Serabut

I tengah serabut

Weekend pun buat kerja

Dah tak tahu nk buat yg mana dulu

Ada 2 perkara yg due datenya sama 😭😭

Yang first tu

Mana nak check more than 15 documents

Ni baru 2.5 docs done 😭😭

Mana nak kejar the MIA customer

Yg second tu pulak

Perlu write two reports

Both perlu ada hasil analisis data from many aspects

Masalahnya how to get the result when the data incomplete

So perlu collect the new data

To get them I need to prepare a new set of document

Maka tadi strugglelah membuatnya from 11++ to 3.45pm

Lewatlah baru dapat mandi and solat

Dah solat asar semua barulah makan

Tapi merapulah

Sundae strawberry, leftover fried mushroom

Bubur pulut hitam gak

Lepas tu bising makin bulat 😅🤣

Sambil tu dok tengok Thai drama

Hui Jia Sila

Sambung dari ep 25

Tertengok pulak till ep26

Konon nak rehatkan minda sat

Tapi makin serabut 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Habih tu makin sakit hati lah pulak

Apa ke bengongnya cerita

Dah tau ada musuh

Tapi bodyguard tak bawa

Kalau bawa pun sikit

Lepas tu lemah 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Dah tau orang tu jahat

Lagilah nk pi jumpa nak cari info

Konon nak tolong husband

Lagilah menyusahkan husband

Dah tau org cari

Lagi nak selamba muncul

Dah tau kakak tu jahat

Nak juga dikejar2

Maka jadilah mangsa perangkap

Dah tau ada orang bertempur

Boleh pulak polis kot tggu dari jauh je 🤣🤣🤣

Awatlah tak pi serbu

Dah tau ada the girl cedera

Suruhlah somebody jaga dia di kenderaan

Yang pi ikut buru musuh tu apahal 🤣🤣🤣

Lepas tu kan dah kena tembak dgn makcik jahat 🤦‍♀️

Yg polis dlm cerita tu pun lembab

Boleh pulak biar makcik tu tembak the girl

Lepas tu makcik tu boleh pulak rampas bom 

Ke gas pemedih mata

So dapatlah larikan diri

Dah tercedera sana sini 

Pun lolos dari hutan 🤣🤣🤣

Eh! Ada lagi

Awatlah tak boleh perbualan telefon makcik dan adiknya 🤣🤣🤣

Yg aku pun sama

Dah tau cerita mengarut

Pi teruskan tonton dah kenapa

🤔🤔🤔😅😅

Serve me right 😅

This morning 

I ran amok with my bilis customers

So tiring doing the same activity for 4 weeks

But today still can't perform well

Still could not justify certain things

No matter how I have been guiding 

and repeating for numerous time

Hmm...could not be bother

Hmm...no common sense

Hmm...no sense of responsibility

Hmm..never learnt their lesson

Lack of courtesy of saying thanks 

And apologising as well

😡😡😡

Then due to covid19 current situation

I have to modify the project for my tamban customers

I tried to get the idea by surfing the internet yesterday and last nite

So this morning I created my own version

Alhamdulillah it was done by 1.25pm

Then I went to buy food for lunch

I have to wait for nearly 5 minutes before the restaurant opened

Long but kinda fast queue

But I did not understand

When people forgot about social distancing

Tersentuh2 badan

Pulak tu terbatuk2 🤦‍♀️😡

Anyway here are my menu

Ada gulai ayam, daging goreng, sambal udang petai dan sambal terung....

Total damaged was RM30

I kept half of the chicken

and most of the sambal petai

Since I have been craving for sundae choc

For more than a week

So I became tamak 🤣🤣🤣

Did you see that new green tea latte???

Semua nak ek 🤦‍♀️😅😁🤣

While I was queuing for McD drive through

One of my tamban customers made a complaint

The guys refused to join them

Hmm...it is ok...

For those who refuse to do so 

let me sort the members

And that reminded me of my cencaru customer

I have to contact her once again

Regardless of many reminders

chances and help that I have given

But still she never learnt

Insaf sekejap

Buat hal lagi

Memang tak sedar diri...

So whatever the consequence is her own choice

I have done my part...

After lunch

I sorted the tamban customers

See...

Due to attitude problem

I have to waste my time just to do the sorting

Bila dah pekena green tea latte

Disusuli dengan sundae choc

Hah! Serve me right

Sakit dan berat kepala

Susah nafas

My mind is haywire....

I tried to overcome it

The work must be done

Tonite is the so called deadline

So unfair coz the actual deadline is another 3 days

Just because this certain people

Do not want to deal with any appeal

Just because they wanna taking care of their reputation

Is this following the procedure?

Conduct a meeting before everything is finalised

Where is the integrity?

If they do not want to have the integrity

Up to them...

But why drag us together?

I downloaded the 7 project files

I downloaded the excel form file

But later I just gave up

I could not think straight

Sedang cari semangat nak sambung buat kerja

Tiba2 black out

Membebel la I sorang2 dalam rumah...

Adoi tak cakap awal2

Orang nak buat kerja

I jenguk keluar rumah

Nampak staf TNB

Encik lama ke?

Dalam setengah jam

Saya nak buat kerja

Lama ke?

Dalam setengah jam

Cepat sikit ya.

Saya nak buat kerja

Hah! Nampak sangat dah haywire 😅

Ulang2 tanya soalan

Luckily the tnb staff manis orangnya 😅🤣

But janji palsu

Setengah jam kononnya

But dah 1 jam no progress

Dah la rumah gelap dan panas

Hati pun panas...

Hello not only org nak buat kerja

Nak maghrib wei...

Hah!!! Elok je azan maghrib...

Alhamdulillah settle dah...

Tak bincang

Bermula semalam I kurang sihat

Tekak tak selesa dan suara serak

Rasa nak demam

So ambil panadol je

Pagi tadi mula ada stuffy nose

But masih boleh buat stir fried veggies 😅

After brekky mula rasa nak demam

Rasa panas badan, sakit bhg mata dan sakit kepala

Alhamdulillah buat saliva test negatif

But still kena jaga2

But badan rasa lesu

Mengantuk pun ya.

Kiranya after brekky...

mcm seharian I terbaring

Kecuali bangun utk mandi, solat..

Ambil food dan makan

Ya walaupun tak sihat

I tetap berselera...

Petang and malam ok sikit

But malam fikiran terganggu

Kerana kerja lah...

How la certain team memandai buat perubahan

Tanpa bincang dengan semua

Tanpa di bawa ke mesyuarat

Yes...saya hargai tugas dan usaha mereka

Saya pun tak larat nk pegang tugas tu

Apa masalah dengan prosedur lama?

Apa rasional buat perubahan?

Mereka boleh pilih sendiri?

Adilkah konsep first come first serve ?

dalam konteks tempat kami?

Of courselah mereka pilih yg mereka kenal

Yg nampak hebat dan baik utk mereka

So adilkah untuk kami?

Yg tak dikenali?

Or mungkin mereka tak suka cara kami

Eh kami boleh pilih mereka juga???

Boleh pilih lebih awal?

Dah tu how kami nak pilih?

kami pun tak kenal mereka

Adilkah???

So end up kami yg tak dikenali

Tak jadi pilihan mereka

Dan mereka yg bagus pula telah dirembat

Maka tinggallah yg bermasalah untuk kami

See...

..inilah bila team yg memandai2

Lagi2 bila ada ahli2 yg baru

Konon nk buat perubahan

Tapi lupa konsep keadilan 

Dan ahli2 baru ni 

Memang byk idea yg konon nak memudahkan

Tapi ikut pengalaman...hmmm

Ada yg buat borang 

tapi makin mengelirukan

Ni bukan i kata but org lain kata

Ada yg cadang guna dokumen sama

Tapi tak betul dari segi prosedur

Ada yg konon nak bincang

Tapi rupanya bincg depan customer

Memalukan coz nmpk kami tak sepakat

Eh banyaklah....

Tu belum cerita masalah attitude

I terpaksa dump my nagging here 😅

By writing it...

Habih tu...to whom may I talk to?

I called my friend lambat pick up...

Bila pick up..ada bunyi dan mcm terputus

Tapi tak call semula

Whatsapp tak reply...

Sedih...kecewa...

When I am in need

People could not be bother

Tapi when they in need 

I always lend my ears 

Tak kisahlah I sibuk or not

Bukan 5 minit...

Tapi biasanya antara 30 minit-2 jam

Lebih 2 jam pun ada....

Eh!membebel ni macam org sihat pulak kan....

Barang free

 Semalam and harini

Dok kemas the tall storage

Ala2 hoarder lah kan

Sayang nk buang 🤦‍♀️😅

Contohnya paper bag, buble wrap etc

Terjumpa juga

Beberapa free gift ni 😅

Rupanya selain kit kat

I ni pengumpul barangan kotex juga 🤣🤣

Bersungguh-sungguh

Adakalanya kita dah usaha

Buat sungguh-sungguh

Sedaya upaya

Kita dah komen, minta buat pembetulan dan beri cadangan

Orang buat tak tahu

Kita dah minta siapkan supaya kelak tak timbul masalah

Orang masih buat tak tahu

Terpaksa buat mesyuarat awal

Bila minta mereka bentangkan

Seperti dijangka umpama tak baca komen

Terpaksa komen lagi

Kita dah senaraikan tindakan perlu dibuat

Masih ada buat tak tahu

Kita dah minta update progres masing2

Masih ada buat tak tahu

Udah kita pula macam personal assistant mereka

Semua benda nak diingatkan

Dah diingatkan semula beberapa kali

Masih ada buat tak tahu

Mesyuarat kedua

Ada yg masih sama

Entah apa penambahbaikan yg dibuat

Ulang lagi komen

Dah beri template 

Ada yg masih silap

Dah beri contoh

Ada yg tak ikut

Tak cukup mesyuarat, peringatan whatsapp

Buat panggilan telefon juga

Tapi ada yg masih tak nampak

Degil pun you juga kot

Ke nak protes?

Ulang lagi komen

Masa makin suntuk

Masih ada yg buat tak tahu

Kita pula yg risau

Mereka masih selamba

Gunung berapi dah byk kali meletus

Eh! Badak pun tak seselamba ini

Daun keladi pun kalau dilanda badai selalu

Lama2 takung air juga

Bila badak dah kurang selamba

Nampak insaf sikit

Suruh hantar segera

E...eh...dia buat hal semula

Ok...fine...

I had enough of this kinda people

I let you go...

Buang masa kejar...

Badak yg masih tak sedar diri

Bila banyak isu

Bos besar minta kami sampaikan

Hello! Jangan senyap

Siapkan segera

Tapi mereka tetap selamba

Kita yg terhegeh2 pula

Ok...kita jumpa depan2...

Apa masalah?

Nak buat macam mana?

Cuba demonstrate...

What if ......

Suppose begini bukan begitu

Adoilah...ni projek siapa ni

Mereka atau kita?

Sebagai langkah berjaga2

Buat akuan janji

Minta kongsi dengan team...

Yg itupun nak kena remind utk dikongsikan...

Tibalah masa

Buat kuasa veto

Kita jumpa lagi...

Praktis, semak, bincang, baiki

Berkorban seharian pagi ke malam

Dah diingatkan

Baiki itu ini

Get ready itu

Fahamkan yg ini

Tak yakin jgn letak

Sometimes less is more...

Bila tiba masanya....

La...bukankah dah minta get ready ini

La...bukankah dah kata tak yakin jgn letak

Hmm...jadi daun keladi lagi

Semua yg dijangka mmg muncul

Terkilan dengan mereka

Kesal juga dengan diri sendiri

Dah terfikir jgn letak something

Tapi I just ignore it

Dah terfikir mungkin timbul isu tentang carta alir

Tapi I tak larat nak baiki

Risau yg lain keliru pula

Lagipun sendiri pun tak pasti...

Bila tengok hasil

Atau bandingkan dengan team lain

Mcm sia2 pula usaha dan pengorbanan

Ada yg tak praktis hanya discuss

Ada yg tak discuss lansung

Tetap team cemerlang....

Lagi terkilan...

Prestasi team makin merosot

2020 ...the unexpected 3

2021....two 

2021....one only

Whateverlah kan...

The most important thing

I know that I have done my best

If the team members could not mantain the performance

It does not mean that their performance is not good

It just others are better than them in that aspect

That is life...

Accept it...

Smile...

Move on 💪💪...

Refleks diri

Buat untuk apa dan siapa?

Know who you are

Happy Chinese New Year....

Bila rindu

Tapi tak larat nak drive

Kerja pun banyak

Weekend dan hari cuti awam pun kerja

Maka ajaklah datang rumah

Sorang balas tengok macam mana

Sorang lansung tak reply

Bila tiba hari Ahad

Rumah pastilah mcm tongkang pecah

Risau pula jika mereka muncul tiba2

Bila ditanya katanya tak dapat datang

Takpelah...

Seems like blessing in disguise

My house is too messy

I need to focus with my work

Need extra rest as well

Eh! tiba2...pagi ni buka FB

Ada gambar dah di upload pd Isnin malam

Owh rupanya sawah padi, ladang kelapa dan teh lagi penting...

Kita balik pun

Kita yg tercari2 di biliknya

Nak tunggu sebaliknya ...hmmm

Sedih? Kecil Hati? Geram?

Lepaskanlah...

Not easy to let go

What choice do I have?

Takkan tak nampak lagi

Terimalah hakikat 

Siapa kita di hati mereka?

Sad and Unsatisfying Ending

Snowdrop....

Who follow this kdrama?

Last month asyik keluar di IG

Tertarik utk tonton

Tapi ada terbaca ada pihak yg protes drama ini

And cuba untuk hentikan tayangan

But biasalah kejap nak tengok

Kejap tak nak

Di youtube pastilah tiada yg complete

Memang ada pilihan utk tgk at certain k-drama website

Tapi mcm kena download apatah

After all ikut kebiasaan terdahulu byk iklan

Promo di astro pun ada

Tapi dalam disney hotstar

Tapi I dah terlepas tarikh utk activate

So biarlah je la...

Tiba2 I dapat mesej dari astro on saturday 22 jan

Kata i belum activate that free package

Benda free jgn ditolak 😅

Bila tgk package ni biasa je

Ada movie+drama lama+baru

But pastilah pilihan yg sikit saja

Whateverlah...

Yg penting boleh tonton yg nk ditonton

Maka, last weekend bermarathonlah I menonton

Sehinggalah cuti thaipusam till ep 13

Lepas tu padan muka tertunggu ep 14

Hari sabtu 29 jan my schedule was packed

Apalagi hadap customerlah 😅

10.30am-2pm

4-6.20pm

8.30-11.20pm

So 30 jan pagi baru dapat tonton ep 14

Tertunggu2 lah ep15

Only dah nearly midnite baru ada ep15.

Bila habisnya je tonton on 31 jan 1.30am

Eh...ep16 dah ada....

Maka, at 3am tamatlah sudah my new addiction

Walaupun expected ending

But still sad and unsatisfying ending

This feeling just like watching ...

the ending of Scarlet Heart and The Red Sleeve

#BDP01022022

RM1

Petang khamis 27 jan 2022

Setelah selesai masukkan plastik sampah dalam tong sampah di luar

I ternampak duit di atas rumput 

Confirmlah tak berani nak ambil

Coz di atas rumput depan rumah jiran

Walaupun hanya sebelah my tong sampah

Lagipun ada baca 2 months ago

Macam orang nak sihir ke apatah

Lagipun RM 1 je...

Entah2 duit budak sekolah cicir ke

Takpun org TNB etc...

So bila nak pi kerja

Kalut dah lewat

Pandu kereta keluar 

Nampak org dok potong rumput area situ

Terfikir agak2 dia nampak tak RM1 tu

Elok je I toleh semula mmg nampak dia ambil duit tu 😅

Selamba je lipat and masuk kocek

Kot la nak tanya duit I ke 🤣🤣🤣...

But anyway rezeki bangla rupanya...

#BDP01022022

Is feeling grateful a test?

Last nite I saw an FB post

Someone felt upset 

and stress dealing with a bossy colleague.

It is good for her to reverse that bad feeling 

to the positive one

By trying to understand if she was in her colleague shoes

and by being grateful with what she has

Her complete life ...

In compared to her colleague...

No children

No husband

No family

No friend

Alone and lonely

But for me 

by listing what the colleague does not has

IN THE SOCIAL MEDIA

and receiving the comment from others

who added more salt to wound

is not COOL

Double blow to this so called uncomplete life people

Maybe certain people can take it openly

And positively

But please remember

Not all people can easily accept it

You see...

By trying to reflect herself in the social media

She forgot that she would hurt the feeling

of those who in the similar shoes as her colleague...

Even worse...feeling down...

Life is a test.....

A test for those who has uncomplete life

As well as those who has COMPLETE life...

New Year

Happy New Year 🎉🎉

I have yet to list down my new year resolution

But I guess the main one

Definitely to achieve my previous years resolution 😅🤦‍♀️😁

But one thing that made me SENTAP last Friday kot

Listening to IKIM radio while on my way to work

BILA DAH ADA LADANG PAHALA 

KENAPA TAK DIUSAHAKAN

MELAINKAN KITA LEMAH DAN MALAS UNTUK BERAMAL

Insaflah sekejap.

Tapi on New Year almost seharian buat benda merepek and membuang masa 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Antaranya pi marathon menonton kdrama

The Red Sleeve...ep 1-7

Padahal boleh je agak jalan cerita awal

Semasa first time tiba2 tertengok ep 11 few weeks ago...

Nak sedapkan hati ada jugaklah dalam 3 jam

I semak dokumen customer

And mengejar customers...

Oklah nk sambung sat ep 8 pulak

Then nak semak dokumen 2 customers yg paling liat 😅

Isi two main documents for next week

Write the FAQ for another document

Yg penting kemas rumah, lipat timbunan kain dan handwash delicate clothes

So tang mana weekend itu utk berehat?

Maybe certain people do not understand our nature of work

Definitely never ending work

If we did not continue doing it

By staying up late at nite

Or during weekend 

We will be in trouble

No mercy if we passed the deadline

Bila orang tanya

Tak balik kg ke

Kita kata taklah

Banyak kerja

Tiba2 orang kata nak datang rumah

So kita pun minta maaf

Dan cakap kita busy

Ingatkan faham

Tapi org kata sekejap je

Dah dapat tandatangan dia balik

Adoilah

Tak larat nak explain

I serabut

I tak larat

Not in the mood to meet people

Kerja banyak

Rumah bersepah

Tapi terfikir juga

Kenapa bersusah nak drive 2 jam

Semata2 utk cari I

Punyalah ramai saudara mara lain

yg dekat2 dan hebat2

Yang selalu pi bercuti bersama

Kenapa tiba2 cari I? 😅

Lagipun we are not that close

She is closer to my cousins 

Even to the cousins of that cousins 

Bukan tak mau tolong

Cuma not the right time

Lagipun byk option lain

Bila kembali WFO

Makin teruk my performance

So slow

Tak larat

Forgetful

And I notice I forgot most of my colleagues' and main office phone extension numbers 😅😅😅

The worse when I wanna call a customer

So I found his phone number in email and called him

Guess what my office phone suddenly ringing

See I even forgot my phone numbers

🤦‍♀️😅🤣🤣🤣🤣