Warning: This is really long entry for cerita basi............
Haritukan aku dah cakap...aku ni cepat berubah fikiran. Kejap nak buat drug molecule project, bila rasa susah and simulation pun tak berjaya, tukar pulak nak buat projek lain. The initial result for that other project seems ok. Tapi macam tak cukup pulak for thesis and journal article. So, I have to study it behaviour which right from the start I rasa tak realistic since I neglect certain term. But I just proceed, kononnya nak buat kerja sampai habis. Unfortunately
one day before Good friday April the 6th, my result macam hampeh...graph patut smooth, tapi yg aku dapat not only oscillates but discontinuous too. Of course I have to check everything right from the start.
Tak kuasa nak stress dengan project tu, I thought just forget it for a while. Actually, I am not confident with my current project. So I think it is better if I have the back up plan by using the drug molecule that I have abandoned last time due to complicated model. So on
Easter saturday 7th April, I read and understand the article that used the similar structure as the drug molecule, but of course as usual my drug molecule got extra parameters :(......
On sunday morning, I managed to understand the basic of their model. But later, I had difficulty in getting half of the term as in their model. So, I sent email to that author which is actually my group member who are now working in Singapore. I felt lil bit regret for not reading the article properly while he was here..:(..........
TuesdayI checked programming code for my current. I noticed typo error as well as the order of the equation.
WednesdayI made correction for my programming code and checking the derivation of the general model as well as specific model for atoms.
On Thursday-April the 12th,
Sambil mengadap lunch
I read my email which actually I just noticed it even though I received it the day before.....
We have received the referee reports for your manuscript......................As you can see, the referees have requested some revisions.
Please revise the manuscript taking the referees remarks into account.
To avoid misunderstandings it will be helpful if you provide a detailed response to the referee reports.............
COMMENTS FOR THE AUTHOR:
Reviewer #2: The authors present a theoretical approach to the study ..... The investigation of ..... certainly interesting for a broad range of technological applications, and the science underlying their mechanics and transport capabilities remain poorly understood. Hence, the study presented is of great interest. However, there are several technical issues that need to be clarified before the paper can be recommended for publication:
1. Authors should perhaps clarify whether the approach presented is novel, since it has been previously employed to study ..............
2. The validity of the assumption that the ......... are negligible in...... is not clear. .........
................................
The authors do not present adequate proof that the assumption can be made for a..........
Some clarification on this issue is needed to assess the reliability of the approach, as well as its general applicability.
3. ........... making the assumption of neglecting ...... highly questionable. Given these considerations, it is recommended that the authors provide further justification for the applicability of this approach to ..............
4. According to the discussion in the paper, it seems .................
This is surprising, since ...............
This is a concern, since the configurations presented in the manuscript may not be .............
Perhaps experimental structures may give insight into what may be a representative configuration.....
Authors should discuss this further and make revisions if necessary.
Tak mau sedih2, aku malas nak baca my paper again. Aku focus on my current project.
On friday the 13th,
Aku
bawak bekal fettucine with creamy tuna sauce...
Baru aku balas email the editor and tanya bila due date for revision. So it will be on 23 May 2012. Another one month............Hmm how should juggle between writing thesis, doing current project and making revision :(........Bila check my current project still ada problem jugak. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR............
So petang tu aku pi city, makan ayam goreng dan balik jalan kaki sambil menikmati pemandangan suasana senja di tepi laut
Ok dah nampak mega jingga....ayuh cepat2 balik...............
Balik rumah lepas solat, sambung makan lagi. Tetiba rasa nak baking....hmm tart nenas. Guna setengah adunan recipe dari blog kak jee. Jem nenas aku buat guna pineapple slices in can, 2-3 days before. Curah nenas+airnya+1/2 tsp cinnamom, caster sugar 3 tbs, 3 tbs brown sugar. Bila jem nampak pekat tapi masih tak hancur aku tambah air. Sambil kacau, sambil aku tekan kasi hancur...Tu la malas nak blend...Hehhee..aku tak reti guna tart mould, aku guna garfu kasi corak. lepas tu dah malas, aku tekan lenyek guna jari je..............Jangan gelak..first time tau buat tart nih
Tengoklah jem yang kasar berserat hehhee..tapi totap sodap
Hari Sabtu
Aku pi uni. Takde mood nak buat kerja sangat. Hehehe aku pi upload gambar and buat draft previous 2-3 entries...For dinner, my german hmate ajak kami join makan her pumpkin soup n philipino hmate punya cheese cake...........Konon nak tengok Reese wither spoon in walk the line, 3 hours movie. aku tengok sampai 10pm. Ingat nak tido. Tapi aku pi install the software. Aku pi buat simulation for the model from two references for my current project. Tapi my result was not accurate and I stayed up until 2.30am.............
Hari Ahad -15/4 konon aku nak pi uni jugak. Malas pulak heheh.........So, basuh baju, kemas bilik and my duty to vacuum clean the common area upstairs, stairs and downstairs as well as mop the kitchen floor. Ada sesape nak perkhidmatan tukang cuci ;))).
Haritu macam rajin pulak ngaji banyak kali. Tetiba sebak bila baca surah al Araaf ayat 55:
Berdoalah kepada Tuhanmu dengan berendah diri dan suara yang lembut. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menyukai orang-orang yang melampaui batas.
Yelah siapa tak sebak, bila selama ni memang tak sedar diri dahlah jarang baca al-Quran. Bila ada masalah, baru nak kerap baca. Tu pun on off. Selama ni berdoa pun tak sungguh-sungguh, walaupun ada masalah besar.
For early dinner I cooked prawn+bitter melon(kambas)
Malam tu tengok Avatar. That was 2009 movie, hmmm I only watched after nearly 3 years. Baru 1/2 jam, my Iranian friend datang. Hish..orang dah habis phd pun ada masalah juagk. Kesian jugak, dia stress cari kerja. Spv dia pun tak nak ambil dia jadi research assistant/officer. Dah register for job online pun tiada yg panggil. Dia kata in OZ, nurse got high demand. So sesape nak berhijrah ke OZ, sila la apply jadi nurse. Malam tu dapat idea pasal current project
Monday -16/4
After nearly 3 years, akhirnya tertunai hasrat di hati pi Health/Recreation Centre. I joined the body balance class during lunch hour. It's the combination of yoga and pilates. I found it too slow. After class dah habis..ada sesi sambungan. Aku ingat kami kena baring sambil meditasi...So aku just lelap mata je la. Lansung tak dengar movement orang lain. Bila rasa dah lama sangat baru aku bukak mata, aku tengok depa semua ada buat pergerakan hehehe. Mesti instructot tu gelak tengok aku terlentang tido hahhaha.........Then balik ofis, lunch lauk prawn n buat apa yg patut.
Petang tu aku pi aerobic class yg fokus BAT-buttock, abdoment n torso. Hah ko. Memula aerobic high intense...Lepas tu lari in circle. Then stop each station ada pergerakan tertentu...Lepas tu squat, sakit lutut. Bila lompat and landing lemah lutut. Ada jugak ala2 sit up, then gigil2 nak angkat kaki. Padan muka aku, body balance slow sangat kononnya, BAT pulak boleh pitam o. Then, sebelum balik opis kena mandi la..peluh sakan....
Balik opis, I try on the idea that I got the previous nite. Tapi, tak dapat jugak..............So email spv, bagitau my problem n bagitau nak jumpa wed or thursday. Malam tu makan tahu bakar+kanda punya kuah kacang. Hah ko..sebelum tido... pakai yoko-yoko yg expired...........
Tuesday,
My body hurt everywhere.........
Masak bekal...........suhun.
Tapi tengok gelap n hujan. So my lunch pack became my breakfast. Then, cari bahan tukar projek-ada dua bahan, satu start with Cob..., satu start with Dia.... Try buat simulation for Cob with more popular structure. Macam good agreement dari segi properties, cuma tak sure dari segi optimum value............... Actually masa cari bahan for Cob, terjumpa article by senior yg dah pi Singapore. Macam menarik...cuba fahamkan model dia, aku tak faham2. Again I slept at 2am...........
Wednesday,
Aku dok ngadap article tu sampai 7pm. I hardly went out from my room except to cook and go to toilet. Terukkan. Ni semua gara2 aku salah tengok figure yg aku dah tengok berpuluh kali since the day before...Only after 6pm I got the term right. Cuma later sekali lagi macam tak dapat as in their model after manipulation..........
Aku tak pi uni coz hujan..I cooked suhun lagi.
Hari2 makan tauhu, sampai dah rasa macam tauhu pulak. Yelah, sabtu makan tauhu goreng kanda. Isnin makan tauhu bakar. Selasa makan tauhu dalah suhun goreng, Rabu makan sup tauhu suhun. Bila kami tengok Titanic series, kanda kata their life jackets macam tauhu hehhee.......Then, malam tu cari bahan for latest project, selain new refereence for thesis. I sleep after 2am........
Thursday 19/4
I went to see my spv at 10am. First we discussed about my current project. The first part was ok. But I got problem with the second part. She argued why I want to that second part which of course study the behavior. Hmm she forgot that she was the one who suggested that part. She reminded me to check the size of the molecule. Logically the molecule will fit into our model. She also suggested to me to study the position of the molecule in the structure before study its behavior. I should also check whether the inner properties of the structure is the same as in the reference even though I didn't use the same structures. I also told her maybe I should try to model the molecule as cone instead of sphere since the previous nite when I read the article the image look more like horn. So she asked to read my senior thesis who has done something similar.
Then we discussed about my paper that need major revision. Hmm, I should add the term that I neglect. Add more term meaning need more time to read, understand, build the model, computer coding bla bla........Again my spv asked me to find the article written by my senior. Hmm...she just published that paper this year even though she has graduated on 2008. My spv asked me to focus on this paper first since it kinda like major contribution to my thesis. That new project, I may use after finishing my studies or if time permitted I can also include in my thesis.
Talking about my thesis...my spv kinda surprised to hear that i only got 4 months left. She thought that I will extend my studies. Actually currently I am in that extension period :(.............If possible she want me to stay longer, maybe I can apply for fee waive but who is going to pay my living allowance. Just imagine all this while most of the living allowance goes to accomodation fee. How I gonna survive without it..............
Feeling down with all these, I totally forgot to tell her about the work that I done on tuesday, which is study the more popular structure where my result is in good aggreement with LR. Well, she may not agree since her area of interest more for biological structures.
So stress...pi beli beef rogan josh. and ngadap juga my M&M.............
I went to Health centre again...This time I wanted to try the exercise equipment. So I used the free voucher. So the instructor showed me around the centre as well as how to use the cardio machine and the safety locker. I preferred to use the bicycle and elliptical machine compared to tread mill. 20mins cycle-15min elliptical-20mins cycle. I burned around 140 calories ;)..............
Friday-20th April
For lunch, ayam tak garing goreng kunyit hehehhe..
Petang tu pi city beli groceries. For dinner, teringin nak makan roti john...guna telur je la....
If you read this meaning that you really have patience reading this entry...clap clap for you ;))........
Here is the makeover of the baked chicken leftover for my late lunch on Monday.
Sanang baitu...melt the butter in the pan, heat the chicken and its juice and add carrots, frozen beans, and 3 spoons water....yummy. And I had penne soup for dinner that nite and for lunch on tuesday.
Aku guna rempah sup pemberian kawan hehehe. Then I had this sambal kentang and frankfurter for dinner on tuesday. Sodap !!!!! rangup dan pedas.....
Then, of course ayam goreng for dinner on wednesday. On thursday, I had chicken kebab and coke for lunch and managed to finish another half of it before going back that evening. I supposed to meet my spv that late morning to discuss about my new project, unfortunately I got email from her telling that she can't have the discussion until next week because she can't send her daughter to childcare after seing the doctor. However, she came to my office with her cute daughter that afternoon and asked me to make the correction for my third paper again...yup AGAIN...huhuhu....
Nice flavour, but I prefer the blueberry cheese tart better. I got the recipe from here eventhough she used fresh apricots hehhe...Apricot, Peach, plum and nectarine kira sedara maralah jugak....stone fruits :). TQVM wendy....
Later on Monday, i had this fried rice to break my fasting...hehehe lots of accessories since I have only 3 spoon of leftover rice...
Frust jugaklah bila tetiba tak dapat puasa on tuesday, luckily dapat jugak puasa for 6 days. Terpaksa pi city n bila tiba saat itu mesti ngidam coke, tapi takde pulak vanila coke huhuhu. Beli indian food-veges curry+spinach lamb korma. For wednesday lunch, I had beef lasagne and vanilla coke. At last ...........jumpa jugak vanilla coke setelah sekian lama mencari. I baked 12 pieces strawberry and blueberry cheese tart on that nite and later on thursday morning I just put the filling into another 6 pieces tart shells that I have prepared last sunday and just baked it for 10 minutes. I gave 8 pieces of tart to my friend in the same department,
3 pieces to the girl who gave me soup spices
and 2 pieces to my officemate. However, I just had 2 pack of mini instant noodles during lunch. So, I need proper dinner of this fried mee sanggul
which I prepared and cooked within 1o minutes only. I was too starving to think about the ingredients...just campak2 aje hahaha. And of course I brought the leftover for my lunch on friday
Please don't laugh at this 'uncreative' decoration ...;). I supposed to decorate it with peach slices too but I kinda lazy to open up the can hahaha. Here is another photo of the tart.
I got the recipe from bro Rozzan blog and I noticed that for a quarter of the pastries dough, I managed to get 12 shells of 5cm diameter. Thank you bro....However, I only used 6 shells and prepared 1/5 of the filling without add in egg. How to divide an egg to 1/5 hehehe...Since I still got the leftover of blueberry cheese tart filling, so I baked 4 pieces of blueberry cheese tart. My housemate loves the fruit tart and we agreed that we love the blueberry cheese tart more hehehe...yelah peminat anything cheesy kan hehehe...
and nasi lemak and sambal telur for dinner on saturday.
Buat yg saiz besar 4 ketul je. Tulah I takde mini tart tray. Yang ada mini muffin tray..so guna jelah. Then buatlah sendiri coraknya guna lidi, cam tak puas hati..so guna garfu pulak hehehe...Tapi serius, rasa nak menangis menggelek dan meletakkan doh dalam acuan. Lama sungguh !!!! Disebabkan rupanya kureng maka aku tak jadilah nak bawak hampir semua tart ni ke open house my friend. So, hanya beri tuan rumah and my other friend 9+5 ketul je yg saiz kecik tu. Nak bagi yang besar tu takut dalam tak masak. So, tinggalkan mesej kat umah suruh my housemate makan. Tapi terkejut jugaklah bila balik, yang saiz besar dah dimakan 2 ketul. Hehehe aku ingat depa nak makan yg kecik je hahaha. Malam tu aku makan yang kecik je la. So, hari ahad aku tengok tinggal 2 ketul besar dan 2 kecik. Satu yang besar tu aku makan buat sarapan. Then aku buanglah kertas suruh depa makan tuh, and plan nak letak bekas tart tu tempat lain coz ingat nak makan lagi yg sebijik besar tuh. Tapi bila pikir balik takkan lah depa nak makan lagi coz semalam dah makan lagipun aku dah buang kertas tuh. Bila ku turun petang tu nak mandi aku tengok ada lagi tart tu, ingat lepas mandi nak ngap...alih2 dah lesap. Rasa terkilan sangat huhuhu...tapi redha je lah. Tu lah next time asingkan yang sendiri nak makan and yang nak bagi orang. Cuma tak sangka pulak ada ramai orang yang jenis tak makan saman macam aku terkilan nak makan pizza mangkuk tuh...dahlah biar je bekas tu, bukan nak tolong basuh huhuhu....Takpe pengajaran hehehhe...kena ikhlas dan redha dengan apa yg terjadi kan...Huish! ngomel pulakkan. Aku ambil resipi yang sememangnya diakui sedap oleh aku dan rakan2 dari Mamafami. Thank you very much mamafami and sources (Chef Anuar and Alex Goh)...... :)).
Tapi agak bantat coz aku tersilap salin cara membuatnya dari blog bro Rozzan. Apa-apapun terimakasih bro Rozzan, sungguh pun bantat habis je aku makan hahaha. Nanti cuba lagi tau!!!! Aku tambah sikit mixed spices dalam adunan ala2 resipi kek lapis Rima.
Kalut masak, coz sibuk dengan Adobe photoshop nak melukis object for my research. Tak tahu nak guna software ni, banyak buang masa cari guide dalam internet. Nak lukis sendiri tak tahu, nak ambil gambar dari internet pun, still kena ubah suai....Sampai kawan saya cakap saya ni buat phd in science ke arts hehehe....Tulah dok mengadap benda ni dari 4pm sampai 12am, semata2 nak hasilkan satu objek kecil yang 3 dimensi. Tapi tolakla masa nak masak, berbuka, sembahyang dan lain-lain ya hehehe. Stress pun ada dengan kerja, dengan masalah orang ...bila stress teringin sangat nak minum coke huhuhu, walaupun pernah terbaca coke boleh mematikan sel otak. Susah nak tido last nite, kalau tak fikir...selfish pulak, bila fikir nangis, bila baca doa nangis...kan lagi bagus bangun sembahyang malam daripada buat drama air mata.....
