Eggless muffin

Setelah, fenin2 merangka/mengarang ayat for the first paragraph of my third paper..I went to buy groceries and chicken breast and frankfutters with my friends yesterday afternoon. I bought this fried rice+chicken which taste like masak merah in 8 cm small container for aud3.90

for late lunch and the leftover of course for my dinner. You know what...after more than one month I haven't seen my friend, suddenly she came to my house and we chit chatted and..sedar2 dah 12.40 am...what??? dinihari????

This morning, I baked eggless choc muffin and the recipe from here with adaption by adding 1/2 cup oats.

I brought these muffins to my friend house. Ada makan2 la...sodap gilos nasi ayam dio...of course not free la. We have to pay aud6.00. Yang kelakarnya, ada sorang tuh beria-ia makan that muffins not because of the muffins yg tawar hebeh tu, he like the choc chips only hehehehe. In fact my friend said that the muffin would be soft inside if I put egg.......hehehe I didn't purposely not to put the egg la...Telur habis da

Mimpi apo ni.........

Itulah yang den heran sangat ni, takdo angin takdo ribut..cumo pagi tadi hujan la sikit kan, tetibo muncul bondo niha sonjo tadi.....

apakah itew ????? Meh den nak nengok boboto nih....

La...bondo tu rupo eh. Mano datang eh tu ???

Owh dari sini ko. Kalau dah rupo lain macam tuh...buek sendiri lah kan. Apo2 pun ado eden kesah.....den totap berbanggo ngan hasil air tangan den nih, my first trial/attempt membuek sendiri my apple crumble pie. Resipi nih dah lama di 'bookmark'kan...hasil intaian di rumah Ummi Affaf/Wanieyra yang asalnya dari rumah Hana. Terima kasih banyak Wanieyra & Hana atas resipi yang sungguh sodap ni....simple lak tuh bahan n caranya. First time buat nih, kena kasi posing lagi la kan...

Tulah tadi balik, takde idea nak masak apa. Dahlah sekarang ni memang malas nak masak bebetul. Tetiba teringat epal hijau ku yang dah lebih sebulan itew dan apple merah yg aku beli kat Adelaide tuh...konon beli takut kelaparan, rupanya jumpa gak nasik kat sinun..maka tak pandang lansung pun si epal merah itew, kuarkan dari plastic bag pun idok le....Maka, apalagi macam tak percayo jo den 'pie'kan epal itew...Lagi tak percaya den buleh lak berblogging malam ni walaupun memang maleh dan takdo mood nak menaip..Lately I prefer to blog walking only.

...............nak komen sikit ni..................................................................

Rasanya semua orang tak kisah kan kalau orang lain bertanya soalan kerana ikhlas nak tahu, memberi pendapat dan komen atau nasihat kepada kita dengan cara yang baik, diplomasi dan ikhlas kepada kita supaya kita menghasilkan sesuatu yang lebih baik atau berbeza. Tapi amatlah sakit hati bila haku buat kek, orang tu cakap..I buat cara ni..bla2 bla2...I cakap I ikut je resipi internet. Bila haku membuat pie ini, ada je suara sumbang kata kenapa tak letak pastri kat atas, aku cakap dah, yang macam bread crumb tu lah. With her way nak condemn orang tuh..dia kata tuh bread crumb, pastri tuh yg kita kena rolled flat tuh. (tak sama ek? ingatkan sama je coz bahan sama cuma biasa kena gelek, yang ini tak perlu but still kena lenyek/tekan masa nak jadi base kan..tapi takleh cakap elok2 ke). Aku cakaplah dah nama resipi nih apple crumble pie la. Kenpa tak letak.....?? Lepas ni boleh la letak blueberry etc...Haritu Si B buat bla..bla letak itu ini..bla ...bla...Hallo, everytime aku buat sesuatu ko selalu bagi cadangan/komen. TQ for that. REally appreciate that. But knowing you, I often feel you are not really sincere for doing so. But, just wonder why so far aku tak pernah rasa pun air tangan ko buat bebenda nih kek/kuih talam/muffin/pie mahupun membawa pulang hasil air tangan kawan ko tuh....Eh! ada la...your kuih buah melaka yang tak timbul-timbul walaupun dah 2 jam ko rebus...Bilo aku soal siasat...guna tepung apa????tepung beras...Patutla, patutnya guna tepung pulut. I nak sikit tepung you boleh? Walaupun memang tepung pulut yang dipos dari Malaysia tuh dah sikit, aku relakan je la. Kesian kan orang teringin. Only just now I knew that...dia beria-ia nak buat buah melaka tuh untuk show off to her friends. Patutla tuan punya tepung dapat rasa sebijik je. Kalau aku la kan...kalau nak sangat bagi orang rasa, tunggulah sampai ada stock sendiri. Alamak! aku dok komen-komen...now sape yg tak ikhlas kan. SENDIRI MAU INGAT LA KAN ..:). Isk..isk bila aku nak berubah ni...tu la tunjuk kat orang, 4 jari tunjuk kat aku balik huwaaaaaaaaa....

psst..tu yang rasa nak pinda rumah ni. Tpai tak mampu pulak. housemate sri lanka tuh pindah umah esok...banyak boto barang eh. Barang kat dapur jo pun berkotak2. Esok, ntah berapo puluh bag dio nak bawak turun hahaha...Tadi siap pi boli microwave tuh kat K-mart, sales lah tu kot. Semalam, dah masuk new housemate from China...alamak..mesti makan benda itew.....Harap2 la dia vegetarian....

Oh NOOOOOOOO...he came to me and gave me a BIGGGG HUG !!!!!

Are you kidding ????
Are you pulling my leg ?????
Nope, I'm telling you the truth......

How was that happen ???????
Do you believe it or not if I told you that it all happened because of Pulut serunding and kuih bakar.
WHAT??????

Alkisahnya, during this monday morning blues I cooked this Pulut serunding

and rolled it to this....

Isk..isk...gulungan yang kurang mampat dan kurang mantap...
Potong pun tak reti, dah la pulut lembik dan serunding masin gara2 guna tuna hehehe.
Nilah akibatnya jika sesuka hati ubah resipi yang dah mantap. Habis dah yg tukang makan tak ramai, so kena masak pulut secawan jo lah. Santan serbuk pun ada sepaket jo, camno nak masak untuk 3 dishes kan. Pulak tu bahan untuk serunding tuh kona kurangkan jadi 1/5 jo...Resipi asal 500gm ikan rebus. Den ado setin tuna ~100gm. Mano lak den tau tuna dah masin bebeno. Dah tamba gulo pun, masin gak. Pulak tu tadi nampak pulut tu cam koreh sikit, tu yg gatal tangan tambah air.

Maafkanlah den yo...atas tayangan sedemikian rupo ;). Kasi lain posing sikit....

I baked this kuih bakar too.......

However I just used cake flour instead of wheat flour and I have to reduce the coconut milk measurement too and substitute half of it with fresh milk...out of stock ma...what more can I say huhuhu..

Maybe due to that cake flour, kulit kuih bakar tu gelembung...terpaksalah banyak kali, I katuk dengan senduk kasi kempis....tak pasal2 la, sesame seeds tercabut.

Tak kisah lahh..walaupun pulut serunding dan kuih bakar ku kureng mantap...Aku tetap gumbira coz this is my first trial. Laju jo den tolan semuo eh. Recipe taken from As blog. TQVM As....Kena practice lagi nih, ken jadi gak macam As buat...


So, what this foodies got to do with I've been hugged by a man....
Actually, I prepared all this food for my friend who will go back to China for good. So, I gave the food and Malaysian key ring to him this afternoon. As I about to leave, suddenly he gave me that BIGGGGGGGG HUGGGGGGGG. Tokojut acik niha. Sib baik acik tak bagi penampar jopun atau tendangan padu maut kek dio tadi. Mano lak nak sangko dio nak poluk sesamo Asean kan. Tapi cam polik pulak kan, takkan dio tak ingat I'm a MUSLIM. Kok setakat hulur tangan, den tak kisah bona, ni poie poluk baik punya......Sib baikla dio tu cam bebudak lagi, ala cam dipoluk dek adik den jo lah. Tapi kok Brad Pitt ko, Tom Cruise ko, Johnny Depp ko...mosti acik poluk diorang balik, tak mau lopeh doh. Whatever it is, ni kiranya pengalaman yg pahit but pengajaran yang baik jugak buek den, even tough kinda feeling like diri dah tercemar if u know what I mean. I should be very careful and be ready/prepared after this. I don't want the same thing happens again. But, how to react calmly and avoid it? Any suggestion???

Jalan jalan cari makan...

Korang layan je la dulu gambar apa yg aku makan masa kat Adelaide harituh...
On my first day there=Tuesday, I bought nasi,ayam masak merah+tumis taugeh for dinner at Swinging Bowl, Rundle Mall.

It costed me aud9. I guess that if I'm South Australian student I can get cheaper price.
My second day I had vegetarian sandwich for lunch during the conference...best dapat rasa beetroot for the first time. Jealous je nengok depa makan macam2, ada skewed chicken tuh. Then, I had mee goreng for dinner.

It costed me aud13.90 or aud15.90...tak ingatlah. Tapi actually gambar tuh, gambar leftover mee tu..yg aku angkut bawa balik ke New South Wales. Kiranya boleh makan 4 kali tuh. Oklah with that price...

On my third day there, I had tuna mini sandwich+salmon sandwich+blueberry danish for lunch. So drooling when I saw my friend eating the pastries/tart with minced beef+pasta sauce as filling...Then, I went to Knoodle cafe at Pluteney ST....and chose this aud6.20/set of nasi goreng and 3 dishes for dinner.

If I were South Australian student I got 10% discount so that it only cost aud5.6/set. Wow..very reasonable price in big city. Psst...kelakar pulak nengok rendang daging tak berkuah tuh. I should try the mongolian beef. Luckily, that chicken+ squid taste nice. But, strangely I didn't choose that mongolian beef on the fourth day too. I chose the mild nasi goreng+pepper squid+chicken+taufoo....
Hmm...why the girl didn't put the mushroom in my set. Without it, the taufoo dish was not appealing as it was in the tray. Guess what? Before that I had english dish during tea break...the yummy scone+butter+marmalade...Hmm..I wish I could eat it with cream......

Definitely, I should try one of the icons of South Australia..Haigh's chocolate.


I can only afford this aud7.60 choc....and yes, it is better than I buy the small pieces of choc that cost 70 cents per piece.

............Luahan..........................

On the morning I went to Adelaide, 'kakak' asked me:
"Attend je kan? Bukan present"
I said:
"Dua-dualah"

Come on, my spv won't ask me to go there and use other lecturer's grant to pay for my flight ticket just to ATTEND the conference.

And tonite, she asked me different question but with same meaning.
"Present ke?"
Maka haku dengan gaya berlagak and dengan jelingan tajam manja pun cakap
"Mestilah present"

Why must you ask that question again? I doubt that you have forgotten about that. Just to make sure ? Takkan aku pi jalan jalan cari makan nasi and makan angin je. Why must you feel threaten, worry and obviously jealous with other people achievement and progress? We are in different school, different area of research, different supervisor and different enrollment date.

Tak faham lah dengan kakak tuh...tak sesudah dengan PHD dia tuh.
Sesikit nak compare dengan orang lain n tak leh orang lebih. Just take care of yourself lah....
So, for me tak payahlah buang masa cuba nak paham kalau menyakitkan hati...alhamdulillah ada blog ni untuk aku lepas geram dan luahkan perasan.....

Rezki jangan ditolak....mulut kata tak mau...

Jangan tokojut lak....den bolum balik laie lah.
Once again, it's scheduled post :)).

Hmm..apo nak cerito nih, dah haritu cakap pasal nak shopping souvenir kan........oklah....pasal cenderamata, cenderahati, buah tangan.....ole2....

Setelah nyimpan teh cameron highland


and pewter key ring for 6 months

maka aku baru sahaja menyerahkannya kepada my Indonesian hmate last friday. Rupanya, dia pun jenis cam aku gak..suko na buek pekasam souvenir, baru nak bagi orang hahha. Dia suruh I pilih nak souvenir apa...at first of course I was shy shy cat hahaha...yolah cam nak berbalas-balas pulakkan. So, I chose this bride keychain..ado bun/chignon tuh...hehhee

...dah macam siput mak dara pun ado kan....Tetiba my housemate suruh pilih lagi. I kata dahlah...tapi dia nak bagi gak, niha

the purse. Tapi I yg kononnya malu tadi, tetiba ngan tak malunye nak tukar yg lain...coz yg lain tuh cam ada warna ceklat...ala2 batik lepas gak. Tapi dia kata yg biru ni, sesuai utk orang muda. Hapa??? Kalau aku suka warna ceklat/perang..earth color tuh...taste orang tua ka ??? Yang kelakarnya, masa nak bawak keluar habuan tuh dari bilik dia, kena hati2 coz she didn't want 'kakak' nampak hahaha...Sib baiklah my jumper besar and poketnye ada dua n muat2 je nak masukkan purse tu hahaha....

Psst...comelkan kan....
Takkan kelambu baby kak jah woi. Ni namanya tudung periuk saji cute miut le....atau nama kat plastik pembungkusnya food cover or food net. Muatlah kot nak masukkan my baking tray hahahha. Hok ni, buke pemberian oghe ya...ni pembelian dari kocek ku la last saturday...aud2.90 kek kodai cino.

We had SNOW in the SUN...

APASAL? TAK PERCAYA KA ?????

Psst..inilah adalah scheduled entry...Ketika ini aku dah berada di Adel :))...sedang sibuk mencari souvenir kat Central market hahahha....
Bukan jenjalan cari makan n makan angin tau..kerja kerja la....Kalau tak percaya cuba korang tanya spv den..:P

Sepeninggalan den, korang layan je la gambar nih...on the way to the mountain....

cattle in the farm

small river across the farm

shadow of the cloud....

stream flowing through the valley

At last.........one of my dream came through...alhamdulillah....tercapai hasrat acik niha...

di sini salji ku pijak

di sana salju ku sentuh ....

We had joy, we had fun, we had SNOW in the sun...:))

Alhamdulillah, tak dapek poie uk, tak dapek pi switzerland...dapek gak meraso salji kek Ostolia ni ha...
EH! Australia ada snow yek? Baru I tahu....sapo suruh ekau tak ambil tahu.
Masa ambil geog dulu macam tak pernah pulak belajar pasal snow in OZ kan kan.

Tibalah masa untuk pulang sambil menikmati, mengkagumi dan mensyukuri keindahan alam ciptaan tuhan.

lake view with frost on the grass

It supposed to be winter sonata but look like autumn in my heart...

sunset....

orange sky dusk...

Kenapa si dia terkopak kapik dan nak tercabut????

Siapakah yang terkopak kapik dan nak tercabut itu ?????. Kalau bakal mak mentuo ado ni, menangis dio...bukan pasal ikan hancur and sobab tak roti siang ikan...pasal sodap bona hahahaha....Apo ado pada rupo asam pedas yellow tail with cabbage pickle and okra/lady's finger, yang ponting raso eh..:))

Resipi dari atuk Melako kono lotak, sawi/lobak jeruk....sodap lak hai, dapek hirup kuah pun sodap. Lum laie kalau kito guno ikan parang fresh, lotak lah bunga kantan. Huish, tak sodar dah tambah nasi 2 pinggan...Alahai teringin asam pedas ikan parang hasil air tangan mak huhuhu... Berebut lak kami nak telur ikan tembakul parang..tapi takdo sampai cam cito batu bolah batu bertangkup tuh doh. Kalau dah konyang pun makan kek luar, bilo bukak tudung saji ado lauk ni...den boleh toruih ngadap lauk ni.....nikmattttttttttttttttt !!!! My mum's asam pedas recipe is so simple...tumis garlic, onion, ginger, curry leaves, then chillies paste, then letak air asam jawa, ikan, daun kantan and sawi jeruk.....Bila borak ngan kawan, banyak version masak asam pedas ni, ada yang letak kunyit/lengkuas/kerisik/belacan etc...tak kisahlah janji sodap and kono pada selero memasing.

Rasanyakan, yellow tail ni memang dah 'kureng' lah, tu yang lombik semacam maso nak menyiang eh semalam. Dahlah pisau tumpul...tak dapek nak kolar ikan tuh ngan nak buang sirip dan suku sakatnya dengan boto. Pulak tu, copek na hancur bilo masak...Jadilah kan...alhamdulillah for my craving :). Kalau abah den suko bona asam pedas ikan mayong...den tak suko lak. Pulak tu ado orang siap makan insang ikan tuh...
Tapikan, asam pedas tu I ngelat la coz guna paste Mak Nyonya tau :))...cuma tertaruk banyak air la...tu yang kuah eh tu jalang sikit...(Note: mengikut kepahaman den sebagai orang noghori kuah jalang=kuah cair/agak jornih..jangan pikir maksud lain tau!!!).

Tetiba masa kat opis tadi, teringin nak makan goreng telur+lobak asin..Tapi takde lobak asin, lobak jeruk adalah...maka bantai je buat stir fried chicken+egg+pickle carrot


................my work...........................................

At about 10.57pm last nite, I started my second ppr writing with the reference first..so tedious, eventhough I only need to copy paste. But there is various format for writing reference ...memang jenuh la nak menukar eh. Then, I have to modify my figure using Adobe Illustrator...benda2 gini yg banyak makan masa....Check/correct/add my abstract/intro/method/analytical evaluation-appendix/numerical result/conclusion/acknowledgement. Sambil buat kerja while listening to mixpod in As NZ blog ...so touching listening to it during midnite. Once bored with my work...I did the blog walking la...I managed to stay up until 4.15am. Jemur kain jap..barulah zzzzzzzzzz. Pukul 6 dikejutkan oleh alarm clock, pukul 11.15am barulah bangun....then of course, menokok tambah my writing in the intro and literature review part. Huhuhu..apo nak tulis for discussion hah???? Tu yang kononnya nak pi uni before 12, rasa nak pi lambat coz nak sort relevant articles for the literature review and discussion session.

I went to uni after lunch. Tu pun kalut nak beli credit recharge +draw money. 3.15pm baru sampai opis. My-co have slipped the paper correction under the door. So, kalut pulak pi baiki...tetiba satu part tu cam pelik pulak ayat yg dia suruh tulis..sedangkan haritu aku maksudkan lain. Memula nak pikir dulu camna nak cari relation between the graph...Tapi tak dapat ilham gak, sakit kapla pikir. Pukul 4++pm, my-co pun dah balik huhuhu...really regret not to ask her earlier. Aku still proceed pikir/cari ilham/kira camna nak buat benda tuh...Then, I just realized that it's already 6pm. Maka, kalutlah aku menaip and print that thing..hopefully I can show it to pakcik the day after tomorrow. At 6.40pm I checked/modified my presentation slide and printed the handout. Then, tried to practice my presentation...Oh! No... more than 16 minutes...I should reduce the slides number. After that, I sent an email to the accomodation officer to postpone the payment for the accommodation fee. I am really hope that they will consider my request. At last at 7.30 pm, I went back home. Cooking +eating while watching masterchef....So, now time for packing...

ayam, ayam...dan ayam lagi

Hari jumaat baru ni pi uni dah tengahari, cam malas nak bawak bekal. So beli je la chicken curry pide, kiranya tulah yg paling murah...then tak sedar diri pi beli coke. Sesudahnya kapla pening hahaha...Balik umah, apalagi sesi masak2 pun bermula.....

Ingatkan special sangatkan. Hahaha dish biasa je la...fruit salad + ayam goreng berempah sesuka hati. Tabur je segala bahan yg ada..black pepper, fennel, cumin powder, oyster sauce, soy sauce, honey, garlic, shallots and ginger. Asyik lupa je...fennel tu hapa...cumin tu hapa ha??? Haritu dah tanya encik google...ni dah lupa dah.

Actually, harituh macam dalam dilema ...tak tau lah sama ada nak pi Sydney hari sabtu atau ahad nak pi jumpa my friend yg ada kursus kat sana. Yelah dah dah 10 tahun kot tak jumpa, kot iya pun pi le jenguk kawan kan bila dia mai sini...Tapi semalam terpergi teman my 'kakak' pi beli ayam..yelah dia teringin nak makan drumsticks yg besar and gebus. Kalau yg nearby ourhouse tuh...cinonit je ayamnya, dahlah org tu tak reti potong. Dah sampai mall tu...laparlah pulak...tengok ada Indian outlet...alhamdulillah halal with reasonable price jugak kot. For Aud 12.90 you got 3 curries, rice, naan bread and can of coke. Rasanya haritu makan kat indian restaurant semangkuk kecil lamb rogan josh and rice pun dah aud8. Tapi, hanya orang yg porut bosa jo boleh perabih the whole set. Terkulat-kulat la den nak perabih lamb rogan josh, chicken tikka masala and vegies vindaloo....nasi tak habih pun. Yang roti naan ngan coke tu bawak balik lah. Lagipun sebelum tuh dah terbeli soft drink-sparkling lemon. Bila dah ada roti naan teringin pulak nak makan chicken tandoori kan...Olehkerana, lebihan ayam yang diperap kelmarin ada lagi...maka aku telah mewarna merahkan ia, tambah ngan tummeric powder, paprika, fennel, and cumin powder and mayonnaise and baked it for my dinner....

Look like naan bread and chicken tandoori rentung but taste like fried chicken la hahaha....apa2 pun, burp...alhamdulillah.

Separuh lagi roti naan tuh, menjadi santapan pagi tuh harini...cheese naan bread+simple tomato salsa

Oklah...nak pi key in my spending for this week, jadi bibik...and do the laundry both machine wash and handwashing la, packing.....then of course I have to proceed with my writing yang tenggelam timbul itew...Alamak! detergent ngan cooking oil habis suda....tengoklah kok rajin potang karanglah den poie boli....takpun esok sajolah......

...................my work......................................................................................

Alhamdulillah dah hantar my paper correction to my-co. She gonna have look at it and give me back on monday, so that I can bring this paper correction to my pakcik in Adel...Hope, he'll like it hahaha. My-co siap cakap have fun lagi..hahaha yolah tuh, macam lah nanti ada masa kan..dari pagi sampai malam mesti kat workshop je la. Tu yg kono well plan tuh ;)). Sibuk gak hari jumaat tuh check my flight and airport pick up arrangement, surfing the internet-check my session/activities, search for the suitable transport there and of course place to shopping la hahhaa...tak sempat pun, kena disempatkan jugak hahaha. That friday is the last day for the visitor from NZ in my office...logo acik. Hari selasa she seems ok bila aku sembahyang. Tapi bila hari rabu n jumaat, everytime aku sembahyang , dia mesti kuar bilik...kebetulan atau dia tak selesa..ntahlah....

cakoi bantai aje dan aku pun kena bantai bertubi-tubi...

Semalam bila melawat rumah kaklia, hamboi tayangan cakoi berkuahnye...teringin lah pulak. So, pi lah rumah mamafami ngintai resepi. Thank you mamafami. Alamak ada yis ke...ni yg den lomah ni. Tapi den ikut je bahan2nya mana yg ada lah...tapi tak ikut sukatan, main bantai je...terukkan den ni. Bab yeast tu, ada yg kata boleh subtitute ngan baking soda n perahan lemon. Tapi hasilnya lain sikit lah. Maka tak hairanlah bila dah makan cakoi bantai aje ni baru tau...alamak terlebih telur ke, terlebih marjerin ke.............yelah mamafami punya resepi letak egg yolk..aku pi letak sekali yg putih tu hahaha.

Apa-apa2 pun nilah yg menjadi santapan den for dinner last nite and my lunch and dinner tonite. Walaupun kepingan tu tercerai masa di goreng, tapi raso eh sodap gak. In fact, still crispy outside and lembut inside walaupun digoreng tengahari tadi. Actually semalam buat murtabak maggi for lunch just guna leftover chicken curry 2 minggu lepas kot...tapi tak sanggup nak buat tayangan coz hahaha..pepaham je la...

Semalam sebelum pi uni..aku hangin betul ngan ASTRO pemakan duit tuh. Sampai nak nangis adik tu aku pi hamun. Maafkan akak ye dik....Nyesal tak mintak maaf dengan adik tuh. Bukan salah dia pun kan. Dah sistem ASTRO tu yg bengong. Kesian kan sesape yg keja kat customer care, mesti selalu jadi mangsa maki hamun orang yg keciwa n tak puashati. Alhamdulillah bila pi uni, tak sangka my-co pat on my shoulder....terharu I huhuhu. She said well done Fei.....Nantilah I cite. Last nite dengan semangat yg berkobar, konon nak writing...alamak article dah bersepah..so kenalah kemas..Tak habis kemas, aku dah ngantuk sangat. Tahu-tahu....aku sedar siang tadi...pukul 11.15 pagi. Ye puan2....den tak tipu...tidur hampir 12jam. Ntah tidor kayu ke pengsan ka...den pun tak tahu. Harap tak jadi lagi camni. Maka kalutlah nak buat semua benda, bila plan tinggal plan je kan....mana nak sort articles mana nak basuh/lipat baju, mana nak buat paper correction and nak proceed writing.

___________JANGAN BACA, NI HANYA LUAHAN______________
Tadi ‘kakak’ cerita pasal our friend here yg balik bercuti ke Malaysia..but not for cuti2 malaysia but due to her pregnancy and she has already got the approval from the sponsor. But that not the issue. Alkisahnya, since I’m kinda surprise to hear that I said “ eh! tak tahu pun” with concern tone. Of course I’m shocked to hear that normally we’ll know what happen to our friend or their progress from fb…walaupun my fb tuh cam hidup segan mati tak mau kan. Nak bersara, tapi sometimes jenguk gak. Eh..kuar tajuk pulak. Korang tau tak..tetiba kakak tu cakap apa “You don’t have to know everything..that’s why I’m telling you” Waduh…bisa berbisa kan. Tapi I sempat gak cakap, yelah selalu diaorang ada cerita….Padahal, dia baru cakap ada kawan suggest dia puasa supaya mudah mohon petunjuk, tu yg dia pose harini. I pun cakap baguslah, untuk self control juga. Hahaha tetiba I yg hilang self control bila ditembak dek orang yg berpuasa itew.

Ni mesti dia balas dendam pasal harituh. Bukan pasal apa pun, dia nak cerita pasal Kyle so you think you can dance nak bercerai. Hallo kakak!!! Kyle Australian got talent la…. Dia punya ayat berbentuk soalan. So, I cakap lah tak tahu dengan innocentnya. Dia naik angin…dan cakap ala2 macam tadi gak. I’m not asking you. I’m telling you. Hah! Padanlah muka aku kena smash kan…teringatlah jugak kata2 dia dulu. Dia memang suka smash orang…Apa ye dia dapat??? Kepuasan???? Tak terpikirkah dia orang lain ada perasan jugak. Kalau yang jenis tembok n think positive tak kisahlah jugak kan. Tapi bagaimana dengan orang yang sensitive, terguris, malah lagi teruk kalau berdendam....Aku rasalahkan, nanti kalau aku kena lagi macam ni…aku nak cakaplah “kakak, biasa ke cakap macam ni ngan semua orang???” takpun “Apsal cakap macam tuh”. As usual aku pun kena muhasabah diri gak kan. Mungkin cara aku cakap tak tahu tu, kakak tak suka tengok. Satu lagi I better try to think positive –she didn’t mean what she says and accept her as she is. I pun mesti ada self control, takkan sesikit pun nak terasa….

Tapi sape larat hari2 kena smash ho…Sampai baru ni, my friend cakap baru jumpa kakak pun dia tak tahan asyik nak menang je, can’t imagine kalau tinggal serumah yg macam I ni. Tulah..baru korang rasa..tapikan, kalau dia takde…I DO MISS HER hahaha….In fact sometimes I feel pity with her…maybe she’s lonely. Not only that she has prob with her spv. Semua orang pun ada prob kan ngan spv either small or big matter, but it depends on how you tackle that problem. So, bila dia ngadu I’ll listen and give her suggestion and advice . Sama-samalah kan, coz I pun ada my own problem kan. And last week she seems lost and blur and dunno what to do and what to choose what is the best for her whether to stay with the old spv which has no chemistry between them or start with the new spv which of course she has to start all over again with lots of reading and this time it involve technical stuff too until she said that she wanna go back home. So, I told her don’t do that…why not keep on praying asking for the guidance and also discuss with the new interested spv about her limitation and problem etc. She said that tak nampak/mimpi apa pun bila dah sembahyang. I told her somebody told me that it’s not necessary that the petunjuk came thru you dreams sometimes dari gerak hati. When it didn’t work out and she kept on complaining so the next day I suggested to her why didn’t she list down the pros and cons of her two options….In fact bila dah habis idea/cara, I contacted one of the friend who kinda close to her to give her advice. You know what he said…actually he already gave her advice to tone down with the old supervisor last 2-3 months, after all the spv is the one who’s going to approve our thesis…so it seems that she didn’t listen to him too………

Nasi kerabu Oz...aku rasa cam nak pi bommm seseorang

Wokay...wokay...aku bukan pembongak la. Sabo kak Jah wei....
Memanglah ni bukan nasi kerabu.

Nikan leftover calamari from saturday...so den pi goreng balik for dinner last nite, tu pasal ada rentung la hehehe. Dah tokak nak makan bebenda gorengkan...sambil krup krap, sambil tengok masterchef OZ. Oh! NO!!!!....not Jono huhuhu. And here is my nasi kerabu...

Buat ke??? No way...nak pi buat benda renyah ni. Dah namanya belikan, so sebekas itew kena makan dua kali la for lunch and dinner...bukan kedekut, nak jimatkan. aud5 boleh beli sekor ayam tuh...takpun sekor ikan kan...takpun boleh beli 2 bungkus potato chips smith/thins. Hehe cam besar sangatlah ayam goreng dalam gambar tukan ....

Harini, pi opis ada visitor dari NZ. So, tanya gak nicely is it ok if I wanna pray in the office. Luckily she didn't mind. I still can't proceed with my writing today coz my mind tak berapa betul after getting the review for my first paper. Lagipun kena cari essential reference as suggested. Hopefully I can make the changes for that paper by the end of this month and get it published. Please pray for me....

Actually harini cam malas nak berblog...tetiba den mendapat tahu sesuatu. Siapakah yg telah merampok and mengkidnap hardisk and RAM my PC yg telah ku hadiahkan pada seseorang ??? Memanglah I got it for free...bukan jenama canggih pun. Kot iya pun nak pinjam/ambil bagitau la...

Sudah acapkali ko buat aku begini. Kenapa? sampai hati...
Tolonglah, jangan buat aku menangis lagi, aku tak sanggup untuk menangis lagi...tapi air mataku tak tertahan lagi. Tolonglah jangan berpura-pura lagi....aku kecewa, aku putus asa, aku sedih dengan sikapmu. Hentikanlah!!!!! Bilakah kamu ingin berubah?
Adakah aku yang perlu berubah menjadi...pengebommmmmmu...kebabooooooooommmmmm!!!!!!!
Atau adakah aku harus bertukar menjadi patung tak bernyawa..tiada perasaan............

La....yee mee lagi ke....

Ha jangan ingat saya ni rajin sangat nak masak yee mee lagi tau. Selain tak mau membazir, la ni kena lah kedekut and berkira sikit..almaklumlah bil accomodation dah sampai huhuhu. Dapat elaun pun, mesti habis bayar accomodation fee je la. Habih!!! nak makan apa kan. Sebab tulah sekeping yee mee saiz mee maggi tuh boleh makan banyak kali tau, 3 kali....Nilah saki baki yee mee hari khamis lepas....

Kali kedua makan harituh dah campur terus ngan kuah dan for lunch today tambah ngan capsicum and tomato...blurpppppp jugakkan, walaupun warna mee cam pelik je kan. Harap tak sakit perutlah. Malam ni nak makan apa pulak ek ??? Adakah calamari and chips leftover from saturday early dinner and supper???


Finally, I managed to key in and calculate all my spending last nite and sorted all the bills/receipts/bank statements/card statements etc this afternoon...pooh!!! logo acik ha.
In fact, I have listed things to do :
a) Pay tax, credit card, M loan, my friend SM-IndahWater/fuel etc.
b) claim STA, car insurance..hampeh boto si Pan Global, wujud lagi ke company nih???
- accident dec 2007...july 2008 kot sunyi sepi...dec 2008 fax-reclaim
- feb2009 pos ekspress reclaim...july 2010 apa cer ?????
c) check/redeem bonuslink points before the expiry date...banyak dah hilang wo...
d) Contact my friend SH-regarding astro bill
e) Contact Ms-baggage
f) Contact BI-correct st name
g) Ad preparation
e) Claim money from S and Kak M....aku bukan Ah LOng tau !!!!

But, I still need time to sort all my articles ...that I have to wait as I haven't finish writing my second paper yet. Nak start semula...mencungap den di buek eh..isk...isk...

Tadi, dapat lak email dari kerani...ada lak visitor yg akan ditempatkan in my office...huwaaaaaaa...tak suka tau, susah acik nak bertenet n membuto.........

Mangkuk punya pizza ?????

Haritukan masa den tongah merayau n bersiar-siar kek umah blogger, den tersuka pulak nengok satu menu tuh. Ni ha my version la, tapi sesuko hati nukar namo eh mini bowl pizza=pizza mangkuk hayun............

My version ni, diadaptasi dari resipi baked sandwich dari rumah suzi....yang idea asalnya dari Rinn chan. Terima kasih ya suzie and Rinnchan.

I just used whatever ingredients that I have. Tapi nape ek my shell tak cantik .......kena belajar lagi ni...

Ingredients for 12 mini bowl pizza

3 slices wholemeal bread
oil to fry, chopped onion,minced beef, bolognese sauce +thinly slices carrot+capsicum, shredded cheese

Method-pizza base
1. Heat the oven for 10 min.
2. Roll the bread flat and cut it to four pieces
3. Grease the mini muffin tray and put the flattened bread into the tray
4. Bake for 10-15 minutes(180 degree) until golden to get crispy bowl/shell

Method-filling
1. Saute onion
2. Add in minced beef and stir until brown
3. Add in bolognese sauce and stir until cook
4. Add in capsicum+carrot and turn off the stove.
5. Scoop the filling into the pizza shell
6. Sprinkle shredded cheese on top of the filling
6. Grill or bake (top heat) for 10-15 min until the cheese melt.

Actually semalam dah buat tuna filling, tapi tak sempat nak snap gambar huhuhu....

Harini, kena jadik bibik di rumah pulak...vakum+cuci toilet. Opss..jangan lupa laundry+lipat sekali tau. Nak gak mengira budget, yelah daripada semalam tak sesiap lagi. Macamlah budget besar sangatkan. Maklumlah dah dapat bill suruh bayar accomodation fee. So, kenalah mula menuntut hutang dari sesiapa yg berkenaan. Tu yg malas nak join my filipino bf to gardening...
So, malam ni lepas bermaster chef tu...mari kita menulis hehehe...chaiyuk! chaiyuk!

TERpergi, TERmakan, TERbeli..............TERmengamuk

Semalam, aku terpergi city dan termakan californian roll and fish terriyaki

dan terbeli something............

Kenapa jadi camtu??? Punyalah semangat nak berdiskus ngan spv...konon nak mengadu nasib. Aku tak habis nak cakap pasal my result lagi..tetiba dia cakap "Why? Your result seems weird?
Dia memang tau dah aku camtu. Mesti dia dah buhsan...aku asyik nak bagitau pasal result yg hampeh tuh...compared to my friend yang bukan sahaja got good result, malah macam takde problem, tau tau dah siap satu paper lagi. Segan gak, yelah budak tu dah ada 1 published paper, 2 papers under review and another 1 will be submitted soon....

Lagi haru...tetiba ter fire drill pulak. Maka terpaksalah evacuate that building. Sempat lagi diskus ngan spv kat luar. Bila aku tanya boleh tak asingkan constant base on type of element, my-co kata doesnt make much different. Once again dia kata..just write. Terkezut dia kata all this while you just show your result..I don't know what you are doing..WHAT????? Dah setahun la I've been doing this. Inilah akibatnya bila haritu aku stuck dgn evaluation no one wanna help me n check my work. Asyik kata my coding is wrong bla2....bila aku start tulih no one wanna read it. Stress tau...but yeah..I just write properly whatever I have done and whatever result I got........

Maka jangan hairanlah kenapa aku harus terpergi city.......asalnya my plan without consulting my friend was to eat pizza/kebab/sushi/spinach roll..what a choice hahahha. Yelah cari yg paling mengenyangkan/paling murah/boleh simpan utk dinner. Tetiba my friend macam prefer nak ke that japanese cafe pulak. So, TERjebak la sekali...yelah sort of farewell lunch for our friend who will go back to Malaysia tomorrow...Babai pelakon sinetron hahhaa.

Sempat gaklah kami sembang pasal kawan kami si budak nerd itew yg suka belanja orang mkan. Moga bertambah murah rezeki dia. Tapi aku sempat cakap ngan my friend aku memang nyampah ngan orang yg berkira...dahlah kaya, kerja bagus tapi kedekut. Tapi biasalah, aku selalu jumpa orang macam tu...dahlah suka pow orang, bila orang nak belanja, dia lebih sudu dari kuah pulak, sesudahnya orang yg nak belanja tak dapat makan apa yg dia teringin, pulak tu tak ucap terima kasih pulak tu.

Harini..aku jadi bibik, kat dalam bilik je pun dekat setengah hari...Tapi mood ada dasat la....Kenapa?????

Tadi, adalah seseorang di Malaysia nak meminjam duit aku RM400. Aku dah cakap banyak kali ngan dia, kalau nak call/sms guna nombor OZ, bukan no Celcom aku. Sib baiklah aku TERtengok phone yg bawah bantal tuh...Siap aku bebel, korang ni tak bertanggungjawab...tak kisah langsung. Kalau apa2 jadi kat Malaysia, camna korang nak bagitau aku. Bila aku tanya nak buat duit tuh, kata water filter atau accesories dia pecah. So, kena beli alat ganti. Siap aku mengamuk takkan water filter yg kononnya glamer n rege lebih RM3000 boleh pecah. Tu la degil sangat nak beli, orang dah kata jangan beli n join..nak jugak. Percaya sangat kata kawan. Ada tak kawan dia tanya pasal dia sekarang..hmm haram...dah dapat untungkan. Sape yg susah?? sape yg sengkek? sape yg nak tanggung hutang ribu2.........Bila aku tanya nak berapa sebenarnya? Dia kata tak nak nyusahkan aku, takut aku takde duit...RM400-RM500. Aku cakap oklah aku bagi RM600, lagi RM100 boleh belanja famili dia...Tetiba aku rasa kesian sangat terus cakap, oklah aku bagi dia RM1000..tapi suruh dia berjimatlah, at least dia boleh gak bayar duit rumah dia. Rasanya dah lama tak bayar tuh..pelik la orang yg jenis tak kisah n tak fikir implikasi nih. Aku pun sama jenis lah tu. Orang mintak RM400, aku pi bagi RM1000. Ntah apa doa tah org tu pakai...Padahal aku sendiri ada hutang RM3000 isk..isk...Adakah aku terkezut ngan cheque yang tak disangka sebanyak RM1250 tuh. Ya Allah murahkan rezeki ku, dah kurniakan lah aku sentiasa bersyukur dengan nikmat mu.

Propa je lebih.........

Tu la kata tak mau n tak larat nak masak. So, siang tadi hanya makan oreo ngan cereal bar. Tetiba teringin nak makan apple pie la, tapi takde butter. Teringin gak yee mee la..nak makan sea food gratin la. Memandangkan ayam dah dikuarkan dari freezer since two days ago, here's my non sizzling yee mee hahaha.........

Kecewaku pasal my work, masih tak terubat lagi...camno??? So, bak kata my-co..tulih jo, jangan pikir pasal implikasi nyer. Betul gak, tulih je result ..betul ke tak betul ke..janji aku tulih apa aku dah buat n dapat.........Tapi malam ni Glee finale ..hmmmmmm

No more masak-masak....

Actually takde mood nak berblog, tapi kena buat gak coz lately dah malas nak jot down my work in my notebook.

Semalam memang tak larat nak masak. So hanya reheat leftover kebab from Sunday.
Malam pulak...macam tak selera nak makan bila duduk bilik. Tetiba bila turun bawah, teringin nak makan benda panas, maka hanya buat telur dadar je. Tengok dalam fridge ada lagi marble cake last 2 weeks, apalagi reheat lah. Pagi tadi pulak order nasi lemak dari kawan, sodap gak...sambal tumis dia macam ada letak serai pulak. Tadi pi city, konon nak belikan souvenir for my friend yg akan kembali ke Malaysia...tetiba beralih arah membeli beg dan salmon sushi pulak....ish..ish.......

............................................my work........................................................................................................

Semalam pi uni, my-co pulak takde. Alhamdulillah, after reading biochemistry book I managed to find out what I wanna know...lega!!!!. So, I sent email to my-co about this new info. I also received an email from the clerk asking whether I wanna move to the new office-sharing with the vietnamese guy...instead of moving to the bigger office but I have to share with 5 others. Hmm..camno...tak kisahlah...yang penting senang nak sembahyang. Yang bilik ramai tuh, bila aku request seat kat tepi...ada pulak yg kata better pi reramai n pilih tempat masing2 instead of booking tempat tuh dulu. Kalau berebut tempat, kena lambung coin...huh!!!! Tadi dah tanya that guy. He don't mind if I wanna pray in the office..logo acik...

Oh! back to my work...base on that info, I'm really excited coz my project result seem reliable. So, today I wanted to discuss with my-co in the morning..but she suggested to do so after lunch. While waiting for that time to come, I checked the constants used in my project. It seems ok because it consider HB too instead of I have to calculate it separately if I use the other constant. Unfortunately, while reading the article about this constant..I realised that the method that I used to calculate the constant is not the same as presented by other article. So, I have to recalculate that constant. Then, my-co came to my room. I told her about this new constant which already include the HB. She seems interested with this new constant and asked me to send the article to her. I also told her about the result and my mistake in calculating it. She told me to write the paper and not to worry about the implication. BUT!!!!!!!! when I run the program after recalculating the constants............my result was not ok anymore huhuhu......So, what to do??? Find another article???? Done....tapi ...cam sama je....SO???? amat stress jawabnya, tu yang pi city tuh.........

Memerap n terperap dalam bilik seharian

Pelikkan...aku dok memerap kat bilik seharian. Turun masak pun malas. Hanya makan apa yg ada dalam bilik...2 muesli bar, dark chocolate, Doritos chips. Malam pulak hanya turun untuk mandi, basuh baju n buat air milo+makan kepok...

Tak tahu nak cerita apa dah...layan je lah gambar ni...

Oklah dah pagi ni...nak tido lah. Pukul 10am ni nak pi jumpa my-co....

Psst....tadi kawan yg aku bengang tu ada cll...Bila dah borak2 tuh, hilang pulak rasa bengang aku tuh. Agaknya sebab dah luah dalam blog hehehe. Tetiba rasa bersalah pulak pi letak entri semalam pasal dia...dah macam mengaibkan dia pulakkan. Harapnya akan terbuka hati aku untuk mendelete entri semalam...Rasanya Fadzilah Kamsah pernah cakap...bersihkan hati untuk memohon hidayah..kena maafkan semua orang sebelum tido..

Tak suka orang selfish

Sebelum aku membebel pasal selfish ni...layan je la dulu, makhluk-makhluk yg suka makan fish ni...
Kenapa membebel ni????? Biasalah dengan perangai manusia yg pelik-pelik ni...

Well, haritu punya trip bengang dengan orang yg selfish n sangatlah kedekut bukan sahaja dengan duit, malah cameranya. I mean kalau kita pi sesama, tak kisahlah nak share makanan pun. Yang peliknya, kalau makanan kita dia makan, malah tak sabar2 nak habiskan walaupun kita ingat nak simpan lagi. Dia punya makanan hmmm......ada kami rasa ke???? Lagi kesian ada adik tu dah belanja kami mocha ngan choc cake, then belikan donut for breakfast n belikan sauce for lunch....tapi bila adik tu nak tumpang camera si kakak ini n nak menengok kembali gambar yg dah di snap...bole minah ni tak bagi. Bateri camera aku pun dah weak, tapi adakalanya aku tolong gak snap gambar adik tu n tunjuk hasilnya...tawakal je la kan. Yelah kita pergi sekali tu je..klu boleh naklah gambar terbaik. Pulak tu, bila adik tu nak pi pantai dia tak nak, padahal dia pi shopping lelama tu boleh pulak...tak ke selfish ke namanya...

Lagi sedih n bengang, masa kat airport...Yelah, kalau dah flight pukul 8.55, takkan kita awal sangat 7.30am nak pi boarding area tuh. Lagipun bukannya ramai orang pun. So, bila dah check in, aku belum la lagi nak masuk ke boarding area tuh...takkan aku nak buang jus dan buah aku. Baik aku perabih dulu...Dia tak sabar2 nak masuk. So, I told them to just go ahead..kalau nak masuk, masuklah dulu. I wanna finish my food n drink. Guess what..memang tak sangka depa masuk je n left me alone behind....What??? I just say it....sampai hati kan..........Hehehe, salah aku jugak kan, apahal nak kecik ati...dah aku suruh depa masuk dulu. Tapi nilah first time aku jumpa kengkawan yg sangat selfish...Padahal, memang kena tunggu gak dalam boarding area tuh hahaha...lagipun bukannya jauh cam KLIA tu sampai kena naik train. Ni kat bilik sebelah je hahaha...belakang kaunter check in.

Trip kali ni pulak, pun ada gak manusia pelik...dia takde masalah ngan camera dia, tapi nak tumpang camera kita. I pun tak kisahlah, kita take turn guna camera masing2...Tapi memory card aku dah full, tu yg aku kena buang gambar sesikit. Tapi dia gedik jugak nak guna my camera. Not only that suruh ambil banyak kali. Bila time aku punya turn...memory card full sekali lagi. Bengang tak, dia tak mintak maap. Lagi bengang buat muka selamba. Masa dia sibuk posing ngan camera dia pulak. Kita terkial nak mendelete gambar....Bila kita ambil gambar kat satu area tuh..kadang2 kita nak ambil gambar sorang, dia suka sangat nak nyibuk nak join sekali..padahal bila dia sorang, takde pulak kita nak nyibuk. Lagi bengang bila kita dah ambil gambar depa, patutnya turn depa lah amik gambar kita kat situ..boleh depa tinggal kan je kita kat situ terkulat2........Ingatkan buat perangai sekejap je, hari berikutnya pun buat hal lagi. Dah tau my camera battery already weak, still nak tumpang camera I, padahal dia berlagak dia ada bawak extra battery for her camera. But still, layan je la. My camera pun pelik, kejap 1 bar battery, kejap 2 bar battery. So, masa on the way home, aku pun saja tangkap gambar sunset and memang battery sign blinking. So, aku cecepat switch off the camera. Sebab bosan, aku try bukak balik..ok pulak. dah tau takkan ambil gambar lagi...aku pun tengok balik gambar2 yg telah di snap. Boleh minah tu cakap- tahan lagi batteri kamera akak ya....Apasal nak sindir2 pulak. Bengang la kot, coz aku tak kasi sangat dia guna sangat my camera...lagipun dia ingat aku tipu la tuh. Lantaklah la kan janji I'm telling the truth.

Kenkadang kita suka suka gambar candid, tapi dia purposefully kacau dengan berposing...Not only that, bila kita nak capture certain moment, yg kita rasa menarik...dia boleh tetiba melompat depan my camera....sakit hati!!!!!!!!!! As a result of course I miss that moment...yg nampak hanya gambar kapla dia...Come on u r not 7 or 17 anymore, but 27...tak fikir perasan org lain. Hmm..tapi mungkin aku pun camtu gak...dah 30an tapi masih terlompat2 n terkinja2 lagi yg buat orang heran jugak kot..

Pasal gambar pun satu hal, kalau dia suka gambar dia besar2, tapi tak nampak pemandangan..tu suka hati dia lah. Ni bila kita dah setkan camera, dia tinggal nak tekan je...still nak ubah2 jugak. Sesudahnya amat sakit hati, bila tengok gambar dia yg kita ambilkan oklah ada gambar dia dari hujung kapla ke kaki dengan pemandangan sekali...Bila tengok gambar kita, dahlah dekat sangat, kaki tak nampak...pemandangan yilek!!!! Padanlah muka aku kan, sape suruh dia. Next time kenalah beli tripod........kalau tak jadi ke, tak puas hati ke kat diri sendiri je. Psst....adakah aku jahat kalau aku pi delete gambar dia tuh..wakakaa...sebab tak puas hati gambar dia yg aku tangkap tu cantik.

Pulak tu, guna barang kita...punyalah lama, sampai kita kena jemput pulak. Bila kita dah guna, mintaklah dia hantar ke dapur, in case orang lain nak guna...coz I nak bersiap, boleh dia kata dia dah malas nak ke dapur....Tapi at last, pergi jugak ke living room yg sebelah dapur tuh...Sebelum tuh tak tolong basuh pinggan/periuk pun. Dahla lambat kuar nak menolong ke dapur, alih2 sampai je dining room terus ngap makanan dulu. Aku yg dok mengadap memasak menyiapkan makanan tu pun tak sempat nak ngap lagi. Tatkala orang lain sibuk mengangkat barang nak balik, dia pulak pi sibuk bergambar..mestilah orang kuat rombongan cik kiah bengang kan, dahlah penat drive, masak etc...Bila disuruh ambil makanan malas. Konon tak lapar lagi. Tapi kesian lah driver dah lapar sangat. Time ngangkat barang makan nak yg ringan je. Tapi dengan tak segannya, boleh dia memula2 makan dulu. Ko iya pun, bagilah driver yg kepenatan dan kelaparan makan dulu. Takpun dahulukan lah tukang masak or bebudak lelaki dulu. Pulak tu, dah makan tinggal je pinggan tuh atas meja, kemas la. Rasanya masa berhenti makan pun kat cafe pun camtu. Tergedik2 minta knife n fork. Tapi tak guna pun. Then, dia boleh biarkan plastic knife atas meja, bukannya nak pi buang. Kat bilik pun camtuh...tisu2 yg dah berguna n ada kesan darah jerawat dia pun, dia boleh biar atas meja...Malulah kalau ketua rombongan check bilikkan...perempuan pulak tu. So, sape yg nak pi kutip n buang...haku jugak. Aku pun satu hal, sanggup pi buang semata-mata tak nak dituduh pengotor...yelah kami share bilik kan. Mana depa tau sape yg buat...depa aim semualah kan. Konon masuk toilet gelilah, rasa nak muntah la bila masuk toilet yg kita dah guna. Kita tak basuh dengan airlah. Mana dia tau kita ada wet tissue or not. Padahal kita sebelum kuar toilet siap dah check banyak kali n lapkan the top of toilet seat . Sebenarnya sape yg pengotor. Takkan I nak guna botol air, then minum guna botol air tuh????? Then dengan kurang ajarnye pi percikkan air dari botol yg dah diletak dilantai toilet tu kat aku...dengan pi sandarkan botol yg basah tu kat kaki aku...

Kan tak baik cakap pasal orang, mengungkit etc....tapi geram sangatlah..menyampah dan tak tahan dengan perangai manusia ni..ish......Tapi, aku kena muhasabah diri gak. Aku pun salah gak. Aku pun bukannya baik sangat. I mean mesti ada sikap n perangai aku depa tak suka. Cara aku bercakap n tegur depa dan tak suka cara depa tu mungkin obvious sangat. Meaning that..aku ni kureng communication skill...tak tahu camno nak tegur orang, kalau kita tak berapa berkenan dengan perangai depa, pepandai la kan cakap elok2..ni so obvious. Tapi susah nak cakap orang tak faham bahasa ni. Buat ikut suka dia je n ala2 muka tembok. Memang bagus take things easy..but sometimes kena pikir gak pasal orang lain. My prinsip is aku tak suka nyusahkan orang, and hopefully orang tak nyusahkan aku gak. Tak kisah orang nak mintak tolong...tolong selagi mampu, tapi takdelah sampai aku yang terkorban.......Rasanya, dedulu aku pernah cakap kan..kalau kawan tak nak berubah, akulah yg kena berubah...lebih sabar dengan orng cam gitu n cuba mengawal diri n memperbaiki kemahiran berkomunikasi...supaya orang yg tak reti bahasa tu, boleh jadi reti bahasa hahaha...

MoRE and More WeiGhT.......

Pagi semalam, tak tahu nak masak apa buat bekal. Memula ingat nak beli je. Tapi mahal pulakkan. Nak buat omelette, telur pulak dah habis. Tetiba teringat ada roti naan instant...apalagi terus je masak chicken curry pepagi buta hahaha...Campak je semua bahan dalam periuk, tiru style my sri lankan housemate-ayam, curry/chili/tumeric/black paper powder, bawang, halia, pes asam jawa, air...tak yah letak minyak n santan. Tapi termasam pulak, hahaha terpaksa letak gula...Hmm ada ke org masak kari letak gula. Bila tengok banyak kuah, pi gatal tangan letak tepung jagung...sesudahnya pekat la pulak cam ni ha..........

Pagi tadi pun, buat bekal ni jugak....Cuma bila malam, macam suka nak makan benda goreng2 la. Macam dinner tadi teringin nak makan cekodok. Jenuh nak pi lenyek pisang yg tak berapa nak masak lagi tuh. Pulak tu tepung pun tinggal sikit sangat. Dapatlah sikit je cekodoknyer. Jadilah, asal boleh rasa. Hari selasa pulak pi buat jejemput bilis...pi gatal letak tepung beras...hambik ko...keras pulak jejemputnya, lagi parah ikan bilis liat. Yg penting habis den tolan hahaha.
So, kesimpulannya...I put on MORE WEIGHT huhu...now 45.5 kg. Dari 43.5kg konon nak turunkan ke 42kg, lagi bagus 40kg. Hmm sesudahnya...naik ke 44.5kg...45....45.5....Kena kasi turun balik, jangan lepasi angka 45 tu.........

Psst..tadi call my abah..Biasalah dia tanya pasal study camna. So, ceritalah pasal pakcik dah pindah Adelaide n mungkin kena stop my second project. Dah borak macam2..tetiba dia tanya soalan yg dia tak pernah tanya...mungkin dulu dia pernah tanya, but maybe it didn't sound serious like this time.........Rasa sebak pulak. Nak buat guano kan. What can I say...Insya Allah. Memang nak nangis pun masa tu...so, aku cecepatlah end that call....

..............................my work...............................................

Tadi, aku dah senaraikan apa yg aku dah buat n resultnya dan juga apa yg patut aku buat. Then pi jumpa my-co, bagitau pasal dimension yg aku silap kira. Tapi dia macam susah nak percaya. Dia check jugak kat internet. Dia kata, maybe what I said is true. Bila bagitau pasal result yg tak sama ngan previous literature..dia kata dont worry too much. Just write whatever my result is. Nanti bila Adelaide boleh gak tunjuk kat pakcik. Then, I told her if I construct a new model..very complex and tedious. I also ask her opinion, whether I can extend my first project. She suggested to me to do that if I'm free...Hmm..bilo lak tu kan. In fact, she also suggested several structures..interesting. Tapi bila pikir balik...it seems that she wants me to proceed with the second project. I thought last two days she wants me to stop it. Conpius..........

Tetiba, lepas tu she came to my room telling that the dimension is correct.But, once I check again from the internet it's wrong.......camno tuh???? Susah gak nak argue...so tonite I have to really understand the concept and have relevant material to support my argument.