Thursday, August 17, 2017


Semalam cari fail...
Bongkar sana sini
Gali situ sinun
Yang dijumpai ini..

Bukanlah begitu keadaannya
Tetapi di dalam beberapa envelopes.
Di dalam kotak...
Baki urusniaga terdahulu bersama customer 😁😁

Di kala dalam purse hanya berbaki RM9😅😅
Kira punya kira
Ada RM212.00
Jom pi tengok Kau Yang Satu 💖💖

Current addiction

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Jika tidak kita?

Adakalanya niat kita hanya nak membantu
Demi kepentingan organisasi
Jika tidak kita,
siapa nak mulakan?
Siapa nak buat?
Siapa nak menyampaikan luahan ex-customers
Kita pun segan....
Tapi kerana sayang organisasi
Kita buang malu itu

orang lansung tak fikir pasal kita
Singkirkan kita
Menafikan hak kita

orang ingat kita masih menyibuk
Buat tak peduli dengan saranan kita
Jangankan nak menoleh, angkat muka pun tak
Ya...kini kita tidak lagi wujud.
Tak kiralah junior, setara atau senior
Hanya seorang senior yg sengih melihat kekecewaan kita
Maka ku bersuara sekali lagi
Dia jugalah yg akhirnya membantu
Dia yg ke depan ke whiteboard
Tanpa diminta. .
Tqvm kakak....

Pengganti suppose conduct the program and know what to do
Kita hanya bantu sediakan paperwork
Tapi datang lambat, clueless what to do, tak baca bahan, tak tanya officer on certain things
So terpaksalah kita explain lagi
Bila kita keluar sekejap, orang lain mempengaruhi utk ubah something yg tak sepatutnya 😅
Bila petang tak muncul.
La...ada meeting tapi tak inform
Habih kami nak buat apa???
Terpaksalah kita bersuara
Kerana risau banyak lagi agenda
Tapi orang lain tak layan pulak 😰😰
Katanya dia tak boleh buat macam kita
Buat byk kerja satu masa
Prefer satu-satu....
Ok faham...tapi perlu buat juga jika urgent
Katanya beri dia buat
Kerana dia nak belajar
Jika tak tahu dia akan tanya kita
Ok faham...just do something when he wanna me to do it...
Otherwise just keep quiet
Cakap salah...dia tak suka diajar
Tak cakap salah...nanti tak capai kehendak organisasi...

Bila terserempak boss
kita terus tanya pasal bilangan customer baru
Dan luahan customer lama
Tapi katanya kita masih rindu dengan tugas lama kita 😅😅😅😅....
Adoi....kita nak jadi burung unta 🙈🙈🙈🙈

Terapi air

Good morning...
Now I am watching MHI@TV3.
Fedtri shared one good info just now about WATER THERAPY.
It is very beneficial to drink 4 GLASSES OF WATER in one go after wake up in the morning (before doing anything).
If we practise it FOR 3 MONTHS, with Allah will it may cure/heal various illness.
We will feel the miracle 😍😍😍....

I memang tak larat minum banyak air.
Apatah lagi sekaligus gitu....
Setakat nak masuk dua gelad pun nak muntah...
Tapi I will try 💪💪💪💪

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

One happy tummy

After I had meeting with customer this morning off I went to the district council.
Alamak!!! I did not photocopy my ID. Luckily the officer have some consideration and just willingly photocopy it for me 😊😊😀. While I was waiting for the officer to settle everything I saw a notice "tiada khidmat fotostat disediakan". How lucky I am when people understood my situation and just helped me without being asked...Alhamdulillah.

Once done, I tolong secret recipe buka kedai 😂😂😂 and got this as upah 😍😍😍

For dinner I had this...

Yummy happy tummy indeed 😄😄😄.

Oklah nak tido...nanti nk bgun awal nk buat kerohe la....

You better don't ask me

Yesterday I took a leave to settle something about my house at the district council...I had these for brekky...

Oh My set was not enough!!!!

Even though I am on leave I still went to see my customers around 11am. Then off I went to photocopy the house documents and only got home around 1.45pm. I had this for lunch

 I suppose to go to the district council around 3pm. But, I was busy writing a blog post 😅😅😅😅.

Tapi nk berehat pun tak sonang. Kejap the new one whatsapp, kejap my colleague called me. The new one asked what he supposed to do during today's meeting...Hish! Hang tak baca surat or email ka???. So I listed down things to do for him in whatsapp.

Then another collegue contacted me to get certain documents. The new one didnt pick up her call. Funny right...juat few minutes before that he contacted me via whatsapp. Even the clerk made a complaint about him on his first week...didnt pick up her call and not even reply her message regarding urgent matter. Today I saw him at office in the afternoon. Then I called him using his office fast....where did he go. I just made a call to the see he is in the office and having discussion with his customer...Why only several second and pick up the call and listen. When he need me, he called me. When I need his help he just ignore me 😰😰😰.

Sometimes I want to help people, but sometimes when people treat me badly it makes me think  a few times...Sometimrs I even feel it just wasting my time. 

You see last two weekend, I have prepared packages for customers. So I asked my colleagues to check. Only two colleagues gave their respond 😠😠. So I asked this new one to instruct the relevant  committee to check and modify the packages whenever appropriate. Yes they have done that...but not proper. So on tuesday I told the new one about my opinion about it. He seems not listen to me and decided to follow the committee decision. So, I have to be firmed and explained part of it is contradict with the regulation and another part will burden the customer. 

Last thursday, he told me his see exactly as what I suggested. But not a single thank you for me...Ambiklah...ambiklahh all the credit 😂😂😂. 

On friday while I was having lunch, he called me. He seems veey pushy even though I cant hear what he said. Ended up I have to went out of the restaurant. He asked my opinion which colleagues are suitable to do the consultation work. But again ...he didnt really follow my suggestion. 

Not only that he never replied my email regarding certain list of things to do based on senior customer meeting and docs to share with other colleagues. Lantak ko la labu....faham busy...tapi benda penting kot. I am not his secretary pun to remind him. Tapi tulah ended up he will still find and ask me kan...😂😂😂. 

So yesterday he didnt reply my message regarding list of things for today meeting. Guess what? He called me while I was rushing to meet my customers this morning. Ok, he did what I told him to do. But he did not read the document properly. Kan dah pening 😅😅😅. I suggested to him to bring out issue about task sharing with other unit. As expected he refuse to listen. Hish...a challenge to make him see the rational behind it 😅😅. ....

Tommorow we got a program. I prepared the paperwork for that program. Even the materials for that program were mainly prepared by me. Last week I suggested to him that he should conduct that program and I will support and help him. But this week he did not ask me anything. I am really worried what will happen tommorow. I was a bit disappointed this afternoon to know that he discussed about it with the new colleague. Again...after all I what I have done people just ignored me huh....In this case I do not need any appreciation...but at least pls get me involve with it. I have been doing it from the beginning 😭😭😭. And suddenly people just wanna take it away from me just like that without even thinking about me....

Monday, August 14, 2017

Rezeki dikongsi

Hari jumaat lepas, rasa nak makan di luar.
Biasa ok je kalau makan sorang2 di Secret recipe.
Tapi kali ini rasa nak teman borak2....
Ajak kawan yg dah lama tak keluar bersama
Ada plan katanya...
Maka, macam pasrah nak pi sendiri
Tapi bila di main office terjumpa my close friend
Alhamdulillah she wanna join me...
I had thai seafood spageti...

Pic from here was really to my liking.
The only drawback was the shrimps were obviously came from frozen pack.

I had to work on saturday. Really happy to see our customers happy face and excitement when they got their lunch treat....

And guess what ....bila kita kongsi rezeki dengan orang lain, tiba2 orang lain pula kongsi rezeki bersama kita. Alhamdulillah....the caterer sedekah kari siakap to us...ikan fresh you

Itulah lunch on sunday.

Petang tu teringin sangat nak gorpis...
Ku redah hujan lebat mencarinya 😁😁😁

Ahad kerojenya makan berat, junk food munching tido, tv dan tenet...Ko dah kenapa??? Keroje byk wei...

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Calorie in Calorie out

This morning I went for 3.2km walk.
But I ate nasi lemak for brekky

Based on calorie counter...
I burned 150 kcal
But gained 400 kcal 😱😱😱

Hmm how to loose wight 😅😅😅.
The only good thing I feel fresh and light 😀😀😀

Friday, August 11, 2017

avocado and egg for brekky

Well this was my brekky yesterday

Today back to apple and natural yogurt, but without strawberry 😀.

Harini kena cepat pi office nak tunjuk bahan to colleagues and print for a program tommorow.
Tapi masih dok masih menulis blog 😂😂😂.

Semalam pulun updating material for customer evaluation.
Then, listed things to do for the new one.
3.20-4.30 pm, I discusssed the list with him, reminded him of many things and showed him how to use the admin system....
Alhamdulillah...I managed to hand over almost 95% of the task to him...lega.
Habih tu second boss suruh beri briefing to the new one whevener I am available. Tapi apa yg terjadi I pula yg tanya bila nak jumpa, suppose yg baru dtg mengadap yg lama. Ni i yg terhegeh2 tanya n he even expect me to come to his one busy sangat kot 😉😉😉.
I pun dah malu dok send things related to work in whatsapp group...dah ada new one awat ko nyibuk lagi kan....but orang mana tau what exactly happened.

Once back to office, I got the response from the officer regarding my enquiry email last saturday. Since he and the boss just kept quiet.. so on thursday morning I sent WA message to him asking whether they plan to refuse doing anything about it or giving response....I was grateful that finally he replied my message. Even though he replied stating that he is preparing the official respond, it seems that they just wanna give respond without any further action....Anyway I am still hoping for the best and hope that I got my right....Amin.

I came across a quote yesterday... it is something like...
"Tak perlulah tertekan mencari jalan penyelesaian...solatlah, mengadu kepada Allah"....

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Fikir mati

Siapa yang fikir begitu??
Bukan saya....
Memang sekarang jiwa kacau
Memanglah perlu fikir pasal mati

Tapi bukan disebut....
di kala rakan kongsi kegembiraannya
di kala rakan mendoakan kita mendapat yg sama

Tak cukup dengan itu
Perlukah menakutkan rakan yg pastinya gementar dalam gembira
"..harap tiada apa"
"Si polan tu dah dapat apa yg dihajati, tapi bermasalah juga"
di kala mengucap tahniah

Kalau betul fikir mati tak mungkin mengeluarkan kata begitu dan berperangai begitu....
Tak sukakah?
Jika tidak boleh menggembirakan rakan
Janganlah disakiti hatinya
Saya yang hanya mendengar turut sakit hati...


Good morning...
Let us have brekky

Sesiapa yg baca this blog mestilah realise I dok membebel berkeluh kesah pasal kerja. Maafla menyesakkan pemikiran uols je...Eh!tapi ada ke orang baca this boring blog 😅? Ada rupanya ...terima kasih ya kepada yg baca dan komen.

Actually I love my job. Biasalah membebel bila kerja banyak dan mengejar due date. Bila siap memang happy dan bila hasilnya baik memang berasa puas hati.

Tapi bila pegang post lagilah bertambah kerja selain pening dealing with people with different kind of attitude and behaviour.

Once it ended definitely I happy. Unfortunately it did not end as what it supposed to be and as what we have discussed. Definitely I feel unhappy, upset, unappreciated and all these totally unfair to me after what I have done. The most important thing it may affect the management procedure or may against audit compliance....To make it worse this top people just ignored my email and message regarding this issue since last friday. I called HR department see they still have not received any latest memo from my unit. What does that mean? They plan to totally ignore me?

If they do not want to consider what I have done, then PLEASE SAY SO...So I will try to accept it and move on. DO NOT ignore me. DO NOT give me silent treatment. Not only I feel dissapointed, I feel humiliated too. NOW what is THE MOST IMPORTANT is PLEASE RESPOND. That is why I am still thinking about it. I cant let it go.

Last nite, I sent message to the new one to do my  own investigation. But, he was on the way from outstation. Once he responded he told me that the management was talking behind my back and planned to ignore me. Seriously??? They really have no heart....Luckily it was only a dream 😅😅😅.
You see termimpi-mimpi 😂😂😂. Hoping that the dream will not becomes the reality..I am still hoping and praying for the best.... is what I gonna do. I will wait till next week. If still there is not update I will talk with the employee association and ask for his opinion...I will fight for my right if there still any opportunity and space to do it....Then, I will stop, accept it and be in hibernation mode.

Monday, August 7, 2017

Left group

On saturday
When the new one is having a rest
When the representative spending her time with her family
I have to check a document
Made my comments
Gave suggestions for further actions
Attached relevant documents for reference
Even searched material from the internet for them

On sunday
I spent the entire afternoon to clear my office
Prepared 2 plan package for customer at night
Both in BM and English version
And guess what was the comment from the second boss?
He wanted me to name people to update the first document.
Why me?

I done so many things for the sake of my unit
But what the new one and representative did?
Take advantage on me?
I have to be firmed
So I listed what I have done
and listed things to do for them
Hope them understand
I may sound unsincere and look very calculative...
But at least I have done my part
And I know that I did not get credit and paid for the things that I did not do....
If people did not treat me badly I am sure that I won't be talk and act ike this....

Today I had my final says with the whatsapp group
To thank and apologise for everything
And hey look who would reply?
The third boss the first who did so
Followed by the second boss
Ok leave it for a while
 I had meeting with customers at 11am
When I checked my messages
The boss did not say anything to me
The same goes to the officer
Not like what he did to the other colleague who are in the same position as me
He added the new one in the group
So why should I stay anymore
People do not need me anymore

Once back in my office
I could not hold my tears
I could not believe that people treated me up to that extend
Denying my right...
Did not reply my email about my right
Did not reply my private message
Not even gave response to my group message
The more I think about it
The more I sobbed
Till  i feel sick
Am I that bad???
Do not deserve anything ?
At least the pm from the boss to thank me for the so call excellent service calmed me a lil bit
But still no response for my right....

But I have to move on...
Tried to ignore it...
No matter how bad people treated me
I still have to do my duty to the best of my ability
Because that is me
Attended a meeting as representative at 2.30pm
Shared the infos with colleagues
Updated and released the third quarter year plan
Hoping for their understanding for the latest changes which are out of my control...
And definitely I left the office as the clock ticking to 7pm.....

Saturday, August 5, 2017

Macam terhegeh-hegeh ...

Due to something happened on 3/08/2017, I feel really upset but at the same time I feel happy because finally it is over. I feel upset because I just knew it from my friend's screen shot and it is not as what we have discussed. After all I have done, finally they treated me like that????

 I can't focus while driving to the hotel by using waze as a guide. Alhamdulillah I safely arrived. At the reception no matter how shocked I am with the hotel rate and beyond my budget...I just checked in because I am too tired to find another hotel and really need a rest to calm me down.

 I can't believe that the relevant officer just ignore my messages...I was really stressed. I called my boss secretary but she didnt pick my call either her office number or private number. So, I called the HR department. Guess what ??? they never got an updated version of the memo. Hmm miscomunication at our unit????

 Then on friday I rushed driving back in the heavy rain to the office to ensure I arrive while it is still office hour. Once I arrived, there was no letter about my status either in pigeon hole or at the clerk.

I went to see the officer and asked what has happened. He said that the new appointment is depend on the admin office. But I said that I have called the HR department and heard their side of stories. They didnt receive the latest memo. If they receive any new memo or by phone message they will definitely discuss with their senior officer.

 I just uttered everything that I wanna say. I feel ashamed with I gonna hide my face because for certain period of time I just asked them to do many things even though I am nobody due that email. That email was not proper as well. There even friend texted me to know what exactly happened.

 I just could not hold my tears. I know it is not profesional but I have been keeping it for two days....

He seems shocked and guilty. He even asked what can he do the clear the damage? He offered to send email to everyone and explain something. But that was not exactly happened that I have to remind him everything. I am the one who played the role, who took the iniatitive by contacting the HR previously and suggested somebody else to take over my task.

 But unfortunately what has happened really humiliatwd me and I feel ..persecuted. I really sincere to help them and do not expect any payment but at least give me some consideration on what I have done for the past 3 weeks...went home late, didnt go out at all during weekend to make plan etc...Is it fair for me? And not only that someone got all the credit and payment even though he didnt do anything.

 He suggested to write an internal memo regarding my status. I just be firmed and rejected his suggestion. I asked for the memo from the administrative office. When he asked about the date and period...then only I knew that he didnt do anything about me even though we have discussed via whatsapp or phone. Tak faham ropenyer or sengaja tak nak buat.

 And today I sent an email to him and my boss regarding this issue and hoping for their consideration for many reason especially when it come to management procedure. This time around I ensure there is black and white and make sure they do understand my intention with clear explanation.

But the drawback now it seems that I am bad, demanding and be calculative. Once I sent the email to them, I sent whatsapp message to the boss as well to remind him about the emel. Guess what! He didnt reply my message 😭😭😭....Definitely I feel ashamed, humiliated, dissapointed and sad....macam terhegeh-hegeh dan hadap sangat dgn the position. Well..if they just ignoring me and denying my right please remember the hereafter.

I will try to practise what DI be grateful in advanced.
I feel grateful for the boss and the officer read my email, understood my situation and make neccessary actions
 I feel grateful for getting the memo regarding my status as what it supposed to be from the administrative office this week.
I feel grateful that I can clear my name.

 I have done everything that I could to fight for my right and to avoid any issue in the future. At least I have no regret for trying. If thing still happened not as what I expected than I have to be strong, accept it, let it go and move on.

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Terkilan dalam Gembira

Begitulah my feeling since this afternoon.
Kejap pasrah, kejap sedih
Kejap lega, kejap tak puas hati
Bila hak saya dinafikan....
Lembu punya susu sapi dapat nama dan ganjaran
Maka jika benar ia berlaku...
Menjawablah dikemudian hari

For therapy kita shopping

Dan enjoy the sexy bathroom

and cooling and calming down soaking in the bath tub....

Percaya dan tast tu biar berpada-pada

Siapa ikut kdrama Queen of seven days?
Mesti dah naik menyampah with Lady Shin.

Masa dia kecik tiba2 dia tak mengaku, akibatnya si prince kena singkir kot.
Bila prince kembali, dia pi beritahu king yg memang nak prince mati.
Dah tau king tu kejam, tetap percaya dengan si King. Tapi degil tak ikut kata prince.
Terbaru...bila ada pemberontakan untuk guling kuasa king yg kejam, si prince suruh dia pi selamatkan parentsnya. Tapi dia pi ikut king bersiar waktu malam..
Parentsnya pun tak bertempat taat, dah orang tak benarkan keluar rumah, tetap nsk keluar jumpa king. Kan dah kena bunuh.
Akhirnya Prince jadi King, the old King kena desposed.
Lady Shin jadilah Queen.
Tapi dalam latest spoiler dia nak bunuh her husband the new king coz the death of her parents.
Tak cukup dengan itu dia pi lepaskan the old King.
Hmm...taat ke bebal 😅😅😅.

Yang aku sibuk bebel dah kenapa?
Tidurlah awal.
Esok nak out station 😁😁😁.
Tadi dah pulun clearkan yg serabut at master bedroom and guest room.
Then packing for tomorow.
Cuma belum susun stuff in working bag.
Alamak! I have yet to book the hotel.
Minyak tak sempat isi tadi.
Master card Bank Islam belum set pin
Visa card belum activate.
Kereta pun tak bersihkan and check.
Semoga semua urusan dipermudahkan dan dilancarkan perjalanan.

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Penghujung yang serabut

Bila hampir ke penghujung ni, macam2 pula yg perlu dibuat dan banyak yg tak siap lagi sama ada tak larat atau kerja baru datang tiba-tiba. Bilalah surat yg ditunggu nak tiba???

Pagi tadi terlibat with award nomination. Penat je haritu pening kepala buat penapisan dan pemilihan peringkat unit. Rupa-rupanya sistem boleh kira 😅. Anyway, I am quite happy since most of the top candidates come from our unit. Harap adalah peluang for the next stage.

Then baiki pakej for customer both in BM and English. Thing happened for a reason. Eloklah I tak buat lagi last week. Alih2 semalam ada new changes 😰. Fenin nak buat...byk mengelirukan. Second boss tiada, so minta tolong his assistsnt to make enquiry. Tengah serabut tu, my friend called. So off I went to pick up her, had lunch together, sent her home and meet her family even though I got piles of work .....

Balik sambung keroje tadi. Siap sepsruh...Panggil the new staff to check the package in case something missing or calculated wrongly. Macam biasa...she sometimes seems lost 😅😅😅.

Minta tolong juga the coordinator to make the year end plan so that I can check it tonite. Pulak tu we got new email from the officer...tambah keroje lagi. Cepat2 check calendar...hah kenalah buat mesyuarat segera and cari pihak luar 😭😭😭

Tu tak masuk nak booking space, booking hotel and plan for outstation ..

Balik...kita makan dulu...

So sat gi pulun ya
Kalau tak tidurlah