Aku kalah huhuhu....

Sebelum aku citer sedih meh aku nak tunjuk gambar my food.

Last nite for dinner I had toasted bread top with garlic+olive oil, sundried tomato, sausages and feta goat cheese...yummy....


For brekky today I had lempeng pisang tebal...tak kuasa nak ambil gambar. Then I bought indian food for lunch-lamb vindaloo+tandoori chicken.

Percayalah aku makan sampai licin. Aku pun terkejut hahhaha....

Do you still remember I have to participate in the thesis competition? My spv said it should be fun. Yang aku penat2 prepare 3 hari untuk 3 minit tu kan. So semalam aku patut tunjuk slide kat spv in the morning. Tapi aku lambat pi uni, bas pun lambat sampai. So aku tak sempat jumpa spv and lambat join her farewell party for my group member. So, aku terus joint that party and apologized from her for coming late. Luckily dia tak marah hehhee...Then dia ajak aku discuss pasal slide kat situ jugak. Dia suruh baiki equation and letak my result in term of graph. Pulak dah...dah jadi kerja tambahan pulak kan..so 4 days preparation for 3 minutes competition.

So today is the day of the competition. Hahhaa...only at school level. There were 5 participants. Cheh depa tepuk for the so called brave volunteer. Sukarela? Aku gelak2 bagitau kawan aku tu paksarela.....I was so nervous because I have to do the oral presentation in front of the people I know...cakap terketar2. Pulak tu my figure was not clearly seen huhuhu. In fact one of the judge asked whether she can see my slide in the laptop because she wanted to see my unclear figure and she said that it was so fast. While waiting for the result we had pizza and soft drinks....The funny thing was the judge took more than 30 minutes to discuss. We said the judge should be given 3 minutes too to discuss hehehhe.....Then the judge came and announced that the Saudi guy-my group member worth mentioned, the second place went to the Oz lady and the first place went to another Oz lady......The moment the judge announced the winner, my eyes met my spv eyes. She kinda gave me the signal it's allright. So aku tempat ke-4 or 5 lah kan...Anyway they gave this piece of paper to each of the participant.....


So padanlah muka aku kan. Haritu aku mengata org yang gave bored presentation. Aku pulak with the listed problem hehehe....Hish camnalah tak letak nama. Tulah konon nak simple mungkin. Haritu aku dah terpikir jangan guna warna kuning for the figure, tapi degil ..so tak clear. Bila ada banyak figure, aku terpaksalah terangkan sambil merujuk slide, so tak dapatlah pandang audience. Walhal yang the first winner used one big figure only.

Apa perasan aku? Again I got mixed feeling...Happy because it was finished and I don't have to prepare for the faculty level. Dissappointed because I spent so much time to prepare it and even though I was not confident, I felt that my presentation was not too bad. In fact my friend said that I done it smoothly. So she think that I might have go thru...;)...Lagipun the first saudi guy talked so fast. The two Oz lady - aku susah nak faham apa dia cakap, but they seemed so calm. The last saudi guy put so many equations which may not suitable for audience from other area. So terdetikla harapan jugak hehhee....Anyway this was good experience and as my spv said I can put it my CV too hehehe...See things happen for reason...

Kantoi dengan spv

Due to Monday blues, normally, I didn't go to uni on Monday and sometimes on Tuesday too. So, to make sure that I go to uni I'll prepare the lunch pack early in the morning. Unfortunately, even though I have prepared the food I just stayed at home last Tuesday...Apatah, maggi goreng kot...

I only went to uni on Wednesday and for dinner I had pasta with spinach+cheese feeling which topped with creamy pasta sauce and leftover chicken bolognese sauce. It supposed to be layered like lasagna, unfortunately, the spinach was overcooked and the the white sauce and the bolognese sauce just mixed together while I was scooping it from the tray. Even though the looks was terrible..the taste was good and later ended my dinner with my indian hmate 8minutes choc cake. Below is that pasta which was my lunch on Thursday..tu yg rupa sememeh after reheated in microwave oven.

I didn't go to uni again on Thursday. When I went downstairs my Indian housemate was eating her red bean curries. It smell so good and that led me to cook chicken curry for my dinner.... I only got chicken breast in the freezer but doesn't matter as long as I can meet my craving. I didn't use oil and coconut milk in my curry. I just dumped everything in the pan and cooked it -Alagappa curry powder, chili powder, water and of course added sliced tomato and onion, finely cut ginger and minced garlic, and salt. After nearly 15min cooking I didn't get the taste right...so I added sugar, mixed spices and black pepper. So the taste got better....



On friday, I had my morning walk instead of went to the harbour I went to woolies to buy groceries. Only after I had my lunch I went to uni. We had the school seminar at 3.30pm and I planned not to go coz I got so many things to do. Unfortunately, when I just walked out from the toilet...someone called me from the stairs. It was my spv...grrrrrrrrrrr. So when she asked me whether I'll go to the seminar or not, so I just said yes unwillingly. She also asked me to prepare the slide for the thesis competition. Hehhee..I didn't tell her that I have prepared it..............Anyway when I went to seminar, it was really interesting when the speaker talked about iterated tiling and how people can commercialized it for example the tiling for one of the sculpture or structure at Federation Square Melbourne and for the hotel in US. But the second speaker talk was so boring, not only I didn't understand of what he talk about but also the way he delivered it...he was just facing and writing on the whiteboard while talking. Everybody seemed bored, in fact several of the audiences left before his talk ended. Kita belajar ya....don't let people bored with our talk...

While I was waiting for the second speaker writing on the board I read an article. Suddenly it gave me idea on how to do my calculation. But of course I should try to get the solution before proceed with my work. Unfortunately later I still didn't get the same solution as in the article. It just a simple calculation even though it involves higher order polynomial and rational functions. I spent 3 days mengadap benda tu. Even the computer can't get the same term as in the article. So, I spent my afternoon sitting on the bench tried to figure it out. Alhamdulillah, while watching movie on Sunday, I got the idea...Hmm i just have to be creative to manipulate it. Tu la kalau dah stress benda mudah pun tak nampak. If my spv knew that I had difficulty with that simple calculation she must be wonder why she accepted me as her Phd student hehehe....

Mari mari Kerastangan

Walaupun aku ni tiada kesenian mahupun ketelitian membuat kerja, adakalanya aku berminat juga menghasilkan sesuatu yang menggunakan daya kreativiti. So bagaimana kita nak menghias kotak comel ini ?????Apa dalam kotak ?????Hmm takkan nak bagi ni je for your friend graduation...Apa kata kita letak bunga nak kasi ceria.

Kalau Pedro bear jadi bucuk masham....dia boleh sembur that scented spray, kalau dia mahukan wangian untuk diri sendiri dia boleh sembur kenzo hehhee......But still it look something is missing........Nak tambah apa ya??? Maka bermulalah sesi kerastangan zaman kanak2 dulu hehhee.......Siap !!!!!..........Ni for my friend aka hmate 2 bulan....


But what about my ex-hmate 9 bulan....

Kita tambah hiasan lagi ya....

Why don't we add more flowers...


But later I changed my mind. Macam sayang pulak nak bagi the first kerastangan. End up I got another pedro bear and gave it to my ex-hmate 9 bulan....

and the second kerastangan to my hmate 2 bulan dengan tambahan rambu ramba n scroll


Di sebabkan my housemate tu ganas, beberapa minit selepas dia bergambar with this kerastangan...habis tercabut dan terbarai semua hahhaha...Ada kawan tu siap mengata aku guna beg plastik sumbat2 je...Chet, aku beli la that colourful plastic wrap and wrapping paper. Sesudahnya before dia balik Malaysia she gave me back that basket hehehe...Oklah juga bagi mini perfume, compared to fresh flower yang tak mungkin bole bawa balik Malaysia hehehe....

Amacam, boleh tak aku bukak gift shop? Masa undegrad dulu aku ada kawan nama Faridah. We just dreamed of opening the bussiness next to each other where I would take care of the gift shop and she would runs the pet shop hehehe....Ada sorang lagi the so called bussiness partner, tapi aku lupa dia nak jual apa hehehe....

Oklah aku nak bersiap pi uni ni. Semalam nak concentrate buat kerja, tapi buntu n ngantuk...Tetiba my friend nak datang my office wpun I kata I tgh serabut. Aduh!!! From 5pm to 7.20pm. Kenapalah aku tak kuat to say No....She still stayed while I was performing Asar prayer. Only after I tidy up the mess on the table and told her that I want to perform maghrib prayer, she left. Kesian sangat kat dia, tak tahu nak buat apa...as usual ada jugak terselit blaiming his boss. Even though we are not in the same field, I think she should be clear of what she wanna do in her research, strong research problem and research questions and method. But I don't know how the strong RP and RQ should be. Then kami sesama gelak bila dia cakap mesti orang nampak dia yg salah. Coz kawan sebidang senegara who has the same problem as her still can survive, the same goes to kawan di bawah boss yg sama pun survive jugak....In fact kawan bidang lain, uni lain pun survive. That friend also said that is normal. Whatever it is I know that you are a fighter...Jangan berhenti berharap dan berusaha. Pasrah itu menyerah...Never too late doing something. If it really late, then it is better late than never....Semoga perjalanan Phd kita dipermudahkan dan diberkati. Amiin....

3 hari untuk 3 minit sahaja

Bukan...bukannya aku masak steamed blackfish ni sampai 3 hari.....

Bukan jadi steamed black fish...mau jadi bubur hehehe. Senang sangat curah kicap, osyter sauce, black pepper, chili powder, minced garlic and fine sliced ginger...dan kukus ikan 15-20minutes. Tapi next time nak masukkan veges lambat sikit..i prefer crunchy veges....That was my dinner on Sunday.

I bought that black fish at the fishmarket at the harbour nearby our house on Sunday morning. I went there with kanda, german n Philipino hmate. My german hmate bagitau she heard from the radio that there is aud2 brekky at the park nearby the harbour. So off we went there. That brekky organized by the radio station. I dunno whether we do the charity or we received the charity by paying that aud2 hehehe. They served cereal, fruits-banana, plum,apple, scramble egg, sunny top egg, toast bread, sausages, juice and coffee. We really have fun having that unplanned brekky while sitting facing the beach...

If we walk 200 m further to the north, we can see this beautiful view....


That afternoon, me and all of my hmates went for groceries shopping to fruit market and woolies. That was the first time the six of us were out together...of course using the bus shuttle provided by the accomodation manager.

I had this for late lunch yesterday

leftover couscous and frankfurters in caramelized onion....Food for busy people ;)). Yelah since saturday, I have been preparing for the thesis/research competition. It only one slide presentation, but of course it was not easy to find the suitable image to represent my whole thesis using one image only....And I can't just use the image directly, I still have to modify it grrr.....So I felt that I just wasting my time for 3 days to prepare for 3 minutes presentation only....And definitely, I have to prepare what to talk too....At one point, I confused of what I am doing all this while, its application etc...And that made me worried, so I have to find relevant literatures to overcome that confusion. Whatever it is, thing happened for a reason. I can use that image for my thesis writing and also I become clear of what I'm doing and it potential use :)...Alhamdulillah

Karipap guna otak n si mangkuk hayun

Last Saturday kami ada gathering, so aku bawak karipap la. Abaikanlah kelim yang tak senonoh tuh ;)...

At first I didn't know what to bring, then later I thought why not prepare something that I like and what I have been craving. So I opted for currypuff using yatimemories recipe. Since kanda tak tahu nak bawa apa, aku pun ajak dia join aku even though i got initial feeling that I would be irritated with her. Actually this was my second time prepared karipap and her first time. Yeap as what I tot, we got several disagreements such as dia nak terus tumbuk udang kering, aku prefer rendam lama sikit. Aku nak tambah sikit lagi minyak or air dalam adunan kulit karipap yg nampak agak kering/keras, dia kata dah ok. Dia bising2 dia ada acuan karipap, tapi as usual cari tak jumpa. So gunalah acuan aku. I preferred to just kelim je la sendiri kulit tuh, coz kalau guna acuan nanti ada karipap yg tersenyum. Dia nak guna jugak. So nak jimat masa, dia guna acuan, aku kelim sendiri. Bila terbuka aku jugak yg kena kelim kan. I was juggling between kelim karipap and rolled the dough flat. Dia complaint kata kecik n nipis sangat. Penat tau nak gelek tu dan potong kecik2...Lepas tu bengang gak bila tgk rupa karipap yg macam bertampal2 tuh. Kalau nak letak inti fikirlah jugak kat, the smooth side kat luar, yg kureng kat dalam...hish...Yelah kalau nak makan sendiri lantaklah. Ni bagi orang makan. So bila sesi merasa karipap...dia cakap pandai jugak buat karipap. Aku saja je cakap dah guna resipi memanglah sedap. Tetiba dia cakap "kena juga guna OTAK". Aku rasa kalau org lain cakap aku tak sakit hati, tapi kanda ni gaya dia cakap so annoying....Lepas ni mmg malas nak share lah...Biar penat, tapi tak sakit hati...

Bila pi gathering pun bebel...Bosanlah, boringlah. Nampak muka salah seorang AJK tu berubah bila mendengar kata-kata dia. Lepas tu dok mempertikaikan bila nampak anak kawan kami put on weight. Biasalah budak-budak kan...Lawak pun ada bila dia panggil mak kawan kami auntie, padahal rasanya beza umur mereka 5-10 tahun je...( Hahhaha...I suka bila Cik olyn kenakan dia pasal lawak MUDA). Then sibuk2 mengata orang yang beli kek instead of buat sendiri. Tahulah karipap guna otak tu sedap hehhehe........Hish bila aku nak insaf ni, sampai 2 paragraph aku kutuk dia....

On Sunday, aku pi city. Masa nak lintas jalan, ada segerombolan Oz youngsters ni dok cakp hello hello...Hmm..macam nak ganggu aku je. Then I passed by 3 Oz girls. Depa dok sebut "Ni hao Ni Hao". Huh tak kuasa aku nak layan....For lunch aku melantak Taco n prawn tempura sensorang di food court....Petang tu kami ada welcome dinner for new residents at our accommodation

Ada kebab, taboulli, potato salad, mixed veges salad, pasta salad, humous, etc...Ada leftovernya, menjadi my lunch on Monday the 12th


Esoknya aku pi Uni, on my way to the bus stop, aku nampak dahan jatuh atas rumput. So apalagi snap gambarlah


Masa aku tertonggeng-tonggeng mengambil gambar, tetiba ada sorang nyonya tu cakap cina dengan aku. Dia macam nak tanya jalan. Sudah...macam itik ayam la kami. At last dia sebut bus. Oklah i tunjuklah tempat nak tunggu bas. Tapi nak tunggu belah mana? Dia nak pi mana? Aduhh sekali lagi la...dia cakap cina, aku cakap in english. At last dia cakap market, nasiblah aku tunjuk bus pi city hehhee...Harap tak silap. Kat uni beli kebab. Lama tak makan kebab. Malam tu kami ada farewell dinner pulak for one of the resident here...more like pot luck n sharing dinner. Aku beli je pakora and cut it into half..banyak sikit nampaknya hehehe...


Nyampah kat mamat Iran. Dia yg tukang buka wine. Lepas tu bila nampak aku lambat pi ambil makan, sibuk tanya pasal aku ada problem with non halal meat ke. Aku nampak ada daging, salmon, salad, cake, dumpling etc selain my pakora. Tapi aku makan sebijik mini muffin je. Then, dia dok cerita yg the previous 2 weeks dia drunk sampai thrown out...seharian la nak bersihkan rumah. Dia merepek kata dia minum 1/2 glass wine everyday, guarantee that he will go to heaven. Kanda dok melayan if that so she will go to hell. Ada sorang korean lady ni nampak musykil and asked me is it true, I geleng je la. Nilah masalah orang Iran, it was their choice if they don't want to be muslim, but please do not make fun of our religion and also make nonmuslim confuse.....Sebelum tu ada sorang kawan dia cakap I drink but I pray too. Saya senyum je la. He said you didn't believe me. Aku tak larat fikir n malas nak cakap. So I just said I dunno. He asked what do you mean. I just said I dont want to think. Actually it is better if we just keep quiet, no point of talking to this people. Before kanda came to this dinner the first guy said that he likes kanda because she didn't angry when he make fun of the religion...Bila balik, aku bebel dengan kanda pasal perangai iranian, dia cakap she assume it as a joke....a joke huh!!!!

On Wednesday morning, aku masak kus kus guna perencah nasi goreng adabi.


Geram pulak bila kanda kata ada bau belacan, nanti bising housemate. Takde la kuat sangat pun. Dia grill veges pun kuat baunya..Orang lain tak bising dia pulak yg bising. Kali ni tunggu bas ke uni at the other side. So boleh snap gambar laut


Bila sampai uni, kebetulan ada wednesday market so aku pun tinjau2 jewellery, vegetables seedling etc. tapi yang aku beli dried fig and honey+mustars soy snack hehehe....

On Thursday, aku hanya bawa bekal scrambled egg and grean peas. Hari sedih +gembira. Hari yg aku dipeluk spv tu la...Bila dah habis sesi peluk2 n borak2, spv suruh tutup pintu. Ingat suruh aku keluar. Rupanya dia nak cakap "luckily you came here. That guy kinda like harassed me. Maybe he thinks that I look young and inexperience. He was like persuading me to accept him as student and I just said I am happy to supervise you but I want to see your qualification first. He also requested a room or place to put his book. When I said that master student does not has room, he suggested me to make a recommendation". Hush sounds rude and demanded. Bila tanya tu orang mana...from Saudi. Tapi rasa serba salah sedih pulak bila dia cakap orang negara tu do not respect woman. Aku hanya mampu cakap maybe only certain people are like that.

On Friday, aku masak kepok ikan guna microwave. Ok for our microwave the suitable time is 47s. Nyampah bila kanda kata "bau jugak". Hish dia pulak lebih complaint. Orang lain ok je. Aku hanya makan leftover kacang pool for lunch. So bila pi uni aku nak perlu uruskan my third paper submission. Perlu juga minta tandatangan spv utk Assignment of copyright. Dia takde pulak, so I just slipped that form under her door. 1 jam lepas tu, dia bagi form tu kat aku..hehhe rupanya ada lecture. Di kala aku sibuk nak print dan reread my paper tetiba my friend nak jumpa for consultation...Cheh! I am a student nak bagi consultation for another student hehehhe. So I planned to say to her that the 'meeting' should be 30-60minutes only. I pity her for what she has been gone thru. I can't imagine if I were in her shoes. She is a fighter, she had tried all the possible ways, but it seemed that her main problem still unsolved. As usual most of the time she still talked about her boss and the people who were sweet talker. She is strong and what has happened to her make her even stronger. But sometimes she seems confuse and clueless of what she should do next. That made me have no heart to say that I need to pray and do my work. And this meeting dragged for 2 hours until 6.15pm. End up I didn't submit my paper and have to rush back because our student representative who is Iranian girl celebrating her thesis submission in our unit at 7pm. So, takkanlah I tak join...apa pulak dia kata. Hmm..bertahan je la tengok wine and salami atas meja makan...Grrr. Aku makan je corn chips with guacomole, cake n popcorn. Aku malas nak keluarkan keropok ikan. Takut ada yg kata smelly..lagipun tengok depa tak makan pun agar2 yg kanda buat. Penat je orang tu buat pepagi sbelum pi uni. Dahla susah nak tapis....

Yang sakit hati our american housemate masukkan popcorn dalam mangkuk putih. tetiba our ex-housemate si german tuh kata tu bekas dia. Bengang betul bila dia cakap kat aku "did you take that bowl" Aku cakap No. macam nak tuduh aku pulak. Tapi cara dia pandang, macam dia tak percaya. Kanda pun kena jugak. Mungkin dia tak bawak pergi bowl tu masa pindah dulu, so bowl tu ada la di common rack. So minah Us tu gunalah. Masa dia nak balik malam tuh pun, bila kanda cakap kanda tak ambil n guna bekas tu, minah german tu kata dia pun tak tahu camna bekas tu ada kat uni ni. Then dia pandang aku, aku buat muka poyo je la. tetiba dia senyum and cakap it is ok. so memang dia rasa aku yg ambil bekas tuh....Aku sakit hati betul. I didn't know how to respond to wrongly accused. Geram pun ada kat diri sendiri coz I was so furious that I speechless to deny that accusation. rasa nak luah perasaan kat Fb, tapi macam bebudak pulak. Nak hantar mesej tak puashati risau jugak dia dok ngata...grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. EEEEEEEEE..mangkuk hayun betul orang yg tuduh aku ambil mangkuk plastik. ye Mangkuk plestik je...bukan pyrex ke noritake ke, royal doulton ke....

Malam tu pukul 11 aku lapar hehhe. Yelah dah makan benda ringan je. So aku reheat kus-kus gorend dan makan dengan samabl daging+telur given by my office mate... Sedap...


This was my lunch for today...spinach, steggles tempura nugget and greek yogurt


Tadi, aku pi toilet.....wah ada bau pizza. Bilik yg sebelah toilet bilik American n Kanda. Tak mungkin American kedekut tuh makan pizza..kanda la tu makan sensorang dalam bilik hehehe...

How long to wait? Apa kelas?

I met my friend yesterday. She told me that she has been waiting the respond from the journal for 1/2 weeks...lupa pulak (sedang terbatuk-batuk or tersenyum Cik Olyn?). I still remember of what my spv said : the journal may consider the paper if they took quite sometime to respond. Someone told me that it is normal to wait for 2-3 months for the decision whether the article is accepted or rejected. One of my group member had to wait for the respond for nearly 6 months. My experience of waiting as below (note : this is meant for sharing not for boasting, minta dijauhkan):

First paper (1 month waiting)

10/06/2010 : Submitted to Journal of Physics…….(source file)
13/07/2010 : Considered for publication with amendments
04/08/2010 : Submitted the revised
23/08/2010 : Accepted for publication
04/09/2010 : Proof available for checking
08/09/2010 : Last date of any corrections
14/09/2010 : Published

Second paper (2 months and 2 weeks waiting-difficulty for editor to find suitable referees)

07/04/2011 : Submitted to Na……(source file)
22/07/2011 : Considered for publication with recommended changes
11/08/2011 : Submitted the final form
14/09/2011 : Accepted for publication
30/09/2011 : Proof available for checking
08/10/2011 : Published

Third paper

First Submission (1 month and 2 weeks waiting)
05/09/2011 : Submitted to Chem P…. by my spv (aku balik raya hehehe…)
19/10/2011 : Rejection for publication-more suitable for theoretical journal

Second Submission(3 days waiting)
16/11/2011 : Submitted to Journal of Physics ….(source file)
19/11/2011 : Rejected for publication-out of scope

Second Submission 1 month and 1 week waiting)
08/02/2011 : Submitted to Journal of Theoretical….(pdf file)
14/03/2012 : Accepted for publication
17/03/2012 : Submitted the source file

Fourth paper

First Submission(11 days waiting)
02/02/2012 : Submitted to Computational ….(source file)
13/02/2012 : Rejected for publication-not relevant journal

Second Submission(… days waiting)
11/03/2012 : Submitted to Journal of Molecular ….(source file)
16/03/2012 : Email from editor that he has to appoint new referee

Clearly, I had to wait for 3 days to 2 months and 2 weeks. I have to wait longer for the second article because the editor had difficulty in finding suitable referees. The editor for the first submission of the third paper had initial impression that my paper is more suitable for theoretical journal and it was confirmed by the referee's comment. The second submission was also rejected due to out of the scope of the journal. And again, I had the same problem for the fourth paper. As you noticed, I have been through the rejection for three times which were due to out of the scope of the journal. We may think that our paper is suitable for the journal but the editor and reviewer know better. I did have a doubt though that they just being polite to say that my paper is not relevant to the journal. Maybe my paper is actually not good enough for their journal. Of course it was hurtful to accept rejection no matter what the reason is. But life must go on.........keep on submitting until my paper is accepted for publication.

Actually, before I met Cik Olyn, my officemate and me checked the ERA journal ranking. The rank was not applicable anymore starting from 2012. But we just use 2010 journal ranked. Her friend got 8 papers published in A and A* journal and 3 papers in B journal...wowwwww!!!!!! How about me??? Hmm...Apparently my first two papers were accepted in A* journal and the third paper was accepted in C journal. Opps... It seems that I wrote less quality article towards the end of my studies..:(. But just cheer up...as what my officemate said..as long as I had paper published....So, BE GRATEFUL ............

Anyway, it is good to read the following articles...


http://www.bmartin.cc/pubs/08jspsrr.html

http://www.aeaweb.org/committees/CSMGEP/resources/newsletter/08/the_other_pipeline.html

Doa, Ar-Rahman, Airmata, Hug by spv selepas serabut

Pagi tadi aku serabut, then I chat with my friend, she wrote this

langit x selalu cerah...n langit juga x selalu mendung. smua kuasa allah. ingt Allah sedang mengatur yg terbaik untuk kita.tp kita jgn sombong...mesti zuhud n berserah padaNya seikhlas mungkin. mohon allah pelihara kita n berkati ilmu yg DIA bg ni...agar Phd ini membw hidup kita bahagia dunia n akhirat


Amiin.....Kebetulan masa tu aku dengar di youtube Surah Ar-Rahman



Memang tersentuh sangat bila mendengar ayat

"Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan"


Ya, aku menangis sebab aku stress dengan Phd.
Ya, aku menangis sebab terharu dengan kata-kata dan doa kawanku.
Ya, aku menangis sebab aku selalu meminta-minta dengan Allah dan telah banyak nikmat yang diberikan tapi adakah aku jaga hubungan aku denganNya?
adakah aku taat kepada perintahNya?

Nikmat yang terbaru bila aku buka email pada 4.26pm....

Dear Ms. F...,

I am writing to you to inform you that we have had to contact one new referee because one of the original referees has not responded despite reminders. We regret the delay in processing your paper.
You will be notified as soon as we have received all referee reports.

With kind regards,

A...., Ph.D., D.Sc.


Ya Allah, lembutkanlah hati semua reviewer untuk menerima paperku. Tiba-tiba aku terpandang email from yesterday icon. Pelik jugak kenapa aku tak nampak email tu semalam mahupun pagi tadi....

Dear Professor F....(Wah wah.....Amiin ),

this is to acknowledge receipt of the article

Mo...................................

for publication in the Journal of ........

The paper has been refereed by two of our experts; the judges are positive.

The article is herewith accepted for publication in ......

There are some minor formal points which have to be changed and added, respectively:

- we need the source file of the complete manuscript with keywords;

- we need your signed Copyright Transfer Agreement. Please fax
the attached form directly to .........,

or scan the signed document and send it by E-mail to the Editor-in-Chief.

Please, let us have the material as soon as possible.

Best regards,

Editor-in-Chief

Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah.............setelah mendung dan hujan, langit cerah dan muncullah pelangi kegembiraan....

Tiba-tiba jadi tidak tentu arah. I couldn't believe my eyes.....that the paper is accepted after twice rejection. Yup, I can't denied that actually I am not confidence with that paper. Alhamdulillah dengan kuasa Allah.....

I ran to my spv's office and told her "I am stress and excited". Dia kehairanan....macam gaya dalam hati nak cakap giler ke minah ni...First I said that I am stress with my latest project. When I told her the good news, dia depangkan tangan, maka berpelukkanlah kami hehhee.....Note: my spv is a woman yer :P. She congratulated me and asked me not to stress. Tapi dalam pada tu, sempat gak she asked me to join the thesis competition....Alamak tak boleh elak dah. Haritu dia suruh, aku cakap I'll think about it. Then, she sent email on Tuesday

Hi F.. and H...,

Can you please participate in the School..... Thesis Competition? Thank you!!

It will be fun!!

Cheers,

N

Aku tak jawab pun email tu..............Dengan harapan dia terlupa. Rupanya tadi bila jumpa dia ingat jugak huhuhu. Siap cakap please and rapatkan tangan macam nih...


She reminded me that treat it as a fun thing and not as the thing that is stressfull.

Yelah aku ni semua benda nak stress...tapi tidaklah sampai nangis.Cuma hari tetiba terkeluar gak air mata stress tuh..........

Kenapa aku stress sampai menangis?????

Setiap kali bila bas hampir sampai di uni, mesti ada rasa mengantuk. Kenapalah tiada rasa seronok dan teruja untuk memulakan kerja/belajar? Kenapalah aku cepat bosan bila belajar dan mudah mengalah bila stuck with my project. Aku tahu aku perlu berfikiran positif, bijak mengawal emosi dan cuba sebaik mungkin mengatasi segala gangguan dan unsur negatif. Tapi ada kalanya aku tertanya-tanya adakah itu kerana gangguan sihir....

Minggu ini memang lansung tak jenguk my thesis. Aku rasa sangat serabut dan buntu with my latest project. At first I planned to use drug molecule for my studies, unfortunately again the model was so complicated. So, I opted for another molecule suggested by my spv. Well of course the result corresponds well with literature. But, I don't think it is enough for journal article. So, I planned to study the behavior of that molecule and my spv have that in mind too. However, later I felt that the behaviour may not realistic. So I just ignored it until last monday that I started to read the article about it. Anyway, last Tuesday I studied the second property of that molecule. It was hard to focus on constructing the model and writing the programming code and not to mention troubleshooting error too. The result seemed ok, but there was thing that I doubt too.....When I studied the third property, the result really weird.

So, on Wednesday I tried to figure out what went wrong until I became fed up with it....That was the time that I thought I should try to study the behaviour of that molecule even though it may not realistic. See for yourself, actually I don't what to do. I kept on changing my mind. While constructing the model for that behaviour, suddenly it came to my mind that I should find the article that employed the similar molecule as my study. But their model really different from mine and that made me doubt my model :(... So, I read the article thoroughly and try to understand it since I may compared my model with their model....But their model kinda more complicated in fact it only applicable for infinite structure whereas my work is on finite structure. Meaning that I cannot simply use their model, I have to modify it ..grrrrrrrr. So what should I do?????????
Blog walking..opppps...........So, that made me think that I should focus on one thing first and finish it before starting on new thing....So, I should focus on studying the behaviour first and only then compare my model with other model. But again, to study the behaviour I should construct the model...While constructing the model, I have problem to figure out the variables etc...Definitely, I need lots of articles searching and reading. Kena tau juga the right keyword to search...So, never ending story until I submitted the thesis....

Lembapnya tapi pandai pulak !!!!

Di satu malam kubur berasap hujan yg lebat, aku berlari-lari ke bangunan kimia...tiba-tiba aku terpandang sesuatu yang mengesot perlahan...


Ya begitulah rupa lintah Oz...corak menarik dan bersaiz besau lagi panjang, lebih 5 inci kot...
Hmm lintah hidupan di tempat lembap yang bergerak lembap atau lambat atau perlahan tapi pandai sebab masuk universiti tau ;)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))..

hahha tu cerita lembap, senang citer...dah basi..dah 2 minggu la. La ni weather dah ok..it's sunny...

Oklah nak pi uni ni...nak menyiapkan projek baru yg asyik berubah2 tu. I pun dah confuse nak buat apa. Bulldoze je ye ;))...Kena contact conference organizer, macam musykil depa takde reviewer. Nak tanya jugak spv boleh ke I pi conference di negara Asia(nak pi Europe peruntukan tak cukup) instead of pi Brisbane....I dah malas nak pi area Australia hehhee...Tak boleh balik lambat sangat coz malam ni ada farewell dinner for our Philipino friend. Memula ingat nak buat marble cheese brownies, cheese dah expired pulak huhuhu...Nak buat kek arora, takut depa terkejut warna warni sangat...Senang aku beli je roasted chicken...Tak tau gi hahhaa..itu plan aje tau...

Puyuh terlentang

Kita panggil quail ...tapi orang Masterchef panggil Puyuh ;))....
Mana dapat? Beli kat Red Lea, aud16 for 6...Memang la mahal, tapi dah dekat 2 tahun ngidam nak makan puyuh berempah. Bila balik Malaysia, tak jumpa pula kat pasar malam...

Oklah jugak bagi nama Puyuh terlentang dari puyuh terkangkang...tak kuasa aku nak ikat kakinya....Tapi kalau nak panggil puyuh bersujud pun boleh jugakkan...


Makan pulak dengan sambal kicap-blended red hot chillies+sliced onion+fried shallot+lemon juice...Huish nikmat. Aku bakor puyoh tu then grill nak crispy skin kan....Tapi rasanya kureng sikitlah, mungkin kurang marinate...aku just guna cumin, fennel, salt, rempah kari, chili powder, grounded ginger, garlic and lemon grass powder...Psst...ada ke patut my Indian housemate tanya, tu lamb ke, then tetiba cakap it look likes frog..grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....

So for dinner, I reheated that quail and sprinkle more spices to get the taste right hehehe...

Memang i suka betul la grilled egg plant tuh....

For lunch on 06/03 I had suhun goreng tak bercili....Ye Cik Olyn, memang rencahnya boleh meresap ke dalam suhun ;)...

Tapi tu la kenapa rasanya tak sesedap dulu....Kurang kicapkah or tiada sayur hijau....

For lunch on Wednesday, aku masukkan sambal olek Yeos dalam minyak panas, tambah gula dan garam, curah hirisan tomato..curah hirisan egg plant n carrot dan akhir sekali masukkan suhun leftover...jadilah suhun pedas pula hehehe.........


Konon nak pi uni kan..Cuma lambat sikit coz nak basuh baju. At last makan bekal dalam bilik je hahahha...Dah kenyang tuh, sambil merancang semula my workplan yg perlu dimasukkan preparing abstract and paper for conference as well as attending it, sambil tengok Ariana Mikail episod akhir...Memang saya suka the ending hehehe....Tapi susah juga ya kalau mengalami konflik perasaan seperti Ariana. Antara Cinta dan Tanggungjawab kepada anak dan keluarga...Mengorbankan cinta dan kebahagian diri demi keluarga....Antara sayang kepada Johan yang banyak membantu dia, cinta kepada Ray yang membuatkan dia kembali percaya pada cinta dan jodoh dengan Mikail yang juga cinta pertamanya....Ye lah kalau dia kahwin dengan Ray, mestilah tajuk ceritanya Ariana Ray lah kan ;))))). Malam tu masak pasta -chicken bolognese.

Actually that morning our accommodation manager forwarded the email from BOM; warning of severe weather here overnight wednesday and early thursday especially in coastal area. Actually early Wednesday it was already windy and raining. My housemates and me wore our jumper even though in the afternoon...At 11pm, the temperature dropped to 17 degree Celcious and the sound of strong blowing wind and when it hit the roof were really scary...

Of course there was heavy downpour early Thursday. Alhamdulillah it was not severe as predicted. Nearly 6pm, I went to city...window shopping for clothes ;)), went to reject shop to buy bhuja-mix=maruku and mamee snack. Teringin nak makan californian roll...Balik rumah habis aku bedal sekelip mata. Macam tak makan seminggu pulak.

Malam tu lepas tengok Desperate Housewives, aku sambung belek2 the methodology section of my thesis...copy paste here and there (from my articles) and listed down things that I should include in that section such as justification of using that method, figure as well as add more example of previous work which has employed this method. Actually, ada bus incident yg buat aku bengang that led me to lodge a complaint...So while watching My kitchen rules online i typed that letter of complaint. Jangan gelakkan my grammar etc :P...

I would like to make a complain for the inconsiderate and rude bus driver for the bus route .... It happened around 8pm Thursday 08/03/2012. If I am not mistaken the driver's number is 5....

After the first stop, I pressed the stop button twice but it didn't ring. As usual thinking that someone has already pressed the button, so I just wait for the bus to stop at the second stop. Unfortunately, the bus didn't stop. At first I thought the bus driver has difficulty to stop because there was a car parking at the stop. But when the Middle East woman asked the driver why he didn't stop the bus there, he said that he didn't hear the ringing sound. The woman said that she has already standing. The bus driver said that we should let him know. When I said that I have pressed the button twice but it didn't ring. He said in impatient tones and angry piercing eyes that is because someone has already pressed the button at the first stop but didn't get off the bus. So he stopped at the third bus stop. Definitely the Middle East woman with two small children and me with two heavy shopping bags and three Asian girls have to walk farther than usual.

The questions are

a) The stop sign still has light on, so if no one get down at the first stop, why he didn't stop at the second stop or at least get ready to stop?

b) How can we know that he is not going to stop so we can tell him to stop right from the start?

c) How come he didn't see that the Middle East woman with baby stroller and a few people who at first were sitting and later standing when the bus nearly reached to the second stop? Was he dreaming while driving?

d) If nobody waiting for the bus at the third stop, would the bus driver stop there since we just asked why he didn't stop at the second stop and not asking him to stop at third stop?

What matter most is why he didn't explain nicely if he didn't want to apologize for his mistake and for forgetting his responsibility ? I have been using the free bus service for nearly 3 years and most of the bus drivers are very nice, friendly and do not hesitate to say sorry whenever appropriate and this was the first time I encountered this kind of problem. I know that we could not expect more from the free bus and this is just a small misunderstanding. Anyway, hopefully it won't happen again.

Hope to hear from you soon. I thank you in advance for your respond.


Siap je surat tu...alamak it was nearly 3am. So apalagi zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Bangun pagi sarap and siapkan bekal. Alhamdulillah it was sunny even though cloudy............

So relaxing to see the blue sky together with multicolor tone of the ocean...
Sampai uni, aku pi bayar my accommodation fee for Autumn session. So another aud2600 to pay huhuhu..That balance kena tunggu dapat elaun lah..Then ada aud700 je untuk belanja 3 bulan :(......But I was so surprised when the officer said that my account balance is aud5400.....Ya Allah, apparently they debited the Spring fee to my account. It never happened before....Mana aku nak cari duit banyak tu. So aku filled in the form for installment plan and sent email to our accomodation manager regarding the installment.

I planned to submit my paper today, unfortunately I forgot to transfer the file from my lappy to pendrive. Geram..so makan dulu...hahaha fettucine bolognese tunggang terbalik..


Then, I just filled in the comments section for online submission. I didn't know what to write and the journal does not give the guideline, so I just paste the cover letter in that section suggesting two experts that the editor may contact for advice for potential referees. Later at 3.30pm, I attended the colloqium in our school..Luckily I went there early or else my spv would chase me there hehehe...Tersengguk-sengguk aku listening to their talk............

Sardin busuk

Ni menu last week. Sambal sardin hancur...tapi sedap coz guna red hot chillies...


Memang lapar giler masa masak ni. Biasa housemate kami Si American n German tuh before 9 dah naik atas. Tapi on that nite depa masih lepak kat dining room tgk tv. Susah aku nak masak coz depa lepak kat dining table...Dah la takut depa tak tahan bau sardin. Pulak tu aku terpatahkan handle nak buka tin sardine tuh. Guna can opener pun tak boleh...At last korek je la sardin tu..tu yg hancus....Mesti si American tu geli tgk my food nih..

Actually haritu kanda cerita dulu masa aku stay with another german housemate, dia tak jadi nak ngap Pizza dia gara-gara bau ikan masin yg aku goreng. So aku kesian pulak dengan pencemaran bau..so sekarang ni aku mmg kena tahan selera la kalau nak makan ikan masin or ikan bilis huhuhu....Nanti pengsan pulak my American housemate tuh. Haritu kami dah cakap our style or cooking and our food and remind her of the bilis/anchovies...Dia kata once a while oklah...Rasanyakan mmg dia takkan tahan dgn bau bilis coz on 05/03 dia tanya kanda apa beza bilis and sardin....Kalau dah bau sardin haritu pun dia dah fenin..inikan pulak bilis hehhee...

Aku teringin sangat nak makan corn chips with mashed avocado n sour cream...yummmm


Wah gulai ayam using red hot chillies and sambal belacan....burrrrrrrppppppppppp


Kelakau kan... kuskus letak kicap. Aku malas masak nasi. So kuskus ni senang je. Didihkan air sikit, curah sikit cumin+white pepper, then curah kuskus....gaul hingga kembang. Then leraikan guna garfu....

So kiranya last week aku banyak makan food ulang tayang je la. Berminyak dan berlemak pulak tu hehehe...Dahlah hujan je, I missed my morning or evening walk. On friday aku stress sangat pasal kawan aku tula yg anggap aku spv dia tuh ;)...So I really need somebody to talk to. Somebody that I trust....Rasa macam nak contact Cik Olyn je coz dia kan tau kewujudan my blog. So mungkin dia faham apa yg aku lalui...ye ke Cik Olyn :P...At last I called somebody who know my friend's problem too tapi sikit je la. Tapi dia kat woolies pulak. So dia janji nak jumpa esoknya. So on Saturday pagi2 tu aku pi jumpa dia kat harbour. Wah dah siap belikan kopi tuh....Alamak lupa lak say thanks...Then, aku jalan kaki ke city beli burger then pi uni.

Petang tu ada makan2@my friend house...ada macam2 makanan u. Tak kuasa aku nak senaraikan n amik gambar. Seronok sangat jumpa kawan2...recipes, gossip gossip, shopping, study progress n difficulty selain gelakkan orang la hehehe...Majlis tu suppose start at 5pm, so aku budget dalam 5.45pm aku sempat la kejar the last bus....Tapi it only started lepas pukul 6pm. Tapi takkan aku nak tinggalkan majlis pulak tanpa makan kan hehhee....So, confirm lah..bus dah takde. Memula ingat nak tumpang kawan either yg stay nearby my house or Cik Olyn ;)))...Tetiba aku terpikir, aku kan dah seminggu tak exercise, so kan elok aku balik jalan kaki...dah lebih setahun aku tak jalan kaki ke uni or balik dari uni. So dalam hujan renyai aku pun baliklah..I really enjoyed the walk. Rasa tenang je masa jalan tuh, bila sampai rumah rasa segar sangat... It only took me 30minutes...dulu 40minutes you...Bila balik rumah, terus tanya kanda..tak pi ke majlis tu. Dia jawab dengan nada bengang "Haram hukumnya makan orang tak jemput". Aiyo..sister orang tu dah sms la. Dah hp hang yg mahal tapi bengong tak boleh terima mesej janganlah marah2....Ingatkan dia dah ok, out of sudden dia bebel pasal tu lagi.."takkan nak call orang tu ada hantar mesej ke tak."..Aku pulak dah naik bengang and cakap "Dah tak dapat dah la...". then esoknya pun dok cakap pasal mesej tak dapat lagi dan juga tak berjawab. Siap cakap aku tak jawab mesej dia..entah bila tah, aku pun tak tau. Yelah kot hp murah aku tu pun bengong cam hp mahal dia tuh hehehe....Yang bengangnya bila dia kata "Tak tahulah memang betul tak dapat atau sengaja tak jawab". Dah dia yg tak terima mesej apa kaitan dengan aku tak balas mesej dia...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

on 06/03..aku makan the leftover gulai with lempeng for my brekky....Oklah lempeng takyah susah2 nak uli paratha. The previous nite my Indian housemate buat paratha..sikit pun tak offer kat aku, tapi kawan gaduh dia tuh dia offer pulak.....

on 04/03 our American housemate baked her own herbs bread...So aku cakaplah it looks good. Dia jawab It would be selfish if i don't give it to u. I'll give u some after cutting it....Korang tau dia bagi aku besar mana??????
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Sekeping?

TIDAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1/2 keping?
Pun TIDAK !!!!!!!!

secubit je...percayalah SECUBIT SAJOR.....

tupun lebihan yg dia potong tuh...ala yang mungkin masa potong kepingan kecil terlerai tuh....dah macam crumbs je...................

Kedekutkan....bukan saja kedekut malah selfish..............Bab selfish tu episod akan datanglah :P

Withdrawal vs telegraphic transfer

Aku risaulah...On friday aku buat TT from Maybank to NAB, but when I checked NAB balance today tak berubah pun huhuhu...Biasanya any transaction maximum 3 hari bekerjakan. Hopefully by tomorrow duit tu dah masuklah ke NAB...

Actually I prefer to withdraw my money using Maybank card at NAB atm machine. Cheaper and faster. Syaratnya perlu activate PLUS for your Maybank card before going abroad. Tapi since there is limit for withdrawal maka kenalah go thru the hassle of using TT....

Bank	Transaction Fee
	Witdrawal		Telegraphic Transfer
	RM	AUD	RM	AUD
Maybank	12.00	3.74	10.00	3.12
NAB	9.63	3.00	32.10	10.00
Total	21.63	6.74	42.10	13.12
Procedure	Before going abroad, we should activate PLUS on Maybank card		We should use online banking if we are in overseas
Advantages	Easy and faster, just withdraw and directly get the money Cheaper fee		Convenient for more than RM5000 money transfer Maybe safer
Disadvantages	Limitation for withdrawal, Max RM5000 per day.		We are required to state the purpose of the transaction and fill in many information. We have to wait for at least three working days Higher fee

Whatever it is we have to check the currency exchange rate. The amount in red color is not fix.
For example :

06/03/2012 : MYR1=AUD0.311013 or AUD1=MYR3.2150