Gemuknya !!!

I attended a meeting this afternoon and met my ex-boss. The moment he saw me, the word in this post title came out from his mouth.
Am I Surprised with his word?
Yes...malu sikit je...
Does it hurt my feeling ?
No...I accept and aware of my condition?
It is a challenge for me to loose weight...

A bit weird when he said that I look better now compared to last time ....kurus.
Eh!!! Pernahkah ku kurus???
Tulah dulu masa berat 42-44 kg dah rasa diri tu gemuk sangat. Now...rasakan the real gemuk of 54kg and inches...padan muka I kan....

Let's enjoy this tomyam n watermelon juice for dinner

Dinner tak kurus

Konon nak jaga makan.
Tapi sebelum balik singgah membeli cik oblong

As usual what a hectic day....
Working nonstop and the only break was for zuhur n asar prayers.

Just for my notes.......

9.20am: called senior staff for document correction.
9.30am: contacted the consultant for problematic customer
9.30am -12pm : security issue meeting.
12++- prepared n sent email regarding customer award
2.20pm -made several call regarding sharing work load.
2.50pm-done with junior customer plan n evaluation for the next term
3.30pm-done with system checking n staff leave. Hmm...someone took extra leave than the entitlement and definitely burden me to prepare documents for the main office and HR department. Orang sesedap cuti, I sengsara.
4pm-done with junior customer monitoring report approval n reminder for colleagues
4.25-done checking n making correction for new program paper work
5.30-check and update next term plan for super junior and sent it to relevant party
5.50pm-my trainee need advice for her task
6.20pm-got confirmation from customer who no longer in need
6.40pm-done with updating the system for junior customers for next term
6.50pm-sent email to senior staff asking a favor to check translation
-several unanwered call n message to my problematic customer.
7pm-balik la....

Working on weekend

Nice place to take a break but not to work.

Nothing

Out of sudden I am feeling down...
Running tears ....
I am sick of everything
How I wish everything ends ....

When I delegate my work,
people think that I am taking advantages on them
Making them stress
Complaining in facebook
Yes...I am aware of that,
I got the allowance for the work
They just helping me and got nothing

When sometimes I try talk to them to do extra work based on their expertise
They demanded this and that
Talk behind my back
In fact someone hinted not to pijak and aniaya orang
Konon peringatan utk diri sendiri
Tapi sebenarnya reminder for me

Whenever I point out certain instruction
People akways complain it is not clear
Yes..i know I am not good in communication

When I held a meeting
People do not the understand the material that i have prepared and rather pushy in offering his help.
It just that I didnt have time, that is why the material looks terrible
I do not want to feel in debt with people
After all it is my job, why I want to burden people
But if I didnt accept his offer, I may hurt his feeling
People may think that I didnt care about senior staff
I am to ego
But dont they think I feel so small,
 like I cant do anything
People think that they better than me and wanna take over my job task

When I spend hours to do certain translation,  only to hear the boss asked the senior staff to do so.
And someone just gave synical smile...
Hmm...seems that I am not good enough

The most saddest part was when someone so busy in front of the boss, that the boss asked what am  i doing...
Hmm...Seems that I do nothing

Nutella n banana

For brekky

Yummy !!!

Kerdil

My excitement to see my active colleagues
Turned to feel so small and useless yesterday

They are very successful in career
Got many projects and big fund
Produce many products
Travel locally or internationally frequently to share their knowledge/products
Got many customers
Involve in organisation commitee
Involve in organisation activities-sport etc
Received career award
Got job promotion

No matter how busy there are
They still doing part time job
They still have time with families
They cook everyday for their family
They frequently balik kampung
They attend their childrens' school activities
They go for holidays
They join the community work

They even got many passive income
Consultant?
Several houses for rent/homestay?
Run a bussiness?
Stores?
Clothing line?
Travel agent?

Me?
NOTHING

What should I do?

REFLECT!!!!

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Get closer to Allah
Manage my time properly

Bila stress lagi....

Bila banyak sangat kerja, tak tahu mana yg nak didahulukan....datang pula kerja yg due datenya esok hari. Maka, senja khamis on the way balik rumah beli I singgah beli ni

Awal pagi jumaat I siapkan perancangan struktur untuk junior customer, alih-alih sampai ofis bila baca e-mel ada info terbaru pula. Tak ke kerja sia-sia gara-gara info yg tak seragam. Dah la nak semuanya cepat. Pulak tu kalut nak key in plan for super junior customer. Due date jumaat. Stress!!!...I pi kemas and decorate meeting room. Agak terasa hati my trainee buat kerja mengelap, membalut dan menyusun, tapi tak pandang pun mata I when I was talking to him. Mesti merajuk dimarah pada petang khamis kerana utamakan kerja org lain dari kerja yg I suruh. Bersabar jelah dapat trainee gini 😀😀😀

Burger owh Burger

Tadi pi beli tiket. Then, teringin nak makan burger leleh di kedai yg kononnya popular. Tapi dua kali lalu area tu memang tak nampak mana kedainya. Pi cari burger yg kononnya sedap di gerai...tutup pula. Pi kedai burger my favourite pun tutup. Then...ke domino kita...tapau le yg bukan burger.

Hmm...kinda useless of morning walk on saturday morning when I had nasi berlauk for brunch and the above foodies for dinner....

Bersangka-sangka

Hmm...pernah tak rasa diri jadi mangsa?
Orang bersangka-sangka
Mengadu domba pada orang lain
Takut kena marah
Anda pemarah
Anda pembengis
Diwar-warkan pula pada orang lain
Maka bercampur baur perasan
Sedih, marah dan malu
Aku cuba lupakan
Tapi semalam ku dapat tahu
Hmm...yg mengadu itu sikit pun saya tak pernah meninggi suara....
Eh fitnahkah itu???

Pagi khamis dimaklumkan agihan tugas entah apa2.
Bila ku semak, hhmmm betullah...
Bukannya sepusat, berterabur sana sini
Malah pelik ada seorang untuk satu tempat
Yang tak perlu bertugas diberi juga
Sudah dipesan dahulu....
Ingat...kita perlu berhemah dan berjimat
Petang khamis kami bincang
Tanya dulu siapa yg tak mahu pergi
Dan yang tak wajib maka tak perlu pi
Pagi jumaat lain pula jadinya
Yang dibincang lain
Yang dibuat lain
Ramai pula yg dicantas
Maka berkokok sana sini si ayam muda
Gegak gempita menggangu emosi pagi
Disuruh bersabar pun masih nak riuh rendah
Ada yg guna reverse psychology
Nak cakap nak
Tak perlulah kata kesian pada yg bebannya berat
Maka berbincanglah kami
Kata putus dicapai
Ada yg ingin mengambil kesempatan kronisme
Lantakla...
Pagi sabtu keluarlah keputusan akhir
Orang tak tahu apa sebenarnya yg berlaku
Maka yang disanjung2, sebenarnya si pemula angkara.
Yang jadi mangsa bersangka-sangka pastinya
Si yg kurang prihatin, si pemarah dan si bakhil itulah...

Life goes on
Nikmatilah .....

Sushi vs Kimchi

When japanese food meet korean food....

My dinner last nite.