Nasi kerabu Oz...aku rasa cam nak pi bommm seseorang

Wokay...wokay...aku bukan pembongak la. Sabo kak Jah wei....
Memanglah ni bukan nasi kerabu.

Nikan leftover calamari from saturday...so den pi goreng balik for dinner last nite, tu pasal ada rentung la hehehe. Dah tokak nak makan bebenda gorengkan...sambil krup krap, sambil tengok masterchef OZ. Oh! NO!!!!....not Jono huhuhu. And here is my nasi kerabu...

Buat ke??? No way...nak pi buat benda renyah ni. Dah namanya belikan, so sebekas itew kena makan dua kali la for lunch and dinner...bukan kedekut, nak jimatkan. aud5 boleh beli sekor ayam tuh...takpun sekor ikan kan...takpun boleh beli 2 bungkus potato chips smith/thins. Hehe cam besar sangatlah ayam goreng dalam gambar tukan ....

Harini, pi opis ada visitor dari NZ. So, tanya gak nicely is it ok if I wanna pray in the office. Luckily she didn't mind. I still can't proceed with my writing today coz my mind tak berapa betul after getting the review for my first paper. Lagipun kena cari essential reference as suggested. Hopefully I can make the changes for that paper by the end of this month and get it published. Please pray for me....

Actually harini cam malas nak berblog...tetiba den mendapat tahu sesuatu. Siapakah yg telah merampok and mengkidnap hardisk and RAM my PC yg telah ku hadiahkan pada seseorang ??? Memanglah I got it for free...bukan jenama canggih pun. Kot iya pun nak pinjam/ambil bagitau la...

Sudah acapkali ko buat aku begini. Kenapa? sampai hati...
Tolonglah, jangan buat aku menangis lagi, aku tak sanggup untuk menangis lagi...tapi air mataku tak tertahan lagi. Tolonglah jangan berpura-pura lagi....aku kecewa, aku putus asa, aku sedih dengan sikapmu. Hentikanlah!!!!! Bilakah kamu ingin berubah?
Adakah aku yang perlu berubah menjadi...pengebommmmmmu...kebabooooooooommmmmm!!!!!!!
Atau adakah aku harus bertukar menjadi patung tak bernyawa..tiada perasaan............

Mari..mari....makan calamari hehehe...

Punyalah semangat nak jogging pagi tadi, tetiba pepaham je la...hmm...
Tapi dah 8.30am tu ingat nak kuar jogging gak, then boleh terus pi beli ikan....tapi end up sarapan kepingan terakhir biskut cap ping pong lah pulak. Dah pukul 10++, dah baca newspaper n cari artikel...kejap rasa nak masak, kejap rasa nak pi city, kejap nak pi fish market...tak tetap pendirian sungguh la. At last pi gak fish market, nak cari yellow tail or sardine takde lak...beli je lah ikan apatah, blackhead kot. Then on the way back beli this fried calamari...oklah, lama tak makan kan hehehe.

Banyak giler ni, boleh buat dinner sekali. Biasalah sambil lunch sambil bertenet, then ngantuk pulak hehe. Pulak tu sambil typing, saje bukak tv3..la..cite hindi, bukak tv2 pun cite hindi...tak pasal2 kena layan gak...setelah bertahun kot tak menengoknyer hahaha.

Biasalah, kalau nak writing/typing ni kena ada selingan. Macam haritu, selasa kot..biasalah kalau nak writing, I prefer to be at home..cari ilham tepi tingkap haha. Kalau kat opis kan ngadap tembok, tu ar...mental block selalu jadik kot, ilham pun sukar nak tembus hmmm...Tapi haritu, bila kat umah pun, dah hari mendung, then hujan...aku pun ala2 mandom le. Bila dah confuse n makin pening reading/writing, pi lah mendobi...tak suka hand wash, but I have to ..sayang baju n 'anak-anak' punya pasal. Bila dah agak stress tuh, malas nak masak lauk lain, so for lunch n dinner I just ate lauk the previous day, terung sambal n goreng je telur. Oklah janji kenyang...

On wednesday, I have to go to uni. Nak bawak bekal apa??? Nasi goreng? sayur hijau dah habis. Teringat lak I got this frozen vegies...So, here's my nasi goreng hailam segera.

Disebabkan nasi sikit je, taburlah frozen corn+beans bebanyak.

Sampai uni, ofismate takde...rasa cam tenang sikit. Aku pulun buat kerja, baiki my typing error, baiki figure, compare my result with others. Sempat jugak buat maintenance online report regarding the rain water leaking/seeking thru the window frame and dripping to the carpet and also about the broken drawer guide for my chest drawer. Pukul 6 balik, memang dah gelap. Sejuk gak, sib baik pakai baju 3 lapis..haha sape suruh pakai baju nipis...

Malam masak yg sangat sempoi..tak sampai 20 minit untuk prepare n masak. My grilled vegies+chicken.

First, I grilled slices of pumpkin+carot on the pan only...letak minyak sikit n tabur garam+black pepper+dried basil.
Then I grilled chicken+long beans which are marinated with master food honey mustard+herbs.
Having my simple dinner while watching so you think you can dance. Sedar2 dah habis atas pinggan hahaha...

Thursday, I didn't go to uni...
I start my day with this
as my breakfast...muesli+fresh milk. Sedap tau..

Then, for lunch I had the leftover food...fried rice+sambal terung.

Biasalah masih lagi dalam proses writing. Kena ada abstrak, kena ada intro, literature review, my metodology n my calculation, my result, discussion, conclusion, references n appendices. Rasanya bab literature review tu payah gak, bukan senang nak tulis ayat sendiri. hehehe takut tercopy paste ayat orang lain je. Bila cerita bab writing/typing ni memanglah problemo sikit...kejap buang kejap tambah ayat. Selalu rasa my writing tak cukup. So, bila baca banyak artikel lagi confuse haha..orang ni cakap lain, orang tu cakap lain. Dahlah susah nak faham, coz too technical. Sesudahnya, satu hari nak dapat satu paragraph pun payoh huhuhu..

Dahlah result kena gempak jugakkan. Nak diskus..kena gak compare ngan result orang lain ataupun cari fakta2 yang boleh menyokong result kita .....Huhuhu...nak balik kerja, tapi bila kerja pun stress gak...kerja susah, belajar pun susah.

Maka bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kita ada, masalah takkan selesai jika kita mengeluh, merungut, membebel, marah n menangis.......cuba dan buatlah yang terbaik. You go girl....keep goin !!!!!

Tetiba dapat mesej dari my friend...

"arini kita teringat kat awak ...apa kabar... bila balik sini bg tau ...nak jemput dtg umah...dan nak peluk kuat-kuat....jaga diri ...awak slalu dlm doa kita..."

sayu pulak...lama sangat tak jumpa dia, rasanya dah 8 tahun. She's one of my best friends, tapi memang selalu gaduh gak hehehe...Really really miss her huhuhu...Tu ar bila depan mata, gaduh..bila dah jauh terindu-rindu...

Ingatkan tak mau dinner yg berat, tetiba termasak pula tuna fettucine. Menu ini jugaklah yg menjadi santapan lunch

n dinner hari jumaat....

Untuk sos tuna tu -cairkan marjerin, tumis garlic, masukkan tuna+vegies, fresh milk n cheese. You can add more milk to make it creamy.

Hari jumaat tu..tetiba rasa nak pi uni awal. Pukul 8 lebih dah kuar..haha, patutlah ada balak menanti rupanya hahaha. Masa aku nak seberang jalan besar, aku ternampak mamat filipina tu nak lintas jalan gak tapi jauh sikit lah dari tempat aku (last year aku pernah cerita pasal dia). Bila aku dah selamat melintas, alamak he's waiting for me...so we walked together to the bus stop. He's nice guy, we can talk about everything..in fact he gave me some tips on how to write a paper. Kalau dia takde awek, aku boleh jatuh hati ni hahaha...

At uni, i tried my best to continue with my writing, browsing the online journal etc. Actually I planned to submit my second draft to my spv, unfortunately I still didn't manage to finish my writing....luckily she's not around. So, once again...I have more time to add more spices and splendour to my writing this weekend :)))...just I as what my spv wants...hopefully. Terharu pulak, bila my group mate from hongkong gave the copy of his research proposal. He asked me not to worry and also pointed out what I should do and focus. He's writing his thesis now...and will finish his studies and will be leaving this july huhuhu...no more a very helpful friend.