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 Semalam ternampak FB posting Syed Azmi

He shared quotes from IG

"Marahnya orang sabar adalah diam"

"Marahnya orang kecewa adalah pergi"

The second line just happened to me last week

When a friend ignored my advice for not copy paste

When her words hurt my feeling

When for the first time in 12 years 

I got the courage to say ....

Her words really hurt me

When she said she upset with me

 I chose not to not reply her whatsapp message

No point of saying anything anymore

when someone did not want to listen

Even though it is for her own good

Not only she hurt me

She made me dissapointed with her

I better leave

But after 5 days

I just wanted to clear the air

Maybe I did wrong too

Maybe my words also hurt her

I thought she had enough time and space

To calm down

To think and reflect

After all it's now Ramadhan

So I just asked what she had for breakfasting...

But today....

After 3 days I am still waiting for her reply

Hmm...is this situation refering to the first quote?

Seems not suitable huh 😅

Hmm...let her be

This is not the first time she gave me the silent treatment 😅....

It kinda normal to me

Be it her, other friend or my colleague

Certain people only find me

When they need my favour

When they want me to lend my ears...

But when I am in need

Or think about them

They just ignore me

I guess I should avoid this kinda people

No point thinking

Or worrying about them

Or feeling sympathy for them

If they never think or worry about me

Moreover dealing with them

Gonna make my life miserable 

So enough is enough

FULL STOP....

Your own choice

All this while I always lend my ears to you

For almost 12 years

Yes... more than a decade

Even though back in 2011

You told a stranger

No one wanna help you

But please...

For once please think

No one ask you to further your study

You are the one who chose to do so

And you are the one who chose not to listen to your sv

I can't deny that he is not always right

But you faced the consequence of your action in 2012...

Then, in 2019 ..

By your own choice

You wanna proceed with what you have left

That is good

Never give up

But due to certain circumtances

No idea

Such as lack of guidance

poor management

confusing regulation etc

You faced another difficulty...

Worst...up to legal claim/action

End 2021/early 2022

By your own choice

You wanna try again

Even though I kinda surprised with the institution that you chose

Even doubt with your choice

Not again ...

The similar one

But you have registered

As a friend I definitely support you

Thinking that you have learnt from past experience 

And have properly check everything

But right from the start

Something kinda very fishy

Luckily after making official complaint

you finally got the one that you prefered

But then you have problem in meeting his deadline

You are struggling with your writing

Even to fill up a page template

This definitely due to ...

Again no idea

Could not relate the guidance to your field

your new job, 

family health 

and second house matter

Suddenly after few weeks you only knew that you have to join a program

Which is not related to your field

And you are not interested with it

But to argue with the speaker about the relevance

was really impolite

Even worse to say it was the boring talk

I felt pity for the speaker

Then rather than focusing on your writing

 you spent your time made enquiry here and there

For what?

Why didn't you do so before join it?

Why didn't you check everything?

I thought you have your learnt your lesson from past experience

They have already gotten the approval

So they definitely have the strong justification

Moreover do you think they gonna entertainment

If it only one complaint 

that definitely because not to your preference?

In addition, if they accept your complaint

Do you think they gonna change it immediately?

So you do not have to join the program?

You have no choice

Just face it...

And see the positive side

The latest you complained about the program's task

Regardless of relevant to your area or not

Whether you interested or not

You still have to complete it

But why wanna just copy paste

When you can do it properly

As a friend I have given my support

My advice...

So it is really hurt

When you said

"I dont care"

"Lantaklah"

Even when I said 

I am sad to hear your words

You said you also sad that I did not understand...

What good friend is for?

Letting your friend doing bad thing

What if the PIC found out?

Which definitely result in low result

Even worse fail in that program..

So if the person

Did not want to accept any advice

Think she is always right

Then let her be

Do not say anything anymore

I have done my part

All the best...

Kutuk kerjaya orang lain

Adoilah
Di kala seminggu Syawal
Maka hari ini kembalilah ke tempat cari rezeki
Mood kerja masih ke laut
Hujan mencurah pula di tengahari
Lagilah jadi lautan dalam 😅
Bila malam
Hati mcm nak meletop pula

Nak kita dengar
Masalahnya
Luahannya

Tapi
Sesuka hati kutuk kerjaya kami
Selamba buat generalization hanya kerana beberapa individu

Habih tu
Selama ni kenapa beria2 benar nak dapatkan sesuatu
Bukankah ke arah kerjaya yg dipertikai itu

Bila fikir semula
Memang susah nak bincang dengan org peel gini
They only see what they wanna see
Semuanya negatif
Semuanya salah
Semua orang salah
Tak perform pun sebab salah orang lain
Complaint tak tahu how nak buat
Tapi marah pula bila boss nak hire org luar
So nak apa sebenarnya?
Pastikah akan dapat kerjaya/tugas/boss/colleague/persekitaran yg semua ikut kehendak sendiri?
Bagaimana jika tak dapat?
Nak lari lagi?
Sampai bila?

Minta pendapat kawan
Tapi dikatanya kawannya menghina
Bila I lihat ayat kawannya ok je
Lagipun memang betul orang tu cakap
Tapi dikatanya berlagak pulak
Mmg benar bagai dikata
Atau cemburu si kawan dapat kerjaya idaman?

Walaupun sakit hati
I biasa layankan je
Dah kawan kan
Siapa lagi nk dengar luahannya

Bila kesabaran menipis
I pun berkias-kias lah
Takpun beri analogi
Cakap terus terang risau kecil hati

Bila kesabaran hilang
Barulah cakap terus terang
Apa yg tak kena
Sebagai kawan perlu tegur

Bila masih nak tegakkan benang basah
Eloklah I senyap
Tak perlu respon apa2
Hanya bebel di blog 😂🤣
Dan lupakan

My popcorn maker

Hari selasa
Pagi2 baru terhegeh2 nak jemur kain dan kemas bawah
Akibatnya lewat 25 minit utk 11am appointment

Dahlah lesu dan layu
Mudahlah naik angin
Lagi2 bila customer serba tak tahu
Memang tak tahu tak mengapa
Tiada effort yg bikin panas

Tghari pun tak calm down
Takde buat appointment
Tiba2 my trainee nak jumpa
Bila terserempak I suruh baiki report
Nampak keberatan
Alasan nak cepat
Tapi terpulanglah
Later jgn blame I

After 1 hour baru them naik jumpa
Rupa2nya tak baiki pun
So apa yg mereka buat for that 1 hour?
Alasan takut tak adil with others
Orang suruh baiki tak mau buat
Orang beri peluamg pun buat tak tau
I tak marah pun
Tapi cakap dgn tegas
Nampak sangat tak ikut arahan
(Dahlah haritu beri task pun tak buat)
I cakap I sedih dan kecewa juga
Then baru terhegeh-hegeh nak buat
Boleh pulak 😰😡😅
Lepas tu nk hantar pun satu hal
Blame me pulak
Konon I dok sembang dengan colleague
Dah tu tak boleh ke datang munculkan
Minta maaf mengganggu, hantar report dan minta diri
Takkan tiada Common sense+Adab
Susah ek nak fikir?

Sambil-sambil tu
Jenguk2 my project doc
Nak edit intro macam mana
Pelaksanaan juga
Tak tamak aktiviti or kejamkah?
Jika kalah wajarkah double penalty juga?
Dahlah x dapat ganjaran
Kena denda pulak?
🤔🤔🤔🤔

Bila sampai lewat
Perlulah balik lewat
So hadaplah berbuka di ofis sensorang
Serve me rightlah kan
Luckily ada air cuckoo
Dan last mini pack biscuit
Then kalut balik rumah
Just reheat frozen food

Hari Rabu cuti lagi
Alhamdulillah boleh rehat
Masalahnya terlebih rehat
Awatlah tak bersihkan kitchen hood dan lipat baju
Luckily ada gak buat drawing for two objects
Kurenglah rasa guilty tu

Untuk berbuka gorenglah ubi kayu

Lawankan dengan leftover ayam kari madu+sambal hitam+steam beans n carrots

Tetiba mlm tu rasa nak makan lagi
Teringat ada dried corn
Moh le buat popcorn guna popcorn maker

My verdict ...
Tengok rupa jadilah popcornnya
Tapi kurang crispy mcm popcorn tgv
And ada certain part mcm x kembang habis
So mcm liat.
Luckily beli murah je
AUD10 je
After 6 years ni first time guna 😅

Hari khamis
Perlu kejar my colleague about our project deadline
Tanya juga awatlah I tiba2 kena jadi ketua sub committee on a program
Risau this committee is very important
I totally have zero knowledge n experience on it
Dalam dilema...
Takut tak mampu hadap n buat
Tapi takut juga nak tolak
Nak beri alasan apa 😅
Sakit? Tiada pengalaman?
Too old for that?
Tak pasal2 kema sembur
Haritu bising tak dpt peluang
Now dah dapat pun kecoh gak
😰😨
So just be grateful
And face it

Then barulah nak apply EL for last week and cuti raya
Dok hadap my project document juga
Baiki lampiran dan wordingnya
Make sure in line with main text juga

Alhamdulillah murah rezeki
Dapat one of my favourite food
Wajik durian

Balik masak ayam goreng kunyit
Dan reheat leftover ubi kayu goreng
Tapi rentung pulak
Tiga je selamat 🤣😂😅

Hari jumaat
Rupanya tak insaf juga
Pi lewat juga kerja
Akibatnya lewat lima minit utk appointment
Lamanya jugak diskusi
From 11.05am to 12.30pm
Discuss the suitable panel
And modify appointment letter
As well their third quarter plan

During lunch break dok hadap my project document
Pelik certain textbox just freeze
Had to retype

I got another appointment at 3pm
Pun hangin juga
Eh! Meletop terus
Punyalah I spent masa
Cari template
Cari bahan
Buat rangka
Modify her task
Tapi yg dah suruh tambah, tak buat
Yg di suggest, dibuangnya
Dah komen ikut format pun buat tak tau
So all this while what did she do???
😡😡😡😡
Sedar2 our discussion ended at 6.35pm
Kalutlah solat

7.03 baru nak balik
Sempatkah nk masak
Dah terbayang2 sup telur
Elok je nak masuk kereta
My ex-staff mai
Bagi satay
Alhamdulillah rezeki

7.14 sampai rumah
Settle itu ini
Nak rekod drama Aku yg ko tinggalkan lagi 😅
Barulah Kalut masak sup telur
Sayur takde
Ada beans and carrot je
Berbuka kurma dulu...
Alhamdulillah by 7.27 siap

Sementara nak tunggu kurang panasnya
Makanlah satay dulu....

Punyalah tak senonoh
Lepas solat tarawih
Makan lagi satay
Lepas tu kudap crunchy nut pulak
Then teringin asam pulak 😅
Eh! Ada yg menumpangkah?
Hebat selera makan tu....

Bila malam
Dah kepenatan
Nak rehat dan tenangkan fikiran
Ada pulak yg cerita
Benda yg sama berulang kali
Sampai I naik rimas
Faham perlu tempat nak meluahkan
Tapi agak2 lah
Padahal dah byk kali pesan
Jangan fikir lebih2!!!
Orang tu tak fikir pun pasal dia
Tapi degil juga
Pernah juga dia pi kumpul bukti
Tunjuk yg org tu pun fikir pasal dia

Orang macam ni perlu diingatkan juga
Not everything is about us
No one is perfect
Sukarlah hidup jika semua tak boleh terima
Esp bila things happen tak seperti yg diinginkan
Tak suka bebudak berlari bising2
Padahal jumpa setahun berapa kali je
Menyampah tengok org selfie
Ikut suka hati org tulah
Melainkan pasal dia selfie ganggu kerja kita

Dok kata boss tak kompeten dan bias
Tapi bengang pula bila boss kata dia sendiri yg x perfom
Ada task yg tak boleh solve
Berani pula tak ikut arahan boss
Dan buat hal sendiri
Pulak tu blame boss for why it happened like that
Then nak apa sebenarnya?

Dok kata itu ini salah, jumpa f2f suarakanlah
Tak dilayan, buat aduan
Masih tiada perubahan, usahakan ke peringkat tertinggi
Dah buat semua tu
Maka tak perlu fikir lagi apa yg akan berlaku
Coz tau dah buat yg terbaik
So just accept it
So that we can live calmly n happily

Bila dah tukar tempat kerja beberapa kali
Tak puas hati, sampai bila nak lari?
Wonder juga apa yg tak kena?
Mana boleh semua nak ikut cara kita
Siapa yg bermasalah sebenarnya? 

Kadang2 terfikir juga I ni just mcm taken for granted
Dicari hanya bila perlu 
Otherwise senyap berbulan2
I contact banyak kali tak layan
Sampai I risau apa yg dah jadi
Out of sudden barulah contact I semula
Rupa2nya orang lain dah malas nak layan
No matter what as a friend I layan je la
But nowadays I dah berani tegur n cakap terus terang
Jika betul kawan we never leave our friends
If they made mistake, remind n advise them

I pun jenis cerewet
Cepat tak puashati
Cepat naik angin
Tapi when it comes to work I buat je
Coz tahu tu tanggungjawab
Memanglah sakit hati
Customerlah
Bosslah
Boss abaikan unit dan sibuk cari pendapatan sampingan
Kita yg ada kerja sendiri pun kena jadi balaci
Walau cuti buat juga
Tapi sesudahnya boss tak guna pun
Info penting dari top tak disampaikan
Pandai-pandailah cari sendiri
Boss tak tahu apa
Kita jadi rujukan
Tapi org lain ingat dia serba tahu
Hal ehwal penting diabaikan
Ada je yg perlu jadi wakil
Tapi ada event yg ada boss dan customer boleh muncul and tonjolkan diri pula
Tapi bila fikir balik
I pun pernah jadi boss
Idok le bagus mana
Staf pun tak hormat I
Serabut juga pun ya 🤣🤣🤣
Yg penting sedar diri
Apapun I perlu diluahkan juga
Bila takde siapa yg boleh dengar
Atau bila nampak mereka mula rimas
Atau bila tak boleh share dgn org sekeliling
 I luahkan dalam blog jelah 😅 

Wow panjang bebelan
Maklumlah 2 hari tulis ni
🤣🤣🤣

Bila jadi pemiutang...

Bila cakap pasal hutang...
Memang menyakitkan hati...

Pernah ada sorang tu hutang I
Jumlah banyak and dua kali kot
First RM2500 maybe in 2002
Second RM5000 in 2006
Seingat I dia baru bayar RM2500 kot 😭😭
RM1000+RM500+RM1000...
Then senyap...
I pernah minta and letak syarat
Tapi till now senyap...
Bayar tidak, syarat pun tak ikut...
Tapi bila I tengok
Them suka membazir yg tak perlu
Entahlah...

Ada juga my customer pinjam RM700
Masalah hutang dengan kawan2 due to tertipu dengan awek...
Konom ada laporan polis etc...
Entahlah susah nak percaya...
he no longer with us
He paid his debt once I asked him to do so

Ada juga yg ada masalah kewangan
Memang orang susah
Both parents and two of his siblings are OKU
So I offered my help in case he in need
On March 2015 he told me that he need money to go back to Kelantan

Then feb 2016 he contacted me
asking for any part time job,
telling about his financial problem,
And wanted to borrow my money
Since I didnt know about any job available
I just told him I will lend him money
But when he came
I doubt on something
His eyes were red...
So I asked him directly in case he took something....

On early March 2016 he sent me the picture of his parents' OKU cards.
And asked to borrow money
So I lend him my money
Then on mid march 2016 he asked to borrow money again
His mother fainted
He need to rush back to Kelantan
I have a lil doubt about that and warned him not not lie to me

On April 2016 he told me he wanna return my money
Unfortunately I had meeting
He even sent the picture of her OKU sister
She looks like him...
So definitely I believe him

On early june 2016 he contacted me
Telling me he still remember about his debt to me but can't pay it at that moment
His father just had heart attack
And he was still having that continuos financial problem
He swore that he did not lie to me
He asked about my opinion on something
I suggested to him to see the right people

On june 2016
I asked him about his decision
And when he gonna back to his hometown
Since it is Ramadhan
The full of blessing month
I asked him to see me....
Small contribution for his family

After raya his just went quiet
I was worry about him
Afraid that he made wrong decision
So I contacted him on Nov 2016
He made the decision and had to put something on hold
He got help from my colleague to raise ducks
Unfortunately most of the ducks dead

On jan 2017 he contacted me
He wanted to borrow money to repair his motorcyle...
Then he just went quiet....

On march 2017
My friend told me that his father passed away due to bleeding in the brain
While his mother still in comma due to stroke

On sept I thought of him
When I was about to type a WA message to him
I saw his wedding picture...
Seriously???
Ko tau ko susah
Tapi ko sibuk nak kahwin
Fokus je la dulu to your sick mother and sister...
Senang cerita tak sedar diri
I asked my friend about it
She confirmed it
She knew it since august
Definitely she was shocked as I am

That really made me doubt of him
And I felt like he just took my sympathy as granted
Whenever he came to my workplace he did not looking for me nor even contacting me
So when his financial a bit ok
He totally forgotten about me
When he in need
Only then he remember my existence
I ni cop duitkah?
Tapi later I fikir positif je la
Busy sangat kot...
Or dia banyak benda nak fikir

Suddenly on mid Nov 2017 he contacted me
Telling that his father had passed away
And he showed to me the newspaper cuttings on his family difficulty
He wanna borrow money to buy diapers for his mum
I asked him to wait until I got my salary
He did not tell me that he has married
So I just asked him about his wife

Then on end of Nov 2017
He contacted me again about that.
Even though I still doubt about him
I didn't want to think too much
When he asked for help
I will help
If he lied to me about his condition
Then it is between him and Allah

End of Disember 2017
I was so shocked to see a toddler in his WA profile
Who is that ???
Very fishy....

On early jan 2018
He contacted me by just giving Salam
I kept quiet
Coz he did not say anything else
Even though I can guess what is his intention
I have no sympathy for him anymore

On mid jan 2018
He contacted me again and asked my help
I asked him whether he want to borrow money
So I just lent it to him...

On 4th feb 2018
He contacted me via WA by just giving Salam
I kept quiet
On 6th feb 2018
He told about his hospitalised mum
And need money for his sister meal
I kept quiet

On 11, 25 and 28 April 2018
He contacted me via WA by just giving Salam
I kept quiet
Hello if you need something just tell me right away...

On early june 2018
He contacted me again
Telling me that he had accident and can't go to work...
He need to send money to his sister to buy diapers for their mum and for his sisters sahur and iftar...
But I just keep quiet...
Yup I seemed so mean
No matter how easily pity I am
But once I lost my trust
I can be a hard hearted person

His last message was on July 2018
And again I kept quiet....
So that is the end of his stories...

Oh! I am still not finish yet...

Another money borrower is my ex-customer
On early May 2017
He contacted me to borrow money
He want to go back to Johor
To visit his to be father in law who is warded
He promised to pay me once he got his salary
But on mid may he has yet to get his salary

On mid June he wanted to see me
To return the money
Unfortunately he claimed that his eyes were swollen and he could not see...

On sept 2017
I asked him to pay his debt
Very fishy when he said he is saving his money to pay me...

The last one is my friend
She contacted me on Mid April 2018
She need to collect few thousand RM
To bail out her nephew
Weird...
Her monthly income is nearly RM10k
She even busy with her MLM and current popular bussiness
Eh! She often promotes that it is profitable bussiness
So where did all her money go?

My bff warned me not to lend money to her
But she is in need
No matter how doubtful I am
I should remember her kindness and help
When we used to work somewhere else
And we were housemate...
So I just chipped in few hundred RM only
That was all that I can afford
She promised to return my money
by the next week,
Once they got the money from their uncle...
But when the next week came
She kept quiet

Guess what?
On mid May I saw her travelling overseas  video in FB
Hamboi...hutang ko tak bayar
Tapi ko pi melamcong ya...
Hmm...nephew kena tangkap
Atau ko buat pi melancong?
Eh bukan sponsored trip ka 😉😉😉
So buat apa minta sana sini?
Oh! Betulla...flight ticket, accomodation n meal included...
Tapi nak shopping tu faham2 je lah kan....

So I just tested her
Sent message to her
and asked her to pay my money
She said she is at oversea
And will pay me back on the next week
Once her loan applicatiom is approved
Aik setakat nak bayar ratus je pun nak tunggu loan ka?
But when that next week csme
She just kept quiet...

Guess what ?
Why I made a long post about this?
I need moneylah...
My August payment gone in split second 😰😭
Banyak nak bayau
Pulak tu bila balik kg
Pi makan sana sini
Pulak tu I lah the only banker 😅

So this morning
On 31 August 2018
I contacted my ex customer
And my friend
asked them to pay my money
Within one week and by this monday, respectively
Till midnight the customer just quiet
And my friend replied insyaAllah...
So we will see....

The funny thing is
I kinda ashamed to ask people to return my money
It is embarrasing to keep on asking people
Feel like a beggar...
People borrowed my money
But I am the one who have to initiate for them to pay me back
Wonder why certain people did not keep their promises
How can they live calmly and keep their poker face doing that?

Lesson learnt
DO NOT easily have sympathy towards others
DO NOT easily lend money to people
DO NOT lend money more than RM500

Musim buah dan bebelan

Hari Isnin konon nk bangun awal di kampung. Tetapi bila terjaga 6am, maka hadaplah the slow traffic at ELITE nk balik kerja. So apa yg I bawa dari kg??? Ni gambar after 3 days 😅......

Bila post di FB ramai yg nak...So kita bawa banyak....tapi ada yg pi Penang pula, ada yg prefer manggis pulak and ada yg lansung tak pick up call nor return my call 😰...
Banyak you....takkan I nak biarkan berair dan membusuk. So next time jika tak serious jangan minta I bawa ya !!!. Bukan mengungkit, bukan berkira....tapi I pantang membazir makanan.

Kalau dah lewat petang siapa yg ada di office? Lalu guard house pun takde pula yg menempel tepi gate tu. Tak kuasalah I nak parking tepi and pi cari mereka... Luckily I thought of my younger customers...and one of them returned my call and came at my house at night to pick up the fruits. Alhamdulillah....

Hari Isnin mmg hari busy, mmg appointment pertama 8am dan yg kedua 2pm. Ni my lunch on Monday...lama tak makan ikan tamban...

Murah my food. RM3 je 😁....

My appointment ended at 4pm. Then, I called someone who has issue something...Hmm patutlah anak gitu, maknya worse....Konsepnya senang je awatlah tak sedar diri dan takkan tak tahu. Eh! Hello mum you are a teacher dont talk to me about timbang rasa and what if this happened to my children...if you really love your son and want him to be independent and success in life, please stop whatever you have been doing....

Petang I prepared warning letters to several people up to 7pm. Memang rasa nak run amok je....

Ni my dinner...leftover food from our event 2 weeks ago....pulut, serawa durian dan sambal strawberry ikan masin abang....sedap....

Malam konon nak buat keroje. Tapi kawan call regarding her phd. For me sometimes when listening to many people it will lead us to become confuse. Why don't we just listen to our spv and do as what he said. Yes...as what he said...you got the experience. So should know what to do. But by chitchatting n discussing with you...you seems clueless my friends.

So do not waste your time...you should mske a move. First of all...find as many litratures as you can and classify it. Then you will know what are the common factors. Then either you get the secondary data or get the primary data. Before you mumbling/complaiming it is hard to get it have you try? Have you made call to the relevant parties? If you can't get that secondary data then you have no choice you have to get the data via survey. So you can either adapt previous questionaire or construct your own questionaire. But, make sure you check the validity and reliability. Then only you can proceed to next stage.

Eh! Jauh na tersasar 😂😂😂....
Kisah di hari Selasa pula...misi solving problem with the bos 😉😉😉. Then, I had meeting. Hah! masih tak insaf...selain bebelan terimalah label attention seeker dan kurang kasih sayang 😅😅😅.....

Once back to my office later, I have to waste my time to photocopy/sort many warning letters. I warned them those who burden me with bad attitude I will make dua that they gonna be in trouble for their whole life...Tau takut...tapi tau...tetap nk buat lagikan...hati batu 😅

Ni pulak my lunch on Tuesday....RM5 je ....

Petang meeting lagi...
Abaikan je la yg ada masalah attitude n tak nak beri kerjasama. Better focus to those who willing to cooperate. I have tried my best...advice properly and gave oral warning. So it is up to them to change. So now less talk and just give the warning letter.

Once done with that meeting I got another meeting at 4.30pm. Selain work discussion ada sesi luahan perasan 😂😂😂. Lah last week dah bebel...this week sambung lagi. Eh tau pula ko kata young staff does not respect senior staff. Bertemu buku dan ruas la kan...And kira kifarah jugalah kot for what u did to us all this while 😂😂😂...Yes sometimes the so called soft spoken one can hurt people more than the frank peole 😉😉😉....

Ni dinner lawak....

Nasi goreng ikan masin tapi ayam dan telur lagi banyak 😂😂😂...
Udang apatah..namprikao kot...Pedaslah...
Nasi tu kebiasaannya I makan 1/3 je....Tapi entah mana datang selera...bakinya yg 1/3 😂😂😂. Orang sepatutnya makin tua makan sikit bukan makin melantak 😂😂😂.....

Akhirnya...

Lately tiba2 dua orang I kawan I jadi senyap.
Seorang senyap since 26 Mei 2018.
Kenapakah?
Marah atau kecil hati dengan ku?
Aku hanya sarankan utk dia ikut sahaja cadangan penyelianya...
Usaha dulu...
Jika memang tak dapat data, maka ada bukti dia dah usaha. Cuma data tu sulit. Bukan menyerah kalah dari awal...
Sepatutnya belajarlah dari pengalaman terdahulu....

Kadang2 aku geram...
Orang cari aku bila perlukan teman berbicara
Tapi bila kita bertindak sebagai kawan
Tiba2 tak puas hati pula
Oklah kalau dah tak mau layan aku
Lantaklah ko...

Tapi adakala aku risau
Apa jadi padanya?
Perlukah aku minta maaf
Walhal aku tak tahu salah apa?

Yang sorang lagi diam membisu since 7 jun...
Faham keadaan dia...
Memang perlu rehat.
Tapi sedikit kecik hati bila terlihat dia online
Tapi tak reply my message
Risau juga coz seminggu dah
What happened to her...

Memang lately bila solat
Ada juga aku doa untuk mereka

Alhamdulillah pg tadi seorang tu menghubungi aku...
Katanya risau pasal kerja
Selain tak nampak jalan pasal study...

Sorang lagi petang tadi menghubungi aku...
Alhamdulillah mendengar khabar gembira
Cuma dia mmg perlu rehat yg lama

Alhamdulillah...
Rasa bersyukur sangat Allah makbulkan doaku...
Doaku yg rindukan dan risaukan akan sahabatku...

When no one to talk to...

Sometimes we need someone to talk to
Just to share something be it a good or bad news
However we have to understand....
People are not always be there for us
Even though we are always there when they are in need
We have to accept...
People can change in a split second
No matter how convincing their promises are
Well..that is life....
Do not expect anything in return
If we do not want to feel upset...

Assumption

Assumption or judgemental
Entahlah....

Bila kita kata ....
"Kenalah tolong, nanti kita yg kena"
Kita dituduh TAKUT customer....
Hmm....sorrylah nak takut...
1. Dah memang tanggungjawab untuk guide and help.
2. Inilah usaha kita ...lantak le cara diplomasi or paksa2 😅
3. Jika mereka dapat buat terbaik mesti kita juga yg puas hati dan gembira
4. Tak kuasa nak bersoal jawab dengan boss yg apa pun kononnya tetap kita yg salah 😅 ....but not takut!!!!

Bila kita kata ada yg perlu check "MANUAL"
Di katanya macam di sekolah pula...
Hello!!! Kita ni walaupun dah biasa dengan sesuatu tak semestinya kita tahu semua
Jika silap macam mana?
Sebab tu sometimes kalau a bit complicated dan unsure with the final result kena check juga.
Setakat nak pasang meja kecik ikea pun I baca manual, ni kan pulak benda2 yg complicated.

Now I know

I want to go
But I can't

When my team decision not into my favor
I make effort to ask another teams from tuesday to wednesday
They have their own excuses
Even though I was upset and dissapointed
I can accept it

This morning I thought of something
So I asked the first team
At least I have no regret for not trying
Again another excuses
If people really care about someone else
Definitely they will make effort
Definitely I was upset again....
It really hurt...
Yes they said they feel unease about it
And will confirm if there is any availability
But definitely I do not want to burden others just for my own sake
After all I got my own dignity
Tak maulah terhegeh-hegeh bila orang mmg tak sudi ...

So I have made the decision
Whatever it is
If there is a chance to go
I won't go...
Because I do not want to get hurt again

My team member felt guilty about what had happened
I think I am ok about it since I can accept the situation this afternoon
Suddenly the second team contacted me
Now they have availability
But I have made the decision not to go
I should stand with it
After all it is far away
And I do not want to jeopardize my love one.
If I know this earlier while I am really looking forward to join them,
Definitely I will think about it....

Think positively...
There must be something ....
Why it is hard for me to join any team
May be Allah wants to protect me

However later something made me wonder...
Why certain of my friends seemed not comfortable when I asked them which team they belong to
Hmm...not a surprise...
Yup...they are in the first team

NOW I KNOW
WHO IS MY TRUE FRIEND
WHO REALLY WANTS ME TO JOIN THEM
WHO WANTS TO SHARE THE JOY WITH ME
YUP...NO ONE
NO ONE CARE OR BOTHER ABOUT ME
I JUST HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF

Quotes for two days

Kisah kawan ditempat kerjanya semalam
Merungkai yang kusut
Menjernihkan yang keruh
At least the boss is doing something
Better than doing nothing
#pantunbercampurbahasakoadabuat😜😜😜

Kisah bersama my colleagues ...

Kisah 1
Our new resolution
Let's join training session
Hiring coach to gain self discipline in our condition
Doing it with friends to boost motivation
Lose weight and to be fit are our intention
#sekianpantunlimakerat 😂😂😂

Kisah 2
Walaupun tempoh telah tamat
Masih perlu berkhidmat
Supaya maklumbalas sesuai dan tepat
Masih balik lewat
Supaya tugasan diselesaikan dengan cepat
Masih perlu memberi maklumat
Supaya mudah tugas rakan sepejabat
Seronoklah si penjawat
Yang renyah bertimbun disuruh orang buat
Yang menonjol sendiri rembat
Orang punya idea janganlah main sebat
Semata-mata nak kelihatan hebat
#ehpantunlagi😅😅😅

Craving for banana

My friend told me this morning that she is craving for banana. Unfortunately she couldn't find any at the shop nearby our house. Normally they are two shops sell bananas. She felt like to cry.

I told her I might go to the town and if I found any definitely I will buy for her. But deep inside my heart I prayed that the second shop nearby our house still has stock or the stock just arrived before I went there. I really pity for my friend...I dont want her to wait till the evening because I am not sure at what time I will go to town. After all I got long list of things to do.

Before I went to the office I dropped by at the second shop. I cant believe my eyes the moment I saw bananas hanging on the stand. Alhamdullillah...thank you Allah.
Subhanallah....Allah answered our prayer
Special feeling when I managed to fulfil my friend's craving and make her happy. It was touching to see her face when I hand in the bananas to her....
If I stayed for another minute I am sure I am gonna cry...
Take care my friend....

Self reminder

While we are chit chatting
Do not just listen
But make it as guidance and reminder...

No matter how furious we are with the boss
Never ever tell our colleagues about it
Later whenever they are not satisfy with us
They will use that to stab our back
Or even worse humiliate us to the whole unit
As a consequence....
To everyone we are terrible employees

No matter how slow our boss is
Never ever tell the related third party about it
Never ever tell them the work progress unofficially
Later they will use our name and confront our boss about it
As a consequence....
The boss thought that we leaked the internal infos

How are we gonna stay happy at work when everybody is against us????

Bermanfaat

Salam Maal Hijrah
Selamat Tahun Baru
Semoga kita menjadi insan yg lebih baik
Dan bermanfaat kepada orang lain....

Belum sempat nak beri sumbangan....
Pagi-pagi tadi saya dah dapat dari manfaat orang lain
Tawaran join venture in something to do with work
It should be mutual collaboration
He helps me for the end of this year
I will help him for early next year
Yes....demi kelansungan kerjaya

On wednesday the 20th
I received an email
I just got appointed to be an evaluator on certain products
What a surprise....
when people still need me
When people seems to acknowledge my ability
At first I feel it is quiet a tough task
Especially in my current situation
Racing for the deadline....
I should be grateful instead
It is good for my career points and development

This morning I thought of a friend
How this week we did not really talk to each other.
Only few whatsapp messages
Only got a chance to saw her while meeting and talked to her for less than 3 minutes...
Suddenly she sent messages just now
And mentioned the same too
You see we got the telepathy and same wave length.....
She knows what is my dream
And really want it to be reality...
That is why she keep on reminding me about it, share everything she knows and pray for me as well....

So...whatever it is
I should be grateful for everything I have...
Understanding colleagues and a good friend are part of it....
Alhamdulillah....

Memanglah nampak I ni lebih ke keduniaan
Tapi siapa yg tidak mahu behijrah ke arah kebaikan dan fikir pasal akhirat...
Tak mampu berubah 100%
Ysng penting niat kita dan usaha kita
Walaupun sedikit dan perlahan

Memang dugaan sangat besar untuk berubah
Macam2 fikiran yg timbul
Kalau hanya sebahagian yg berubah
Tapi masih buat dosa,
Perangai dan sikap masih macam dulu
Apa gunanya????
Rasa nak kembali macam dulu
Lepas, bebas, cantik, mudah, pantas....
Tak larat
Rimas
Serabai
Melambatkan
Memberatkan
Terbatas...
Memang struggle nak mengekalkan
Belum lagi mulut2 orang
Kan cantik begitu begini...
Memanglah niat baik
Dan dengan cara diplomasi
But they do not know me
Adakalanya rasa nak tunjuk protes dan memberontak dan kembali macam dulu...

Maka hari ini
Elok juga cuti ini tinggal di rumah sahaja
Berehat+Buat kerja ofis
Sambil Menonton tv3 mengenai penghijrahan artis Malaysia seperti Azza Elite dan Nur Khiriah
Banyak perkongsian yg membuka mata...
Ya..nak berhijrah perlu ada pengorbanan
Berkawan dengan orang yg baik2
Yang mengingatkan dan menegur ke arah kebaikan
Menjauhi mereka yg membawa kemungkaran
Kena ada usaha
Kena berdoa
Mohon kebaikan dan perlindungan dari Allah

Lepas tu tonton pula kisah penghijrahan dan dugaan pensyarah mualaf ini
Kagum dengan ketabahan dan kekuatan beliau
Begitu juga kepetahan dan keikhlasan kata-katanya
Antara kata2nya....
"Apa jua ujian yg dilalui,Allah sentiasa ada di sisi kita"
"Tak perlu peduli kata-kata orang, yg penting menjadi orang Islam yg lebih baik dari semalam"
"Saya sayang Allah, saya nak buat yg terbaik untuk Allah"
Dan kata2 arwah suaminya...
"Kalau you niat pakai tudung kerana Allah
InsyaAllah you akan pakai sampai bila-bila, you akan tutup aurat dengan sempurna"

Malu pula dengan diri sendiri yg memang Islam sejak lahir tetapi tidak sekuat dia....

Dear friend ...

What a surprise !!!
When the time comes who are we to deny that
Yes...I admit I cried to hear about your good news
Not because I am sad that you will leave me alone
I am grateful that your efforts are fruitful and your prayers are answered...Alhamdulillah
This news
....remind me about the greatness of Allah
....give me hope
....inspire me to keep on believing, making effort and praying....

Macam Mati laki

Yes....
That word....is so mean and rude.
I didn't know how to react?
Shock, Angry or sad?

Even her intention is good
She stopped by to see me
She cared about it...
Wondering why did I look so upset in yesterday meeting ...
But that was not an excuse to say hurtful word

Yes she is honest
and just being frank
But why so bold?

Doa sahabat ...

Dah lama tergerak hati nak buat sesuatu.
Tapi saya tahu saya tak kuat.
Walau apa pun saya tetap berdoa
Selalu saya mencuba-cuba di rumah

Minggu lepas saya cuba lagi
Tiba-tiba esoknya saya dapat hadiah
Maaf sahabat, saya tak kuat
Tolong doakan saya

Waktu cuti, ku cuba lagi
Saya dah ada misi...bila akan bermula
Cuba separuh...
Selesa?
Teruskan yang penuh

Tadi I sentuh sesuatu milik sahabat lain
Tiba-tiba sidia berikan senyum manis
Katanya suka melihat apa yg ku pakai dulu
Ya, kunjungan ke rumahnya 5 tahun dulu
Aku pun tak ingat ...lama sudah
Lantas katanya nak belikan aku hadiah
Hadiah? Amat dialu-alukan
Tapi aku tak janji akan gunakan terus
Cuma...
Doakan aku sahabat...

Attention seeker...

Hari selasa lepas....
Satu group WA berdiskusi pasal amalan masing-masing
Satu group lagi rancak bercerita pencapaian kerjaya masing-masing
Memang perkara yg berbeza....
Tapi kedua-duanya perlu berpada-pada bila bercerita
Jika niat untuk berkongsi dan memberi inspirasi...baguslah
Tapi jika niat untuk meraih perhatian dan menunjuk-nunjuk...sendiri fikirlah.

Bila ditimpa musibah
Ada yg lebih cenderung untuk mendiamkan
Merahsiakan ....
Setelah beberapa hari, minggu, bulan barulah ada yg tahu
Tapi ada juga yg riuh sekampung
Daripada merengek-rengek, merintih-rintih dalam whatsapp....baiklah mengadu kepadaNya.
Emmm...where is your spouse? Sibling? Family?
Jika masih mampu menghantar mesej kerap dan banyak....errr....are you sure you really sick?

Hmmm....
Cerita pasal amal ibadah salah
Cerita pasal kerjaya salah
Habih tu nak cerita pasal apa?

Hmmm...
Tak beritahu apa berlaku...dituduh berahsia
Bila beritahu apa yg berlaku...dituduh raih simpati dan perhatian
Habih tu apa yg patut dibuat?

Serba salah ek....
Sebaiknya si pencerita berpada-pada...
Dan si pendengar ambil teladan dan fikir positif

Bila mengharap penghargaan...

Sometimes a bit sad when people never acknowledge what you had done for them. But when other people done something for them they really appreciated it and announced it in a split second. That is why we need to reflect, we done something because we really want to do it and do it sincerely or because we expect appreciation and compliment from others.

Sometimes a bit upset to learnt that someone got material from others and put her name as the first author and commercialized it even though her task was only combining the material. Had she get the agreement and approval from those who really put on effort on the materials??? Why she never think of it? Where is her common sense? Shame on you...All this while I am really impressed with her...now I lose my respect for her.

Talking about materials that is why I am really particular about it and a bit reluctant to share mine with others to avoid thing like this to happen. You are the one who really put effort on it,  had to work late at night, sacrifice your weekend, and push yourself to the limit despite having headache...and yet people easily apologised for distributing the soft copy of your work to others. The worst scenario definitely when someone else claimed that she is the the main contributor..

Tembam dan debab

Last week I posted latest photos of mine on facebook. My ex-colleague commented that I looks TEMBAM.

Yesterday I went to a nursery and I met the owner after 6 years. Guess what she said to me....DEBAB nyer....

Huhuhu...ok...ok...I mengaku I have put on weight. Walaupun susah, saya akan cuba dan berusaha untuk menukar 10kg fat to muscle.....