MYR21k in 2 months 😱

Due to an issue with my account at Bank xyz

I was in panic mode yesterday

Not again...

With the same bank?

But different scenario

What have I done?

Is that what is left?

How am I going to survive this month?

And to think about the balance in Bank abc

And with so many bills to pay

My parents portion

The allocation for out station work

The second payment for my house repair

This totally lead me to high panic mode

That is the second issue

The third issue is where did my loan settlement in Bank abc gone?

The same goes to the Etiqa periodical payment?

Like gone in a split second????

So today

I traced out all my spending since end of may

Just by checking all my transactions for Bank abc

Seriously I spent nearly MYR21,000 from end of May till yesterday, second august 

😰😱😱😱🤦‍♀️

What did I buy/pay???

Long list...

But all spending is a must

Such as for house, car and medical expenses

Except the jewellery 😅

And the MYR837 for clothes

Really pricey attire but easy and comfy to wear

The lesson here...

Jangan kelabu mata bila nampak duit lebih sikit

As a result over spending 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Jangan buat lagi !!!!

Pengubat Hati Di Aidil Adha

Eid mubarak...

Alhamdulillah diberi kesempatan untuk menyambut Hari Raya Aidil Adha

So my mum cooked chicken curry

My sister ordered 1.2kg beef rendang +peanut sauce

And I bought ketupat palas+beef floss

Even though my initial plan not to balik kampung

Due to piles of works

But family is no 1

However as expected kinda boring day

Without the kids 

I came back home early to meet the kids

Before they left

Sempatlah pi beli corn dog Family mart

Lepak di Tealive menikmati smoothies

Dan pi playground

My friday kinda gone wasted

Plan to focus on checking the document

But only check 1/5 of it

And the rest more to sleeping if not focusing on my mobile phone 🤦‍♀️

On saturday morning

I went to buy brekky

Hmm...nasi lemak 3 -RM6

Sambal kerang utk 2 org makan-RM8

Rendang daging "- RM10

Quite pricey...

But bayau je la

Then I cleaned our living room+second family area

Jenuh...pi bersihkan tahi cicak

Sapu dan mop

So tengahari tu keletihan

Around 3pm I went to Aeon

I had churros and nachos for afternoon tea break

I bought these

And these

As a heart broken healer...

I just realised my precious CK missing as I wanna sleep on 5th of July

At first I just calm

I just thot that I dropped it somewhere in my home

I tried to search it 

And cleared a lil bit of my messy family area

The next day ...

I searched everywhere thoroughly in my home

Either upstairs or downstairs

Even in the bathroom

Either in the Piles of dirty laundry,

in the washing net

Or unfolded cleaned clothes

As far as I remembered 

I did the handwashing on sunday and monday nite

I had stomache on tuesday dawn 

Due to that I had to go to the toilet several times

So I checked

The water holes at my bathroom

I had difficulty to lift the main hole slab

But after a few attempts I managed to do so

However I really afraid to lift the metal cover

Because it kinda rusty n macam reput

Moreover I am afraid in case there is any reptiles or any living things in the dark main hole

In addition definitely it really gross to see my own sewages if they are still there 😅

Strange..that main hole cover suppose to be

Heavy steel and ada cangkuk

But this one seems like aluminium nipis dan tiada cangkuk...

Hmm...did the previous renovation contractor took and sold it?

I went everywhere

**at the cafe that I went on tuesday

Look thoroughly at the parking lot and

Asked the cafe staff

**At my unit office

**At my own office

**at the department office

**at my office parking lot

**at the cafe that I went on monday

**at the herbs shop

**at the stationery shop

I made many phone call 

**security

**second cafe management office

**my colleagues

I even sent whatsapp to the restaurant in town that I went on monday evening

But no one found it...

This really made me upset 😭😭😭

My colleague said who wanna return the gold item?

The only place that I did not go is JnT

Coz I was rushing to go back to my home town

To avoid traffic jam

I went there on friday the week before

But I wonder why they did not pick up the call

The most regretful ...

I knew it has the loose clip

But still wore it

Moreover this was the second time it happened to me

Just like I never learnt 🤦‍♀️😢😰

No matter what

I still hope that I can find my precious piece

I have asked my friend and my cousin who is now the hajj pilgrims to pray for me as well...

Zombie life

For the past few weeks

I guess I was living like a zombie

All concerning my work

Dealing with many types of customers

Rushing to deadlines

Outstation etc

To make matter worst due to my perfectionist personality 🤦‍♀️

Regardless of long list of things to do

And around the corner deadlines

Confusion of which task to complete first

Suddenly I went for hybernation last weekend

Doing nothing except eating and watching kdrama Eve 🤦‍♀️😅

But on monday morning 

I became so worried with the piles of tasks

And almost did not want to wake up.

But, finally I overcame it

When I arrived at work 

Again I did not know which task that I should do first....

But when it comes to gossipinh and  food laju pulak 🤣.

My colleague told me that she made me as the example to justify her concern during a meeting

However I was kinda annoy 

When certain of what she listed concerning me

Was Not really true

And may lead to misinterpreted by others

But...thing has passed

Couldn't be rewind

So I have to train myself 

Not to overthinking

And let go of things that I can't control

So i bought the following food for lunch

Nasi campur lauk asam pedas ikan+bende goreng+taugeh+sambal belacan

And jambu+asam kawan belanja

Unfortunately around 2pm

One of the organizer for the external workshop

complained that I did not complete my claim form

and did not provide my ID photocopy and payroll slip 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Once settled with this claim thingy

I have to check my junior customers task

Dah komen dan ada contoh pun salah 😡😅

Sabau je la

Then I was so shocked to see my attendance record

Not again ...

The outstation was not recorded

Not enough working hours etc...

Maybe due to system error my reasons were not submitted 

I went to town to buy stationery, food for dinner and raya cookies

Unfortunately, only the banner of raya cookies still available 🤣🤣🤣

And the stationery shop closed early

I had a small bowl of soto+a quarter plate of nasi goreng+laici kang for dinner

Unfortunately, around 3-4am I got stomache

And went to the toilet several times

Today I had mcd pie apple for brekky

And this food for lunch

Unfortunately...I had stomache again atound 8pm 

What is wrong with me?

I was afraid to had dinner

But I was so hungry

I ended up having 2 packets of biscuits+hot peaches tea

High calorie but not satisfying my hunger 🤦‍♀️😅

This one whole day

I was kinda had mental block

while checking and editing my jaws customer's document

I only submitted the latest version to her at about 9.50pm

Kinda dissapointed when certain people just doing their work rushingly and not properly

Additionaly, when she hardly listen to my suggestion 

I wonder how can she do something that require at least a month in just one day

Tak kesampaian

Konon today cuti

Nak pi tukar IC baru

Nak pi tukar nama pemilik kereta

Nak pi servis kereta

Nak lipat baju

Nak urut coz sakit bawah belikat

Utk renew IC

Rasa tak mau pakai tudung hitam

Nanti nampak bosan

Nak pakai tudung plain instant dark blue

Risau design tak dibenarkan

Risau juga embossednya berkilau

Nak pakai new tudung instant merah

Belum basuh

Confirmlah kedut

Lagipun inner mcm terlipat

Pangkal tudung pun macam tak smooth

Kena iron properly kot

Nak pakai tudung pleated dark purple

Baju light purple tak dijumpai

Jenuh cari di bakul laundry, 

Di bukitan baju tak berlipat

Di dalam wardrobe

Di dalam beg balik raya

Di dalam beg balik weekend

Di dalam jut bag

Pun takde 

🤔🤔🤔🤦‍♀️

Selalu mcm ni

Haritu sebelum raya cari tudung pleated hitam

Dah la kalut nk packing

Dah lewat

So balik kg je la

Siapa pulak pi curi tudung

Dan baju

Pakaian murah je 😅

Tapi tadi rupanya 

Tudung hitam tu terselit dalam jut bag

🤦‍♀️🤣🤣🤣

Anyway due to cari baju dah buang masa

Tu belum lagi nak google tudung utk IC

Tapi si android+google asyik lah pi redirect ke lazada 😡

Wasting time

Bila cuba nak block

Dah google cara to prevent redirect

Tak faham2

Bila faham, tak menjadi pula

Wasting time

So dah 10++am

Dah panas

I pun takde mood nk keluar 

Tapi tengoklah 😅

Bubur lambuk berhias

Semalam kalut nak pi ofis

Semasa dah masuk ke perkarangan tempat kerja

Baru sedar saya tertinggal cermin mata

Nak patah balik malas

Lagipun dah lewat

Padanlah muka ...

Kabur nak hadap laptop

Sakit kepala kerana memaksa diri

Tapi tulah...

Kerja gerak sikit je

Tapi mulut gerak dari 1-4pm

🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️😅....

Kalut balik solat

Then kalut juga balik dari ofis

Nearly 7pm

Masuk tempeh dalam air fyer

Potong and rendam brocoli

Reheat sambal hitam dalam microwave

Aik...awat sambal mcm kekal bentuk

Biasa tak sampai 20 saat dah panas

Adoi rosaklah tu...

Ni mesti gara2 masak nasi guna mv haritu

Dah la my gas stove dah tak berfungsi

Terpaksa guna electric cooker

Celur brocoli

Reheat bubur lambuk

Reheat sambal...

Buka Danmuji

Nah siap bubur lambuk berhias

Anyway

Moral of the story for yesterday

Jangan mudah bersangka2

Jangan mudah kecil hati

Orang tak ajak

Rupa-rupanya orang tolong ambilkan

For today

Long list of things to do

Kalut print itu ini

Sempat dengar kisah si ibu yg tiada mood beraya

Beraya seorang diri buat pertama kali 😢

Atau balik ke kampung menumpang saudara

Anak tunggal akan beraya di rumah mertua

Jiran pula tiba2 tidak bertegur sapa

Kesian kan...

Sebab tu kita yang mendengar ni

Patut bersyukur with what we have

Dan doakan baik2 utk org yg begini

My colleague suddenly shared her voice note material

I searched for other material

And shared with her

Sharing is caring 😁

Together we are stronger

Then I downloaded my customers' documents

I am really worry about my laptop capacity

Only 3.2gb left...

While I was struggling to complete my list of things to do

My colleague reminded me to check her customer's project 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

As what I have planned the day before

I totally forgotten about it

While I was rushing with the checking task

My biskut raya supplier came to deliver my order

Then another biskut raya supplier sent me a message 

that I can pick up my order at the main office at 4.15pm 

Oh! NO!! 😱😱😱

still a lot to check

Alhamdulillah I done submit it by 4.20pm

Then I drove hurriedly to the main office

Oh! NO!!!

Where is my supplier office

I went to a different building

To make matter worst she neither reply my messages

Nor pick up my call

I had to call another friend

🤣🤣🤣

Since when did they relocate to another building???

Biskut raya is biskut raya

I missed my friends here

My ex housemates

Short meeting 

But very meaningful

Yes...we need to held a reunion

Then I went back to my office

Uploading files and reorganizing them in the new folder

Then shared them with my customer

Next I went to shop lot

Unfortunately the matcha tea is gone 😭😭

Went to speedmart to buy almond milk

Still no stock 😭😭😭

went back home

Reheat the leftover rice

Reheat sambal jawa

Reheat ayam masak kicap, add on black pepper sauce and brocoli

Went back to office

Broke my fasting

With the dates and grass jelly drink 😅 in my car

Then rushed back home

To have to reheat leftover food...

After tarawih 

I had 3 pieces raya cookies

While typing this post

I had oreo ice cream

Terpengaruh nampak org beli minggu lepas 🤣🤣🤣

Just throw your toxic ego

It is not easy to let go

When someone said improper words

When I told him it is not ok to do so

When it really hurt my feeling

When there was tears in my eyes

When other people shock to read the words as well

When I left the group

When I left a big task that can contributes to many people

It is not easy to let go

When someone did not want to apologize

Just ignore it like nothing happen

When several colleagues have advised him to do so

It is not easy to let go

When I had given the reminder generally in the meeting about attitude, manners and stealing others' work

When someone purposely share something about defamation in the social media?

Why suddenly share that kind of article

Why be triggered like that if he did nothing wrong

For what?

To remind me?

To threaten me?

To make me worry?

It is not easy to let go

When other people tried to advise him to just apologize

But he arrogantly said to others

He did not do anything wrong

Why he has to apologize?

It is not easy let go

When other people told me he also updated a status regarding this issue

And that status can be seen by the colleagues as well

What is the purpose?

To gain sympathy and support?

To make me read it

But hello I never read anyone status 🤣🤣

It is not easy to let go

When other people has also tried to advise him to just apologize

But again he arrogantly said to others

He did not do anything wrong

Why he has to apologize?

If he think his words were not wrong

Ok...I will try to accept that.

But how about he knew that his words hurt  my feeling?

So why he still do not want to apologize?

Rude, ego, arrogant, trying to threaten me and make a fuss in social media

He did not respect me

Only select certain people to be nice

Did not walk the talk

When he involves in the task about manners 😅

He just works here for less than 3 months

See...this kinda attitude from new people

How about later?

Due to him

I feel unhappy to work here

No motivation anymore...

Not only me...

There are others who feel the same

Again ....Due to his attitude

Stealing other people hard work

Admit his mistake to the third party

But never apologise to the one involve

Act like nothing happen

And I know that...

Whatever that colleague and I feel

He feels it too...

The negative energy will bounce back to him

Moreover I always hope that he will be always kept away from me and my work place🤲🤲🤲

I imagine and believe that it gonna be happen on one fine day 

Can't wait for that moment

My dear friend also pray for the best for me

Last year 

One of my colleague told me that ...

He felt like not feeling calm

He wanna resign from work

Glad to hear that

But his family objected to that

But...hmm...still here

Today

Another colleague told me

He feel like wanna resign

Due to the tiring trip

Need to focus with his bussiness

But he is a bit heavy hearted when thinking about service duration ...

So you see...

Moral of the story...

Life is a cycle...

What you give you get back

Never ever makes other people unhappy

Due to our words and attitude...

If you hurt people feeling

Apologise !!!

You will never be calm unless you apologise..

As for me

As what the speaker said

Do not ever put hope

Or expect things to happen as what we wanna it to be

So I should let it go

Try to be forgiven

Even though he never apologise

But...

For time being 

I can't do so...

I am really deeply hurt

I still remember how miserable I was last year

Planning to take a long leave

Or just to resign...

But I kinda of SEDAR DIRI

Banyak hutang lagi 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Moreover one of the senior had reminded me

Rugilah....

The feeling of wanna die

But SEDAR DIRI

Dosa banyak 😅😅😅

Bekalan pun tak cukup lagi

Banyak lompang sana sini

Certain people may think

Why is it so hard to let go?

This is very small matter

Why let this some one ruining me?

Well...

We will never understand certain thing

Until we are in that people shoes...

Ramadhan weight

Dah 3am ni...

But tak boleh tidur 😭😭😭

Nk muntah tengok IG/FB/youtube

Or belek2 gambar lama

Lagi sakit hati pun ada

Coz byk gambar when I was 16kg lighter

Quite ok skin and No pigmentation

With thick and healthy hair

Dah tu...passed is passed...

Bukannya nak pi tahajud ke kan

Pi buat benda2 mengarut

Apalah nak jadi?

Sejak puasa ni

Tak larat nak sahur berat

Biasa kurma dgn susu/air kosong

Or tak terbangun sahur 🤦‍♀️

Rasa dah kurangkan portion makan waktu beebuka

Kadang2 cuba juga suku2 separuh

No ice cream

Selagi boleh cuba elak sweet food kuih/cake etc

Melainkan teringin sangat 

Ada juga orang beri

Baru sekali beli taufufah

Baru sekali beli 2 paket kuih 

Dan sebekas bubur pulut hitam 

Tu pun limitkan sehari 1-2 ketul

End up tak habis

Since dah almost 2 weeks

I terpaksa buang

Sayang....tapi memang tak selera

Lagipun dah keras 😅

Tapi tang air tu susah sikit 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Baru sekali minum air berkarbonat-F&N orange 😅

Air kelapa no sugar 1x

Air cincau tin 1x, 

matcha green tea 2x, 

hazelnut matcha ice blended 1x

Blend fruit juice sendiri 1x

Buat lemon asam boi madu 2x

Owh selain makan buah naga/anggur/mangga/tembikai

But buah kan manis

So I kawal juga portion

But without exerciselah

Selain lemau

Memang tiada semangat nak mulakan

So very slow weight loss....

Lepas tu padan muka

Dissappointed 😭

Harapan tinggi 😅

Here is my note

0. 3 april: first day ramadhan
1. 4 april: puasa 1-64.5kg
2. 5 april : 63.2kg
3. 6/04: 62.6 kg(diarrhea) 🤦‍♀️😅
4. 7/4: 62.6 kg
5. 8/4: 62.2 kg(total lose for 5 days=2.3kg)
       Expectation:
            7 days=3 kg..........61.5kg
          14 days=6kg.........58.5kg
          30 days=12kg ....52kg???
6.9/4: 61.9 (6d=2.6kg)
          Static/gain 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️
7. 15/4: 61.7 (12d=2.9kg)
          Static/gain 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️
8. 18/4: 61.4(15d=3.1kg)
         New expectation:
         30days=6.2kg...58.3kg

Tapi bila fikir semula...

Dulu tahun 2017 ada coach

Utk 2 bulan...

Once/twice a week adalah exercise 1-1.30jam

Makan kadang jaga kadang tak 🤣

Dari 60kg turun ke 57kg

Turun 3 kg je 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

But mmg nmpk juga inches loss

Bayangkan dulu dengan exercise pun turun sikit je

Mmg jenis low metabolic rate kot 😁

Menu Ramadhan 7 hari

First day-Ahad

Walaupun tak puasa 😅

Masak apa ada...

Tak sempat/larat pi kedai

So sambal sardin+paratha

Second day-Isnin

Baru start puasa

But I saja ambil cuti

I cancelled Meeting with customers as well

Konon nk kemas rumah

But tak gerak

I tambah gochucaru (cili korea) dalam sambal sardin supaya pedas

Tp tak pedas pun 🤣

Dan goreng telur+lobak asin

Third day

Konon nak pi withdraw duit

Tapi teringin sambal petai

Pi bazar ramadhan

Dah la it was drizzling

Kecewa....

Hmmm...sana sini roti john

Kuih pun tak byk pilihan

Or banyak dah habis

Air pun tak menarik

Takde org jual lauk

Dalam pada takde apa tu byk gak I beli 😅

Antaranya mee kari +air kelapa + taufufah 

Tapi esoknya I terpaksa ambil EL

I had diarrhea 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Fourth day

Nasi ayam golek 

dari bazar ramadhan semalamnya

Tapi kira candle light breakfasting 😅

Coz black out ....

Fifthday

Pun nak cari lauk di gerai/kedai nearby my house

Lauk di kedai tak byk pilihan.

Lagipun semua ayam

So I pi kedai lain

Beli ikan bakar +teh hijau

Pi gerai tamak pulak

Beli bubur pulut hitam+kuih kaswi+kuih sagu

Tapi mkn kuih je...

So hadaplah sehari seketul 😅🤣

Keras dah...nanti kena kukus semula

Bila taip post ni baru teringat bubur 🤦‍♀️😅

Sixth day

Teringin burger pulak

Konon nak belanja my nearby customers

But I just asked siapa yg ada

Tak ckp nk belanja pun

Masing2 senyap2...

Sedihkan...niat nak bersedekah pun tak tercapai

Alhamdulillah ada security guards at my work place

Tapi tak cukup pulak burgernya for them 😅

Harap them share lah

Anyway here was my portion

Seventh day

Misi mengosongkan fridge

Kali ni modify sambal sardin

Curah lebihan kuah mee kari

Jadilah...kari sardin 🤣🤣🤣

Masak telur dadar

Tumis brocoli sos tiram

Penuh pinggan

Suapan ke-3 dah senak perut 🤣🤣🤣

Fullstop

 Semalam ternampak FB posting Syed Azmi

He shared quotes from IG

"Marahnya orang sabar adalah diam"

"Marahnya orang kecewa adalah pergi"

The second line just happened to me last week

When a friend ignored my advice for not copy paste

When her words hurt my feeling

When for the first time in 12 years 

I got the courage to say ....

Her words really hurt me

When she said she upset with me

 I chose not to not reply her whatsapp message

No point of saying anything anymore

when someone did not want to listen

Even though it is for her own good

Not only she hurt me

She made me dissapointed with her

I better leave

But after 5 days

I just wanted to clear the air

Maybe I did wrong too

Maybe my words also hurt her

I thought she had enough time and space

To calm down

To think and reflect

After all it's now Ramadhan

So I just asked what she had for breakfasting...

But today....

After 3 days I am still waiting for her reply

Hmm...is this situation refering to the first quote?

Seems not suitable huh 😅

Hmm...let her be

This is not the first time she gave me the silent treatment 😅....

It kinda normal to me

Be it her, other friend or my colleague

Certain people only find me

When they need my favour

When they want me to lend my ears...

But when I am in need

Or think about them

They just ignore me

I guess I should avoid this kinda people

No point thinking

Or worrying about them

Or feeling sympathy for them

If they never think or worry about me

Moreover dealing with them

Gonna make my life miserable 

So enough is enough

FULL STOP....

Rambutan

 Yang ditunggu...

Yeay rambutan menang...

Your own choice

All this while I always lend my ears to you

For almost 12 years

Yes... more than a decade

Even though back in 2011

You told a stranger

No one wanna help you

But please...

For once please think

No one ask you to further your study

You are the one who chose to do so

And you are the one who chose not to listen to your sv

I can't deny that he is not always right

But you faced the consequence of your action in 2012...

Then, in 2019 ..

By your own choice

You wanna proceed with what you have left

That is good

Never give up

But due to certain circumtances

No idea

Such as lack of guidance

poor management

confusing regulation etc

You faced another difficulty...

Worst...up to legal claim/action

End 2021/early 2022

By your own choice

You wanna try again

Even though I kinda surprised with the institution that you chose

Even doubt with your choice

Not again ...

The similar one

But you have registered

As a friend I definitely support you

Thinking that you have learnt from past experience 

And have properly check everything

But right from the start

Something kinda very fishy

Luckily after making official complaint

you finally got the one that you prefered

But then you have problem in meeting his deadline

You are struggling with your writing

Even to fill up a page template

This definitely due to ...

Again no idea

Could not relate the guidance to your field

your new job, 

family health 

and second house matter

Suddenly after few weeks you only knew that you have to join a program

Which is not related to your field

And you are not interested with it

But to argue with the speaker about the relevance

was really impolite

Even worse to say it was the boring talk

I felt pity for the speaker

Then rather than focusing on your writing

 you spent your time made enquiry here and there

For what?

Why didn't you do so before join it?

Why didn't you check everything?

I thought you have your learnt your lesson from past experience

They have already gotten the approval

So they definitely have the strong justification

Moreover do you think they gonna entertainment

If it only one complaint 

that definitely because not to your preference?

In addition, if they accept your complaint

Do you think they gonna change it immediately?

So you do not have to join the program?

You have no choice

Just face it...

And see the positive side

The latest you complained about the program's task

Regardless of relevant to your area or not

Whether you interested or not

You still have to complete it

But why wanna just copy paste

When you can do it properly

As a friend I have given my support

My advice...

So it is really hurt

When you said

"I dont care"

"Lantaklah"

Even when I said 

I am sad to hear your words

You said you also sad that I did not understand...

What good friend is for?

Letting your friend doing bad thing

What if the PIC found out?

Which definitely result in low result

Even worse fail in that program..

So if the person

Did not want to accept any advice

Think she is always right

Then let her be

Do not say anything anymore

I have done my part

All the best...

63 kg????

63 kg ????

Well....

That is my target weight for this week

Thanks to puasa syaaban 😍

Slow and steady weight loss

Better than nothing 

Ayat penyedap hati 🤣🤣🤣

14/3/2022: 65.5 kg

19/3/2022: 64.1kg (after 5 days-1.4kg loss)

22/3/2022: 63.6 kg(after 3 days-0.5kg loss)

But I think my weight scale almost gone haywire today

Sekejap 63.9

Sekejap 63.4

63.2 pun ada

63.7 pun ada 😅

But yg kerap muncul mmg 63.6

So hopefully

Bolehlah dapat 63kg by end of this week

Tapi tu la bila puasa ni

Selera besar

Mcm2 yg teringin

Petang semalam tetiba teringin satay

But delivery after isyak

So berbuka dulu dengan leftover nasi kandar

Dan sotong masala 

Sotong tu mmg besau

Ada lagi 1/3

So kiranya utk supper

I had this beetroot+celery+apple+ginger juice

Konon nak rasa asli

Without any additional flavour

But awat tak sedap 🤣🤣

Terpaksa letak madu sikit...

The first time I tried this juice was at Olive Ganu

Sedap pulak

Owh yes

I had satay as well...

Today teringin burger yg ada pickled jalapeno and caramelised onion pulak 🤦‍♀️

So tang mana nak capai 63 kg tu 🤔😅🤣

Oklah nak buat kerja ni

Mmg lately lemau nau

Padahal byk kerja...

Kena lawan

💪💪💪💪

One night delay

The masked singer is aired on Friday night

But I just watching it now after break fasting

Did you watch it?

Antara pilihan juri yg I setuju

Rambutan=Shila Amzah

Ratu Semut=Diana Danielle

Merak=Sherry Ibrahim

Orkid=Elly Mazlyn

Today was the fourth day of Syaaban fasting

Rasa ringan sikit badan

Kurang senak perut 😅

But only 1.4 kg weight loss

From 65.5 kg to 64.1 kg

Hopefully it will reduced to 63kg by next week

💪💪💪💪

But memang tak larat...

Penat dan kerap mengantuk

Itulah pasal kan...

Tak amalkan puasa Isnin Khamis

Terkejutlah badankan

Larat tak larat

Kerja tetap kena buat

Yes even though during weekend

That is our nature of job

Dah pilih this career 

So hadap je la...

Sedang belek2 dokumen

Ada pulak mesej dari colleague

I am really worry with the new system that they just initiated

For me it is unfair

I still traumatised from my past 

and latest experience

With the problematic team members

Definitely those who have the priviliage to choose their team members first 

And those are popular

Will have no objection...

So pasrah je la

Hopefully I will get good, dilligent, commited...

and creative and inovative team members

Aamiin

Then another colleague tanya pasal evaluation task yg deadlinenya esok...

Memanglah susah nak faham

Bila orang pandai2 ubah certain info

Ikut je la panduan

Lagi mudah kan 😁

Actually today I serabut dgn 2 dokumen utk customers

Both deadline at 4pm 😭

I started preparing the first document around 9.45am

But only completed it at 3.15pm

At 2++ pm my eyes were so tired

I can hear a popping sound near my eyes

I even felt dizzy 

And my eyes gonna pop out 🤯

So I had to take a break for 3 minutes

After zuhur prayer

I started to prepare the second doc at 3.30pm.

Unfortunately I could not complete it by 4pm

I postpone the submission till 3.15pm

But again I became haywire

And could not think properly

I even felt stress when the customer called me

Via phone call and whatsapp

But I just ignored them 😅

Alhamdulillah I managed to submit the document at 3.38pm

But then....

No matter how proper my docs are

The customers did not read them properly

That definitely caused inconvenience to me

Jenuh dok hadap till 6.30pm

So tonite

I just wanna rest and rest 😁

While enjoying coconut water 🌴🥥🏝

and Lays chip

Habih camno nak susut 🤦‍♀️

Boleh banyak kali makan

Semalam I beli food di kafe tempat kerja

Ada masak lomak cili api ayam+rebung

Ayam tu besau ya. 

Semalam i makan separuh je

Ada kacang panjang goreng+pedal

Ada sambal ikan kerisi kecik 

Ada tambam goreng

Terkejut I dengan harganya

RM7.50

Dah alang2 tu better beli food for weekend

Ada kankung goreng belacan

Ada tauhu goreng sambal 2 ketul halves

Ada pajeri nenas 2 ketul kecik

Cuba teka berapa harga?

Kalau I kira...

Kangkung rm2.00

Tauhu rm2.00

Pajeri rm2.00

Total rm6.00

Hmm...Jauh tu...

Rm2.50 je

See 8 lauk rm10 je.

Boleh makan utk 4x kot

Haritu I beli food di luar

Rm10 tu utk sekali makan je

Ada ikan sambal hijau

Ada pecal kangkung

Ada ulam+sambal tempoyak

Petai tu stok di rumah 🤣

Banyak beza hargakan...

Dah le malam tu I sakit perut sangat

Mcm ceret beret pun ya...

So mcm takut pula nak beli food di luar

Concern pasal harga+kebersihan...

Tak bertanggungjawab

I just dont understand certain people

Suppose bila dah rosakkan barang orang

Contohnya bawa kereta kita sampai kemalangan

Maka segeralah meminta maaf

Dan uruskan semua cepat2.

Ni dah setahun

Tiada perkembangan pasal tuntutan insurans

Semua I yg kena tanya

I yg terhegeh2...

Last year I pelik

Dah 3 bulan selepas kemalangan

Tiada minta/forward any documents

Tiada update apa2

So I reminded this person

Lepas tu senyap

I asked and reminded him again

Pasal responsibility etc

Pun mcm takde perkembangan

Until i mula bising dalam whatsapp group

Bila nk minta claim form pun mcm problem

Minta laporan polis tapi beri resit bayaran laporan

Sampai I minta no tel the workshop staff

Tapi tak angkat

Then them ada minta my ic photocopy

Takutlah bila minta nk beri je

So I minta senarai dokumen dan

Nak check semua borang etc

Bila I balik bulan 11

Baru I tau my car was total lost

But bila google boleh claim

Bila tengok laporan 

Kinda fishy

Cuma i tak sempat baca borang coz kalut

Guess what

Until mid feb 2022 no update

Bila tanya katanya waiting for me

He said I told him I wanna read it first

Habis tu yg senyap sampai 3 bulan tu kenapa

Katanya tak mau kacau 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

So naive or no common sense?

Then he asked me whether I want to see the form

And then he will ask certain party

I just replied pls settle it quickly

Hmm...

I totally forgotten about it

But suddely I remembered it yesterday

And asked him

No response....

But his response today

Seems wanna blaim me

He said last time I wanna read the form first 

🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Then where is his reponsibiliy to settle this claim

Dah jika I lupa lagi

Remindlah

Bukan buat tak tau

Bukan senyap

When the 22 yo acted like 12 yo.

Serabut

I tengah serabut

Weekend pun buat kerja

Dah tak tahu nk buat yg mana dulu

Ada 2 perkara yg due datenya sama 😭😭

Yang first tu

Mana nak check more than 15 documents

Ni baru 2.5 docs done 😭😭

Mana nak kejar the MIA customer

Yg second tu pulak

Perlu write two reports

Both perlu ada hasil analisis data from many aspects

Masalahnya how to get the result when the data incomplete

So perlu collect the new data

To get them I need to prepare a new set of document

Maka tadi strugglelah membuatnya from 11++ to 3.45pm

Lewatlah baru dapat mandi and solat

Dah solat asar semua barulah makan

Tapi merapulah

Sundae strawberry, leftover fried mushroom

Bubur pulut hitam gak

Lepas tu bising makin bulat 😅🤣

Sambil tu dok tengok Thai drama

Hui Jia Sila

Sambung dari ep 25

Tertengok pulak till ep26

Konon nak rehatkan minda sat

Tapi makin serabut 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Habih tu makin sakit hati lah pulak

Apa ke bengongnya cerita

Dah tau ada musuh

Tapi bodyguard tak bawa

Kalau bawa pun sikit

Lepas tu lemah 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Dah tau orang tu jahat

Lagilah nk pi jumpa nak cari info

Konon nak tolong husband

Lagilah menyusahkan husband

Dah tau org cari

Lagi nak selamba muncul

Dah tau kakak tu jahat

Nak juga dikejar2

Maka jadilah mangsa perangkap

Dah tau ada orang bertempur

Boleh pulak polis kot tggu dari jauh je 🤣🤣🤣

Awatlah tak pi serbu

Dah tau ada the girl cedera

Suruhlah somebody jaga dia di kenderaan

Yang pi ikut buru musuh tu apahal 🤣🤣🤣

Lepas tu kan dah kena tembak dgn makcik jahat 🤦‍♀️

Yg polis dlm cerita tu pun lembab

Boleh pulak biar makcik tu tembak the girl

Lepas tu makcik tu boleh pulak rampas bom 

Ke gas pemedih mata

So dapatlah larikan diri

Dah tercedera sana sini 

Pun lolos dari hutan 🤣🤣🤣

Eh! Ada lagi

Awatlah tak boleh perbualan telefon makcik dan adiknya 🤣🤣🤣

Yg aku pun sama

Dah tau cerita mengarut

Pi teruskan tonton dah kenapa

🤔🤔🤔😅😅

Serve me right 😅

This morning 

I ran amok with my bilis customers

So tiring doing the same activity for 4 weeks

But today still can't perform well

Still could not justify certain things

No matter how I have been guiding 

and repeating for numerous time

Hmm...could not be bother

Hmm...no common sense

Hmm...no sense of responsibility

Hmm..never learnt their lesson

Lack of courtesy of saying thanks 

And apologising as well

😡😡😡

Then due to covid19 current situation

I have to modify the project for my tamban customers

I tried to get the idea by surfing the internet yesterday and last nite

So this morning I created my own version

Alhamdulillah it was done by 1.25pm

Then I went to buy food for lunch

I have to wait for nearly 5 minutes before the restaurant opened

Long but kinda fast queue

But I did not understand

When people forgot about social distancing

Tersentuh2 badan

Pulak tu terbatuk2 🤦‍♀️😡

Anyway here are my menu

Ada gulai ayam, daging goreng, sambal udang petai dan sambal terung....

Total damaged was RM30

I kept half of the chicken

and most of the sambal petai

Since I have been craving for sundae choc

For more than a week

So I became tamak 🤣🤣🤣

Did you see that new green tea latte???

Semua nak ek 🤦‍♀️😅😁🤣

While I was queuing for McD drive through

One of my tamban customers made a complaint

The guys refused to join them

Hmm...it is ok...

For those who refuse to do so 

let me sort the members

And that reminded me of my cencaru customer

I have to contact her once again

Regardless of many reminders

chances and help that I have given

But still she never learnt

Insaf sekejap

Buat hal lagi

Memang tak sedar diri...

So whatever the consequence is her own choice

I have done my part...

After lunch

I sorted the tamban customers

See...

Due to attitude problem

I have to waste my time just to do the sorting

Bila dah pekena green tea latte

Disusuli dengan sundae choc

Hah! Serve me right

Sakit dan berat kepala

Susah nafas

My mind is haywire....

I tried to overcome it

The work must be done

Tonite is the so called deadline

So unfair coz the actual deadline is another 3 days

Just because this certain people

Do not want to deal with any appeal

Just because they wanna taking care of their reputation

Is this following the procedure?

Conduct a meeting before everything is finalised

Where is the integrity?

If they do not want to have the integrity

Up to them...

But why drag us together?

I downloaded the 7 project files

I downloaded the excel form file

But later I just gave up

I could not think straight

Sedang cari semangat nak sambung buat kerja

Tiba2 black out

Membebel la I sorang2 dalam rumah...

Adoi tak cakap awal2

Orang nak buat kerja

I jenguk keluar rumah

Nampak staf TNB

Encik lama ke?

Dalam setengah jam

Saya nak buat kerja

Lama ke?

Dalam setengah jam

Cepat sikit ya.

Saya nak buat kerja

Hah! Nampak sangat dah haywire 😅

Ulang2 tanya soalan

Luckily the tnb staff manis orangnya 😅🤣

But janji palsu

Setengah jam kononnya

But dah 1 jam no progress

Dah la rumah gelap dan panas

Hati pun panas...

Hello not only org nak buat kerja

Nak maghrib wei...

Hah!!! Elok je azan maghrib...

Alhamdulillah settle dah...

Tak bincang

Bermula semalam I kurang sihat

Tekak tak selesa dan suara serak

Rasa nak demam

So ambil panadol je

Pagi tadi mula ada stuffy nose

But masih boleh buat stir fried veggies 😅

After brekky mula rasa nak demam

Rasa panas badan, sakit bhg mata dan sakit kepala

Alhamdulillah buat saliva test negatif

But still kena jaga2

But badan rasa lesu

Mengantuk pun ya.

Kiranya after brekky...

mcm seharian I terbaring

Kecuali bangun utk mandi, solat..

Ambil food dan makan

Ya walaupun tak sihat

I tetap berselera...

Petang and malam ok sikit

But malam fikiran terganggu

Kerana kerja lah...

How la certain team memandai buat perubahan

Tanpa bincang dengan semua

Tanpa di bawa ke mesyuarat

Yes...saya hargai tugas dan usaha mereka

Saya pun tak larat nk pegang tugas tu

Apa masalah dengan prosedur lama?

Apa rasional buat perubahan?

Mereka boleh pilih sendiri?

Adilkah konsep first come first serve ?

dalam konteks tempat kami?

Of courselah mereka pilih yg mereka kenal

Yg nampak hebat dan baik utk mereka

So adilkah untuk kami?

Yg tak dikenali?

Or mungkin mereka tak suka cara kami

Eh kami boleh pilih mereka juga???

Boleh pilih lebih awal?

Dah tu how kami nak pilih?

kami pun tak kenal mereka

Adilkah???

So end up kami yg tak dikenali

Tak jadi pilihan mereka

Dan mereka yg bagus pula telah dirembat

Maka tinggallah yg bermasalah untuk kami

See...

..inilah bila team yg memandai2

Lagi2 bila ada ahli2 yg baru

Konon nk buat perubahan

Tapi lupa konsep keadilan 

Dan ahli2 baru ni 

Memang byk idea yg konon nak memudahkan

Tapi ikut pengalaman...hmmm

Ada yg buat borang 

tapi makin mengelirukan

Ni bukan i kata but org lain kata

Ada yg cadang guna dokumen sama

Tapi tak betul dari segi prosedur

Ada yg konon nak bincang

Tapi rupanya bincg depan customer

Memalukan coz nmpk kami tak sepakat

Eh banyaklah....

Tu belum cerita masalah attitude

I terpaksa dump my nagging here 😅

By writing it...

Habih tu...to whom may I talk to?

I called my friend lambat pick up...

Bila pick up..ada bunyi dan mcm terputus

Tapi tak call semula

Whatsapp tak reply...

Sedih...kecewa...

When I am in need

People could not be bother

Tapi when they in need 

I always lend my ears 

Tak kisahlah I sibuk or not

Bukan 5 minit...

Tapi biasanya antara 30 minit-2 jam

Lebih 2 jam pun ada....

Eh!membebel ni macam org sihat pulak kan....