Monday, April 16, 2012

Brekky overlooking the lake...

Kanda, Philipino hmate and me went out around 7.45am on easter Saturday-April the 7th. Definitely you know who didn't join us ;). Once we arrived at the destination, it is more like river mouth that mostly covered by sand dunes rather than lake. Actually Kanda wanted to go this side of the lake.

I have told her on the previous nite, if she wants to go to this side of the lake she should not set her navigator to the side nearby the sea. Either she being stubborn or just didn't hear what I said, so we ended up to the side nearby the sea. So we called Che Olyn who was busy packing. According to her we have to turn back. When she started to give the directions and later stated that we have to use highway, I couldn't compute anymore and I gave the hand phone to kanda. But she didn't has the confidence too and asked me to listen to cik olyn explanation. I suggested that we should just go the side of the lake that we have passed by on our way there. I didn't know why Kanda still wanna go to that side of the lake if she totally has no idea where it is and at the same time depending on us who also clueless. So, I tried to control my irritation and warned her not to get angry with me if i gave the direction wrongly since it was not easy to memorize the direction even though I managed to jot down the first few directions....

So we turned back. On our way to the highway we saw this beautiful view.

Hmm..another side of the lake that we never seen before. So I suggested that we should stop here since it got shaded area...So we placed our table cloth on the jetty...

and having these for brekky...........We had hash brown, garlic bread and bell pepper dipping sauce as well as my kuih samprit :)...

Sunny day, but it was windy and chill day....


We really enjoy our brekky overlooking the beautiful lake and its surround

while watching the senior citizen paddling the canoe

and also the sailing mini yachts ........


and the flying birds.......
We could hardly keep our eyes off the activities on the lake ....

Then we went to shopping mall, so many people on easter saturday. hehehe don't be surprise, we ate again. I bought a mix of tortellini and ravioli and strawberry freeze..hahhaa. The taste just the same and quite dry. Maybe that is how Italian eat that, less sauce. By 12.45pm we arrived home......

I was so sleepy, but just surfing the internet. Then I cleaned and cut the fish that I bought and keep in the fridge. For dinner I had the leftover tortelini. I read an article while watching tv hehhee. Actually, I am not confident with my current project. So I think it is better if I have the back up plan by using the drug molecule that I have abandoned last time due to complicated model. So I have to read and understand the article that used the similar structure as the drug molecule, but of course as usual my drug molecule got extra parameters :(......

On sunday morning, I managed to understand the basic of their model. But later, I had difficulty in getting half of the term as in their model. So, I sent email to that author which is actually my group member who are now working in Singapore. I felt lil bit regret for not reading the article properly while he was here..:(..........

For lunch I had the leftover tortellini with chinese cabbage...tak match ek...hahha aku je nak makan...

It was gloomy easter sunday that affect my day..kinda like having lazy and sad feeling. So I decided to have a walk at the beach in late afternoon.

While i was about to cross the road, suddenly i could feel the drizzle of the rain. So instead of turn back, I decided to walk around the block and back to my accommodation. So, I supposed to turn right at the junction at the traffic light As I walked few steps to the right, I notice there was no more drizzleSo, I turned back to the junction, crossed the road while watching the beautiful garden
and home
and walked to the beach

Look to the right
Look in front
look to the left
Let's walk to the man made boulder, the mass of rocks that surrounds the habour


A pose with the harbour background

Tak senonoh kan, selamba badak je aku kelur rumah pakai tights...Tak sedar diri kan. Tembam tembun ada hati nak pakai legging..Nampak kanda terkejut masa aku nak keluar tuh...Dia mana pernah nampak aku kuar rumah wearing legging...Ni baru kali 2/3 selama 3 tahun aku buat. Perasan tak, dah macam orang mengandung pun ada kan...Hish korang ni, I am still single...So blame the shirt and the wind hehhee............

Ok jom balik
Carilah mana satu rumah kami hehhee....

For dinner I had baked talapia fish....eaten with leftover couscous...


Takde cerita yang menarik, so aku tengok superspontan while folding my clothes.............

Friday, April 13, 2012

When Malaysian boss fighting with Indian dentist

When that thing happened, I just put a distant, keep quiet but actively listening hehehe...
That was on Good Friday after we had fun with dinner and walked on the beach :(.........

Malaysian boss wanted to go somewhere and asked me and our friends to join her. The Indian dentist agreed to join as long as we come back before 2pm so that we can have half of the day to do something else. Unfortunately this Malaysian boss didn't like to hear that as for her why she should listen to others. If the Indian dentist want to come along, she should follow her plan. So I just have to listen when Malaysian boss complained about that Indian dentist...

Then the Indian dentist joined us watching tv. I went upstairs for a while and when I came downstairs I heard them arguing about something with firm and raised voice. The Malaysian boss did not like the way that the Indian dentist say something which is just like giving instruction. Meanwhile the Indian dentist did not like the way the Malaysian boss say something that for her was rude. The Malaysian boss said to Indian dentist that she told another housemate that she didn't like the way Indian dentist say something. The Indian dentist argued that if someone not comfortable with her, that someone should tell directly but not tell other people. Then Malaysian boss said if the dentist want to come, she can come. If she doesn't want to, she doen't care. In that stress situation, they came to an agreement that whenever one of them not feeling comfortable with another one word or attitude they should tell one another. Then she went to the kitchen and mumbling something about that Indian...I was just focusing on creaming the butter and sugar for kuih samprit and smile....The funny thing she went back to that Indian, kinda like to make up and said let's be square......Someone may not wake up early, why not go at 8am. The dentist said if you say 7.20am, I'll ready by 7.20am...Then gaduh lagi hahhaha..........

Then Malaysian boss went upstairs and that Indian joining me making kuih samprit. She complained about Malaysian boss and asked several questions such as why that Malaysian boss is like that? Is she has a friend? etc...

So I told her, for nearly 3 years I have been with her. I used to it. So it is better just shut up while we were having argument. So I said of course sometimes I couldn't sleep because of Malaysian boss harsh word and I just speechless to answer her back....Indian dentist said that she can't do that. She kinda like prefer to explain.

I added she used to be boss before..top people. Indian dentist said that she is a dentist..only she didn't said that for 1.5 years only hehhee...She also asked me if I were her, do I want to join the Malaysian boss to that somewhere. Hmm..I take a while to answer that. I want her to join us, but then it involve her pride and dignity too. She kinda like pushed me. So I said I am thinking. Then, slowly I said No. She thought so too. She also said that "just because she got a car, she cannot be rude to people". Yup, she got her point. I couldn't agree more. She also said that she sure that in the Quran, you cannot be rude to people...(She is Hindu).

I remember I said that we have to learn to adapt with people (meaning that we have to adapt with Malaysian boss attitude and behaviour). I also mentioned that whenever Malaysian boss came to argument with somebody, the German housemate prefer to smile and the Philipines hmate just keep quiet. Indian dentist again said she can't. Yep of course, that her personality, and mine I prefer to be quiet if I speechless to argue of fight back hehehe...So, I told the Indian dentist maybe the Malaysian boss felt that she was challenged by her because all this while people does not answer back or argue with her. So both of them suit and match each other hahhaha..............

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Good Friday, Makan Day and Baking Day

It was Good Friday and it was a holiday......

But why it is called Good friday ?
From wiki :
Good Friday (from the senses pious, holy of the word "good"),[1][2] is a religious holiday observed primarily by Christians commemorating the crucifixion of Jesus Christ and his death at Calvary. The holiday is observed during Holy Week as part of the Paschal Triduum on the Friday preceding Easter Sunday, and may coincide with the Jewish observance of Passover. It is also known as Black Friday, Holy Friday, Great Friday, or Easter Friday,[3] though the latter normally refers to the Friday in Easter week.

Hmm..whatever...As long as we Muslim believe that Jesus(Isa) is God's messenger and he was not crucified. God raised him up to heaven. I remember that one of the Saudi student asked our english conversation teacher, why it is called Good friday when it is supposed to be Sad friday....terkedu cikgu tu hehhe. The same goes when he asked the teacher why Easter is associated with egg and Bunny. Yup, normally our christian friends don't know the reason :)....My friend's spv said it a symbol of new life....Korang nak tau, sila google ya...

So, how I spend my day on Good friday?
I planned to go to uni and prepared my lunch pack. When I went upstairs it has already 11.15am...Hehhee...so I cancelled my plan. And just did my work at home.

At 5.45pm me and my housemates=kanda, Indian, American and Philipino hmates went to have dinner at Thai restaurant..Our german hmate went to Melbourne..

We ordered fried rice to be shared. And each of us ordered the main course separately, but of course we shared that too. I had fish fillet in chili sauce...Yum...mine was the best.

Other food was quite bland for example grilled squid..Ohh..we really shocked to see that fried rice was aud27. We thought it only cost aud17 for 5 people...The price was ridiculous. I never thought it is really expensive..Yup maybe previously either our accommodation manager paid for our dinner our my spv treat me lunch there...In fact we have to pay extra aud2.50 each because it was public holiday....Huish! Why they charged us for that...It is opened, that was why we went there. It was not the other way round where they have to open because we want to eat there....

Then later instead of went straight to home we went to the beach. It was full moon, just in case they have the drumming festival...

Yup people was playing drums and fire woods nearby the beach

My Indian housemate wanted to go to the beach, so I accompanied her...from behind hehhehe.....She was so brave to play with the water even though from far I could see big waves coming............
Memanglah dalam gambar tak nampak omabk besar...tengok tu the tide is raising so fast....sibuk posing tetiba air dah sampai situ hehhee.....


who else...yours trully ;)On saturday we gonna have another activity. I didn't know what to bring. Belek2 my recipe folder, ternampak biskut samprit. Then turun bawah, tengok semua bahan ada. So that nite, setelah sekian lama I started baking again :). It was so hard to press the mould..nyesal buat, baik buat kek je. Guna mixer, masukkan batter in the tray and terus humban dalam oven. Mungkin coz aku tak timbang main agak2 je sukatan, maka I didn't get the right consistency for the dough, so bila tekan tak cantik bentuk yg keluar selain putus-putus..I gave up and rolled the dough flat and cut it to rectangle pattern. Sesudahnya I only slept at 1.20am. Tu pun my Indian hmate help me hehehe...Ni je tinggal serdak yg tinggal on Sunday afternoon..........

Kesimpulannya sedaplah tuh, my biskut samprit. Kalau tak silap recipe taken from MakLang Azie's blog. Kanda yang memula tak makan pun, sekali ambil 3 keping hehehe. My Indian housemate 2, 3 kali jugak asked my permission to eat that biscuits. Dah letak atas dining table..so just feel free to eat :)).........

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Live the life....

What would you do if someone said "hati tak tenang,saya rasa bingung"?
What makes someone feel that?
Is that someone still hurt by the past or scared of the future?
What if that someone said both?
Why not we say Allah is always with us?
Can we say to that someone to forget the past?
What if that someone can't forget the past no matter how hard that someone had tried?
Of course it is hard to forget the past especially one that hurt you the most, but if it keep on tormenting you, bring you down and affect and harm your present life, when will you enjoy your life? how will you be happy?
Should we say,
learn from the past, live in the present
and dream and prepare for the future.
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Not everybody get what you got....So why don't you be grateful, appreciate and indulge the opportunity and experiences of being here , bury your sorrow, look and move forward............
It so easy to say it but what if we were in that someone shoes?
Someone may act like that, when someone's patience was pushed beyond the limit...

Even though I sympathized with that someone, I don't know how to help that someone anymore. That someone does not want to listen to others. That someone also got furious when that someone felt that other people invading that someone personal boundary even though the other party only had good intention to make that someone comes to someone sense. What else friend is for ? Sometimes I was also irritated when that someone kept on complaining about other people and expecting them to do as what that someone wants but at the same time that someone still does not want to change, as well as to cease the ego, erase the hatred and stop bearing the grunge and always have negative thinking and doubt other people. Please stop torturing yourself, meet and get to know other people and LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST....


Yup, it is someone right to stay as someone is. If that someone does not want to change, let go of the past and listen to others, why that someone keep on looking for people to listen to that someone problem and complaints ?

However, I feel uncomfortable when I heard people talking about that someone. Of course, I'm at fault too, I do the same thing but I only share in the blog where people don't know that someone. That only happen if I can't stand it any longer. But not spread that someone problem to the people who know that someone. Tell others is one thing, seems happy with what had happened to that someone is another thing. The worst when one of them who just heard about that, spread another part of the stories, put two and two together, make her own conclusion and blamed that someone without knowing the whole stories. In fact she made her own stories which were totally opposite from what I heard from that someone. Not only that, later she made her own investigation about that someone by asking certain people who used to be quite close to that someone. Last time she said that she couldn't be bother about that someone anymore, but why she went up to that extent this time ?

To that someone..
INSYA ALLAH, you'll find your way...
You have fight for your right and done all the possible ways that no one may even think of doing so. So later there will no regret for not doing so. However, if the 'thing' is not meant for you, you have to accept it. That thing is not everything. You may not get it now, but you may get it in the future...Allah knows what is best for us. Somebody told me that you never failed to get anything that you want, hmmm you never told me about this before. So this may be the time that you have to learn that you won't get everything that you want. You should not be ashamed if you won't get it since you have done your best :)....Again, I know I am not the one who carrying that heavy burden and I am still sailing to that somewhere ...

update : 11/4/2012-3.33pm:
My friend shared these beautiful words in FB..........

ASTAGHFIRULLAH FOR THE PAST
ALHAMDULILLAH FOR THE PRESENT
INSYA ALLAH FOR THE FUTURE..............

Monday, April 9, 2012

Lintah lagi....

Lately, memang mood berblogging ke laut ;)), lagipun tak kuasa nak upload gambar.

On Wednesday aku tak bawa heavy meal to uni, aku hanya bawa danish pastry. Kononnya nak pi postgrad lunch. Nyesal pi, dahlah beratur panjang, hanya ada sandwich je...The purpose for that lunch was supposed to be for networking. But actually people only talked with the people they know or with whom they came...Hish, banyak komen kan. Padahal makan free, patut bersyukur ....I got my lappy back and I paid that adik IT aud50. Daripada aku kayakan Cina kedai komputer tuh, baik aku kayakan adik undergrad yg baik hati tuh..Kesian jugak kat dia, menurut aweknya, ada kawan2 yg gunakan khidmatnya tapi tak bayar apa2 pun...Memanglah kalau mintak tolong kawan tak perlu bayar, tapi kita kena fikir, kawan kita tu student juga macam kita. So bayaran tu bukanlah upah, tapi more like as menghargai masa dan tenaga yang dia dah habiskan mengadap membaiki lappy tuh.

Then my spv came to my office to give me the big easter egg.

She will be on holiday for a week. Yeay...lalu tikus boleh menari2 hehehe. So we should meet after that since it has been quite a while I have not seen/discuss with her....Ye lah, no result, no report lahkan...;)

On 5th April, I cooked couscous udang kunyit for my lunch....Hehehe kunyit lagi, haritu ayam kunyit. Guna frozen prawn je ...

Bila pi opis, biasalah with my programming. But I didn't get the result as it supposed to. Hmm...I should check my model right from the start and check my coding too....Then, petang tu me and friends hang out with Cik Olyn yang dah takde kerja tu..Owh..how I wish I'm in that condition too....I had orange infused hot choc and carrot cake. I got two small easter eggs, tapi tinggal sebiji je in the first photo. Memang seronok sekali sekala take a break and borak dengan kengkawan. Wah macam2 info, cerita and gossip. Cuma kena tahan telinga dengan si Kanda la bila dia mula argue on something or said..."jangan ingat korang pandai sangat". That was her word when we talked about examination result...Bila balik opis, macam takde mood pulak buat kerja. Kuatkan semnagat jugaklah. At last 8.30pm I gave up and packed my things. On my way to the bus stop I met my slow tapi pandai friend again, Mr Leech...

Not sure whether the same leech that I saw previously. If so, it has moved quite far....

Actually, aku dah tak berani sangat nak balik lambat. Kalau dulu aku keluar paling lambat 9.35 pm coz nak kejar the last bus. tapi since dah end of day light saving starting from 1st April, 9.35pm tu dah kira quite late. Last tuesday, when one of the senior lecturer saw me as I was about to exit my school at that time, he remind me not to walk alone in the dark. He suggested me to call security to accompany me to the bus stop. But my friend does not trust the security too...Hehehe..memang pun, coz ada yang muka macam tukang pecah rumah jugak.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Jom vakum laptop....

Apa dah jadi ????????

Begini ceritanya.....
Apa kaitan dengan vacuum cleaner ?........
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Hah nampak ke ??????

Belajar tinggi (takdelah tinggi mana pun hahhaha...should I say belajar jauh), tak semestinya bijak ya Puan-puan....
Begitulah simpton orang-orang Phd yang kritikal lagi nazak...Buat benda bukan-bukan. Konon nak cepat lagi mudah. Lagi menyiksakan kena buka vakum cleaner tu dan menguis-guis kekotoran...uwekkkkkkkkk.

Dengan laptop tu pun dah nazak. The 'dot' and 'O' keys were not functioning anymore. Even though I can use the on screen keyboard, I prefer to use external keyboard. That explains why my lappy keyboard yang berabuk, berdebu dan bertanda tuh...Dahlah my lappy cacat, last year terkena jangkitan virus, so my lappy masuk spital. Konon nak dapatkan rawatan terbaik dan cepat, maka terbanglah nak bayar yuran perkhidmatan dan rawatan sebanyak aud120. Bila bebeberapa hari discharge from hospital, macam ada sakit lain pulak. Aku dah tak mampu dan malas, maka aku hantar je rawatan alternatif. Chet rupanya doktor tak bagi rawatan yang secukupnya...Aku bayar rawatan alternatif aud60. Dan tiba2 last Wednesday, lappy aku sakit lagi. Dia kena stroke, so semuanya kaku tak bergerak.........Maka on Monday the 2th April, aku kena bersihkan dia mana yang patut sebelum dihantar ke pusat rawatan alternatif. Maka terjadilah kejadian yang tidak disangka-sangka seperti di atas hahhaha..........Padanlah muka aku...Aku kan BIJAK....

On Tuesday, I told my philipino n german hmate about my sick lappy. Tetiba kanda tanya dah beli/install Kapersky ke...I cakap tak. Dia kelihatan hampir2 nak cakap padan muka...Kalau dia cakap mahu je aku smash balik, I am not complaining, I just telling them....yang dia nak masuk campur apahal. Tapi at last dia cakap I supposed to learn from my previous mistake....I know, but I didn't want to think about matter that make me stress even more. Better redha....So tengahari tu, my lappy masuk rumah sakit alternatif .....

On sunday, once again I become kanda GPS assistant to Westfield...We bought Indian food at the foodcourt...beef rogan josh and chicken apatah..tikka ke..and chillies pickles...


For early dinner on Monday, I had turmeric chicken with cous cous........


On Tuesday, I just mixed this turmeric chicken with couscous....sedap atau tak. Habis aku makan :).

On Wednesday, pepagi 7.45am aku pi woolies..cari sayur and muesli. Mahal pulak veges in woolies this week. Nak pi fruit market malas. Sedap betul tengok danish pastries...Choc donut pun sedap. Hampeh...dalam donut tu macam ada kastad+vegemite....grrrr...maka aku makan tanpa perasaan. Aku mmg susah telan vegemite, umpama cicah donut dalam petis............

Aku nak cerita pasal lappy kan..camna boleh terlajak pasal food hehhehe..........

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Picnic on the beach ?

Aku memang malas betul nak berblogging lately....Ni hah aku kumpul cerita seminggu...

On Saturday -March 24th, as I was not sure whether I want to go out or not to meet my friend in the city, my Philipino hmate asked me whether I want to join her to have lunch outside. At first we planned to go to Indian cafe, but later end up eating tacos and nachos hehehe.........

On Sunday the 25th, me, kanda, german n Philipino hmate planned to have picnic branch on the beach, but end up sitting on the bench at the park overlooking the sea hehhee......

Dah guna camera chikai, mana nampak laut hehehe. Hah ni gambar masa Australia day, nampak jugaklah laut walaupun tak membiru...


Kanda prepared the pumpkin soup and garlic bread(tapi guna my pumpkin and carrot la hehhee), the philipino prepared seafood pasta while the german prepared cold tomato soup.


Aku? Aku tak kuasa nak prepare apa2..beli je frozen spincah roll


Then bakar. Tapi awatlah lambat masak n bertukar warna, bila angkat kat bawah dah rentung hahhaha............Semestinya halal We really enjoy our time there. Bila matahari memancar the german sukalah, me and philipino dok pakai sunglasses and hoodies hehhee...........Walaupun we really full, we still had desert at home...scone top with butter and jam and cream and accompanied by ice cream...yummmy......

On tuesday-March 27th, I cooked black pepper pasta for my lunch.

Tu yg tergolek tu fish ball fried by the Philipino...Pasta tu lah yang menjadi my lunch pack for 3 days hehehe....Nyampah bila kanda kata aku masak lama. Yelah nak masak dulu pasta tu, sambil tu potong daging n sayur. Then nak masak sosnya pulak....Bila sampai uni, I wrote all my calculation properly. Nanti tak tahu pulak mana satu salah, mana yg betul hehehe...Belek2 drawer, jumpa coklat....benda free jgn ditolak.


Haritu orang yang sama juga bagi cake 2 kali pulak tu...Tiba-tiba at 4pm ada orang ketuk bilik. Ingatkan the temp staff yang just check number of person in each room, rupa-rupanya my friend. ...Nampak je muka dia, baru aku teringat aku tak sembahyang zuhur lagi. Apalagi kalutlah....Selesai je solat, apalagi bermula lah sesi aku sebagai pendengar. Actually aku bengang jugak, dia tak bagitau tetiba main terjah bilik aku...(Tapi lpas tu bila aku check email, di ada hanyar YM message to come to my opis)...Tu la rupanya pagi tu dia call aku, aku tak sempat angkat coz tangan penuh lotion, nak call semula takde credit. Dia call semula, masuk machine...Hmm Hp ku dah mengong la tuh...Dalam pada dia merayau tanpa tujuan. Rupanya dia dah cerita pada sorang adik ni pasal masalah dia. Tu la kena juga jumpa orang lain other than me. Now baru tau adik tu very cool n understanding....

Tapi as usual, dia asyik salahkan seseorang atas masalah yg menimpanya. Kalau dah tak suka, tinggalkanlah. Buat apa nak siksa diri. Bila aku nak cerita bagi contoh, dia mudah sangat naik angin, potong cakap aku and buat assumption. Sampai aku fed up, malas nak sambung cakap, terus bagun dan cakap nak ambil wuduk. Bila aku selesai ambil wuduk, dia tanya apa kaitan contoh aku dengan cerita dia. Aku cakap aku pun tak ingat sebab dia potong cakap aku....Then aku solat, berkemas and cakap aku nak pi city. Yelah takkan aku nak halau dia balik pulak dalam dia memerlukan seseorang. So walaupun aku sendiri tengah stress dengan kerja aku yg banyak tuh, baik aku blah sebelum aku jadi lebih stress dengan dia yang nak orang faham dia, tapi dia sendiri tak nak faham orang...Kami jalan bersama ke bus stop. Bila sekali lagi dia cakap pasal masalah dia, I lost my patience and aku raised my voice and said dah tak suka, tinggalkan je...Aku pi city makan ayam sensorang hehhee.........

Tapi aku makan separuh je la. Tapau bawak balik la...Malam tu aku tengok My kitchen rule finale...Sedih...Roco kalah....My german housemate belikan greek yogurt and choc cake.

Haritu aku beli yogurt perisa blueberry, tapi aku tak suka coz manis. Aku prefer greek yogurt yg agak masam. So aku bagi dia my yogurt. Rupanya dia nak jugak ganti my yogurt tuh. Kek coklat tuh coz dia tau aku teringin cake coklat. Haritu aku buat guna mwave, tapi tak jadi sangat coz malas letak telur. Bila aku makan on thursday it was actually banana cake not choc cake...telan je la, Benda free kan hehehe... Terharu pulak ada kawan yg ingat kita. Of course she shouldn't do that...Tapi dia kata i dah bagi banyak kat dia. Owh baru teringat I ada bagi dia deodorant sample, sun block yg aku dpt free, my heater and also hair straightener left by my friend yg aku tak pernah guna n tak tahu guna...Tu la benda yg kita tak pakai better bagi pada orang yg memang pakai, daripada dijadikan perhiasan or tukun tiruan hehhehe....

Hari rabu aku kalut pi uni nak jumpa spv nak tunjuk presentation slide. Dia takde I just slipped the printed slide under her door. Bila check email rupanya dia tak dapat datang coz anak sakit...So aku buatlah kerja constructing my model. Nampak complex. Kenapa pulak ada penambahan term compared to my previous work. Habih..risau sungguh. Takkan projek dulu silap. Kalau model silap, result pun silap, meaning kena buat correction for my paper Oh No !!!! Aku balik malam la. When the bus nearly reached the bus stop at the undergrad accomodation, the students ran like mad crossing the road. When the bus stop, they cant wait to get on the bus. Just imagine the situation out of control when the students shouting and yelling loudly. So scary luckily I sat in the first row just near the driver. But lady bus driver...She cant do anythig if something happen. I know they were going to the bar since I read somewhere that nite the drinks cost aud3 only....

Bila balik, on kan lappy...bila click mozilla unrespond n ada bunyi pelik. malas nak tunggu I cuba on off 3 kali..pun Camtu jugak. Turun dulu reheat the fries and fried chicken...Malas nak join kanda n Indian bising2 di bawah dalam keadaan yg stress ditambah pulak dgn lappy buat hal. So sambil makan, sambil figure out what is wrong..try check safe mode...boleh pulak. Tapi dah namanya safe mode certain application je la boleh guna. dugaan sungguh kan....

On thursday...aku ternampak lebam kat keting and betis...Hish hantu mana yg gigit. Sakit pulak tu, jalan pun susah...Tak tahulah kenapa..ada yg kata salah tido, ada yg kata penat sgt..yang pastinya aku memang tak langgar apa2 hehehe...Tapi mungkin jugak, haritu aku jalan banyak and laju kot...terkejut salur darah lalu pecah....nanti marah doktor dengan aku punya assumption hehhee...

Then aku terlmabat jumpa spv and attend farewell gathering tuh. Spv siap spread the cheese on the biskut and bagi kat aku and my friend hehhee....Dia mmg suka cheese tu. Orang lain dah blah, dia bagi aku chips and grapes hehhee....rezeki jangan ditolak....So dalam pada bengang kena baiki slaid, makan tetap makan hehehe. Bila my opismate look at my slaid, dia tanya apa contribution..Aku cakaplah for future experiments and MD Simulation and the development of new device. Dia macam tak puashati...So aku cakap aku study how the structures interact with each other. Sibuk sangat tanya aku kan. Aku tanya apa dia buat. Terdiam hehehe. So dia cakap dia buat prediction of....Memamglah bidang kami buat prediction tak kisahlah apa cara or model kami guna...........Anyway, this kind of dicussion mmg bagus. When you talk with someone who have no idea of your work and how you can explain it in simple word ;)...

Then aku semak my previous work. Harap lah takde kesilapan..nanti banyak benda kena buat semula. Alhamdulillah ok..Memanglah tak sama hehhe...Model dulu in the centre.. Model sekarang ada offset....Memanglah ada penambahan term.

Bila aku chat dgn my GOOD friend, now I see kenapa dia tak boleh ngam dengan boss dia...Ni her words in

"selalu sgt forward emel seminar yg i pun dpt.then check i tak p.dia ckp i am not behave like a phd sbb tak p seminar yg dia forward.sekali dua i ok la.bila da selalu dia buat "

So aku tanya-u only go if you want to go?-

"yes la .i choose my own seminar.i am an adult .kenapa pulak kena ikut ckp dia.i tak suka org nak control2 ni ."

And I said -memanglah, tapi kalau dia as boss benda tu berguna why not pergi je-

"i tau p mana2 seminar.so u n dia nak ckp i tak pandai nilai la .i tau la i menilai seminar mana i nak pergi .i pun tak pernah paksa u p seminar endnote or apa2 kan .so samala kan.each of us tau la menilai mana baik utk kita.mgkin dia layak supervise master student je.so bole la arah2 student p sminar"

Aku, dalam hati sentap....dalam pada dia mengutuk spv dia, dia tak sedar dia mengutuk aku yang biasanya ikut je arahan spv. Hmm...so spv aku layak supervise master student je ye..Kalau camtu aku level master ye. Bukan takut. Walaupun kita tak suka, tp kalau benda tu baik untuk kita why not. Contohnya when I joined that competition, boleh latih my confidence selain dapat input from judge and audience. If you don't want to go, just refuse it diplomatically....Teringat lagi bila dia cerita spv favor and puji2 student yg excellent. Dikatanya orang tu bodek spv....So, tu la kalau tak boleh nak kerja dengan orang lain dan tak boleh ikut arahan, memang susahlah. Tapi bila ada orang bagi apa yg dia nak, bukan main suka lagi walaupun org tu dia pernah kutuk tak membantu menyelesaikan masalahnya etc...Bukan semua benda orang boleh bagi kita, sometimes kita kena cari sendiri. Anyway my friend, again I am not i your shoes....Saya kesian, saya simpati, tapi awak kena juga buang ego, atasi kedegilan dan semua dendam tuh.....

Bila balik rumah nak tengok Desperate Hwives, eh takde pulak...On friday...the day of thesis competition. Petang tu bila check FB..wah Cik Olyn dah submit thesis. Congratulation Sis... You jangan balik sesenyap je tau. Malam, i had this for dinner

stir fried veges+pickled radish+egg sambil tgk movie The Perfect Match..............