Sick and Alone

Few months ago 

Due to my health problem

I underwent certain procedure at KPJ

Then I underwent the same procedure at public hospital

As well as a test

Guess what?

Based on the test result

the doc just asked me to just bear with it

Seriously??😡😡

But it affect my daily life and focus to work🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

So I kinda getting upset and raised my voice

Finally the doc have refered me to undergo the MRI test at the main hospital

Even though I was really worried 

For driving there alone

And very risky in my condition

Not to mention I lost my way 😅

And hard to find the vacant parking

Anxiety of hearing the mri sound

And claustrophobic

And have to get inside the tube twice

Alhamdulillah I was safe and sound

Inside the changing room after the mri test

Unfortunately due to the late follow up action by the district hospital staff

Only after 3 months I got the result

Which was last week

I could not share the result here

But it made me shock, sad and in tears 😭😭

The doc had to refer me to "*......surgery"

Luckily they managed to arrange the appointment with that department for next week

But my problem is

Who gonna accompany me there?

Moreover my condition getting worst this week

I am really worry if something happened while I am driving

My family is at kampung

My friends here only my colleague

After all they definitely super busy

I do not like and seldom ask for help

But this time I have to do so

So I just asked my SIL this afternoon

In case she can come here

And accompany me

She not only just starting back with her work

After a week leave

But on the appointment date she has something too

So how???😭😭😭

Even though I understood her situation 

and her early arrangement

One thing I learnt here

I am not one of her priority

After all I should aware

Why bother to ask help from in laws

If I still have my own sibling

But I know them ....

To Allah I seek help 🤲🤲🤲

Please grant me ease in everything

And complete syifa