Wednesday, August 3, 2022

MYR21k in 2 months 😱

Due to an issue with my account at Bank xyz
I was in panic mode yesterday
Not again...
With the same bank?
But different scenario

What have I done?
Is that what is left?
How am I going to survive this month?
And to think about the balance in Bank abc
And with so many bills to pay
My parents portion
The allocation for out station work
The second payment for my house repair
This totally lead me to high panic mode

That is the second issue
The third issue is where did my loan settlement in Bank abc gone?
The same goes to the Etiqa periodical payment?
Like gone in a split second????

So today
I traced out all my spending since end of may
Just by checking all my transactions for Bank abc
Seriously I spent nearly MYR21,000 from end of May till yesterday, second august 
😰😱😱😱🀦‍♀️

What did I buy/pay???
Long list...


But all spending is a must
Such as for house, car and medical expenses
Except the jewellery πŸ˜…
And the MYR837 for clothes
Really pricey attire but easy and comfy to wear

The lesson here...
Jangan kelabu mata bila nampak duit lebih sikit
As a result over spending 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️
Jangan buat lagi !!!!





Sunday, July 10, 2022

Pengubat Hati Di Aidil Adha

Eid mubarak...
Alhamdulillah diberi kesempatan untuk menyambut Hari Raya Aidil Adha
So my mum cooked chicken curry
My sister ordered 1.2kg beef rendang +peanut sauce
And I bought ketupat palas+beef floss

Even though my initial plan not to balik kampung
Due to piles of works
But family is no 1
However as expected kinda boring day
Without the kids 

I came back home early to meet the kids
Before they left
Sempatlah pi beli corn dog Family mart
Lepak di Tealive menikmati smoothies
Dan pi playground



My friday kinda gone wasted
Plan to focus on checking the document
But only check 1/5 of it
And the rest more to sleeping if not focusing on my mobile phone 🀦‍♀️

On saturday morning
I went to buy brekky
Hmm...nasi lemak 3 -RM6
Sambal kerang utk 2 org makan-RM8
Rendang daging "- RM10
Quite pricey...
But bayau je la

Then I cleaned our living room+second family area
Jenuh...pi bersihkan tahi cicak
Sapu dan mop
So tengahari tu keletihan

Around 3pm I went to Aeon
I had churros and nachos for afternoon tea break



I bought these



And these



As a heart broken healer...

I just realised my precious CK missing as I wanna sleep on 5th of July
At first I just calm
I just thot that I dropped it somewhere in my home
I tried to search it 
And cleared a lil bit of my messy family area

The next day ...
I searched everywhere thoroughly in my home
Either upstairs or downstairs
Even in the bathroom
Either in the Piles of dirty laundry,
in the washing net
Or unfolded cleaned clothes

As far as I remembered 
I did the handwashing on sunday and monday nite
I had stomache on tuesday dawn 
Due to that I had to go to the toilet several times
So I checked
The water holes at my bathroom
I had difficulty to lift the main hole slab
But after a few attempts I managed to do so
However I really afraid to lift the metal cover
Because it kinda rusty n macam reput
Moreover I am afraid in case there is any reptiles or any living things in the dark main hole
In addition definitely it really gross to see my own sewages if they are still there πŸ˜…

Strange..that main hole cover suppose to be
Heavy steel and ada cangkuk
But this one seems like aluminium nipis dan tiada cangkuk...
Hmm...did the previous renovation contractor took and sold it?

I went everywhere
**at the cafe that I went on tuesday
Look thoroughly at the parking lot and
Asked the cafe staff
**At my unit office
**At my own office
**at the department office
**at my office parking lot
**at the cafe that I went on monday
**at the herbs shop
**at the stationery shop

I made many phone call 
**security
**second cafe management office
**my colleagues
I even sent whatsapp to the restaurant in town that I went on monday evening

But no one found it...
This really made me upset 😭😭😭
My colleague said who wanna return the gold item?
The only place that I did not go is JnT
Coz I was rushing to go back to my home town
To avoid traffic jam
I went there on friday the week before
But I wonder why they did not pick up the call

The most regretful ...
I knew it has the loose clip
But still wore it
Moreover this was the second time it happened to me
Just like I never learnt 🀦‍♀️😒😰

No matter what
I still hope that I can find my precious piece
I have asked my friend and my cousin who is now the hajj pilgrims to pray for me as well...








Tuesday, July 5, 2022

Zombie life

For the past few weeks
I guess I was living like a zombie
All concerning my work
Dealing with many types of customers
Rushing to deadlines
Outstation etc
To make matter worst due to my perfectionist personality 🀦‍♀️

Regardless of long list of things to do
And around the corner deadlines
Confusion of which task to complete first
Suddenly I went for hybernation last weekend
Doing nothing except eating and watching kdrama Eve 🀦‍♀️πŸ˜…

But on monday morning 
I became so worried with the piles of tasks
And almost did not want to wake up.
But, finally I overcame it

When I arrived at work 
Again I did not know which task that I should do first....
But when it comes to gossipinh and  food laju pulak 🀣.

My colleague told me that she made me as the example to justify her concern during a meeting
However I was kinda annoy 
When certain of what she listed concerning me
Was Not really true
And may lead to misinterpreted by others

But...thing has passed
Couldn't be rewind
So I have to train myself 
Not to overthinking
And let go of things that I can't control

So i bought the following food for lunch
Nasi campur lauk asam pedas ikan+bende goreng+taugeh+sambal belacan
And jambu+asam kawan belanja

Unfortunately around 2pm
One of the organizer for the external workshop
complained that I did not complete my claim form
and did not provide my ID photocopy and payroll slip 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️

Once settled with this claim thingy
I have to check my junior customers task
Dah komen dan ada contoh pun salah πŸ˜‘πŸ˜…
Sabau je la

Then I was so shocked to see my attendance record
Not again ...
The outstation was not recorded
Not enough working hours etc...
Maybe due to system error my reasons were not submitted 

I went to town to buy stationery, food for dinner and raya cookies
Unfortunately, only the banner of raya cookies still available 🀣🀣🀣
And the stationery shop closed early

I had a small bowl of soto+a quarter plate of nasi goreng+laici kang for dinner
Unfortunately, around 3-4am I got stomache
And went to the toilet several times

Today I had mcd pie apple for brekky
And this food for lunch



Unfortunately...I had stomache again atound 8pm 
What is wrong with me?
I was afraid to had dinner
But I was so hungry
I ended up having 2 packets of biscuits+hot peaches tea
High calorie but not satisfying my hunger 🀦‍♀️πŸ˜…

This one whole day
I was kinda had mental block
while checking and editing my jaws customer's document
I only submitted the latest version to her at about 9.50pm
Kinda dissapointed when certain people just doing their work rushingly and not properly
Additionaly, when she hardly listen to my suggestion 
I wonder how can she do something that require at least a month in just one day














Tuesday, May 31, 2022

Tak kesampaian

Konon today cuti
Nak pi tukar IC baru
Nak pi tukar nama pemilik kereta
Nak pi servis kereta
Nak lipat baju
Nak urut coz sakit bawah belikat

Utk renew IC
Rasa tak mau pakai tudung hitam
Nanti nampak bosan
Nak pakai tudung plain instant dark blue
Risau design tak dibenarkan
Risau juga embossednya berkilau

Nak pakai new tudung instant merah
Belum basuh
Confirmlah kedut
Lagipun inner mcm terlipat
Pangkal tudung pun macam tak smooth
Kena iron properly kot

Nak pakai tudung pleated dark purple
Baju light purple tak dijumpai
Jenuh cari di bakul laundry, 
Di bukitan baju tak berlipat
Di dalam wardrobe
Di dalam beg balik raya
Di dalam beg balik weekend
Di dalam jut bag
Pun takde 
πŸ€”πŸ€”πŸ€”πŸ€¦‍♀️

Selalu mcm ni
Haritu sebelum raya cari tudung pleated hitam
Dah la kalut nk packing
Dah lewat
So balik kg je la

Siapa pulak pi curi tudung
Dan baju
Pakaian murah je πŸ˜…

Tapi tadi rupanya 
Tudung hitam tu terselit dalam jut bag
🀦‍♀️🀣🀣🀣

Anyway due to cari baju dah buang masa
Tu belum lagi nak google tudung utk IC
Tapi si android+google asyik lah pi redirect ke lazada 😑
Wasting time

Bila cuba nak block
Dah google cara to prevent redirect
Tak faham2
Bila faham, tak menjadi pula
Wasting time

So dah 10++am
Dah panas
I pun takde mood nk keluar 
Tapi tengoklah πŸ˜…


Wednesday, April 27, 2022

Bubur lambuk berhias

Semalam kalut nak pi ofis
Semasa dah masuk ke perkarangan tempat kerja
Baru sedar saya tertinggal cermin mata
Nak patah balik malas
Lagipun dah lewat
Padanlah muka ...
Kabur nak hadap laptop
Sakit kepala kerana memaksa diri

Tapi tulah...
Kerja gerak sikit je
Tapi mulut gerak dari 1-4pm
🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️πŸ˜…....
Kalut balik solat

Then kalut juga balik dari ofis
Nearly 7pm
Masuk tempeh dalam air fyer
Potong and rendam brocoli
Reheat sambal hitam dalam microwave
Aik...awat sambal mcm kekal bentuk
Biasa tak sampai 20 saat dah panas
Adoi rosaklah tu...
Ni mesti gara2 masak nasi guna mv haritu
Dah la my gas stove dah tak berfungsi
Terpaksa guna electric cooker
Celur brocoli
Reheat bubur lambuk
Reheat sambal...
Buka Danmuji
Nah siap bubur lambuk berhias



Anyway
Moral of the story for yesterday
Jangan mudah bersangka2
Jangan mudah kecil hati
Orang tak ajak
Rupa-rupanya orang tolong ambilkan

For today
Long list of things to do
Kalut print itu ini
Sempat dengar kisah si ibu yg tiada mood beraya
Beraya seorang diri buat pertama kali 😒
Atau balik ke kampung menumpang saudara
Anak tunggal akan beraya di rumah mertua
Jiran pula tiba2 tidak bertegur sapa
Kesian kan...
Sebab tu kita yang mendengar ni
Patut bersyukur with what we have
Dan doakan baik2 utk org yg begini

My colleague suddenly shared her voice note material
I searched for other material
And shared with her
Sharing is caring 😁
Together we are stronger

Then I downloaded my customers' documents
I am really worry about my laptop capacity
Only 3.2gb left...

While I was struggling to complete my list of things to do
My colleague reminded me to check her customer's project 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️
As what I have planned the day before
I totally forgotten about it

While I was rushing with the checking task
My biskut raya supplier came to deliver my order
Then another biskut raya supplier sent me a message 
that I can pick up my order at the main office at 4.15pm 
Oh! NO!! 😱😱😱
still a lot to check
Alhamdulillah I done submit it by 4.20pm

Then I drove hurriedly to the main office
Oh! NO!!!
Where is my supplier office
I went to a different building
To make matter worst she neither reply my messages
Nor pick up my call
I had to call another friend
🀣🀣🀣
Since when did they relocate to another building???

Biskut raya is biskut raya
I missed my friends here
My ex housemates
Short meeting 
But very meaningful
Yes...we need to held a reunion

Then I went back to my office
Uploading files and reorganizing them in the new folder
Then shared them with my customer

Next I went to shop lot
Unfortunately the matcha tea is gone 😭😭
Went to speedmart to buy almond milk
Still no stock 😭😭😭

went back home
Reheat the leftover rice
Reheat sambal jawa
Reheat ayam masak kicap, add on black pepper sauce and brocoli

Went back to office
Broke my fasting
With the dates and grass jelly drink πŸ˜… in my car

Then rushed back home
To have to reheat leftover food...



After tarawih 
I had 3 pieces raya cookies



While typing this post
I had oreo ice cream
Terpengaruh nampak org beli minggu lepas 🀣🀣🀣













Tuesday, April 26, 2022

Just throw your toxic ego

It is not easy to let go
When someone said improper words
When I told him it is not ok to do so
When it really hurt my feeling
When there was tears in my eyes
When other people shock to read the words as well
When I left the group
When I left a big task that can contributes to many people

It is not easy to let go
When someone did not want to apologize
Just ignore it like nothing happen
When several colleagues have advised him to do so

It is not easy to let go
When I had given the reminder generally in the meeting about attitude, manners and stealing others' work
When someone purposely share something about defamation in the social media?
Why suddenly share that kind of article
Why be triggered like that if he did nothing wrong
For what?
To remind me?
To threaten me?
To make me worry?

It is not easy to let go
When other people tried to advise him to just apologize
But he arrogantly said to others
He did not do anything wrong
Why he has to apologize?

It is not easy let go
When other people told me he also updated a status regarding this issue
And that status can be seen by the colleagues as well
What is the purpose?
To gain sympathy and support?
To make me read it
But hello I never read anyone status 🀣🀣

It is not easy to let go
When other people has also tried to advise him to just apologize
But again he arrogantly said to others
He did not do anything wrong
Why he has to apologize?

If he think his words were not wrong
Ok...I will try to accept that.
But how about he knew that his words hurt  my feeling?
So why he still do not want to apologize?

Rude, ego, arrogant, trying to threaten me and make a fuss in social media
He did not respect me
Only select certain people to be nice
Did not walk the talk
When he involves in the task about manners πŸ˜…
He just works here for less than 3 months
See...this kinda attitude from new people
How about later?

Due to him
I feel unhappy to work here
No motivation anymore...
Not only me...
There are others who feel the same
Again ....Due to his attitude
Stealing other people hard work
Admit his mistake to the third party
But never apologise to the one involve
Act like nothing happen

And I know that...
Whatever that colleague and I feel
He feels it too...
The negative energy will bounce back to him
Moreover I always hope that he will be always kept away from me and my work place🀲🀲🀲
I imagine and believe that it gonna be happen on one fine day 
Can't wait for that moment
My dear friend also pray for the best for me

Last year 
One of my colleague told me that ...
He felt like not feeling calm
He wanna resign from work
Glad to hear that
But his family objected to that
But...hmm...still here

Today
Another colleague told me
He feel like wanna resign
Due to the tiring trip
Need to focus with his bussiness
But he is a bit heavy hearted when thinking about service duration ...

So you see...
Moral of the story...
Life is a cycle...
What you give you get back
Never ever makes other people unhappy
Due to our words and attitude...
If you hurt people feeling
Apologise !!!
You will never be calm unless you apologise..

As for me
As what the speaker said
Do not ever put hope
Or expect things to happen as what we wanna it to be

So I should let it go
Try to be forgiven
Even though he never apologise

But...
For time being 
I can't do so...
I am really deeply hurt
I still remember how miserable I was last year

Planning to take a long leave
Or just to resign...
But I kinda of SEDAR DIRI
Banyak hutang lagi 🀣🀣🀣🀣
Moreover one of the senior had reminded me
Rugilah....

The feeling of wanna die
But SEDAR DIRI
Dosa banyak πŸ˜…πŸ˜…πŸ˜…
Bekalan pun tak cukup lagi
Banyak lompang sana sini

Certain people may think
Why is it so hard to let go?
This is very small matter
Why let this some one ruining me?

Well...
We will never understand certain thing
Until we are in that people shoes...














Tuesday, April 19, 2022

Ramadhan weight

Dah 3am ni...
But tak boleh tidur 😭😭😭
Nk muntah tengok IG/FB/youtube
Or belek2 gambar lama
Lagi sakit hati pun ada
Coz byk gambar when I was 16kg lighter
Quite ok skin and No pigmentation
With thick and healthy hair

Dah tu...passed is passed...
Bukannya nak pi tahajud ke kan
Pi buat benda2 mengarut
Apalah nak jadi?

Sejak puasa ni
Tak larat nak sahur berat
Biasa kurma dgn susu/air kosong
Or tak terbangun sahur 🀦‍♀️

Rasa dah kurangkan portion makan waktu beebuka
Kadang2 cuba juga suku2 separuh
No ice cream
Selagi boleh cuba elak sweet food kuih/cake etc
Melainkan teringin sangat 
Ada juga orang beri

Baru sekali beli taufufah
Baru sekali beli 2 paket kuih 
Dan sebekas bubur pulut hitam 
Tu pun limitkan sehari 1-2 ketul
End up tak habis
Since dah almost 2 weeks
I terpaksa buang
Sayang....tapi memang tak selera
Lagipun dah keras πŸ˜…

Tapi tang air tu susah sikit 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️
Baru sekali minum air berkarbonat-F&N orange πŸ˜…
Air kelapa no sugar 1x
Air cincau tin 1x, 
matcha green tea 2x, 
hazelnut matcha ice blended 1x
Blend fruit juice sendiri 1x
Buat lemon asam boi madu 2x

Owh selain makan buah naga/anggur/mangga/tembikai
But buah kan manis
So I kawal juga portion

But without exerciselah
Selain lemau
Memang tiada semangat nak mulakan
So very slow weight loss....
Lepas tu padan muka
Dissappointed 😭
Harapan tinggi πŸ˜…


Here is my note
0. 3 april: first day ramadhan
1. 4 april: puasa 1-64.5kg
2. 5 april : 63.2kg
3. 6/04: 62.6 kg(diarrhea) 🀦‍♀️πŸ˜…
4. 7/4: 62.6 kg
5. 8/4: 62.2 kg(total lose for 5 days=2.3kg)
       Expectation:
            7 days=3 kg..........61.5kg
          14 days=6kg.........58.5kg
          30 days=12kg ....52kg???
6.9/4: 61.9 (6d=2.6kg)
          Static/gain 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️
7. 15/4: 61.7 (12d=2.9kg)
          Static/gain 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️
8. 18/4: 61.4(15d=3.1kg)
         New expectation:
         30days=6.2kg...58.3kg

Tapi bila fikir semula...
Dulu tahun 2017 ada coach
Utk 2 bulan...
Once/twice a week adalah exercise 1-1.30jam
Makan kadang jaga kadang tak 🀣
Dari 60kg turun ke 57kg
Turun 3 kg je 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️
But mmg nmpk juga inches loss
Bayangkan dulu dengan exercise pun turun sikit je
Mmg jenis low metabolic rate kot 😁



Sunday, April 10, 2022

Menu Ramadhan 7 hari

First day-Ahad
Walaupun tak puasa πŸ˜…
Masak apa ada...
Tak sempat/larat pi kedai
So sambal sardin+paratha

Second day-Isnin
Baru start puasa
But I saja ambil cuti
I cancelled Meeting with customers as well
Konon nk kemas rumah
But tak gerak
I tambah gochucaru (cili korea) dalam sambal sardin supaya pedas
Tp tak pedas pun 🀣
Dan goreng telur+lobak asin



Third day
Konon nak pi withdraw duit
Tapi teringin sambal petai
Pi bazar ramadhan
Dah la it was drizzling
Kecewa....
Hmmm...sana sini roti john
Kuih pun tak byk pilihan
Or banyak dah habis
Air pun tak menarik
Takde org jual lauk
Dalam pada takde apa tu byk gak I beli πŸ˜…
Antaranya mee kari +air kelapa + taufufah 



Tapi esoknya I terpaksa ambil EL
I had diarrhea 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️

Fourth day
Nasi ayam golek 
dari bazar ramadhan semalamnya


Tapi kira candle light breakfasting πŸ˜…
Coz black out ....



Fifthday
Pun nak cari lauk di gerai/kedai nearby my house
Lauk di kedai tak byk pilihan.
Lagipun semua ayam
So I pi kedai lain
Beli ikan bakar +teh hijau
Pi gerai tamak pulak
Beli bubur pulut hitam+kuih kaswi+kuih sagu
Tapi mkn kuih je...
So hadaplah sehari seketul πŸ˜…πŸ€£
Keras dah...nanti kena kukus semula
Bila taip post ni baru teringat bubur 🀦‍♀️πŸ˜…



Sixth day
Teringin burger pulak
Konon nak belanja my nearby customers
But I just asked siapa yg ada
Tak ckp nk belanja pun
Masing2 senyap2...
Sedihkan...niat nak bersedekah pun tak tercapai
Alhamdulillah ada security guards at my work place
Tapi tak cukup pulak burgernya for them πŸ˜…
Harap them share lah
Anyway here was my portion



Seventh day
Misi mengosongkan fridge
Kali ni modify sambal sardin
Curah lebihan kuah mee kari
Jadilah...kari sardin 🀣🀣🀣
Masak telur dadar
Tumis brocoli sos tiram
Penuh pinggan
Suapan ke-3 dah senak perut 🀣🀣🀣








Fullstop

 Semalam ternampak FB posting Syed Azmi
He shared quotes from IG

"Marahnya orang sabar adalah diam"
"Marahnya orang kecewa adalah pergi"

The second line just happened to me last week
When a friend ignored my advice for not copy paste
When her words hurt my feeling
When for the first time in 12 years 
I got the courage to say ....
Her words really hurt me
When she said she upset with me
 I chose not to not reply her whatsapp message
No point of saying anything anymore
when someone did not want to listen
Even though it is for her own good
Not only she hurt me
She made me dissapointed with her
I better leave

But after 5 days
I just wanted to clear the air
Maybe I did wrong too
Maybe my words also hurt her
I thought she had enough time and space
To calm down
To think and reflect
After all it's now Ramadhan
So I just asked what she had for breakfasting...

But today....
After 3 days I am still waiting for her reply
Hmm...is this situation refering to the first quote?
Seems not suitable huh πŸ˜…

Hmm...let her be
This is not the first time she gave me the silent treatment πŸ˜…....
It kinda normal to me
Be it her, other friend or my colleague

Certain people only find me
When they need my favour
When they want me to lend my ears...
But when I am in need
Or think about them
They just ignore me

I guess I should avoid this kinda people
No point thinking
Or worrying about them
Or feeling sympathy for them
If they never think or worry about me
Moreover dealing with them
Gonna make my life miserable 
So enough is enough
FULL STOP....




Friday, April 1, 2022

Rambutan

 Yang ditunggu...


Yeay rambutan menang...



Your own choice

All this while I always lend my ears to you
For almost 12 years
Yes... more than a decade
Even though back in 2011
You told a stranger
No one wanna help you

But please...
For once please think
No one ask you to further your study
You are the one who chose to do so
And you are the one who chose not to listen to your sv
I can't deny that he is not always right
But you faced the consequence of your action in 2012...

Then, in 2019 ..
By your own choice
You wanna proceed with what you have left
That is good
Never give up
But due to certain circumtances
No idea
Such as lack of guidance
poor management
confusing regulation etc
You faced another difficulty...
Worst...up to legal claim/action

End 2021/early 2022
By your own choice
You wanna try again
Even though I kinda surprised with the institution that you chose
Even doubt with your choice
Not again ...
The similar one
But you have registered
As a friend I definitely support you
Thinking that you have learnt from past experience 
And have properly check everything

But right from the start
Something kinda very fishy
Luckily after making official complaint
you finally got the one that you prefered

But then you have problem in meeting his deadline
You are struggling with your writing
Even to fill up a page template
This definitely due to ...
Again no idea
Could not relate the guidance to your field
your new job, 
family health 
and second house matter

Suddenly after few weeks you only knew that you have to join a program
Which is not related to your field
And you are not interested with it
But to argue with the speaker about the relevance
was really impolite
Even worse to say it was the boring talk
I felt pity for the speaker

Then rather than focusing on your writing
 you spent your time made enquiry here and there
For what?
Why didn't you do so before join it?
Why didn't you check everything?
I thought you have your learnt your lesson from past experience

They have already gotten the approval
So they definitely have the strong justification
Moreover do you think they gonna entertainment
If it only one complaint 
that definitely because not to your preference?
In addition, if they accept your complaint
Do you think they gonna change it immediately?
So you do not have to join the program?
You have no choice
Just face it...
And see the positive side

The latest you complained about the program's task
Regardless of relevant to your area or not
Whether you interested or not
You still have to complete it

But why wanna just copy paste
When you can do it properly
As a friend I have given my support
My advice...

So it is really hurt
When you said
"I dont care"
"Lantaklah"
Even when I said 
I am sad to hear your words
You said you also sad that I did not understand...

What good friend is for?
Letting your friend doing bad thing
What if the PIC found out?
Which definitely result in low result
Even worse fail in that program..

So if the person
Did not want to accept any advice
Think she is always right
Then let her be
Do not say anything anymore
I have done my part

All the best...







Tuesday, March 22, 2022

63 kg????

63 kg ????
Well....
That is my target weight for this week
Thanks to puasa syaaban 😍
Slow and steady weight loss
Better than nothing 
Ayat penyedap hati 🀣🀣🀣

14/3/2022: 65.5 kg
19/3/2022: 64.1kg (after 5 days-1.4kg loss)
22/3/2022: 63.6 kg(after 3 days-0.5kg loss)
But I think my weight scale almost gone haywire today
Sekejap 63.9
Sekejap 63.4
63.2 pun ada
63.7 pun ada πŸ˜…
But yg kerap muncul mmg 63.6

So hopefully
Bolehlah dapat 63kg by end of this week
Tapi tu la bila puasa ni
Selera besar
Mcm2 yg teringin

Petang semalam tetiba teringin satay
But delivery after isyak
So berbuka dulu dengan leftover nasi kandar
Dan sotong masala 
Sotong tu mmg besau
Ada lagi 1/3

So kiranya utk supper
I had this beetroot+celery+apple+ginger juice


Konon nak rasa asli
Without any additional flavour
But awat tak sedap 🀣🀣
Terpaksa letak madu sikit...
The first time I tried this juice was at Olive Ganu
Sedap pulak

Owh yes
I had satay as well...



Today teringin burger yg ada pickled jalapeno and caramelised onion pulak 🀦‍♀️
So tang mana nak capai 63 kg tu πŸ€”πŸ˜…πŸ€£

Oklah nak buat kerja ni
Mmg lately lemau nau
Padahal byk kerja...
Kena lawan
πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺ






Saturday, March 19, 2022

One night delay

The masked singer is aired on Friday night
But I just watching it now after break fasting
Did you watch it?



Antara pilihan juri yg I setuju
Rambutan=Shila Amzah
Ratu Semut=Diana Danielle
Merak=Sherry Ibrahim
Orkid=Elly Mazlyn

Today was the fourth day of Syaaban fasting
Rasa ringan sikit badan
Kurang senak perut πŸ˜…
But only 1.4 kg weight loss
From 65.5 kg to 64.1 kg
Hopefully it will reduced to 63kg by next week
πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺ

But memang tak larat...
Penat dan kerap mengantuk
Itulah pasal kan...
Tak amalkan puasa Isnin Khamis
Terkejutlah badankan

Larat tak larat
Kerja tetap kena buat
Yes even though during weekend
That is our nature of job
Dah pilih this career 
So hadap je la...

Sedang belek2 dokumen
Ada pulak mesej dari colleague
I am really worry with the new system that they just initiated
For me it is unfair

I still traumatised from my past 
and latest experience
With the problematic team members
Definitely those who have the priviliage to choose their team members first 
And those are popular
Will have no objection...

So pasrah je la
Hopefully I will get good, dilligent, commited...
and creative and inovative team members
Aamiin

Then another colleague tanya pasal evaluation task yg deadlinenya esok...
Memanglah susah nak faham
Bila orang pandai2 ubah certain info
Ikut je la panduan
Lagi mudah kan 😁

Actually today I serabut dgn 2 dokumen utk customers
Both deadline at 4pm 😭
I started preparing the first document around 9.45am
But only completed it at 3.15pm

At 2++ pm my eyes were so tired
I can hear a popping sound near my eyes
I even felt dizzy 
And my eyes gonna pop out 🀯
So I had to take a break for 3 minutes

After zuhur prayer
I started to prepare the second doc at 3.30pm.
Unfortunately I could not complete it by 4pm
I postpone the submission till 3.15pm

But again I became haywire
And could not think properly
I even felt stress when the customer called me
Via phone call and whatsapp
But I just ignored them πŸ˜…
Alhamdulillah I managed to submit the document at 3.38pm

But then....
No matter how proper my docs are
The customers did not read them properly
That definitely caused inconvenience to me
Jenuh dok hadap till 6.30pm

So tonite
I just wanna rest and rest 😁
While enjoying coconut water 🌴πŸ₯₯🏝
and Lays chip
Habih camno nak susut 🀦‍♀️



Friday, March 18, 2022

Boleh banyak kali makan

Semalam I beli food di kafe tempat kerja
Ada masak lomak cili api ayam+rebung
Ayam tu besau ya. 
Semalam i makan separuh je
Ada kacang panjang goreng+pedal
Ada sambal ikan kerisi kecik 
Ada tambam goreng


Terkejut I dengan harganya
RM7.50

Dah alang2 tu better beli food for weekend
Ada kankung goreng belacan
Ada tauhu goreng sambal 2 ketul halves
Ada pajeri nenas 2 ketul kecik



Cuba teka berapa harga?
Kalau I kira...
Kangkung rm2.00
Tauhu rm2.00
Pajeri rm2.00
Total rm6.00
Hmm...Jauh tu...
Rm2.50 je

See 8 lauk rm10 je.
Boleh makan utk 4x kot
Haritu I beli food di luar
Rm10 tu utk sekali makan je



Ada ikan sambal hijau
Ada pecal kangkung
Ada ulam+sambal tempoyak
Petai tu stok di rumah 🀣
Banyak beza hargakan...
Dah le malam tu I sakit perut sangat
Mcm ceret beret pun ya...
So mcm takut pula nak beli food di luar
Concern pasal harga+kebersihan...



Thursday, March 17, 2022

Tak bertanggungjawab

I just dont understand certain people
Suppose bila dah rosakkan barang orang
Contohnya bawa kereta kita sampai kemalangan
Maka segeralah meminta maaf
Dan uruskan semua cepat2.

Ni dah setahun
Tiada perkembangan pasal tuntutan insurans
Semua I yg kena tanya
I yg terhegeh2...

Last year I pelik
Dah 3 bulan selepas kemalangan
Tiada minta/forward any documents
Tiada update apa2

So I reminded this person
Lepas tu senyap
I asked and reminded him again
Pasal responsibility etc

Pun mcm takde perkembangan
Until i mula bising dalam whatsapp group
Bila nk minta claim form pun mcm problem
Minta laporan polis tapi beri resit bayaran laporan
Sampai I minta no tel the workshop staff
Tapi tak angkat

Then them ada minta my ic photocopy
Takutlah bila minta nk beri je
So I minta senarai dokumen dan
Nak check semua borang etc

Bila I balik bulan 11
Baru I tau my car was total lost
But bila google boleh claim
Bila tengok laporan 
Kinda fishy
Cuma i tak sempat baca borang coz kalut

Guess what
Until mid feb 2022 no update
Bila tanya katanya waiting for me
He said I told him I wanna read it first
Habis tu yg senyap sampai 3 bulan tu kenapa
Katanya tak mau kacau 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️
So naive or no common sense?
Then he asked me whether I want to see the form
And then he will ask certain party
I just replied pls settle it quickly

Hmm...
I totally forgotten about it
But suddely I remembered it yesterday
And asked him
No response....

But his response today
Seems wanna blaim me
He said last time I wanna read the form first 
🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️
Then where is his reponsibiliy to settle this claim
Dah jika I lupa lagi
Remindlah
Bukan buat tak tau
Bukan senyap
When the 22 yo acted like 12 yo.






Saturday, March 12, 2022

Serabut

I tengah serabut
Weekend pun buat kerja
Dah tak tahu nk buat yg mana dulu
Ada 2 perkara yg due datenya sama 😭😭

Yang first tu
Mana nak check more than 15 documents
Ni baru 2.5 docs done 😭😭
Mana nak kejar the MIA customer

Yg second tu pulak
Perlu write two reports
Both perlu ada hasil analisis data from many aspects
Masalahnya how to get the result when the data incomplete
So perlu collect the new data
To get them I need to prepare a new set of document
Maka tadi strugglelah membuatnya from 11++ to 3.45pm

Lewatlah baru dapat mandi and solat
Dah solat asar semua barulah makan
Tapi merapulah
Sundae strawberry, leftover fried mushroom
Bubur pulut hitam gak
Lepas tu bising makin bulat πŸ˜…πŸ€£

Sambil tu dok tengok Thai drama
Hui Jia Sila
Sambung dari ep 25
Tertengok pulak till ep26

Konon nak rehatkan minda sat
Tapi makin serabut 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️
Habih tu makin sakit hati lah pulak
Apa ke bengongnya cerita
Dah tau ada musuh
Tapi bodyguard tak bawa
Kalau bawa pun sikit
Lepas tu lemah 🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️🀦‍♀️

Dah tau orang tu jahat
Lagilah nk pi jumpa nak cari info
Konon nak tolong husband
Lagilah menyusahkan husband

Dah tau org cari
Lagi nak selamba muncul
Dah tau kakak tu jahat
Nak juga dikejar2
Maka jadilah mangsa perangkap

Dah tau ada orang bertempur
Boleh pulak polis kot tggu dari jauh je 🀣🀣🀣
Awatlah tak pi serbu

Dah tau ada the girl cedera
Suruhlah somebody jaga dia di kenderaan
Yang pi ikut buru musuh tu apahal 🀣🀣🀣
Lepas tu kan dah kena tembak dgn makcik jahat 🀦‍♀️

Yg polis dlm cerita tu pun lembab
Boleh pulak biar makcik tu tembak the girl
Lepas tu makcik tu boleh pulak rampas bom 
Ke gas pemedih mata
So dapatlah larikan diri
Dah tercedera sana sini 
Pun lolos dari hutan 🀣🀣🀣

Eh! Ada lagi
Awatlah tak boleh perbualan telefon makcik dan adiknya 🀣🀣🀣

Yg aku pun sama
Dah tau cerita mengarut
Pi teruskan tonton dah kenapa
πŸ€”πŸ€”πŸ€”πŸ˜…πŸ˜…







Thursday, March 10, 2022

Serve me right πŸ˜…

This morning 
I ran amok with my bilis customers
So tiring doing the same activity for 4 weeks
But today still can't perform well
Still could not justify certain things
No matter how I have been guiding 
and repeating for numerous time
Hmm...could not be bother
Hmm...no common sense
Hmm...no sense of responsibility
Hmm..never learnt their lesson
Lack of courtesy of saying thanks 
And apologising as well
😑😑😑

Then due to covid19 current situation
I have to modify the project for my tamban customers
I tried to get the idea by surfing the internet yesterday and last nite
So this morning I created my own version
Alhamdulillah it was done by 1.25pm

Then I went to buy food for lunch
I have to wait for nearly 5 minutes before the restaurant opened
Long but kinda fast queue
But I did not understand
When people forgot about social distancing
Tersentuh2 badan
Pulak tu terbatuk2 🀦‍♀️😑

Anyway here are my menu
Ada gulai ayam, daging goreng, sambal udang petai dan sambal terung....



Total damaged was RM30
I kept half of the chicken
and most of the sambal petai

Since I have been craving for sundae choc
For more than a week
So I became tamak 🀣🀣🀣



Did you see that new green tea latte???
Semua nak ek 🀦‍♀️πŸ˜…πŸ˜πŸ€£

While I was queuing for McD drive through
One of my tamban customers made a complaint
The guys refused to join them
Hmm...it is ok...
For those who refuse to do so 
let me sort the members

And that reminded me of my cencaru customer
I have to contact her once again
Regardless of many reminders
chances and help that I have given
But still she never learnt
Insaf sekejap
Buat hal lagi
Memang tak sedar diri...
So whatever the consequence is her own choice
I have done my part...

After lunch
I sorted the tamban customers
See...
Due to attitude problem
I have to waste my time just to do the sorting

Bila dah pekena green tea latte
Disusuli dengan sundae choc
Hah! Serve me right
Sakit dan berat kepala
Susah nafas
My mind is haywire....

I tried to overcome it
The work must be done
Tonite is the so called deadline
So unfair coz the actual deadline is another 3 days
Just because this certain people
Do not want to deal with any appeal
Just because they wanna taking care of their reputation
Is this following the procedure?
Conduct a meeting before everything is finalised
Where is the integrity?
If they do not want to have the integrity
Up to them...
But why drag us together?

I downloaded the 7 project files
I downloaded the excel form file
But later I just gave up
I could not think straight

Sedang cari semangat nak sambung buat kerja
Tiba2 black out
Membebel la I sorang2 dalam rumah...
Adoi tak cakap awal2
Orang nak buat kerja

I jenguk keluar rumah
Nampak staf TNB
Encik lama ke?
Dalam setengah jam
Saya nak buat kerja
Lama ke?
Dalam setengah jam
Cepat sikit ya.
Saya nak buat kerja
Hah! Nampak sangat dah haywire πŸ˜…
Ulang2 tanya soalan
Luckily the tnb staff manis orangnya πŸ˜…πŸ€£

But janji palsu
Setengah jam kononnya
But dah 1 jam no progress
Dah la rumah gelap dan panas
Hati pun panas...
Hello not only org nak buat kerja
Nak maghrib wei...

Hah!!! Elok je azan maghrib...
Alhamdulillah settle dah...




Friday, March 4, 2022

Tak bincang

Bermula semalam I kurang sihat
Tekak tak selesa dan suara serak
Rasa nak demam
So ambil panadol je

Pagi tadi mula ada stuffy nose
But masih boleh buat stir fried veggies πŸ˜…



After brekky mula rasa nak demam
Rasa panas badan, sakit bhg mata dan sakit kepala
Alhamdulillah buat saliva test negatif
But still kena jaga2



But badan rasa lesu
Mengantuk pun ya.
Kiranya after brekky...
mcm seharian I terbaring
Kecuali bangun utk mandi, solat..
Ambil food dan makan
Ya walaupun tak sihat
I tetap berselera...

Petang and malam ok sikit
But malam fikiran terganggu
Kerana kerja lah...

How la certain team memandai buat perubahan
Tanpa bincang dengan semua
Tanpa di bawa ke mesyuarat

Yes...saya hargai tugas dan usaha mereka
Saya pun tak larat nk pegang tugas tu

Apa masalah dengan prosedur lama?
Apa rasional buat perubahan?
Mereka boleh pilih sendiri?
Adilkah konsep first come first serve ?
dalam konteks tempat kami?
Of courselah mereka pilih yg mereka kenal
Yg nampak hebat dan baik utk mereka

So adilkah untuk kami?
Yg tak dikenali?
Or mungkin mereka tak suka cara kami

Eh kami boleh pilih mereka juga???
Boleh pilih lebih awal?
Dah tu how kami nak pilih?
kami pun tak kenal mereka
Adilkah???

So end up kami yg tak dikenali
Tak jadi pilihan mereka
Dan mereka yg bagus pula telah dirembat
Maka tinggallah yg bermasalah untuk kami

See...
..inilah bila team yg memandai2
Lagi2 bila ada ahli2 yg baru
Konon nk buat perubahan
Tapi lupa konsep keadilan 

Dan ahli2 baru ni 
Memang byk idea yg konon nak memudahkan
Tapi ikut pengalaman...hmmm
Ada yg buat borang 
tapi makin mengelirukan
Ni bukan i kata but org lain kata

Ada yg cadang guna dokumen sama
Tapi tak betul dari segi prosedur
Ada yg konon nak bincang
Tapi rupanya bincg depan customer
Memalukan coz nmpk kami tak sepakat
Eh banyaklah....
Tu belum cerita masalah attitude

I terpaksa dump my nagging here πŸ˜…
By writing it...
Habih tu...to whom may I talk to?
I called my friend lambat pick up...
Bila pick up..ada bunyi dan mcm terputus
Tapi tak call semula
Whatsapp tak reply...

Sedih...kecewa...
When I am in need
People could not be bother
Tapi when they in need 
I always lend my ears 
Tak kisahlah I sibuk or not
Bukan 5 minit...
Tapi biasanya antara 30 minit-2 jam
Lebih 2 jam pun ada....

Eh!membebel ni macam org sihat pulak kan....