Ramadhan weight

Dah 3am ni...

But tak boleh tidur 😭😭😭

Nk muntah tengok IG/FB/youtube

Or belek2 gambar lama

Lagi sakit hati pun ada

Coz byk gambar when I was 16kg lighter

Quite ok skin and No pigmentation

With thick and healthy hair

Dah tu...passed is passed...

Bukannya nak pi tahajud ke kan

Pi buat benda2 mengarut

Apalah nak jadi?

Sejak puasa ni

Tak larat nak sahur berat

Biasa kurma dgn susu/air kosong

Or tak terbangun sahur 🤦‍♀️

Rasa dah kurangkan portion makan waktu beebuka

Kadang2 cuba juga suku2 separuh

No ice cream

Selagi boleh cuba elak sweet food kuih/cake etc

Melainkan teringin sangat 

Ada juga orang beri

Baru sekali beli taufufah

Baru sekali beli 2 paket kuih 

Dan sebekas bubur pulut hitam 

Tu pun limitkan sehari 1-2 ketul

End up tak habis

Since dah almost 2 weeks

I terpaksa buang

Sayang....tapi memang tak selera

Lagipun dah keras 😅

Tapi tang air tu susah sikit 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Baru sekali minum air berkarbonat-F&N orange 😅

Air kelapa no sugar 1x

Air cincau tin 1x, 

matcha green tea 2x, 

hazelnut matcha ice blended 1x

Blend fruit juice sendiri 1x

Buat lemon asam boi madu 2x

Owh selain makan buah naga/anggur/mangga/tembikai

But buah kan manis

So I kawal juga portion

But without exerciselah

Selain lemau

Memang tiada semangat nak mulakan

So very slow weight loss....

Lepas tu padan muka

Dissappointed 😭

Harapan tinggi 😅

Here is my note

0. 3 april: first day ramadhan
1. 4 april: puasa 1-64.5kg
2. 5 april : 63.2kg
3. 6/04: 62.6 kg(diarrhea) 🤦‍♀️😅
4. 7/4: 62.6 kg
5. 8/4: 62.2 kg(total lose for 5 days=2.3kg)
       Expectation:
            7 days=3 kg..........61.5kg
          14 days=6kg.........58.5kg
          30 days=12kg ....52kg???
6.9/4: 61.9 (6d=2.6kg)
          Static/gain 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️
7. 15/4: 61.7 (12d=2.9kg)
          Static/gain 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️
8. 18/4: 61.4(15d=3.1kg)
         New expectation:
         30days=6.2kg...58.3kg

Tapi bila fikir semula...

Dulu tahun 2017 ada coach

Utk 2 bulan...

Once/twice a week adalah exercise 1-1.30jam

Makan kadang jaga kadang tak 🤣

Dari 60kg turun ke 57kg

Turun 3 kg je 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

But mmg nmpk juga inches loss

Bayangkan dulu dengan exercise pun turun sikit je

Mmg jenis low metabolic rate kot 😁

Menu Ramadhan 7 hari

First day-Ahad

Walaupun tak puasa 😅

Masak apa ada...

Tak sempat/larat pi kedai

So sambal sardin+paratha

Second day-Isnin

Baru start puasa

But I saja ambil cuti

I cancelled Meeting with customers as well

Konon nk kemas rumah

But tak gerak

I tambah gochucaru (cili korea) dalam sambal sardin supaya pedas

Tp tak pedas pun 🤣

Dan goreng telur+lobak asin

Third day

Konon nak pi withdraw duit

Tapi teringin sambal petai

Pi bazar ramadhan

Dah la it was drizzling

Kecewa....

Hmmm...sana sini roti john

Kuih pun tak byk pilihan

Or banyak dah habis

Air pun tak menarik

Takde org jual lauk

Dalam pada takde apa tu byk gak I beli 😅

Antaranya mee kari +air kelapa + taufufah 

Tapi esoknya I terpaksa ambil EL

I had diarrhea 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Fourth day

Nasi ayam golek 

dari bazar ramadhan semalamnya

Tapi kira candle light breakfasting 😅

Coz black out ....

Fifthday

Pun nak cari lauk di gerai/kedai nearby my house

Lauk di kedai tak byk pilihan.

Lagipun semua ayam

So I pi kedai lain

Beli ikan bakar +teh hijau

Pi gerai tamak pulak

Beli bubur pulut hitam+kuih kaswi+kuih sagu

Tapi mkn kuih je...

So hadaplah sehari seketul 😅🤣

Keras dah...nanti kena kukus semula

Bila taip post ni baru teringat bubur 🤦‍♀️😅

Sixth day

Teringin burger pulak

Konon nak belanja my nearby customers

But I just asked siapa yg ada

Tak ckp nk belanja pun

Masing2 senyap2...

Sedihkan...niat nak bersedekah pun tak tercapai

Alhamdulillah ada security guards at my work place

Tapi tak cukup pulak burgernya for them 😅

Harap them share lah

Anyway here was my portion

Seventh day

Misi mengosongkan fridge

Kali ni modify sambal sardin

Curah lebihan kuah mee kari

Jadilah...kari sardin 🤣🤣🤣

Masak telur dadar

Tumis brocoli sos tiram

Penuh pinggan

Suapan ke-3 dah senak perut 🤣🤣🤣

Fullstop

 Semalam ternampak FB posting Syed Azmi

He shared quotes from IG

"Marahnya orang sabar adalah diam"

"Marahnya orang kecewa adalah pergi"

The second line just happened to me last week

When a friend ignored my advice for not copy paste

When her words hurt my feeling

When for the first time in 12 years 

I got the courage to say ....

Her words really hurt me

When she said she upset with me

 I chose not to not reply her whatsapp message

No point of saying anything anymore

when someone did not want to listen

Even though it is for her own good

Not only she hurt me

She made me dissapointed with her

I better leave

But after 5 days

I just wanted to clear the air

Maybe I did wrong too

Maybe my words also hurt her

I thought she had enough time and space

To calm down

To think and reflect

After all it's now Ramadhan

So I just asked what she had for breakfasting...

But today....

After 3 days I am still waiting for her reply

Hmm...is this situation refering to the first quote?

Seems not suitable huh 😅

Hmm...let her be

This is not the first time she gave me the silent treatment 😅....

It kinda normal to me

Be it her, other friend or my colleague

Certain people only find me

When they need my favour

When they want me to lend my ears...

But when I am in need

Or think about them

They just ignore me

I guess I should avoid this kinda people

No point thinking

Or worrying about them

Or feeling sympathy for them

If they never think or worry about me

Moreover dealing with them

Gonna make my life miserable 

So enough is enough

FULL STOP....

Rambutan

 Yang ditunggu...

Yeay rambutan menang...

Your own choice

All this while I always lend my ears to you

For almost 12 years

Yes... more than a decade

Even though back in 2011

You told a stranger

No one wanna help you

But please...

For once please think

No one ask you to further your study

You are the one who chose to do so

And you are the one who chose not to listen to your sv

I can't deny that he is not always right

But you faced the consequence of your action in 2012...

Then, in 2019 ..

By your own choice

You wanna proceed with what you have left

That is good

Never give up

But due to certain circumtances

No idea

Such as lack of guidance

poor management

confusing regulation etc

You faced another difficulty...

Worst...up to legal claim/action

End 2021/early 2022

By your own choice

You wanna try again

Even though I kinda surprised with the institution that you chose

Even doubt with your choice

Not again ...

The similar one

But you have registered

As a friend I definitely support you

Thinking that you have learnt from past experience 

And have properly check everything

But right from the start

Something kinda very fishy

Luckily after making official complaint

you finally got the one that you prefered

But then you have problem in meeting his deadline

You are struggling with your writing

Even to fill up a page template

This definitely due to ...

Again no idea

Could not relate the guidance to your field

your new job, 

family health 

and second house matter

Suddenly after few weeks you only knew that you have to join a program

Which is not related to your field

And you are not interested with it

But to argue with the speaker about the relevance

was really impolite

Even worse to say it was the boring talk

I felt pity for the speaker

Then rather than focusing on your writing

 you spent your time made enquiry here and there

For what?

Why didn't you do so before join it?

Why didn't you check everything?

I thought you have your learnt your lesson from past experience

They have already gotten the approval

So they definitely have the strong justification

Moreover do you think they gonna entertainment

If it only one complaint 

that definitely because not to your preference?

In addition, if they accept your complaint

Do you think they gonna change it immediately?

So you do not have to join the program?

You have no choice

Just face it...

And see the positive side

The latest you complained about the program's task

Regardless of relevant to your area or not

Whether you interested or not

You still have to complete it

But why wanna just copy paste

When you can do it properly

As a friend I have given my support

My advice...

So it is really hurt

When you said

"I dont care"

"Lantaklah"

Even when I said 

I am sad to hear your words

You said you also sad that I did not understand...

What good friend is for?

Letting your friend doing bad thing

What if the PIC found out?

Which definitely result in low result

Even worse fail in that program..

So if the person

Did not want to accept any advice

Think she is always right

Then let her be

Do not say anything anymore

I have done my part

All the best...

63 kg????

63 kg ????

Well....

That is my target weight for this week

Thanks to puasa syaaban 😍

Slow and steady weight loss

Better than nothing 

Ayat penyedap hati 🤣🤣🤣

14/3/2022: 65.5 kg

19/3/2022: 64.1kg (after 5 days-1.4kg loss)

22/3/2022: 63.6 kg(after 3 days-0.5kg loss)

But I think my weight scale almost gone haywire today

Sekejap 63.9

Sekejap 63.4

63.2 pun ada

63.7 pun ada 😅

But yg kerap muncul mmg 63.6

So hopefully

Bolehlah dapat 63kg by end of this week

Tapi tu la bila puasa ni

Selera besar

Mcm2 yg teringin

Petang semalam tetiba teringin satay

But delivery after isyak

So berbuka dulu dengan leftover nasi kandar

Dan sotong masala 

Sotong tu mmg besau

Ada lagi 1/3

So kiranya utk supper

I had this beetroot+celery+apple+ginger juice

Konon nak rasa asli

Without any additional flavour

But awat tak sedap 🤣🤣

Terpaksa letak madu sikit...

The first time I tried this juice was at Olive Ganu

Sedap pulak

Owh yes

I had satay as well...

Today teringin burger yg ada pickled jalapeno and caramelised onion pulak 🤦‍♀️

So tang mana nak capai 63 kg tu 🤔😅🤣

Oklah nak buat kerja ni

Mmg lately lemau nau

Padahal byk kerja...

Kena lawan

💪💪💪💪

One night delay

The masked singer is aired on Friday night

But I just watching it now after break fasting

Did you watch it?

Antara pilihan juri yg I setuju

Rambutan=Shila Amzah

Ratu Semut=Diana Danielle

Merak=Sherry Ibrahim

Orkid=Elly Mazlyn

Today was the fourth day of Syaaban fasting

Rasa ringan sikit badan

Kurang senak perut 😅

But only 1.4 kg weight loss

From 65.5 kg to 64.1 kg

Hopefully it will reduced to 63kg by next week

💪💪💪💪

But memang tak larat...

Penat dan kerap mengantuk

Itulah pasal kan...

Tak amalkan puasa Isnin Khamis

Terkejutlah badankan

Larat tak larat

Kerja tetap kena buat

Yes even though during weekend

That is our nature of job

Dah pilih this career 

So hadap je la...

Sedang belek2 dokumen

Ada pulak mesej dari colleague

I am really worry with the new system that they just initiated

For me it is unfair

I still traumatised from my past 

and latest experience

With the problematic team members

Definitely those who have the priviliage to choose their team members first 

And those are popular

Will have no objection...

So pasrah je la

Hopefully I will get good, dilligent, commited...

and creative and inovative team members

Aamiin

Then another colleague tanya pasal evaluation task yg deadlinenya esok...

Memanglah susah nak faham

Bila orang pandai2 ubah certain info

Ikut je la panduan

Lagi mudah kan 😁

Actually today I serabut dgn 2 dokumen utk customers

Both deadline at 4pm 😭

I started preparing the first document around 9.45am

But only completed it at 3.15pm

At 2++ pm my eyes were so tired

I can hear a popping sound near my eyes

I even felt dizzy 

And my eyes gonna pop out 🤯

So I had to take a break for 3 minutes

After zuhur prayer

I started to prepare the second doc at 3.30pm.

Unfortunately I could not complete it by 4pm

I postpone the submission till 3.15pm

But again I became haywire

And could not think properly

I even felt stress when the customer called me

Via phone call and whatsapp

But I just ignored them 😅

Alhamdulillah I managed to submit the document at 3.38pm

But then....

No matter how proper my docs are

The customers did not read them properly

That definitely caused inconvenience to me

Jenuh dok hadap till 6.30pm

So tonite

I just wanna rest and rest 😁

While enjoying coconut water 🌴🥥🏝

and Lays chip

Habih camno nak susut 🤦‍♀️

Boleh banyak kali makan

Semalam I beli food di kafe tempat kerja

Ada masak lomak cili api ayam+rebung

Ayam tu besau ya. 

Semalam i makan separuh je

Ada kacang panjang goreng+pedal

Ada sambal ikan kerisi kecik 

Ada tambam goreng

Terkejut I dengan harganya

RM7.50

Dah alang2 tu better beli food for weekend

Ada kankung goreng belacan

Ada tauhu goreng sambal 2 ketul halves

Ada pajeri nenas 2 ketul kecik

Cuba teka berapa harga?

Kalau I kira...

Kangkung rm2.00

Tauhu rm2.00

Pajeri rm2.00

Total rm6.00

Hmm...Jauh tu...

Rm2.50 je

See 8 lauk rm10 je.

Boleh makan utk 4x kot

Haritu I beli food di luar

Rm10 tu utk sekali makan je

Ada ikan sambal hijau

Ada pecal kangkung

Ada ulam+sambal tempoyak

Petai tu stok di rumah 🤣

Banyak beza hargakan...

Dah le malam tu I sakit perut sangat

Mcm ceret beret pun ya...

So mcm takut pula nak beli food di luar

Concern pasal harga+kebersihan...

Tak bertanggungjawab

I just dont understand certain people

Suppose bila dah rosakkan barang orang

Contohnya bawa kereta kita sampai kemalangan

Maka segeralah meminta maaf

Dan uruskan semua cepat2.

Ni dah setahun

Tiada perkembangan pasal tuntutan insurans

Semua I yg kena tanya

I yg terhegeh2...

Last year I pelik

Dah 3 bulan selepas kemalangan

Tiada minta/forward any documents

Tiada update apa2

So I reminded this person

Lepas tu senyap

I asked and reminded him again

Pasal responsibility etc

Pun mcm takde perkembangan

Until i mula bising dalam whatsapp group

Bila nk minta claim form pun mcm problem

Minta laporan polis tapi beri resit bayaran laporan

Sampai I minta no tel the workshop staff

Tapi tak angkat

Then them ada minta my ic photocopy

Takutlah bila minta nk beri je

So I minta senarai dokumen dan

Nak check semua borang etc

Bila I balik bulan 11

Baru I tau my car was total lost

But bila google boleh claim

Bila tengok laporan 

Kinda fishy

Cuma i tak sempat baca borang coz kalut

Guess what

Until mid feb 2022 no update

Bila tanya katanya waiting for me

He said I told him I wanna read it first

Habis tu yg senyap sampai 3 bulan tu kenapa

Katanya tak mau kacau 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

So naive or no common sense?

Then he asked me whether I want to see the form

And then he will ask certain party

I just replied pls settle it quickly

Hmm...

I totally forgotten about it

But suddely I remembered it yesterday

And asked him

No response....

But his response today

Seems wanna blaim me

He said last time I wanna read the form first 

🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Then where is his reponsibiliy to settle this claim

Dah jika I lupa lagi

Remindlah

Bukan buat tak tau

Bukan senyap

When the 22 yo acted like 12 yo.

Serabut

I tengah serabut

Weekend pun buat kerja

Dah tak tahu nk buat yg mana dulu

Ada 2 perkara yg due datenya sama 😭😭

Yang first tu

Mana nak check more than 15 documents

Ni baru 2.5 docs done 😭😭

Mana nak kejar the MIA customer

Yg second tu pulak

Perlu write two reports

Both perlu ada hasil analisis data from many aspects

Masalahnya how to get the result when the data incomplete

So perlu collect the new data

To get them I need to prepare a new set of document

Maka tadi strugglelah membuatnya from 11++ to 3.45pm

Lewatlah baru dapat mandi and solat

Dah solat asar semua barulah makan

Tapi merapulah

Sundae strawberry, leftover fried mushroom

Bubur pulut hitam gak

Lepas tu bising makin bulat 😅🤣

Sambil tu dok tengok Thai drama

Hui Jia Sila

Sambung dari ep 25

Tertengok pulak till ep26

Konon nak rehatkan minda sat

Tapi makin serabut 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Habih tu makin sakit hati lah pulak

Apa ke bengongnya cerita

Dah tau ada musuh

Tapi bodyguard tak bawa

Kalau bawa pun sikit

Lepas tu lemah 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Dah tau orang tu jahat

Lagilah nk pi jumpa nak cari info

Konon nak tolong husband

Lagilah menyusahkan husband

Dah tau org cari

Lagi nak selamba muncul

Dah tau kakak tu jahat

Nak juga dikejar2

Maka jadilah mangsa perangkap

Dah tau ada orang bertempur

Boleh pulak polis kot tggu dari jauh je 🤣🤣🤣

Awatlah tak pi serbu

Dah tau ada the girl cedera

Suruhlah somebody jaga dia di kenderaan

Yang pi ikut buru musuh tu apahal 🤣🤣🤣

Lepas tu kan dah kena tembak dgn makcik jahat 🤦‍♀️

Yg polis dlm cerita tu pun lembab

Boleh pulak biar makcik tu tembak the girl

Lepas tu makcik tu boleh pulak rampas bom 

Ke gas pemedih mata

So dapatlah larikan diri

Dah tercedera sana sini 

Pun lolos dari hutan 🤣🤣🤣

Eh! Ada lagi

Awatlah tak boleh perbualan telefon makcik dan adiknya 🤣🤣🤣

Yg aku pun sama

Dah tau cerita mengarut

Pi teruskan tonton dah kenapa

🤔🤔🤔😅😅