Maka padan muka orang yang lambat.

Nampak ????
Rasa tak betapa sakitnya hati bila sedang busy terkejar2, ada pulak yang mengganggu dan terganggu?
Orang lain bulan feb dah settle isi dan bayar.
I semalam baru kalut cari resit dan print EC form.
Hari ini banyak kali cuba. Memula ada pop up... problem apatah. Bila restart computer....terus dapat the above display....

Serve me right huh.....


update 4.20pm:
Alhamdulillah akhirnya berjaya diselesaikan@1pm. Gara2 tak bayar zakat last year, maka kali ini cukai terlebih bayar around rm400 saja. Hish harap kali ini berubah. I rasa I dapat balasan cash. Dulu tertangguh bayar zakat sedar2 I lost my bracelet@OZ. Last year pun dok menangguh alih2 tahun ni I almost lost RM5k.

Cabaran bila nak exercise.

Pagi tadi semangat waja. Konon nak jogging sekitar rumah je. Alih2 berlarian ke jalan besar terus ke tasik. Few years back I managed to run or walk thrice around the lake which about 6 km distance. Unfortunately, I only jog/walk one round only this morning...terasa semput dan boyak huhuhu. Tak cukup dengan itu, ada pulak orang jual nasi lomak...Tak ke menggoda tu. Luckily tak bawa duit. Balik kita minum air hirisan lemon untuk detoks while watching recorded Running Man.

Sepatutnya pi ofis hari ini untuk siapkan kerja. Semalam tak jadi pi, harap hari ini pun tak jadi macam selalu...semangat waja, tapi tak terlaksana oppps....

update at 3pm.

sampai ofis 12.15pm. Lunch and read newspaper. Internet lagi...dah 1++ baru start buat kerja. Cari bahan terbaru for my pgm from the internet. Tapi i dah mula migraine coz kepanasan tiada aircond. 2.40pm ...i cabut. 3++ pm I pengsan 2 jam....bangun lagi teruk headache.

Jangan bersedih di pagi hari ....

Biarlah ia berlalu pergi
Jika tidak boleh dibaiki
jika tiada apa boleh dilakukan lagi
cuba jadikan pedoman diri...
ubah minda, positifkan diri...
Ya...kita mulakan hari
dengan melihat bunga berseri
walaupun kini ia tiada lagi...
tinggal kenangan indah untuk ditatapi....

Sedih sampai loya dan nak demam

I was really shocked n upset when I checked my customer evaluation this afternoon. It was so low...Am I that bad???? Kebetulan kawan I dari Bangi called I. Dialah jadi mangsa mendengar kesedihan I. He asked me to think positive and move on. Right after we ended our phone conversation I tried to contact my close friend to share this bad news. Unfortunately she didn't pick up my call. Then I called my colleague...I was too sad to say anything and what I can do was sobbing and crying ....As a result I felt nauseous and have a headache, my mood was spoilt to do anything and I lost my temper easily in the late noon meeting especially when people keep on asking me trivial thing such as font size like I know everything  whereas I got the info at the same she got it.....

Hmm...to that customer....takpelah ...
kita bagi bunga, orang balas tahi,
Kita simpati, orang tiada hati,
Kita prihatin, orang tak peduli
Kita tolong, orang  nafi
Kita perhati,
sampai mana orang begini boleh pergi
Bila tiba masanya nanti,
adakah orang begini terus tak sedar diri
Bila hati dilukai,
Macam2 keluar di sini....
Terima kasih...semoga kami tak jumpa lagi!!!

No matter how upset I am, I know that I have to accept if the customers really evaluate my work that low. But I still wonder and cannot believe that it could happen to me after all that I have done to them....In fact it seems illogical if everyone of them gave the negative response.

However I cannot accept if there is something wrong with the evaluation system and the relevant party do not want to be responsible and take action...It's very clear that the data seems weird. I am the victim and it jeopardize my future career. Doa orang teraniaya makbul....saya akan terus berdoa dan berusaha....

Mengejar pangkat....menonjol diri

Terpulang2 la cara masing-masing untuk naik pangkat.
Nak terbang? Nak berlari? Nak berjalan? Nak merangkak.
Asalkan tidak menyusahkan, membebankan dan mencantas orang lain.
I don't want to be hypocrite....of course saya nak naik pangkat....tapi I memang tak mahu terbang dan berlari untuk dapatkannya. Bila tiba masanya, insya Allah akan dicapai juga ....

Kata2 seorang rakan dlm mesyuarat pagi tadi buat I tersentak juga. Katanya dia kalau boleh tidak mahu mengejar...tak mahu pegang apa2. Hmm...something to ponder.
 Semakin besar jawatan, semakin besar tanggungjawab, semakin kapla pusing hahahaha....

Tak lama lepas tu, kedengaranlah suara yg di depan...

'Suruh R'

'Dia slow ...W lah'

'Tapi W busy sangat ni ...ada dua projek besar nak handle'

.

.

.

'Suruh B lah...'

'A lah'

' Dia lambat...B lah'

Something to ponder too...semakin buat kerja dgn baik, semakin ramai yg memerhati, semakin dipercayai, semakin banyak tugas diperolehi, semakin MENONJOL, semakin cepat dia berlari....

Orang sebelah I ada juga ditanya oleh orang depan kot nak buat tugas yg disebut2 di atas. I??? Mcm tak wujud pun dalam mesyuarat tuh. Nampak sangat tak pernah pikul tugas besar, kalau buat pun ...hasil tak bagus...takpun slow...mudah panik dan kuat complain pulak tu. Hahaha sebab tu invisible....mode SEDAR DIRI ;)))). I lagilah suka...yg depan mata pun tak larat nk buat, inikan pulak nak tambah kerja....Cuma I terfikir, kalau tak pernah diberi peluang, sampai bila2 pun masih di takuk tu.

whatever it is...yg penting masing2 HAPPYYYY.

Tak tahu nak beri siapa?

Pada lewat ptg selasa, I terasa nak menyumbang sesuatu. Tapi on my way to the parking lot, I didn't meet anyone. As I was about to drive away from the parking lot tetiba sampailah adik yg naik motorsikal. Sejuk hati nampak dia senyum. Rasa nk panggil nk bagi something, tapi segan pulak. I rasa sedih sangat nak menyumbang, tapi tiada sesiapa. Takkan nak berhentikan kereta dan tahan orang yg lalu. Memang I berdoa mohon ada org yg boleh terima sumbangan. Alhamdulillah rupanya rezeki Pak Guard.

Sapi dapat nama

Few years back, I penat buat paper work...second boss yg sedap2 tandatangan di bahagian ' disediakan oleh'. Bila dia tahu I heboh pasal tu, dia sindir2 I...bahan perlu dikongsi. Hmm... Apa kaitan kongsi dengan sapi????

Harini my sixth boss kata dalam meeting dia yang buat report on something. I pandang je dia. Then, baru dia mention ada juga yg my friend and I bagi input, tapi kononnya tidak diambil oleh evaluator. Masa tu I was speechless...could not believe that he did that. Padahal sebahagian report asal adalah antara catatan I hasil perbincangan kami dengan evaluator. Dia dpt my catatan, dia ubahsuai. Then dia beri pada I in case I nak tambah, memang I tambah lagi report tuh. So, tang mana yg dia dok buat sorang tu???? Hmm...sapi juga dia....

Siri bila tiada rezeki ....

Pagi semalam memang nikmat makan frozen capati dengan sambal hitam diiringi dengan kopi O....

Petang pi supermarket. Dah terasa2 dalam mulut fusion water ada lemon n cucumber. Sampai je kaunter bayaran ....alamak lupa nak timbang huhu. Dah malas nak pi semula veges section after a long queue ...so say good bye to that lemon n cucumber. Kan best kalau mcm di OZ...timbang terus di kaunter bayaran. Ada tak yg menyampah? Sikit2 Oz...sikit2 OZ....sorry...tapi itulah antara things that I missed most selain minum tap water. Hahaha...dasar pemalas kan.

Bila balik stopped by di kedai makan. Dah terasa2 dalam mulut nasi arab dan kebab. Huhuhu...nasi pulak habis..

Pagi tadi beria packed food for lunch. Bila sampai tempat kerja baru perasan lunch pack tidak kubawa.

Sekian...siri bila tiada rezeki.

Jom Exercise ....

For the first time this year I joined the combat and aerobic class yesterday. Adoi mongah dan pancit acik...at last buat gerakan sesuka hati. For the first time this year I went out jogging and brisk walking this morning. Unfortunately I have to stop abruptly once I saw two stray dogs wandering around the street. Hish kacau daun je bila I punyalah semangat nak jogging. Lepas tu yg sekoq tak mau pi jauh. Elok je duduk lepak jalan tu huhuhu....

I need to live a healthy life style by exercising frequently and watching my diet. An awareness due to my weight and inches gained as well as the sudden death of my colleague....

As usual, weekend for me is to rest or having a break of office work if possible and cleaning the house. Currently it is a viral in the deco group on how to get the shiny floors by using hot water and batik cloth only. I takde kain batik lusuh and I tried it using the common mop and it worked...yeay. Thanks to those who shared the tips.

Vontot tonggek

Petang tadi I menyapu di porch. Tiba2 terdengar bebudak sekolah rendah yang sedang bermain bola menjerit "bontot tonggek". Lepas tu "punggung besar". Terkejut I...rasa I pakai baju besar, longgar dan labuh. Walaupun baju nipis, I pakai inner labuh juga...Musykil!!!!! Tiba2 ternampak seorang budak lelaki mengayuh basikal lalu depan rumah I sambil tertoleh-toleh melihat kumpulan yg bermain bola. Hahaha...tang mana tonggek dan vontot besar I tak tahulah....

Food for two ...

Balik rumah around 7pm semalam, belek2 brosur, layar internet, buat pilihan, buat panggilan dan akhirnya 40 minit kemudian ....

Kalau haritu prawn passion, kali ini prawn sensation with extra cheese ...thin crust semestinya.

It comes together with this cinnastix

I think I prefer the breadstix over the cinnastix.

The leftover would be my brekky and lunch :)))).

Don't judge...

I just wonder why certain people uttered 'don't judge' to me when she is the one who is judging me by stating that. Hello!!! Making assumption is totally different from judging people. Just because I said someone maybe afraid to see her it does not mean that I am judging people.

What makes me wonder is when she is actually the one who keep on judging people. Just because of certain people seems fine and laughing happily whenever she is with them or see them, it does not mean they are not sick. What we SEE does not fully represents what is really happened.

Just because I listen to certain people problem it does not mean I bluntly believe them.

I am sick of people who is arrogant and think that they are way better than other people. Too many cynical words, complaints and arguments....If she wants my position, just take it!!!. If she can wait for her turn, just say so!!!! Hmmm...am I judging people too????? Opppsssss....

We should forgive people before we sleep....but sometimes I can't forgive and forget until I express it in my writing aka blog.

Perempuan ganas

Pagi tadi sampai di tempat kerja, sakit je hati tgk orang parking kereta sampai masuk petak parking I di sebelah kanan. Kalau i parking kereta ke kiri sangat nanti orang yg belah kiri susah nak keluar kereta. Kalau I parking betul2 tengah pun I pulak susah nak keluar kereta. Geram lah dengar orang yg dahlah sesuka hati parking di tempat yang tak dibenarkan, pulak tu nyusahkan orang yg berhak. Hampir nk tulis note, but I was in hurry for a meeting. Bila waktu balik2, sah2 la I susah buka pintu kereta n nak masuk. Tak pasal2 kena sikit 1cm scratch pd kereta orang tu. Memang nyusahkan I je. Dia yg salah tapi I yg rasa bersalah. Luckily I tak buka pintu dengan ganas or else kemek kereta dia.

Bila on the way nk pi beli food, ada pulak mamat yg bawa hilux tak semena2 keluar simpang. Lepas tu terkedek2 bawa hilux sambil on the phone. Nak je bunyikan hon, tapi cuba bersabar.

Bila dah sampai tempat beli food, dapat parking baik punya. Tapi bila nak balik adalah sorang ni pi double parking dpn kereta I. Sakit je hati. Bukan tak nampak I nak keluar. Terpaksalah I undurkan kereta dan berhati2 sambil terteleng2 kot ada tetiba kereta muncul dari belakang. Lagi bengang, dah nmpk kita nk lalu ketepilah, tutuplah pintu kereta tu...hmm buat dek je. Rasa nk langgar je...tapi kesianlah kereta I nanti. Memang I maki dan hamun lah. Kot ada orang rekod...habislah jadi viral ..... pompuan ganas tak tahu bersopan....luckily mulut i je kumat kamit dan tingkap kereta tertutup

Antara jeruk Pak Ali dan kimchi ....

Yang mana satu idaman hati?

Dua2 bikin I makan berkali-kali.

Citation

On friday night, I was surprised when checking my Google scholar page. I feel grateful that my first paper which was published on 2010 has been cited by 4 articles even though it took long time to get that number. Meanwhile my second paper which was published on 2011 has been cited by 6 articles.

The third article was published on 2013 and the fifth article was published on 2014. Unfortunately both have not been cited yet :(. No one read it??? Hard to believe it for the later based on the following numbers....

Worse...the fourth article which was done on 2012 is no where to be seen. One rejection after another....I pun dah malas nak ambil tahu and let my ex-spv deal with it.

How about this year?????

Kemas office ...

Alhamdulillah, done with my urgent task today after second extended due date.

Alhamdulillah, I was not involved in the interview session.

Suddenly I became clueless and a lil bit haywire after crossing off one after another of my to do list. Sekejap buka FB, sekejap baca blog, sekejap baca gossip, sekejap check email, sekejap kemas office. That is the side effect of living a hectic life...just like kais pagi, makan pagi and kais petang makan petang to finish the never ending work. So, once the chaotic life gradually become slow....I feel lost. Funny? Weird? But that is the reality....

Esok kita sambung mengemas, mengelap dan  menyedut habuk ofis ya.....

Balik rumah dok mengadap recorded korean reality show ...Roomate dan menikmati these leftover....

Opps...that breadstix dah habis di ngap during brekky. Camno tak put on weight... selera makan makin tinggi and meal portion pun makin besar huhuhu....

Rempit

Petang semalam semasa dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumah ternampak segerombolan mat REMPIT sedang berlumba sambil buat willy di laluan sebelah. Hati jahat I ni nak je tengok them terbang terlambung2 dan tergolek2...

Bila dah sampai at my housing area sekumpulan mat REMPIT lain bukan main lagi menyonsang arus. Terkejut tu pasti la. Sakit hati pun ada coz dah lah menyongsang arus, I pula yg kena mengelak. Maka bila berselisih terjeling mataku dan terkumat kamit mulutku.....

I tertanya2 si mat REMPIT ni datang ntah dari ceruk mana.... yg pastinya mengganggu ketenteraman n keselamatan our housing area. Lagi pelik bila si mamat/minah berkereta mewah dan  tinggal di kawasan yg elit pula pun tetap nak menyongsang arus.....Memang mentaliti golongan ni setara dengan si REMPit kot...sanggup menggadai nyawa dan membahayakan orang hanya kerana nak jalan pintas.

Balik rumah rasa no idea nk mkn apa plus tak larat nak masak. Tetiba muncul mentol atas kepala...maka call lah home delivery. Pun terkial2 nk fahamkan kata2 si penerima order...very the REMPIT in explanation. Bila order diterima, marilah meREMPIT makan hehehe....

Huru hara

Semalam my gate buat hal. Kontraktor dah dtg jenguk and letak grease.

Pagi ini masalah yang sama berlaku. I made a complaint to the contractor. When I came back this evening, it seems ok. Unfortunately bila I tutup masalah berulang huhuhu.

Pagi tadi juga I terpaksa minta jasa baik pihak yang berkenaan to extend the due date of my task for the second time. Malangnya, one of the system became very slow. Guess what was the respond that I got once I lodged a report the relevant party. Katanya 

org lain tak komplen pun. 

 So, adakah dia nak cakap dia tak percaya saya? Adakah saya mereka2 cerita? Kalau hanya sorang sahaja yang komplen maka ianya tidak valid. Katanya lagi sistem dia ok je. Adakah dia buat benda yg sama dengan I? Dengan arrogantnya dia menjawab dia punya ok je wpun perlukan way higher processing power. It was really annoying when I was in panic mode and yet people who should help me chosed to be cynical instead Sudahlah tiada manners ber I you dengan saya. Sat ni I checked his position huh...half je from me. Bukanlah rasa diri ni tinggi dan hebat, tapi nyampah dgn orang yang tak sedar diri n tak hormat org.

Sesudahnya he can't even help me and suruh I pi the nearest branch. Ingat hebat sangat...

Camnolah nak pi, kalau kerja lain pun banyak. At last I godek2 berjaya jugak. Alhamdulillah.

Then terkejar2 buat printscreen old material for audit.

Next membaiki bahan penilaian utk customer yg wujud tapi mcm halimunan dan hantar ke unit office. Perlu juga isi form specification and buatkan special file....adoiii.

Sebelum balik, sempat lagi I update bahan2 dlm sistem yg perlu consideration.

Tu tak termasuk dengan melayan customer yang perlu bantuan maklumat dan mencari customer yg terus sunyi sepi wpun dah penat menghubungi.

Oklah, ni sambung menyemak something in case there is any changes or correction.

Memang hidup I lately kais pagi makan pagi and kais petang, makan petang.