Wednesday, December 29, 2021

Sick and Alone

Few months ago 
Due to my health problem
I underwent certain procedure at KPJ
Then I underwent the same procedure at public hospital
As well as a test

Guess what?
Based on the test result
the doc just asked me to just bear with it
Seriously??😡😡
But it affect my daily life and focus to work🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

So I kinda getting upset and raised my voice
Finally the doc have refered me to undergo the MRI test at the main hospital
Even though I was really worried 
For driving there alone
And very risky in my condition
Not to mention I lost my way 😅
And hard to find the vacant parking
Anxiety of hearing the mri sound
And claustrophobic
And have to get inside the tube twice
Alhamdulillah I was safe and sound


Inside the changing room after the mri test


Unfortunately due to the late follow up action by the district hospital staff
Only after 3 months I got the result
Which was last week
I could not share the result here
But it made me shock, sad and in tears 😭😭
The doc had to refer me to "*......surgery"
Luckily they managed to arrange the appointment with that department for next week

But my problem is
Who gonna accompany me there?
Moreover my condition getting worst this week
I am really worry if something happened while I am driving
My family is at kampung
My friends here only my colleague
After all they definitely super busy

I do not like and seldom ask for help
But this time I have to do so
So I just asked my SIL this afternoon
In case she can come here
And accompany me
She not only just starting back with her work
After a week leave
But on the appointment date she has something too
So how???😭😭😭

Even though I understood her situation 
and her early arrangement
One thing I learnt here
I am not one of her priority

After all I should aware
Why bother to ask help from in laws
If I still have my own sibling
But I know them ....

To Allah I seek help 🤲🤲🤲
Please grant me ease in everything
And complete syifa



1 comment:

  1. i know how you feel because i've been there too.. may Allah SWT make things easier for you and fast recovery, ameen.. stay safe and take care..

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