikan I masker suruh tido
Hello pakai masker after dah cuci n scrub !!!
Ni tak...terus tepek masker je
Pun I rasa bukan masker coz nk mengeras pun 😠😠😠😠😠

Pandai dia...
Sementara tu Dia pi urut orang lain pula
Hah! Padan muka kena tendangan maut budak perempan tu
Around 2pm barulah she backed to me for facial treatment...
Hmm in total massage+facial RM170
Rasa tak berbaloi pula
Tunggu sehingga 2 jam
Urut sekejap je
Facial pun tanpa scrub n mask...

Pi town cari kedai hp
Peliklah kedai ni org nak tukar bateri
Disuruhnya balik cuba lagi
Penat I explain...
Dah kalau tak boleh switch on hp
How la...
Kalau nasib baik tiba2 boleh on
Logo dah keluar tapi terpadam, hidup semula, padam lagi...
Takpun after few second automatically switch off pula n terus senyap

Akhirnya baru nak buka phone tuh
Hmmm...bateri dah kembung kembang
Pelik juga
org nak bateri hp ori
Dia nk jual gred AA for RM40
Memanglah murah
But i wouldn't dare to take the risk
Yg ori rm150
Minta resit tak mau beri coz katanya customer selalu hilangkan
So dia letak sticker je
Warranty setahun
Rasa nk pi buat aduan je

Pi pasar malam
Membeli buah yg didepan tuh

Buah dalam bakul org beri 😀
Stok utk 3 minggu Ramadhan kot
Sehari sebiji 😂

Balik berehat
And later berbuka dengan air mangga semalamnya dan nasi lemak kukus, ayam berempah n sambal sotong kering

Moreh dengan puteri ayu 😊

Hari Ahad
Sahur kurma 3 biji+sir kosong+half avocado

Kira hari Rehat sedunia
Rumah bersepah giler
Nak basuh baju pun tak larat
Lepas mandi buatlah kerja
Tapi duduk n rehat lagi
Isk isk.....kalau tak larat pi lah mengaji ka

Berbuka with sttawberry juice and lauk bought on friday. Ayam kicap+tumis nanas+ leftover sambal sotong

For strawberry juice I blended frozen strawberries. I bought these strawberries in Cameron Highland on mid April. Anyway...Tapi entah camna terletak banyak pula pati strawberry...daku kecewa coz tak rasa macam fresh juice 😰...

For moreh I had the leftover puteri ayu and mango

Menu buka puasa Minggu pertama

Hari khamis
Maka Ramadhan pun bermula
I memang tak larat makan berat di awal pagi
Kurma 3 biji dan segelas air kosong cukup

Sampai ofis
Settlekan borang point
Dan hantar kepada kerani

Lengkapkan borang appointment juga
Jenuh gak nak mencari dalam whatsapp dan email
Untuk 3 orang pulak tu

Bila kepenatan tibalah masa rehat
Ada soft knocked at my door
Tapi risau urgent
Bukalah pintu
Hmm...my new senior customer
Awatlah tak buat appointment
Takpelah just made discussion and plan for next action
We ended our discussion after one hour
I was so tired and need a rest.

Boss called tanya pasal agihan kerja
Since my part was taken over by senior colleague
And the senior part should be done by him
So I didn't mind to do his part
Not trying membodek
But just wanna learn
Lepas tu menyesal 😂😂😂
Why am I being stupid?
For once let him do his work properly

Sambung semula tugas melengkapkan borang
Print bahagian lain juga
Alhamdulillah petangtu akhirnya siap juga

Then I printed appeal letter by senior customer1
Wrote my support for her appeal
Unfortunately the main office was closed
Hello..it just 5pm...
Awal kome balik
Masak untuk berbuka ke 😜😜😜

I went home after 5.30pm
Singgah jap beli food
Tapi tiada yg jual nasi kerabu or tomato
Kebanyakkan gerai at our housing area just jual air n kuih je...
Terpaksalah pi kedai mamak...
Tapi lepas ni tak mau pi kedai tu
Hari jumaat ada bukti gambar dari group whatsapp kejiranan yg kedai tu jadi tumpuan geng plastik hitam 😠😠😠

So inilah my menu berbuka Day 1

Nasi putih, sayur, daging kicap dan kari telur ikan+ campuran jus mangga n dragon fruit.

Moreh samosa + kuih kasui

Hari jumaat
Ada perbincangan
So I joined je la
Nak belajarkan

Then boss suruh siapkam his part
And attend that discussion
Migrain katanya 😉😉😉
Yolah boss memang I ada sedang hadir perbincangan tu 😅.

Around 11am, I got discussion with senior customer2...
Hmm...guidelines memang ada
Tapi tak ikut...
Penatlah ingatkan
Selain ulang check banyak kali

Petangtu
Sortlah apa yg patut

Then, balik singgah gerai jiran
Takde yg menarik
Tapi tak sampai hati pula tak membeli 😅
So belilah asam pedas ikan, ayam masak kicap dan kuih sagu
Pi beli air buah juga...tamak beli dua
Air mangga dan air dragon fruit.
Pi beli pulak di kedai
Tamak kembali...
Beli kerabu pucuk paku dan tumis kuning nanas
Lauknya sambal ikan kembong 😅

Tapi untuk berbuka I had these nasi putih+asam pedas ikan+kerabu pucuk paku n dragon fruit juice

Confirm kekenyangan
Bila lewat solat mahgrib, maka tunggu je solat isyak...
Teruslah solat tarawih
Kalau larat mengajilah.
By 9pm all settled 😁

For moreh I had kuih sagu....

Bila meletop

On Wednesday
I was rushing to an event
Unfortunately I went to the wrong venue 😅
Due to that I lost nearly 30 minutes ...

Hmm ...even hasrat tinggi melangit
Tapi jika masih mentaliti jamban
Dan hanya tindakan sehala bolehkah tercapai?
Whatever it is obviously people always see what they wanna see ...
I think whatever activity that can hurt people heart should be avoided...

I supposed to meet my senior customer2 at 11am.
As usual she came late...
And she did not do as what she suppose to do...
Saja cari penyakitlah tu...
😠😠😠

Then I cuba siapkan report bengkel bulan april
Susah gak ...
Actually jenuh nak mengingat apa yg dibincangkan...
Korek emel tindakan juga 😅
Haritu dah minta contoh dari colleague
Tapi macam tiada financial report
Minta pula contoh dari junior
Tapi totally different format 😰
Takpelah kita cuba ambil elemen yg sesuai and gabung...
So lengkaplah...
Dan terus hantar ke kerani to get the approval from the boss...
Alhamdulillah done...

Singgah di bilik senior
Menyuarakan rasa geram to the boss
Yg tak kisah tu...
Ramai senior dah bersuara especially on Sunday...
but he still keep quiet...
Berdiam diri satu hal
Tak buat tindakan ikut saranan ya juga
Eh! Tak ambil pengajaran ke dari election baru ni?
Hmm patutlah tak mau buat perjumpaan
Coz tak mau bising2...
Lah! Memanglah perbincangan naturenya gitulah
Ko boss kan...
So pandai2lah kawal keadaan
Kenapa?
Takutkah?
Kalau tak reti, sila ambil tahu
Sila fahamkan
Bukannya hantar wakil sini sana
Orang unit lain kata dia senanglah
Hantar je wakil
Malah ada yg bertanya
Dia buat apa sebenarnya
Begitulah bila tugas utama diabaikan

Balik bilikku
Tekad nak mengamuk
Tapi kunci tertinggal pulak 😅
Padan muka I...

Pi ofis
Staf yg pegang kunci takde pula
Teringat ada spare key pd kawan
Alhamdulillah...berjaya buka

Then baru terhegeh2 download borang
And filled in it to apply for training point

Print juga borang appointment
Tapi susahnya nak jadikan booklet
Macam2 cara dicuba
Wasting time, papers and ink 😭

Lewat petang tu
Ada colleague posted message
I pun ambil kesempatan
Menyelit juga...
Menyuarakan apa yg patut dibuat
Dan apa yg dah lama tak dibuat
Hmm..hello faktor masa bukanlah alasan ya
I tau boss baca
But again senyap...
Harap boss faham dan sedar diri...
Kalau masih tak peduli
So masih ada mukakah utk kekal disitu?..
Sanggupkah pegang elaun sedangkan ko tak jalankan tanggungjawab tu?

Kita perlu jadi macam Tun M
Baca tak puisi nukilan beliau?
Walaupun kita dah tak larat
Walaupun masa kita dah berlalu
Tapi bolehkan kita berdiam diri?
Bolehkah kita tidur lena?
Pabila melihat unit kita makin hancur
Terumbang ambing kerana nakhoda

Balik rumah dinner tomyam...

Tersandar kekenyangan....

Busy bee on mid May

Hari isnin pagi
Pi ofis agak lewat
So singgah beli food dulu

Sampai ofis print evaluation report
Dan hantar to clerk
Made a complaint about my senior customers
Alhamdulillah the office have consideration with the deadline.

Around 10am junior customer1 came.
Really dissapointed with her preparation
Our discussion ended around 1.30pm.
You see 3.5 hours discussion 😱😱😱
Then tercekik2 I had my lunch 😅

Later that afternoon we had another pitching session
While I was observing the participants
A thought came ....
Hmm..all our customers are just the same 😅
It seemed like they did not really know why they wanna do it, what were their main aim as well as to interpret and discuss the result.

I asked my customers what were the comments they got..
The first one not ok
The second one quite ok
Well it seemed the evaluators did not really understand...
Whatever...😅...

Then, off I went to town to hp shop
I thot I wanna change the battery
Surprisingly my hp can be charged using the shop's cabel 😅
So I ended up buying the new charger and cable..

Here was my dinner

Sotong petai and watermelon juice

Then, I reminded my junior customers about what to improve for their pitching session

Then, I checked my senior customer2's document
Tried to modify it to better version
But I was blank

On tuesday at at about 7++am
I had a look at in again
After editing here and there
I gave up
Buat apa2lah nak pening2
Panggil je lah customer to utk discuss
Not available pulak
Rabu je lah....
But we still discuss via whatsapp till nearly 11am.
It was already late
Moh le pi ofis

Singgap jap beli food RM3.50 je..

I felt haywire at the office
Around 3-4.30pm I wrote a report for the early May pitching session ..
It supposed to be 30 minutes task
But I took more time to write it.

Petangku
Bila tengok emel ingatkan tak berkaitan
Luckily baca juga
Rupa2 nya kami perlu get ready for audit
Adoi...
Ada dokumen yg tiada
Jenuh nak cari or update
So I made suggestion to the clerk to remind all staff regarding this
As expwcted many of them did not aware of this

The result for the pitching session came out
As expected my effort during the public holidays and 3.5 hours discussion went down the drain..
I learnt a lot from this
I should know what my real intention was..

I sent messages to my friend
Just wonder why she just kept quiet
A bit disappointed to know that she may not do something to do with work that she suppose to do.
It was unfair to others especially the customers
Earlier this year the coordinator did not put her name on the list due to her condition
But she argued about that.
So her name were back in the list.
However, when the time came she can't do it..
Just like that????

Whatever it is she still my friend.
When I told her about how dissappointed I am with the top people who ignoring us in term of work distribution.
She just kept quiet.
When I told her about the unfair distribution of panel for pitching session.
She just kept quiet.
It was so frustating when I was really in need
And she just kept quiet
I never did so to her...

Bila tengok emel ingatkan tak berkaitan.
Luckily baca juga.
Rupa2 nya kami perlu get ready for audit
Adoi...
Ada dokumen yg tiada.
Jenuh nak cari or update
So I made suggestion to the clerk to remind all staff regarding this
As expwcted many of them did not aware of this

We had an issue too
Uncertainties on something
Several senior has spoken
But the boss just kept quiet
I just knew on that day that he has been away for nearly a week...
Seriously
Not again 😱😱😱
What and where is his priority???

I told one of the colleague about his whereabout
She said that the coordinator has made suggestion to him to held a meeting
But he reluctant to do so
😠😠😠
Why he was like that????
It was dissapointing and annoying...

Cinta fatamorgana or cinta bengong

Apalah ngoknya si suami bila tak memberitahu si isteri yg si psiko mengugut

Apalah slow si suami bila tak buat police report atas kehilangan isteri

Apalah lembiknya si suami bila membiarkan isterinya di jaga huzairi

Apalah bodohnya si suami lewat bertindak menuntut haknya

Apalah bodohnya si suami pi inform si psiko utk bawa bukti

Apalah bodohnya si suami yg hanya pasrah bila isteri di bawa lari

Apalah bodohnya si suami yg tak buat report polis

Apalah bodohnya hospital membenarkan pesakit yg baru sedar keluar

Apalah bodohnya si suami yg hanya diamkan diri bila isterinya berlari kepada si psiko

Membiarkan sahaja dan pasrah dengan apa yg berlaku adakah itu tanda sayang?

Tak berdosakah si suami membiarkan si isteri di bawa lari dan dipegang dek lelaki lain?

Cukupkah berdoa tanpa usaha?

Hello...siapa penulis cerita ni?
Kenapalah buat cerita berkaitan lelaki yg lemah, lembik dan dayus?

Yg aku pun satu pi tonton buat apa?
Moh solat

Kerja waktu hujung minggu

Hari Sabtu konon nk buat kerja
Tapi sofa dan tv sangat menggoda 😅

Dah lewat tengahari baru nak mengemas sikit
Dan cuci bilik air juga
Motivasinya kawan nk datang hantar kunci
Tu pun banyak halangan 😅
Alih2 bila dia datang I nyenyak tido
Bangun mamai2
Kalut ke buka pintu dengan rambut serabai
Muka berpeluh 😁
Huhu gonna miss her ...

Dah hadap carrot cake for tea break
For dinner hadap leftover paprik and omelete

Hari Ahad
Brekky suhun goreng
Yummy 😀....

Walaupun konon nak ready awal
Tapi kalut gak pi keroje
Lagi2 bila dpt reminder
Nervous bila sampai 😅

First time terlibat tugas begini
A bit difficult to focus
And a bit clueless to give comment
I think I am not as critical as others
There was a time where I just kept quiet 😅

Kinda dissappointed when the inventions were not as good and innovative as I thought it suppose to be
Certain of them just manipulation from the available source.
Anyway good try from them
And happy to see their spirit regardless of their packed schedule

For lunch I had these....

After asar, off I went to town
Unfortunately the phone repair shop closed
My hp could not be charged
Eventhough I tried to use another two cables

For dinner I had these

I made suggestions to my junior customer1 on her presentation so that it in good flow.

Then I spent most of the nite time completing evaluation report. I suppose to return it on 27 april 😅...but only managed to do so after 3 weeks. Not entirely my fault. I have to discuss the result with my partner. But she only available on 2 may. However, since she did not attend the pitching session she set an apointment with the customer on 4th May to get the whole idea of what the customer wanna do. And definitely later we got hook up with the election hype.

Kerja waktu cuti

Hari khamis cuti sempena tsunami PH.
Disebabkan I menunggu keputusan till 5pm.
Maka confirmlah bangun lewat.

Brekky pisang goreng lembik dulu

Then dok tercongok depan Astro Awani
Menonton diskusi Malaysia Memilih 2018
Di samping menunggu angkat sumpah PM
Thus there goes my day doing nothing except watching TV, FBing, IGing n eating 😅....

Since takde apa kat rumah
Pilah kedai tomyam around 4pm
Balik tak sabar hadap sambal udang petai dan kailan ikan masin

Hari Jumaatku
Pi beli nasi lomak dari jiran for brekky
😰😰😰😰
Podeh gilos dan tak sodap sambal eh

Hari cutikan
Tapi I ada appointment with customer at10.30-1pm
Apa2 hal beri ceramah dulu
Dont ever lie to me
We discussed about her proposal preparation
Many aspwcts require revision n improvement
A bit overwhelmed when she said
You garang, tapi you bagus
😅😅😅....
I am who I am
 I want the best from my customer
Because I know they can do it to the max

I got another appointment at 3.30-6pm
Kali ni hadap 4 orang pula
Amukan juga
Penambaikan confirm ada
Tunjuk contoh lagi

Saya sanggup datang walhal cuti
Maka, sila sedar diri

Ni menu minum petang

Alhamdulillah...akhirnya

We have been waiting for so long
From am to pm yesterday
From pm to am
From am to pm today
Finally at 9.50pm tonite we are watching the historical and most waited moment of the 7th PM swearing in ceremony.
Alhamdulillah....
For the betterment of Malaysia....
Congratulation Tun M...Welcome back..
Very touching moment ....

Rezeki dia

Bestkan...
Bila tamat tugas tahun lepas
Dia ada projek puluh ribu
Ada pembantu

Baru ni dapat anugerah
Harini dikhabar dapat tuah puluh ribu juga
Alhamdulillah itu rezeki dia.
Kita tumpang gembira ...

Even we got nothing
Nothing improve so far
Don't compare!!!
Not so me....I am not a hypocrite
Dont't compete!!!
Don't complain
Be thankful with what in front of us
Be grateful we still still can breath and enjoy our life....

Samakah?

Few weeks ago my colleague told me about her problematic customer. He gave thousand of reasons in this crucial time. Due to his last minute work and  he proposed another project. Guess what???? similar to my customer's project!!! So, I told my colleague about that. By right they should change it because my customer have been doing that for months. But think positively his project might not be as focus as what like what my customer do.

This morning, due to certain circumstances I managed to see his work.
😠😠😠😠
The title had a slight twist
The focus area is the same.
The objectives are similar
Their focus group also the same
😠😠😠😠

When I told my colleague about this
She accused both my customer and hers might has made a plot on this and thought that we are both stupid.
I totally disagree about making plot part
Hello...I told her previously about the similarity.
Why didn't she ask her customer to change it?
Why still let him to proceed?
I asked my customer about this.
As what I thought ....
He never discussed about his project with her customer.
But her customer definitely have seen his work since he was one of the participant of the focus group.

You see...
What her customer did was definitely wrong
But her accusation to my customer was unacceptable since I have told her about the similarities.
Why blaimed other people as an  escapism for your couldn't be bother attitude and for your personal reason?????
If we looked back, this won't be happen if she reminded him earlier instead of letting him wandering around for so long.
And of course told him about your condition as well.
Definitely there is a difference between ego, trying to educate and responsibility.

Yes...you are my colleague,
You are one of my close friend,
But this time you are too much.
Well past is past...
But hope you learnt your lesson
And me too...

Priority ...

My dilema in making decision...
How to choose among department work, customers and health????
Whatever it is...I should know my priority...
But definitely I have to sacrifice one of it.

My schedule was so packed on Friday.
I involved as one of the panel in the pitching session in the morning.
However, suddenly I was not feeling well during the session...like mild fever, heavy head and nauseous.
Then, I have to check my customers' documents which due on that day 😰.
And leave early to prepare for my outstation

Around 11.30am I checked my customers' docs I was very dissapointed with their works.
Regardless so frequent reminder, their works are just the same.
As a result, my task was not only to check but to edit and improve their docs as well.
To do that I have to find the references.
Accordingly,  I spent about 1.5 hours to check and edit work done by one customer only.

Why I have to do all that???
Certain people only check and correct their customer's docs for less than 10 minutes. Either the work is so excellent, they do not have high expectation, they could not be bother, so busy or whatever...
They have their own reason.
Same goes with me....
In my case, I can stand with improper work
Moreover if it for international event.
You see that is my problem...
I always care and think about other people
and neglecting mymain responsibilities and myself.

I told my colleague that I might not join the 3pm call time due to my health condition and may get a lift from the staff later in the evening. I hope that I am getting better, finish my checking/editing work and have enough time to pack my clothes for that second call time.

Anyway I left office around after 1pm.
Hurriedly bought food for lunch and dig into it 😅....
It seemed that I was gett8ng better after lunch. I decided not to take active fast since I need to back to my checking/editing task.
By 3pm  I was still struggling with the second customer's docs
Around 4pm,  I felt uncomfortable and took active fast.
By 5.30pm I made decision not to join the staf for the 6.30pm call time.
I had dinner around 8.40pm
Back to checking/efiting work.
Alhamdulillah I sent the latest version of the docs via email to the fourth customer by 9.40pm.
I could not believe that I managed to improve their docs to another level by relating it with all the future demand and challenge.
Big pat to myself..
Alhamdulillah...

But my work still not finish yet.
I saw latest email from my junior customer.
So need to comment on her work as well...

Then, later that night I thought of going for the outstation by ETS on Saturday morning
But around 4am my health condition was still the same and ended up taking active fast again. As a consequence, I have to cancel my plan for the outstation once again.

How can I went through the day with just had a rest? So, I sent long whatsapp messages to my customers with things to be reconsider and to be taken into account in improving their works. Later I even sent  to one of them suitable references to add value in her work.

I had leftover laksa and omelette for lunch

Before lunch once again I thought of going for the outstation by the afternoon ETS. It seemed that there are lot to be done on that day and not fair to my colleague facing the burden while I was in recovering phase. But I know my body still not fit to go there and even I should not jeopardize my health for the travel as well as in air conditioned  train and workshop venue.

You see...
I can change mind in a split second 😅

Oh! My weekend

Sabtu lepas I kalut mengemas rumah.
Maklumlah technician astro nk datang tukar decoder at 9.30am....
Malangnya tak kunjung tiba.
Call dia at 9.45 am katanya masih di rumah lain
Call lagi 11.15am pun still di rumah tu
Rumit katanya ingat sekejap je

Hello..I nak pi office ni
Mengejar due date dan nak kemas office
Mulalah I bertukar jadi singa 😠😠😠
Singa pun lapor
Pi lah kedai dulu...
Hah hambik...penuh lauk

Sedang sedap menikmati kari telur ikan tuh
Barulah dia nak datang around 11.50am
Alhamdulillah settle..
Sambung makan...

Bila dah kenyang makan
Mengantuk pula ...
Pi ofis petang je lah...
Eh hujan pula...
Buat je lah kerja lain
Tp byk pula program best di TV

Hmm...you see
Ni semua salah technician astro yg lewat tuh 😉😉😉😉
Eh! Weekend kan...
Rehatlah 😉😉😉😉....